Hey, DriftAway here. Thank you all for your reviews!!!!! I know I'm
pathetic, 7 reviews and I am doing the happy dance. But hey 7 reviews means
at least 4 people read the story! Which makes me happy, so 7 reviews is
good enough for me! Oh, this is taking a different turn than I had
originally planed. I like it this way, but if u don't, tell me!
I would personally like to thank MiloV and Smile. Thank you both for reading this story! It means a lot to me when people come back and read more when I update. Thanks a lot you guys! You guys made my week!
Judapea: the first time I herd this song, the words just clicked in my mind as a Jess and Rory thing. I am glad I am not the only one who thought of it that way!
agent1332: Thanks for the review!
Kala: All will be revealed in due time. Or, mostly in this chapter.
~~~~~On with the story~~~~~
Jess too woke to screaming. Though this screaming was of a considerably different nature. Luke was downstairs screaming at Kirk. Apparently Kirk had brought a dog into the Dinner, and Luke wasn't happy about it. Jess tried to block out the noise, but even when Luke was done yelling, it was still too noisy to sleep. Once Luke was mad, he stayed mad. And When Luke was mad; he banged dishes and barked at people when he spoke. Jess gave up trying to drown him out, and went downstairs.
J-"So, tell me why you are on a first name basis with... snuggles, is it?
L-"Shut up, get to work" Luke said, not realizing that Jess didn't work there anymore.
Jess too was shocked at the familiarity of the scene.
J-"Uh Luke, I don't work here."
L-"What?" Luke said still not seeing his mistake. Luke's expression changed quickly when he finally realized what he had said.
L-"Well, um..." Luke could not think of a way to correct what he had said, so he stopped mid sentence. Jess, for the first time in a long time, noted Luke's level of discomfort. To spare Luke having to try to explain himself, Jess mumbled a goodbye and left.
Walking down the streets of Stars Hollow Jess was surprised at how not out of place he felt. Somehow, when he was with Rory, she had made this place feel like home, and now even though he had lost her, he couldn't shake this town. Of course he talked about the town like he hated it, like he would be content to never step foot there again, but inside, he had missed this place, almost as much as he had missed Rory.
Jess saw Rory walking down the street. She saw him just as he saw her. They both froze. Rory turned to walk away, Jess called after her.
J-"Rory! Stop."
R-"No."
J-"Please Rory, just stop." Jess pleaded
R-"Why? What could you have to say to me?"
J-"Rory, I know I screwed up, and there is nothing I can do to make it better, but please just listen to me."
Rory stopped. She looked at Jess to check his sincerity. R-"You have five minutes."
J-"Um...ok. So here goes. Rory I love you, I told you that before, but I know you didn't believe me, heck I wouldn't believe me. But its true, Rory, I love you more than anything in the world. I never meant to hurt you. I swear it was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. I didn't know how to deal, I mean come on Rory, I was eighteen, how was I suppose to deal with that?"
R-"Deal with what? What Jess you can't even say it."
J-"I can say it, I can."
R-"Then do." Rory's eyes were cold, her tone harsh.
J-"Pre..Preg...Rory I'm sorry." Jess said knowing he couldn't say it after all.
R-"Jess, do you know what it was like to have to tell my mom? To tell her that I had slept with you? I told her that I trusted you, that I knew you cared about me. She told me I was naive, and I told her she didn't know you like I did, she was right Jess, you never cared at all."
J-"Rory, you are the only thing I have ever cared about, I just, I couldn't handle it, I couldn't have been a dad."
R-"Yeah well, I needed you, and you left, I don't care what you can and cant handle, I couldn't handle parenthood without you. You know what my mom said when I told her I was pregnant. She asked me where u were. I had to tell her you were gone! Gone Jess!"
J-"Rory, I never meant to, to let it get this bad."
R-"Well it is Jess, and now, I am 18, alone, angry, and I have to live with knowing that there is a child out there that is going to wonder why his mother didn't want him."
Jess looked at Rory, he was near tears, holding them back only because he knew that he didn't deserve to be crying. Rory did.
J-"It, was a boy?" Rory tried hard not to cry. Why was Jess doing this? Why couldn't he just leave her alone?
R-"Yeah, a little boy, I named him Colin Nickolas."
Jess whispered the name to himself. The name of his son.
J-"Where is he now?"
R-"I gave him up for adoption, I couldn't be a parent to him, not without you."
J-"Is he happy?"
R-"He lives with a couple in Hartford. They let him keep the name I gave him. He is happy."
J-"Good" was all Jess could say. How could he have left? How could he have let her go through that alone? He hated himself. He knew now, that she would always hate him. And he didn't blame her for it at all.
TBC
Sorry this is short! I will make the next one at least 4 pages on word! I swear! I just needed to end this here. I like where I am taking this, but if u don't, tell me! Please R&R. I need 5 more reviews to continue! Please guys! Ur reviews make my day!!! My week even!!!! Please tell me what u think! DriftAway
I would personally like to thank MiloV and Smile. Thank you both for reading this story! It means a lot to me when people come back and read more when I update. Thanks a lot you guys! You guys made my week!
Judapea: the first time I herd this song, the words just clicked in my mind as a Jess and Rory thing. I am glad I am not the only one who thought of it that way!
agent1332: Thanks for the review!
Kala: All will be revealed in due time. Or, mostly in this chapter.
~~~~~On with the story~~~~~
Jess too woke to screaming. Though this screaming was of a considerably different nature. Luke was downstairs screaming at Kirk. Apparently Kirk had brought a dog into the Dinner, and Luke wasn't happy about it. Jess tried to block out the noise, but even when Luke was done yelling, it was still too noisy to sleep. Once Luke was mad, he stayed mad. And When Luke was mad; he banged dishes and barked at people when he spoke. Jess gave up trying to drown him out, and went downstairs.
J-"So, tell me why you are on a first name basis with... snuggles, is it?
L-"Shut up, get to work" Luke said, not realizing that Jess didn't work there anymore.
Jess too was shocked at the familiarity of the scene.
J-"Uh Luke, I don't work here."
L-"What?" Luke said still not seeing his mistake. Luke's expression changed quickly when he finally realized what he had said.
L-"Well, um..." Luke could not think of a way to correct what he had said, so he stopped mid sentence. Jess, for the first time in a long time, noted Luke's level of discomfort. To spare Luke having to try to explain himself, Jess mumbled a goodbye and left.
Walking down the streets of Stars Hollow Jess was surprised at how not out of place he felt. Somehow, when he was with Rory, she had made this place feel like home, and now even though he had lost her, he couldn't shake this town. Of course he talked about the town like he hated it, like he would be content to never step foot there again, but inside, he had missed this place, almost as much as he had missed Rory.
Jess saw Rory walking down the street. She saw him just as he saw her. They both froze. Rory turned to walk away, Jess called after her.
J-"Rory! Stop."
R-"No."
J-"Please Rory, just stop." Jess pleaded
R-"Why? What could you have to say to me?"
J-"Rory, I know I screwed up, and there is nothing I can do to make it better, but please just listen to me."
Rory stopped. She looked at Jess to check his sincerity. R-"You have five minutes."
J-"Um...ok. So here goes. Rory I love you, I told you that before, but I know you didn't believe me, heck I wouldn't believe me. But its true, Rory, I love you more than anything in the world. I never meant to hurt you. I swear it was the last thing in the world I wanted to do. I didn't know how to deal, I mean come on Rory, I was eighteen, how was I suppose to deal with that?"
R-"Deal with what? What Jess you can't even say it."
J-"I can say it, I can."
R-"Then do." Rory's eyes were cold, her tone harsh.
J-"Pre..Preg...Rory I'm sorry." Jess said knowing he couldn't say it after all.
R-"Jess, do you know what it was like to have to tell my mom? To tell her that I had slept with you? I told her that I trusted you, that I knew you cared about me. She told me I was naive, and I told her she didn't know you like I did, she was right Jess, you never cared at all."
J-"Rory, you are the only thing I have ever cared about, I just, I couldn't handle it, I couldn't have been a dad."
R-"Yeah well, I needed you, and you left, I don't care what you can and cant handle, I couldn't handle parenthood without you. You know what my mom said when I told her I was pregnant. She asked me where u were. I had to tell her you were gone! Gone Jess!"
J-"Rory, I never meant to, to let it get this bad."
R-"Well it is Jess, and now, I am 18, alone, angry, and I have to live with knowing that there is a child out there that is going to wonder why his mother didn't want him."
Jess looked at Rory, he was near tears, holding them back only because he knew that he didn't deserve to be crying. Rory did.
J-"It, was a boy?" Rory tried hard not to cry. Why was Jess doing this? Why couldn't he just leave her alone?
R-"Yeah, a little boy, I named him Colin Nickolas."
Jess whispered the name to himself. The name of his son.
J-"Where is he now?"
R-"I gave him up for adoption, I couldn't be a parent to him, not without you."
J-"Is he happy?"
R-"He lives with a couple in Hartford. They let him keep the name I gave him. He is happy."
J-"Good" was all Jess could say. How could he have left? How could he have let her go through that alone? He hated himself. He knew now, that she would always hate him. And he didn't blame her for it at all.
TBC
Sorry this is short! I will make the next one at least 4 pages on word! I swear! I just needed to end this here. I like where I am taking this, but if u don't, tell me! Please R&R. I need 5 more reviews to continue! Please guys! Ur reviews make my day!!! My week even!!!! Please tell me what u think! DriftAway