This scene occurs within the events of pages 289-292 in Elaine
Cunningham's Dark Journey. You will find that I have skewed the scene
from Jag's POV and inserted dialogue that would have been missed in the book as
the events unfolded around Jaina and Tenel Ka. I hope
you find it worthy of the Jag I have fleshed out and that the return to the Jagged-in-Love is believable within
the flow of events around our hapless pair.
Again as always, some of the dialogue and text is straight from the book and
not my own. Nor do I take credit for it. I just weaved a little of my own magic
dust into the mix and exposed the true misunderstood Jagged Fel
in the process.
So without further ado (but a simple thanks to my beta Zara)
RECKONING
"There's a matter of some unsettled business."
Jaina spoke the words, and for a moment time stood still in the royal
apartment. The two women exchanged some sort of silent conversation to which
Jag was not privy before Tenel Ka spun on her heel
and disappeared back into the alcove. Jag forced himself to look away, not
wanting to intrude on a final farewell as the Hapan
princess kissed her dead mother on the forehead. Instead, he eyed Jaina as she
rubbed her lightsaber hilt while rocking from foot to
foot. The action was unsettling in that its motivation was unknown and thereby
caused a knot to tighten deep within him, two conflicting emotions fighting for
supremacy.
Tenel Ka wasted little time with her goodbye, and
soon enough she was striding toward the door with a purpose. She spared Jag a
quick glance. "Colonel, you will want to witness this," she said in passing.
Jaina fell into step beside her longtime friend, and after pushing back his
discomfiture Jag found himself side by side with Kyp,
the two men looking for all intents and purposes like some honorary guard for a
new queen.
What troubled Jag was that he was unsure exactly which of the two she was.
"It's quite a credit to the Chiss people for Tenel Ka to ask you to lead her mother's forces into
battle," Kyp offered as he matched Jag stride for
stride.
"I suppose it is," Jag noted flatly.
Passing through the endless maze of corridors, where revolving lights still
warned of the impending attack in place of the initial blaring klaxons, Jag
should have been concerned with strategy and defining his focus. But only one
thought filled his mind. Now that the crown was up for grabs - what would Jaina
do?
"It has never been about power, you know," Kyp
remarked as if he had picked up on Jag's thought.
Jag shot the Jedi Master an accusatory stare. "What?"
Kyp had slowed his step so they lagged behind the
women. "I just thought you should know that it's never been her intent to grab
power. She just wants to stick it to the Vong for all
her own suffering. I fear though that Ta'a Chume has used Jaina's fragile
state of mind to serve her own selfish ends."
"And you're telling me this why?"
"Like I said before, because your opinion matters to her…"
Jag snorted. "You could have fooled me. It seems my opinion matters least of
all these days."
Kyp grabbed Jag's arm, and both men drew to a stop,
toe to toe, sizing each other up. "This Jaina – the one you saw throw bolts of
Force lightning – is only a façade she hides behind. The girl I knew once, the
one I hurt more than I ever care to admit, still resides under that hardened
shell. And I am going to try to bring her back from this darkness, but you have
to understand first how your actions in particular affect Jaina. She's not the
monster you envisioned when we came to rescue you. She's really just a girl who
is vulnerable to the scrutiny of others and yours most of all. Her pain is
constant but it increased tenfold when you chose to regard her as nothing more
than a scruffy Rebel…"
"I did no such thing," Jag protested vehemently.
"Yes, you did," Kyp returned. His words were quiet
and forceful in the same breath. He inhaled before turning on his heel to
resume his chase of the Jedi princesses. Without sparing Jag a sideways glance,
he questioned him. "How do you suppose we found you today?"
Shrugging, Jag found no suitable response. With the large palace hall closing
with each step, he looked to Kyp, supposing an answer
was forthcoming.
Kyp obliged him, his wary eyes never leaving the two
women as they disappeared into the beckoning maw filled to the brim with Hapans thirsty to draw blood. "She found a connection to
you she didn't know existed. Jaina had a vision of sorts that led us straight
to you."
Before either of them could dive into the churning masses where Ta'a Chume could be heard holding
court, Jag gripped Kyp's tunic and yanked him to a
stop. "What do you mean by she found a connection?"
Glancing first to the hand on his sleeve with a predatory gleam, Kyp refused to answer until Jag unhanded him. "Exactly that. On some fundamental level, Jaina relates to
you. It's not something you turn on like a switch. These things just sort of
happen…"
"And what's your opinion on this?"
"I have no right to an opinion," Kyp stated
matter-of-factly.
"Isn't she your apprentice? I mean, don't you feel…"
Kyp harrumphed derisively. "Do I have feelings for
her? Sure…" At the admission, Jag felt his heart stop and his gut plummet like
he was performing one of those gravity defying rolls in his fighter. "…like a
big brother. She's almost half my age and my apprentice for what it's worth.
What do you take me for? I'm low, Fel, but not quite
that low. Besides no one needs my baggage – especially not
her. No, I'm more like her guardian or protector. For some reason the
Force thrust me into her path in this time and place – maybe to show me not
only the error of my ways but hers as well. Jag, I want to save her, but I
can't do it alone, especially not from the fate waiting her in this hall."
There was an undeniable sincerity to the Jedi's words, a depth of emotion Jag
had never imagined possible. Finally rectifying the Jedi Master's intentions
for Jaina, Jag's heart jumpstarted at a thunderous pace and his stomach righted
itself just like it always did when flying. "I just thought…"
"There you go thinking again." Kyp said with a snort.
He poked a finger into Jag's chest. "Stop thinking like a Chiss
and start feeling like a man. She's not in the state of mind to do it for herself so I'm leaving it up to you. I'm afraid that if you
don't step up to your calling and make Jaina see the error of her ways…"
Kyp was interrupted as a pair of Hapan
guards dragged a man out the doors and past them, the prisoner's boots scraping
harshly against the polished floor the entire way. Abruptly, Kyp's head swung to take in the scene just inside the
palace hall. With certainly no sensitivity for Jag's recent injuries, the Jedi
Master grabbed his shirt and tugged him forcefully toward the room. "If my
hunch is right, you may have to decide real quickly exactly what you do feel
for Jaina Solo." With that he sent Jag tumbling into the milling crowd.
Somehow, Jag ended up standing next to Shawnkyr. The Chiss female spared him a cursory glance then indicated
toward the front of the room. He followed her gaze to find Jaina and Tenel Ka standing before Ta'a Chume, whose eyes glowed with a feline satisfaction.
"It appears, Colonel, that your friend has been outmaneuvered," his second
offered without a hint of malice. To the Chiss, a
fact was a fact.
Suddenly, Jag understood what Kyp had been preparing
him for the whole way here; Shawnkyr had been right.
If Isolder offered Jaina the crown now, at a time of
crisis, she could hardly refuse it. Ta'a Chume fully expected Jaina to eagerly seize the power. When
the queen looked upon the Jedi pilot, she saw a younger version of herself. All
the pieces of the Chadrapak board had been maneuvered
into place; Jaina was all but cornered.
Kyp had taken up position at Jag's other side,
opposite Shawnkyr. He leaned closer and whispered,
"So now is the moment of truth. Are you willing to put a stop to this farce if
it comes to that?"
"What!?" Jag barked, causing others to turn and look their way.
A discreet wave of the Jedi Master's hand and soon the outburst was forgotten. Kyp kept his eyes forward upon the two Jedi females locked
in an intense conversation. "If she had a reason to question the logic of such
a noble decision as taking the crown, then perhaps…"
"What is your point exactly? I hold no power over Jaina."
"Sure you do. She certainly won't listen to me, but you, well,
you hold her heart in your hands as surely as Carida's
sun will never set again. You can stop this…"
Jag looked from Kyp to the front of the audience, to
where Jaina and Tenel Ka had forsaken words and now
just stared at each other silently. This was it then. The
balance point. The precipice. The blade's edge. Jaina mouthed something, and Jag saw a
future he never realized he had held in his hands begin to slip from his grasp.
It appeared Jaina was about to be lost to the designs of a master manipulator.
But his heart demanded that he overrule the logic ingrained in his head.
In that moment, Jag took his first step, charging forward to grasp a future
before it became irreparable. "No," he whispered.
Just as abruptly he was drawn back by a restraining hand. He turned to face Shawnkyr with the fierce expression of a man denied. The Chiss's burning eyes equaled his with a fire of pure
defiance. "Colonel, you can't interfere…"
Jag ripped his arm free with a sharp tug. "This doesn't concern you,
Lieutenant," he spat.
"Wait," Kyp exclaimed and grabbed Jag by the other
shoulder. "I can't believe she's going to do it."
Jag had whipped his head to face the quicksilver intentions of the Jedi Master,
then back after the odd announcement, intending to
discover exactly who she was. In a surreal flip of fate, time passing in
slow motion, Jag's world turned topsy-turvy as Tenel
Ka and not Jaina stepped forward. The Jedi with flaming hair strode over to her
father and dropped to one knee. Without hesitation, he placed the crown on her
head.
Thunderous ovation swept through the room. The newly crowned queen rose and
whirled toward the crowd, cutting off their applause with a swift, impatient
gesture.
"I am a warrior, a daughter of warrior women. Teneniel
Djo foresaw the Yuuzhan Vong threat and prepared. Shipyards hidden in the
Transitory Mists have rebuilt much of the fleet lost at Fondor. These ships are
on their way. Go and fight, and know that Hapes is
strong."
Tenel Ka strode back toward Jaina, her pace
quickening as she went. Jaina fell into step, and together the two Jedi women
ran toward battle. The applause began again, with a fervor that swept them
along like a gathering storm.
As the crowd parted to make way for their new queen, Jag stood frozen in place,
Kyp at his side. He watched Jaina as she jogged
toward them, time still in slow motion so that every thought and movement
seemed to weigh heavier and hold more import. Her brown eyes met his gaze, and
the faintest smile tempted her lips despite the gravity of the moment. "See you
up there," she said with the tip of her head as she passed.
And he realized that perhaps Jaina had never intended to be queen of Hapes despite all of Ta'a Chume's machinations. He had sorely misjudged her then. But
what had he been so mistaken about. Everything – her breeding, her bearing, her
calling – pointed to that fact she was Jedi royalty, but perhaps Isolder simply was not good enough for her, not one of her
own kind. After trying to implore Jaina to stick to her rank, Jag suddenly
realized he might have been truly playing well out of his league.
Now out of time, with a fleet awaiting his command, Jag knew he would be denied
the luxury of cataloguing these thoughts. So he tucked them away with practiced
Chiss stoicism. For later, he thought. He was
not sure how he would manage to shove aside these burning questions, but he
looked at her smile and knew there was so much more riding on the outcome of the
day's battle, simply their lives. Upon this revelation, time jumped to fast
forward once again.
Jag gave Jaina a formal bow and then glanced to Shawnkyr.
The Chiss pilots set off for the docking bay at a
run, and Kyp fell into pace beside them.
"Jaina never intended to marry the prince," Kyp
stated, indicating, too, that he had misjudged Jaina. But something in the
Jedi's green eyes told Jag that he understood the reason why, that he knew the
reason Isolder was simply not worthy.
Jag looked with interest over at the Jedi Master. Remarkably it seemed he might
still get the answer to his question. "I see. He is not a Jedi," he admitted
his fear with hopes Kyp would squash it.
"True, but that's not the issue," Kyp said. "I'm
guessing that the only man Jaina would ever take seriously is one who can outfly her."
Jag ran along for several moments before answering. He was tempted to ask Kyp if his thoughts were so transparent to a Jedi that the
Master could tell this was now their focal point, even tucked deep into the
recesses of his psyche. He wondered how Kyp knew this
was the one issue keeping his heart from making that treacherous drop back into
the unfamiliar whirlpool where his actions were no longer driven by his mind
but rather his heart. How had the Jedi identified and defined simply his last
holdout against the fearful submission to his heart's desire to love and be
loved in return?
"There are not many who fit that description," Jag observed, taking care to
keep any hint of pleasure from voice. He was thankful for the insight Kyp Durron gleaned from his
wayward thoughts, but there was a limit to what any man wanted another to know.
"Yeah, I've noticed that," Kyp responded in kind.
They skidded to a stop beside their docked ships. Jag extended his hand to Kyp. They clasped hands briefly. "Watch her back," Jag
whispered softly, trusting without a doubt that Kyp
was the one man who would understand his meaning. Bring her back safely so I
have a chance to prove that I can outfly her heart.
Then he swung up into his clawcraft where things were
straightforward and uncomplicated, and he was simply Colonel Jagged Fel.
TKL/zr
