TITLE: You Never Know Where You're Going To End Up
SUMMARY: Like I said in the last chapter synopsis in this chapter I started to give a little about Cjs life and also her true feelings for Sean. But now that she's beginning to come to terms with her new found love is Sean having second thoughts??? (Not saying anymore don't want to spoil it for you)
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You Never Know Where You're Going To End Up: Chapter 3
I've been awake for nearly ten minutes. I'm too scared to move in case I wake Sean up. You're probably wondering what happened last night...nothing...he didn't try it on with me or anything he just held me in his arms and we fell to sleep. I'm dreading him waking up actually because he might want to sleep with me and I don't want to and I really need to get home. Oh my God he's stirring. He's rolled on to his back. I can leave now I just have to be quiet. I turned round and looked at Sean he looked so beautiful. His long brown hair swept across his eye, his pouting, luscious lips enticing me towards them and his broad masculine chest tempting me to kiss. I wanted this man more than I knew but I had to control myself. I can't fall for him and I most definitely can't sleep with him. I have to leave. I stood up and got my clothes and got dressed quickly and left the house. I was walking down the street constantly looking over my shoulder to check that he hadn't followed me and I saw a cab driving towards me so I hailed it down and got in and headed home.
I walked into my apartment and once again Janet had passed out on the couch I woke her up.
"Oh man" she said as she looked at her watch
"Holy shit, have you only just got in?"
"Yeah" I said while making breakfast
"Where have you been?"
"You don't want to know"
"Now you said that I wanna know even more"
"Seans"
"Seans? Sean...Sean...Sean??? Sean oh my God Sean from Illusions the one you're hot for?"
"Yes Sean from Illusions but I'm not hot for him"
"Sure your not that's why you ended up in bed with him"
"We didn't do anything"
"Yeah and I believe you"
"Good because it's the truth"
She looked at me
"Shit you're being sincere you really didn't do it?"
"No he took me to dinner and then back to his place we kissed and undressed then he rolled me over and we fell to sleep in each others arms"
"No way"
"I know hard to believe isn't it?"
"Totally, so whatcha gonna do?"
"About what?"
"This guy obviously likes you and he's gonna keep coming back until he gets you"
"Should I be worried?"
"Depends what he's like"
"He's sweet, kind, sincere; he listens to me and..."
"Oh my God and this is the girl who doesn't like him"
"I don't like him in the way you're thinking"
"No course not"
"I don't"
Janet stood up and started to walk away
"Just find him and get it over and done with otherwise it will drive you both crazy"
"Janet there's not-..."
She stopped and turned to me
"Just admit your feelings stop trying to be this professional who doesn't have feelings because it's only her job"
"It is only a job"
"Yeah you're right but he isn't a client. He is a genuine guy not someone who stopped to pick you up on the sidewalk. Now I'm going for a shower"
I finished making breakfast and while I was doing so I couldn't help but think about everything. Janet was right I did like Sean even if I didn't admit it to her, but I have a job that keeps me fed and sheltered without it I'm nothing I'd just be a bum living on the streets. I couldn't be with Sean because he would expect me to give up my job. I have a life and I don't think that Sean would want to be part of it. I love my friends and I can't really see Sean blending in with them and I'm not going to give up my friends just to follow my heart. I've done that before and look where I ended up.
I opened my eyes and looked over to see the time. Its 2:37pm I better get up...I was walking out my bedroom tying up my hair when the door opened and Janet walked in.
"Hello" I said Janet walked over to me
"You want me to stay in tonight?"
"No I'm fine"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
"No Sean cravings?"
"No"
"Sean dreams?"
"No"
I walked into the kitchen with Janet behind me
"Really?"
"Really"
"So you're over him?"
"I was never under him" as soon as the words left my mouth I'd realised what I'd said
"But you wish you were right?"
"NO"
"Did you have to take a course for that?"
"What?"
"For lying without a look of remorse on your face...I mean I'm your best friend and you're lying to me do you feeling nothing inside?"
"You want to know what I feel inside?"
"Yeah"
"Heartache like my heart is shattering inside my chest"
"Why?"
"Because it hasn't mended since that jackass dumped me here. And I'm not willing to let another guy do the same thing to me"
"How do you know he will?"
"I don't"
"Then give him a chance"
"But what if he does?"
"You'll never know until you let him in"
"I don't want to get hurt again"
"Like they say you gotta take a chance on love"
"I know but I just want love to give me a break and actually send something good my way"
"What do you wanna do phone cupid up and ask for a favour?...I have him on speed dial"
I smiled
"You're crazy"
"So are you"
"Let me see what my first feeling is when I see him next then I might consider it"
"Ok. I'm going to get ready to go out"
9:23pm and I'm bored to death. There's nothing to do and I'm sick of thinking about Sean. Damn Janet she's made me think over everything that I'd already put to rest and now I'm back to square one. I have all these wonderful feelings inside and then all these horrible thoughts in my head telling me not to let Sean in. Have you ever seen those cartoons where they have the little devil versions of themselves on one shoulder and the angelic version on the other and they're arguing with each other over what you're better off doing. Well it's kind of like that but my heart and my head are arguing and they're not letting each other finish. I turned to look at the door as some one was knocking on it. I got up and walked to the door and I slowly opened it and Sean was stood there soaking wet.
"Sean"
"Can I come in?"
"Yeah sure"
He walked in and my heart thumped. This man looked even more gorgeous when he was wet. Did that thump of my heart mean that I should let him in and let him love me? They should really have a handbook for love help people along it would be so much easier.
"You're soaked let me get you a towel"
I went to the bathroom and grabbed the towel and walked back into the room and handed it to Sean.
"Thank you"
He pointed to the corner and said
"Why do you have a toy box?"
Before I had the chance to answer Sean asked
"Do you have a kid?"
And before I could answer that Shanthea my daughter stood at the door calling me
"Mummy"
I looked at her and then back at Sean. I turned back to Shanthea
"Come here sweetheart"
Shanthea walked towards me and I picked her up in my arms
"Sean this is Thea my daughter. Say hello Thea"
"Hello" she said in her sweet innocent voice
"Hello" Sean replied
"You didn't tell me you had a kid"
"I didn't see how it was any of your business"
"How old are you Thea?"
"3"
"3? You're a big girl then?"
Thea nodded sweetly at Sean
"Baby what did you want?"
"I had a accident"
"Oh"
I put her down and looked at Sean then back at Thea
"Show Mummy where"
She took my hand and guided me into her room.
"Sorry Mummy" she said as I saw what had happened
"Did you do this?"
She nodded
"By accident?"
She nodded again
"Ok jump in bed so you don't get any bits in you feet"
She climbed back in bed and I cleaned up the broken lamp. I tucked Thea in and kissed her goodnight and walked back into the front room to talk to Sean when I'd got there he'd gone.
"Sean" I shouted just to double check.
I walked over to the window and saw Sean's car I saw the headlights come on and the car pulled away.
Janet opened the door.
"What happened? Where's Sean gone?"
"Home I guess"
"Why?" she said as she sat down besides me
"Because of Thea"
"What did Thea do?"
"Nothing he didn't know about her. I was right he wasn't the one he'd have broken my heart"
"You don't know that"
"He's scared of my daughter"
"He was shocked by your daughter he just needs time"
"Well I'm not waiting for him"
I got up and walked towards my bedroom
"Next time Janet don't help ok. I'll see you in the morning"
"Cj"
I turned around
"He'll be back and it will be all right"
I walked into my room and shut the door. I got undressed and got in bed and I laid there thinking. Maybe Janet was right some guys can't handle it when the girl has a kid and maybe he does just need time. But what if I scared him and he doesn't come back? Maybe Thea didn't bother him; maybe it was me because I hadn't been honest. Maybe I disappointed him or disgusted him. What if it was me?...
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SUMMARY: Like I said in the last chapter synopsis in this chapter I started to give a little about Cjs life and also her true feelings for Sean. But now that she's beginning to come to terms with her new found love is Sean having second thoughts??? (Not saying anymore don't want to spoil it for you)
FEEDBACK: Please feedback even if it's bad
You Never Know Where You're Going To End Up: Chapter 3
I've been awake for nearly ten minutes. I'm too scared to move in case I wake Sean up. You're probably wondering what happened last night...nothing...he didn't try it on with me or anything he just held me in his arms and we fell to sleep. I'm dreading him waking up actually because he might want to sleep with me and I don't want to and I really need to get home. Oh my God he's stirring. He's rolled on to his back. I can leave now I just have to be quiet. I turned round and looked at Sean he looked so beautiful. His long brown hair swept across his eye, his pouting, luscious lips enticing me towards them and his broad masculine chest tempting me to kiss. I wanted this man more than I knew but I had to control myself. I can't fall for him and I most definitely can't sleep with him. I have to leave. I stood up and got my clothes and got dressed quickly and left the house. I was walking down the street constantly looking over my shoulder to check that he hadn't followed me and I saw a cab driving towards me so I hailed it down and got in and headed home.
I walked into my apartment and once again Janet had passed out on the couch I woke her up.
"Oh man" she said as she looked at her watch
"Holy shit, have you only just got in?"
"Yeah" I said while making breakfast
"Where have you been?"
"You don't want to know"
"Now you said that I wanna know even more"
"Seans"
"Seans? Sean...Sean...Sean??? Sean oh my God Sean from Illusions the one you're hot for?"
"Yes Sean from Illusions but I'm not hot for him"
"Sure your not that's why you ended up in bed with him"
"We didn't do anything"
"Yeah and I believe you"
"Good because it's the truth"
She looked at me
"Shit you're being sincere you really didn't do it?"
"No he took me to dinner and then back to his place we kissed and undressed then he rolled me over and we fell to sleep in each others arms"
"No way"
"I know hard to believe isn't it?"
"Totally, so whatcha gonna do?"
"About what?"
"This guy obviously likes you and he's gonna keep coming back until he gets you"
"Should I be worried?"
"Depends what he's like"
"He's sweet, kind, sincere; he listens to me and..."
"Oh my God and this is the girl who doesn't like him"
"I don't like him in the way you're thinking"
"No course not"
"I don't"
Janet stood up and started to walk away
"Just find him and get it over and done with otherwise it will drive you both crazy"
"Janet there's not-..."
She stopped and turned to me
"Just admit your feelings stop trying to be this professional who doesn't have feelings because it's only her job"
"It is only a job"
"Yeah you're right but he isn't a client. He is a genuine guy not someone who stopped to pick you up on the sidewalk. Now I'm going for a shower"
I finished making breakfast and while I was doing so I couldn't help but think about everything. Janet was right I did like Sean even if I didn't admit it to her, but I have a job that keeps me fed and sheltered without it I'm nothing I'd just be a bum living on the streets. I couldn't be with Sean because he would expect me to give up my job. I have a life and I don't think that Sean would want to be part of it. I love my friends and I can't really see Sean blending in with them and I'm not going to give up my friends just to follow my heart. I've done that before and look where I ended up.
I opened my eyes and looked over to see the time. Its 2:37pm I better get up...I was walking out my bedroom tying up my hair when the door opened and Janet walked in.
"Hello" I said Janet walked over to me
"You want me to stay in tonight?"
"No I'm fine"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
"No Sean cravings?"
"No"
"Sean dreams?"
"No"
I walked into the kitchen with Janet behind me
"Really?"
"Really"
"So you're over him?"
"I was never under him" as soon as the words left my mouth I'd realised what I'd said
"But you wish you were right?"
"NO"
"Did you have to take a course for that?"
"What?"
"For lying without a look of remorse on your face...I mean I'm your best friend and you're lying to me do you feeling nothing inside?"
"You want to know what I feel inside?"
"Yeah"
"Heartache like my heart is shattering inside my chest"
"Why?"
"Because it hasn't mended since that jackass dumped me here. And I'm not willing to let another guy do the same thing to me"
"How do you know he will?"
"I don't"
"Then give him a chance"
"But what if he does?"
"You'll never know until you let him in"
"I don't want to get hurt again"
"Like they say you gotta take a chance on love"
"I know but I just want love to give me a break and actually send something good my way"
"What do you wanna do phone cupid up and ask for a favour?...I have him on speed dial"
I smiled
"You're crazy"
"So are you"
"Let me see what my first feeling is when I see him next then I might consider it"
"Ok. I'm going to get ready to go out"
9:23pm and I'm bored to death. There's nothing to do and I'm sick of thinking about Sean. Damn Janet she's made me think over everything that I'd already put to rest and now I'm back to square one. I have all these wonderful feelings inside and then all these horrible thoughts in my head telling me not to let Sean in. Have you ever seen those cartoons where they have the little devil versions of themselves on one shoulder and the angelic version on the other and they're arguing with each other over what you're better off doing. Well it's kind of like that but my heart and my head are arguing and they're not letting each other finish. I turned to look at the door as some one was knocking on it. I got up and walked to the door and I slowly opened it and Sean was stood there soaking wet.
"Sean"
"Can I come in?"
"Yeah sure"
He walked in and my heart thumped. This man looked even more gorgeous when he was wet. Did that thump of my heart mean that I should let him in and let him love me? They should really have a handbook for love help people along it would be so much easier.
"You're soaked let me get you a towel"
I went to the bathroom and grabbed the towel and walked back into the room and handed it to Sean.
"Thank you"
He pointed to the corner and said
"Why do you have a toy box?"
Before I had the chance to answer Sean asked
"Do you have a kid?"
And before I could answer that Shanthea my daughter stood at the door calling me
"Mummy"
I looked at her and then back at Sean. I turned back to Shanthea
"Come here sweetheart"
Shanthea walked towards me and I picked her up in my arms
"Sean this is Thea my daughter. Say hello Thea"
"Hello" she said in her sweet innocent voice
"Hello" Sean replied
"You didn't tell me you had a kid"
"I didn't see how it was any of your business"
"How old are you Thea?"
"3"
"3? You're a big girl then?"
Thea nodded sweetly at Sean
"Baby what did you want?"
"I had a accident"
"Oh"
I put her down and looked at Sean then back at Thea
"Show Mummy where"
She took my hand and guided me into her room.
"Sorry Mummy" she said as I saw what had happened
"Did you do this?"
She nodded
"By accident?"
She nodded again
"Ok jump in bed so you don't get any bits in you feet"
She climbed back in bed and I cleaned up the broken lamp. I tucked Thea in and kissed her goodnight and walked back into the front room to talk to Sean when I'd got there he'd gone.
"Sean" I shouted just to double check.
I walked over to the window and saw Sean's car I saw the headlights come on and the car pulled away.
Janet opened the door.
"What happened? Where's Sean gone?"
"Home I guess"
"Why?" she said as she sat down besides me
"Because of Thea"
"What did Thea do?"
"Nothing he didn't know about her. I was right he wasn't the one he'd have broken my heart"
"You don't know that"
"He's scared of my daughter"
"He was shocked by your daughter he just needs time"
"Well I'm not waiting for him"
I got up and walked towards my bedroom
"Next time Janet don't help ok. I'll see you in the morning"
"Cj"
I turned around
"He'll be back and it will be all right"
I walked into my room and shut the door. I got undressed and got in bed and I laid there thinking. Maybe Janet was right some guys can't handle it when the girl has a kid and maybe he does just need time. But what if I scared him and he doesn't come back? Maybe Thea didn't bother him; maybe it was me because I hadn't been honest. Maybe I disappointed him or disgusted him. What if it was me?...
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