A Necessary Evil
I don't want to lie to you, but I must.
I hate it. Deep down inside I hate it.
The dragon inside me, encourages me to hide behind this lie.
I hate it. Deep down inside I hate it.
Bahamut knows I hate it, and leaves it up to me.
You, Zell, Irvine, Quistis, Seifer, and Selphie
I try to be as honest as I can, I really try
This little white lie…
Rinoa, in spirit, encourages me to hide behind this lie.
I hate it. Deep down inside I hate it.
She hates it too, but is just as concerned with me
She truly cares about me like the rest of you.
Seeing me as one of the group…
I don't deserve any of this!
I didn't deserve to be dragged out of bed!
I didn't deserve to have that boulder fall on my head!
I don't deserve to be far from home!
I don't deserve to be far from the life I've known!
I don't deserve to be harassed by that…bitch!
That sorceress near the end of the first disc.
I have to hide behind this lie, to protect me
To protect you
To protect the others too
If I told you, you wouldn't like it…
If I told Seifer from the start, I'd be killed under his gunblade.
If I told you when first seeing you, along with Seifer and Irvine, I'd be dead.
By Seifer…again…
If I told you right after Rinoa died, you'd probably want me dead too.
If I told you before I collapsed last night, you'd demand of me the next morning
If I told you right now, then you'd know Ifrit was right.
You'd only feel betrayed and demand to know the truth.
The more I hide behind this lie, the uglier it will get.
I'm filled with so much regret.
I wish so much that I didn't have to improvise to Seifer that night
I don't wish to lie to you
To hide in this made up lie
But at the same time
I don't want to be in this alone.
I'm sorry…
I am really, truly, sorry…