The following vignette is based on pages 166-168 of Dark Journey by Elaine Cunningham. Again some of the dialogue is not my own, but I have stretched the scene out before and after to fill in some of the missing gaps. This is by far one of my favorite scenes ever. I hope you enjoy!
LADY IN RED
After paying the driver more than requisite for his driving skills, Jag jumped
out of the hired speeder and trotted up the steps of the Hapan Palace. He was late, and the traditional announcers usually
expected at such formal affairs had already departed. Only a pair of guards
framed the arched entranceway, one on either side. Jag flashed his invitation
and stepped into the bright lights and boisterous sounds of the formal affair.
Jag strode along the enormous hallway and pulled up outside the Grand Dining
Hall. He paused. Living among the Chiss had allowed limited opportunity to
actually attend these kinds of functions, but his mother had insisted all the
Fel children know how to conduct themselves properly. Dancing and etiquette
lessons were a mandatory part of the winter break. Still, the sights were
foreign and imposing. Servants moved about the room offering refreshments to
dignitaries of all types and species regaled in every imaginable dress,
bedecked in millions of credits worth of jewelry.
Glancing down at his black dress uniform, Jag performed one last, quick
inspection. He grabbed the bottom of the jacket and tugged, then smoothed the
spot where his medals usually rested. The missing decorations were the reason
he was so late. Jag fought with himself for an hour over whether or not to wear
the blasted things. On one hand, they illustrated the achievements of his
short, but stellar, career. Colonel at his age was no small feat, especially
among the Chiss. On the other hand, they could easily be construed as symbols
of arrogance.
Jag had taken the medals off and put them back on three times before deciding
against them. He wanted a chance to impress Jaina, not ram his accomplishments
down her throat. For once, Jag wanted to be seen simply as a man and not a
fighter pilot or a Chiss. So, the medals had stayed on the dresser, a symbol of
his sincerity.
After a chance to grow accustomed to the surroundings, Jag eased into the room.
He let his eyes scan among the guests, looking for the person who had haunted
his every waking hour and made him believe he was losing his touch. His head
turned slowly surveying for his intended target. He got a hard lock within
seconds.
Standing in the middle of a group of Hapans, one of
them the pudgy official Jag had scammed the invitation from, Jaina stood out
like a supernova among a universe of stars. She appeared entirely more
comfortable than he felt, talking and mingling with the men as if this were an
everyday occurrence. For all he knew, it might be, seeing that she was the
daughter of Princess Leia Organa Solo.
At first, the gathering of admirers obscured all except her face -- there was
no better word for the cluster of men -- but then, Jaina eased her way out of
the circle and waved them off. Jag's breath caught in his throat at her beauty.
Her hair was simple, a gathering of curled, caf-colored
locks pinned atop her head. Her makeup was just as uncomplicated, light
coloring around her eyes and some gloss on her lips. The dress, although not
extravagant, completed a heavenly picture.
Jaina was tiny, standing just over five feet, with a figure hinting at the
curves of womanhood, and the dress showed every single one of them. The
material was a scarlet-hued shimmersilk, the perfect compliment for her
complexion. The cut was strapless, with a tight bodice that laced up the front,
drawing the eye in a line from her slim waist to the firm swell of her breasts.
The skirt flared out over her hips then fell away to the ground, gathering in a
bustle at the back and trailing away to a short train.
Jaina skirted the group of men she had abandoned and headed away from Jag. He
stood motionless, watching her. His feet frozen in place; his heart somewhere
up in his throat. As Jaina greeted her fellow Jedi, the Hapan
Princess, Jag felt his temperature rise. Suddenly, his collar seemed too tight,
and he broke into a cold sweat. He yielded to his body's betrayal, cutting a
path to a pair of doors leading onto the veranda.
Once outside, the cool night air did little to quell the heat rising from deep
within, like a furnace stoked with too much fuel. Never before had any female
inspired such intense emotions and desires. Jag had been attracted to several
women, he even found himself once or twice thinking of a couple Chiss females
as prospective partners, but never had his thoughts been totally dominated by
one person. Jag felt like he was losing his mind.
Jag leaned over the railing, supporting his weight on both palms. He forced
deep breaths in through his nose and pushed them out forcefully with his
diaphragm, trying to expel the tension that wound up his spine. After a few
harrowing minutes, a feeling of control returned, and Jag urged himself to
focus.
Okay, just think of it as a mission. Let's establish a checklist and order
of priorities. First, casually run into your objective without looking like the
fair-haired fool you are. Second, indulge in some casual conversation about
anything other than pilots and war. Third…
"How's the view?"
Jolted from his thoughts, Jag spun around, whipping his right hand as he went.
His hand met with a potted plant, resting on the balcony railing. The pot
teetered as Jag tried to catch it, but it slipped past his fingertips. Jag made
another desperate lunge before the pot landed with a resounding thud. It
dig not break as he feared, but toppled over, spilling the soil and blooming
plant out on the veranda.
"Kriff!" He muttered a
seldom-used curse his father loved to hurl out when his mother was far from
earshot and leaned over to set the pot back on its base.
A rustling of material brought Jag back to his senses. He bolted straight up
where his feet were planted, ending face to face with Jaina. She was smiling up
at him, a sparkle in her brown eyes. She unconsciously fussed with the laces on
her gown, tugging them near her waist, as he stood dumbstruck for several
heartbeats. At that moment, Jag decided she was the worst type of beautiful,
happier in a flightsuit, totally oblivious to her own
femininity and alluring looks – a temptress wrapped in the trappings of an
angel.
She glanced down at the newly relocated pot. "Landscape designer, in addition
to fighter pilot extraordinaire and ambassador from the Chiss here to
rescue us hapless Rebels, is there anything you can't do, Colonel?"
Jag dropped his gaze immediately at the bite of her words, clearly she still
saw him as some kind of Imperial throwback. He bent down and fiddled with the
plant. It would not stand straight in the pot; too much of the dirt had taken
its leave onto the veranda's tiled floor. He frowned and considered his next
move. As he was about to scoop the dirt up with his hands, Jaina's voice
stopped him.
"Wait, don't get your hands dirty."
Jag looked up; Jaina had knelt down in front of him so they were eye to eye. It
was not her brown eyes that his focus was drawn to, however. In her present
position, Jag had a perfect line of sight down the top of her dress. He forced
his green eyes to look anywhere but at the perfect soft curves. He met her
gaze.
"It is all right. They are just a handful. I mean, it is just a handful." Jag
prayed the ground would open up and swallow him whole. Can't you control
yourself? You are like some poor man with no control over your raging hormones.
How can you? Look at how perfect those… Stop it, Jagged! She is a Jedi; they
can pluck your ravenous thoughts from your brain without a second thought.
"If you got your hands soiled, you would be late for dinner, and it would all
be on account of me startling you."
The corner of Jaina's mouth turned up in a funny sort of grin, and all thought
fled Jag's mind. With the slightest of touches, she grasped his hands away from
the dirt, where they were frozen, then rose, pulling him up with her. The feel
of her fingers sent shivers up his arm and down his spine. Jag practically
popped to attention under the strain of the sensation.
At first, he did not realize what she was doing or that she had even released
his hand, the feeling had practically been burned into his nerves. Coming to
his senses, Jag glanced down. The dirt was spinning in a little vortex, ending
back in the pot. He watched almost spellbound, like he was a kid at a magic
show. This Force ability was something he was going to have to get used to.
Jaina broke the silence. "See, all better, and no dirt under your nails."
Jag bent over and picked up the pot. He placed it back on the rail before
turning to face Jaina. "That was interesting. Can you teach me?"
Jaina beamed a big grin in amusement. "Some other time.
That was a little trick Anakin and I used to play on Jacen. We would move the
dirt into his room. He would get so mad." A sadness washed over her face as the
realization struck that memories where all she had left of either of her
brothers. Jaina skirted past Jag and took up the position on the railing he had
formerly held, her hands supporting her weight. She held her head high and
proud, but avoided his gaze as she peered into the distance.
Seeing her strength mixed with an incredible sense of sorrow renewed Jag's
composure. He gathered his wits and stuffed them back in the durasteel box he
kept them locked in. "I am sorry about your loss."
Jag wanted to say more, but he knew there was no more he could say. He
understood the pain better than most. No amount of words could ease the aching
in her heart. That did not stop him from wanting to pull her into his arms and
hold her close as she cried her eyes out. He wanted to be the one she leaned
on. At that moment, Jag realized there was more than just physical attraction.
What he felt ran deep, like the valleys forged by the glaciers of Csilla.
"Thanks." Jaina drew her shoulders back and turned so her back was to the
railing. She was not facing him directly, leaving Jag a good view of her
profile. The glistening in her eyes was apparent, but no tears fell. "I came
looking for you, because I wanted to thank you in person for escorting us back
to Hapes. We had all been through enough at that point. A friendly escort eased
a lot of fears." She looked him in the eye. "The Jedi are indebted to you."
"There is no need…"
"There is one more thing. I want to apologize for implying you were weak-minded
for one and for behaving rudely on the flight deck. I was not myself the other
day. I wouldn't want you to get the wrong impression."
Jag stifled a grin. Somewhere deep inside, Jaina Solo cared about what he
thought of her. "No harm done. I have had plenty worse thrown my way. As far as
what happened on the flight deck, I was worried. It was not my place to
interfere, but Master Durron was upsetting you."
"Well, Kyp has an ability to rub everyone the wrong way. I think he is
incapable of caring for anyone but himself. I will see myself married to
royalty before I ever call Kyp Durron a friend. Enough about Kyp, it will spoil
my appetite, and I am starved as it is. Maybe we should see whether dinner is
about to get started."
Jag smiled. Well, most would not call it a smile, but it was the barest hint to
some small bit of happiness brewing deep within him. He held out his arm, just
like his mother had made him practice over and over. "That sounds like a plan.
Shall we?"
Jaina accepted his proffered arm, slipping her hand into the crook of his elbow
with practiced ease. "You didn't wear all those medals like on Ithor."
Jag started walking; Jaina matched his pace. He forced himself to take slow
steps, to enjoy the moment. "No, I decided this was a state dinner, not a military
function. I am not trying to impress anyone. Actually, I am not here as a
Chiss. I got my invitation because of my father's title on Corellia."
They passed through the doors back into the Grand Dining Hall. Jag immediately
noticed eyes drift their way. They were definitely not looking at him, except
for cursory glances at the man escorting Jaina Solo, as if to determine his
worthiness. At that moment, Jag felt like the luckiest man alive. Amazingly,
Jaina's attention was not on the room; it was focused straight at him as she
continued to talk.
"Ah. That explains why they sat you at my table. They are trying to keep the Corellians in the back and out of the way. We have a
reputation to uphold you know – trouble and mayhem are certain to follow wherever
we go."
Jag's smile grew bigger as he peered down into her soft brown eyes. "Then my
father must not be a full-blooded Corellian, because I have never known him to
cause any trouble."
Jaina was guiding him through a maze of tables. She seemed to know where she
was going, so Jag walked willingly beside her. He would have walked off the
side of a cliff to stay by her side tonight. She laughed.
"I am not full-blooded Corellian, although my mother questions that from time
to time. I tend to stir up plenty of excitement on my own. Besides, from what
my dad says, your father had his day. He is the man who stole Wynissa Starflare right out from
under the Empire's nose."
Jag chuckled at the thought. "I never looked at it that way."
Jaina stopped, tugging Jag to a halt with a firm squeeze of her arm wrapped in
his. They were standing before a table where several dignitaries were already
seated. Jag glanced down at Jaina, questioning her intentions with his green
eyes. She reached over with her free hand and smoothed the empty spot on his
uniform where the medals usually rested.
"Wise decision, not wearing the medals. All the shine
hides the real you."
Before Jag could respond, one of the dignitaries from the table approached and
interrupted. The man was anxious to meet Jaina Solo. Jag suffered through
introductions with the entire table and then escorted Jaina to her seat. He was
painfully aware of the distance and the phantom feel of her arm on his as he
left her side. It was all he could do to not run back to Jaina and manage the
walk to his chair across the table from her.
Dinner went well. There were many curious guests that dominated the
conversation, most wanted to talk to Jaina. She handled them all masterfully,
but Jag could tell she was no longer enjoying herself. Some expressed mild
curiosity about the son of Baron Soontir Fel. Jag followed the flow of the
dinner chatter, remaining quiet unless someone directly included him in a
discussion. Small talk had never been one of his fortes.
As the dinner was winding down, the talk at the table slowed. Possibly the
effects of the wine and good food had soothed the guests into a peaceful mood.
Jag did not care what the reasons, he was just grateful for a moment to
himself. He glanced across the table; candlelight flickered between him and
Jaina, casting a soft glow.
Jag studied Jaina as she tugged the laces on her gown. At that moment, she
looked as innocent as a child fussing with her dress-up clothes. Briaun, his
sister, had the same habit. His mother was constantly reminding her to sit
still. Jag knew Jaina was far from innocent, though. He wondered what horrible
things she had seen on her Jedi mission. He had heard talk among the pilots
that the Jedi had suffered terrible losses at the hands of the Yuuzhan Vong.
She was a dichotomy - the vision of a lovely young woman, soft and supple,
housing a scrappy fighter and powerful warrior.
She glanced up as if she knew he was watching and offered a rueful smile. "I'd
be happier in a flightsuit."
"No doubt, but you look lovely all the same."
Jaina blushed, and Jag's heart about stopped pumping. He scolded himself. How
could he have made it through the whole evening and not complimented her? He
would have thrown praises her way in an endless wave to see that effect again.
The blush on her cheeks only served to accentuate the beauty of her face. As
quickly as the color had risen from the praise, she turned away to watch the
first dance.
Jag tried to keep his eyes on Tenel Ka and Prince Isolder
as they maneuvered across the floor in an elaborate dance, but his eyes kept
coming back to the curve of her neck where it met her shoulder. Her skin was
smooth and creamy. He wondered what it would be like to kiss her from the back
of her ear all the way down to the tip of her shoulder. Fearful she would hear
the thoughts screaming from the depths of his soul, he forced his gaze back to
the royal pair.
Jag did something impulsive then, in an attempt to lure Jaina to face him once
more. "I wonder what might happen to a man who stepped on her toes?"
The effect of his musing was decidedly good. Jaina shot a startled look at him.
"Their heads are mounted on the trophy room wall." She feigned a serious air
with her face.
Jag was so pleased with the result of his impetuousness, he grinned from ear to
ear. To his surprise Jaina glanced away. Jag wondered if he had been too bold
when she nodded toward the growing crowd on the dance floor. "They've created a
diversion. We could probably sneak out and look around for those trophies."
Jag felt panic swell in his chest. Quickly, he called upon his steely nerves,
honed in hundreds of battles, to take over. Think of this as just another
engagement. Fly by the seat of your pants; trust your instincts. They have not
failed you in a dogfight yet. How hard can this be? She is a girl; you are a
boy. Nature is on your side. His brief pep talk seemed to do the trick. Jag
rose from his chair and executed a formal bow.
"May I have the honor of shared evasive maneuvers?" Wow, that was smooth.
See, it is really not that hard. I am sure she does not bite. Not that I would
mind if she did.
Chuckling, she took his offered hand. They merged into the swirling crowd,
working their way toward the doors. One time, Jag had to pull her aside to
avoid a collision with a dancing couple. His hand fit perfectly around her
waist as their bodies brushed together. Jaina paused a moment, as if the
closeness was as enjoyable for her as it was for him. Reluctantly, he drew away
to dodge another incoming pair.
After several near misses, the couple emerged in the hall, hand in hand,
grinning like mischievous children. Jag could never have imagined the thrill of
doing something as spur of the moment as this. Laughing and holding hands with
a beautiful young woman were all so new, so different, but he was not ashamed
to say he was having fun.
Jag wondered what it was specifically about Jaina that brought such new
emotions boiling to the surface. One look at her smile and sparkling eyes
answered his question. Still holding his hand, she spun across the hall, her
dress swirling around, until she ended facing him. Jag's breath caught for a
moment.
He was about try another one of those effective compliments when a paneled door
slid open, and a slender, red-clad figure stepped from the banquet chamber into
the hall. The magic was instantly lost. Jaina's smile disappeared behind a
formal mask as Jag released her hand. Both drew themselves up to the measure of
comportment befitting one talking to woman of considerable import.
Ta'a Chume spoke. "Jaina,
I'd hoped to have the opportunity to speak with you."
Jag greeted the former queen with a crisp, proper bow and excused himself. He
nodded to Jaina, and then disappeared through the open door into the swirling
crowd. Jag wandered aimlessly, shot down from his euphoria with such speed he
was still reeling from the effects. He felt like he had been dealt one of those
gut shots his brother used to knock him down with as children. Not wanting to
suffer his heartache in company, Jag headed for the entrance to the Grand
Dining Hall.
Once outside the crowded room and in the relative solitude of the long hall,
Jag contemplated his next move. After a moment of indecision, he chose to stay;
the hope that Jaina would return to the party after her audience with Ta'a Chume swayed his decision.
Jag had just decided to step outside and clear his head, when a voice startled
him.
"Colonel Fel!" Turning his head in the direction of his name, none other than
Kyp Durron was approaching like a storm cloud on the horizon. Jag could
practically feel the threatening air descending on the party. Before Jag could
wonder how the Jedi had gotten past the guards, especially dressed only in a
simple tunic and pants, Kyp was at his side.
"I see you took my advice. Have you had the chance to ask Jaina why she doesn't
like me?"
"No."
"So you haven't seen her?"
Jag bristled, under the barrage of questions. "I have, but I don't think it
would be proper to ask a lady such a thing…"
Kyp snorted. "A lady? Jaina Solo is far from a lady.
She is more like a tusk-cat wrapped in a pretty package. She looks great --
like she is soft and nice to touch, but she has a wicked set of claws and
fangs. I am sure you are blind to that fact, seeing as you are completely
besotted by her."
Jag's face turned to a formidable frown, and his eyes turned to green ice. "I
am not besotted with Jaina Solo. I find her to be an intriguing young woman
with a shared interest in piloting."
Kyp laughed. "Whatever, but keep up those pretenses, and you will never get to
see the inside of the cockpit of that fighter." Jag
became rigid, his chest expanding and his shoulders stiffened. Before he could
fire back a response, Kyp continued. "Listen, I would love to explain to you
the how's and why's of romancing a spitfire like Jaina…"
Jag was determined to say his peace. "Master Durron, I think you judge my
intentions unfairly…"
"Do you deny you are attracted to her? I mean you would have to be part
blue-blooded Chiss to deny Jaina is about as desirable as they come. If I were
ten years younger, I would be first in line…"
Jag snapped. "She despises you; you don't have a chance with Jaina."
Wrinkles around Kyp's eyes were the only hint to the humor he found in the situation.
"Oh, so I did come up. There's still hope for me yet."
Jag slammed the door on his jealous leanings as he realized the Jedi Master was
goading him. His voice was cold as a Csilla glacier as he responded. "She
hardly gave you half a thought."
Kyp frowned, his mood turned suddenly somber. Jag imagined he even saw a hint
of regret. "Well, she is not going to like me any more after tonight. I've come
to take her to Anakin's funeral. Do you know where she is?"
Even Jag could not stay mad at the Jedi, realizing his grizzly task. "She was
meeting with the former queen, Ta'a Chume. You can find her through the doors
directly across from the banquet hall's entrance."
"Thanks. I suppose you could have left me to myself to find her after
the way I acted. You're a better man than I. At least I can stop worrying how
to go about this and get it over with."
"Where is the funeral?" Jag knew the joy of the night was over, but he also
knew he had to be close to Jaina, to show his support, even if it was standing
in the shadows at the funeral.
"At the top of Mount Ikinak outside the city. You can't miss it."
Jag tipped his head respectively. "I will inform Prince Isolder
and the others. I am sure they would want to attend as well." Kyp offered a
small smile as a token of his gratitude then started for the banquet hall when
Jag stopped him with a question. "Master Durron, why is it Jaina is not with
her family at a time like this? Why does she hide in this Palace?"
A wry smile formed on Kyp's lips. "She's too much like her father, fiercely
independent to a fault. I am afraid Jaina will have to learn the hard way about
holding everyone at bay when the bottom falls out, just like Han did, just like
I did. Hopefully she'll find her way out before it consumes her."
"You really care about Jaina, don't you?"
Kyp chuckled. "I hate to admit it, but yes I do. I owe Han Solo a lot. Maybe
saving his daughter from this dark turn is a step in the path to my own
redemption." Kyp paused then met Jag's gaze. "Just maybe, when all is said and
done, there will be some of that Jaina Solo left you are trying desperately not
to fall in love with." Before Jag could respond, Kyp Durron spun on his heel in
a flurry of robes and was lost in the sea of guests.
