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Jealousy; Inside the Heart of an Elf
About Legolas' feelings that were revealed a little too late.
Chapter 1
'Legolas! You're back!' shrieked this elven maiden who started to run joyously towards me. 'I've missed you so much!' she said as she hugged me and kissed me in my cheeks.
She is ÊllaurË, the golden star and my best friend. I had been to the war of the ring that time and I missed the times that we would just fool around and get ourselves caught by father.
She is the daughter of the first Captain of my father by the way, Captain Êlnim, the white star. His father was the most loyal captain that Mirkwood ever had. My father had done most of his job with Captain Êlnim by his side. He never left my father.
When my father had war with the Easterlings before, he gave his life to save my father's. His wife died of sadness of being alone forever. So she gave my father, her daughter. I was probably a hundred years old then. I can remember every single moment that the baby cried and laughed. She grew up with me and we did everything together. We joke around the palace together, we eat and dance at feasts together, and we even practice archery together.
Our life depends on each other for I have treated her like a sister to me, to be taken care of and be proud when she had already stood up and spread her wings.
'I've missed you so much!' she said again as she hugged me tighter. I hugged her too, of course. 'Me too! It's been quite a while since I heard your screaming voice.' I said as I laughed. 'I do not always scream!' she said as she lunged to me and as I fell on the ground, I started laughing. But not only laughing because she was tickling me, but I was too, laughing about what I felt now that I didn't realize before. I felt that that laughter of mine was not of mere friendship love but more.
I've hidden myself from the truth before. It was only when I went to war that I realized that I might loose the one I had even if she is within my grasp. I might loose her if I don't do anything about it, but can she feel my feelings for her? Does she too love me? The same way I love her now? Maybe if I told her this, I might make a fool out of myself. Or maybe all this time, I was so numb to feel her love for me, and now it faded away. As quick as my arrows can fly just because of my sheer numbness. Or maybe not. I can not contain myself anymore that time. I love her, but I was too afraid to admit it. But why?
As we fell on the ground, I too was tickling her. Her giggles sent out music waves to my brains that instantly made my mind up that I really do love her. I love the way she smiles, the way she giggles, everything about her, it's just that I sense something coming straight at me that would stop me from loving her. She sensed the confusion of my mind as I looked at her face, lying on the ground. 'Is there something wrong, Legolas?' she asked me as we started to stand up. 'Nothing, it's just that I remembered something.' I said as I looked down at the forest floor, the wonderful grass and the wildflowers crawling in every direction.
'Then if it troubles you, I bid you, tell it to me so that your heart would not be as heavy as boulder of rock!' She said as she reached for my hands. 'No, Ellaure, it will just add too much weight to yours. I will go for now, as I rig my thoughts.' I said as I left her beside the mallorn tree and went straight to the forest. 'Be careful' was the only thing I heard as I walked away from her.
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