Ok, it's review time!!! I'll try and make this one as good as possible,
but I'm not sure if it's going to be very good or long *mini writers
block*. Don't forget to review at the end of this chappie!
Disclaimer: Aspin belongs to me, Amber to Zadien, and I do not own beyblade.
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Aspin awoke, lifting her head slightly to glare at the sun which was shining brightly though her bedroom window. She immediatly regretted her movement as the sun was blinding and there was a pain in her neck from her sleeping position on the floor, propped up by her door.
As she stiffled a yawn, all the previous nights events came back to her like a reopened wound and sniffed hard as she began to shudder with sobs. She slowly moved away from her door, using her bed to help herself up.
In her mind, all that she had heard kept flying through her head like a piece of garbage stuck in a dust devil. Replaying over and over, she stumbled quickly grabbing onto her bedside table as she suddenly felt weak and powerless.
The reasons and the way that something could like her parents splitting up was totally beyond her grasp. She quickly put on some new clothes, not bothering with her hair or makeup and climbed out her window onto the rooftop below.
She didn't want to risk confrontation with any of the other occupents of the house. She wasn't ready for it, in fact she wasn't ready to deal with it herself. Aspin jumped off the short roof, not at all to gracefully. She landed with a soft thud, and she took a few moments to brush herself off before jumping the fence neatly into Johnny's backyard.
She ran around the side of the house and lept over the few stairs onto the front porch. The tears began to well up again and she pounded on the door hoping it would be Johnny who answered.
Her hopes were rewarded when Johnny opened the door in a pair of sleeping pants, rubbing his eyes and complaining about the time. He finished rubbing his eyes and glared down at her, his eyes immediatly softening when he saw the girl appearing so small and fragile.
" Shit, Aspin. You look like crap," he muttered softly as he pulled her into the house.
He ushured her into the living room and went into the kitchen to prepare a quick cup of coffee for the both of them. When he returned her found her curled up on the sofa, hugging a cushion to her chest as she cried softly.
He placed the cups on the coffee table and pulled her onto his lap as he sat down.
" Hey, what happened?" he asked her softly as he stroked her hair with great care and gentleness.
When she had regained some control over her emotions she looked up at him before buriying her face into his bare chest.
" Its all gone," she whispered before breaking down again.
" What? What's all gone?" he asked, his voice barely a whisper as he shook her shoulders lightly.
The room was silent save for her gentle sobs which had greatly subsided. She pushed at his chest a little and he obliged by releasing his iron grip on her. She sat up, wiping her eyes and then looking around at her surroundings.
" Aspin?" Johnny asked, laying a gentle hand on her shoulder.
" They split up. I heard them last night, they were arguing and mom was crying. Da.. Dad said that he was leaving and it was final, he was going to the city to live with another girl," Aspin explained as she tucked her chin into her chest and breathed in a deep breath.
" Wha? But your family was always like this," Johnny exclaimed as he locked his hands together.
" I know... I know. I didn't even notice any problems. Johnny, after he moves to the city..... what if I don't see him again?" Aspin asked, her eyes pleaded with his own for some sort of positive response.
" If he doesn't. Then your just to good for him. Don't waste yourself on wondering about the future, just please enjoy today with me. Everythings going to be alright, I promise," Johnny answered, his eyes quickly turned from sympathy to anger and then back to sympathy.
She nodded then followed him upstairs where he quickly changed into some random outfit that was laying around before stepping over to her.
" What?" she asked as she looked up at him. He was giving her a curious look and she knew he was up to something.
" Well... sorry to say Aspin, but you know how your totally beautiful and all, and mostly everyone is either jealous or drooling, right?" Johnny asked as she narrowed her eyes.
" Damn straight, now get to the point."
" Well, sorry to say but you look like absolute shit," He said as he patted her head, she was going to glare at him but thought better of it. He was right, she hadn't done much for herself earlier with the divorce issue sinking in and all.
" Yeah I suppose your right, I mean, I didn't even attempt to tackle my hair this morning."
Johnny chuckled before tugging her towards the bathroom where he filled the sink with warm water. Before he could even inquire as to what he was doing her head was in the water being scrubbed at viciously.
She came up gasping for air as he grabbed a towel and partially dried her hair.
" What the hell?! You a hair dresser now?" she asked as she giggled.
" Nope. You kinda get the experience when you have to deal with my hair every day. My style, is not easy."
"I suppose not, " She shrugged as she retrieved a comb and helped him brush through her unruly locks of lavender.
" I think it needs a cut though. And maybe some colour," she thought out loud.
" Yeah, it's getting pretty long now a days. Wanna get it cut, mines about due for a trim anyways," Johnny inquired as he tugged lightly at a particularily stubborn tangle.
She lifted an eye brow at him. Johnny offering to go to the hairdressers, with her. Now that was something new. She sighed and nodded her head. Johnny finished with her hair and tossed the comb onto a shelf.
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A few hours later, Aspin walked into a downtown cafe alone. Johnny had gotten an unexpected phone call and headed off in his own direction. She sat down at a table in the back corner near a window, watching the people outside continue on with their happy lives.
Just the thought of being happy made her sad. Without her family being together, she might not ever be happy again. She sighed and ordered a glass of iced tea as she suddenly found herself wondering why she had thought to come to the cafe in the first place.
Her answer walked through the door at that moment. She groaned as Kane sauntered in but even though she really wanted to at the moment, she didn't leave or sink down in her chair with hopes that he wouldn't notice her. She actually stared right at him.
" What's up with the new hair?" He asked much like the jerk he was as he sat in the chair across from her without any invitation.
She narrowed her eyes and stared down at the table, not even bothering to answer him. She really wasn't in the mood for an argument at the moment.
" Hey, I asked you a question you know!" He growled, becoming unusually agitated at her silence.
" Just stop......" Aspin whispered, her hair falling in front of her eyes as she stared into her lap.
" What?" he asked as he reached over to her.
" Just stop!" she shouted, " Stop making fun of me, stop bothering me, stop making me ask myself if my life is even worth while...... please just stop........" she trailed off.
She glanced up at him, he eyes full of the pain that was bottled up inside of her as a tear slipped down her right cheek. She grabbed her purse, leaving a five dollar bill on the table to cover the cost of her drink and bolted out the door leaving Kane to wonder in her wake.
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A few minutes later she found herself wandering around the busy downtown streets. People hurriedly pushed past her, sometimes making her stumble but she didn't care. She knew it had been wrong of her to snap on Kane like that, but sometimes he just made her so angry.
" Maybe I should apologize...." She voiced her thoughts.
" Maybe you should, but I don't really know the circumstances." A familliar and friendly voice sounded from behind her.
Aspin whirled around causing her hair to swirl around in the air and land back in a messy heap. She quickly smoothed it back down as she smiled up at the newcomer
" When did you get back?! Why?! How?!" a million in one questions blurted out of her mouth, " I can't believe it, Zeo!"
" One question at a time cuz," Zeo smiled as he gave her a gentle hug, " I came back because it's summer in Australia and I thought you could use a pal."
Aspin frowned but it quickly turned back into a smile. Zeo smiled then wrapped one arm causally over Aspin's shoulder and began to steer her back down the street.
" It's just been so long. It's really great to have you back in town with us you know." Aspin remarked with a happy smile.
She hadn't seen her cousin Zeo in almost a year since he had gone off to university. Even though he was a few years older and lived halfway around the world it was if no time had gone by and they were just carefree kids again.
"So, why were you thinking of apologizing?" Zeo inquired. In all her excitment, Aspin had nearly forgotten all about her little outbreak with Kane.
" Well... I was just sitting in the cafe when he came up to me and asked me about my hair," Aspin replied as she pointed up at her head. Her purple hair was now streaked with black with two black pieces framing her face, " It was just with all that's been going on. I dunno, I just flipped on him. He looked really shocked when I yelled at him, and then I had to leave because everybody was staring."
Zeo nodded his head in understanding. " I don't blame ya. Anything would set me off if I was in that situation."
They continued to walk down the street. They chatted endlessly, both equally curious about what had been going on in the others life for the past year. Time went on and eventually the two parted their separate ways.
For the time being, everything was peaceful in Aspin's life and that was all she cared about at the moment. She stared blankly at her front door before taking in a deep breath and grabbing the door knob.
" I've gotta come back someday, so why not today?" She asked herself as she twisted the door knob.
The door opened with a little squeek and she quickly shut and locked it before it got too cold in the front hall. She peered into the living room quickly. Her mother sat in a chair, asleep. Stacked messily on her lap were old photo's of them as a family.
Aspin sighed and quickly removed the pictures and placing them on the nearby end table.
" Have a good one mom," She whispered as she kissed her mother on the forehead and turned down the lamp.
She looked over at the photo's, spotting one particular one under the pile. She carefully removed it and let out a low sigh. It was a photo of them when she was small. It had been taken at a community picnic and everbody was there. Zeo, Amber, Kai, Kane, Johnny, Mom, Dad, everbody.
She took it gently and quietly snuck up the stairs. The house seemed so quiet and foreign to her as she walked through the darkened halls towards her bedroom. Once in, she quietly shut the door and got changed into her usual shorts and t-shirt bed attire. She climbed under the blankets and propped the picture up against her lamp.
" Good-night," she whispered as she gave one of the photo's occupants a secret smile and shut off the light.
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Sorry about the shortness, but it's all I can write right now.... write right, now that sounds wierd..... anyways! Please review, and I'm sorry about the shortness and the long wait! *Gives everybody puppy dog eyes, please forgive me!*
Disclaimer: Aspin belongs to me, Amber to Zadien, and I do not own beyblade.
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Aspin awoke, lifting her head slightly to glare at the sun which was shining brightly though her bedroom window. She immediatly regretted her movement as the sun was blinding and there was a pain in her neck from her sleeping position on the floor, propped up by her door.
As she stiffled a yawn, all the previous nights events came back to her like a reopened wound and sniffed hard as she began to shudder with sobs. She slowly moved away from her door, using her bed to help herself up.
In her mind, all that she had heard kept flying through her head like a piece of garbage stuck in a dust devil. Replaying over and over, she stumbled quickly grabbing onto her bedside table as she suddenly felt weak and powerless.
The reasons and the way that something could like her parents splitting up was totally beyond her grasp. She quickly put on some new clothes, not bothering with her hair or makeup and climbed out her window onto the rooftop below.
She didn't want to risk confrontation with any of the other occupents of the house. She wasn't ready for it, in fact she wasn't ready to deal with it herself. Aspin jumped off the short roof, not at all to gracefully. She landed with a soft thud, and she took a few moments to brush herself off before jumping the fence neatly into Johnny's backyard.
She ran around the side of the house and lept over the few stairs onto the front porch. The tears began to well up again and she pounded on the door hoping it would be Johnny who answered.
Her hopes were rewarded when Johnny opened the door in a pair of sleeping pants, rubbing his eyes and complaining about the time. He finished rubbing his eyes and glared down at her, his eyes immediatly softening when he saw the girl appearing so small and fragile.
" Shit, Aspin. You look like crap," he muttered softly as he pulled her into the house.
He ushured her into the living room and went into the kitchen to prepare a quick cup of coffee for the both of them. When he returned her found her curled up on the sofa, hugging a cushion to her chest as she cried softly.
He placed the cups on the coffee table and pulled her onto his lap as he sat down.
" Hey, what happened?" he asked her softly as he stroked her hair with great care and gentleness.
When she had regained some control over her emotions she looked up at him before buriying her face into his bare chest.
" Its all gone," she whispered before breaking down again.
" What? What's all gone?" he asked, his voice barely a whisper as he shook her shoulders lightly.
The room was silent save for her gentle sobs which had greatly subsided. She pushed at his chest a little and he obliged by releasing his iron grip on her. She sat up, wiping her eyes and then looking around at her surroundings.
" Aspin?" Johnny asked, laying a gentle hand on her shoulder.
" They split up. I heard them last night, they were arguing and mom was crying. Da.. Dad said that he was leaving and it was final, he was going to the city to live with another girl," Aspin explained as she tucked her chin into her chest and breathed in a deep breath.
" Wha? But your family was always like this," Johnny exclaimed as he locked his hands together.
" I know... I know. I didn't even notice any problems. Johnny, after he moves to the city..... what if I don't see him again?" Aspin asked, her eyes pleaded with his own for some sort of positive response.
" If he doesn't. Then your just to good for him. Don't waste yourself on wondering about the future, just please enjoy today with me. Everythings going to be alright, I promise," Johnny answered, his eyes quickly turned from sympathy to anger and then back to sympathy.
She nodded then followed him upstairs where he quickly changed into some random outfit that was laying around before stepping over to her.
" What?" she asked as she looked up at him. He was giving her a curious look and she knew he was up to something.
" Well... sorry to say Aspin, but you know how your totally beautiful and all, and mostly everyone is either jealous or drooling, right?" Johnny asked as she narrowed her eyes.
" Damn straight, now get to the point."
" Well, sorry to say but you look like absolute shit," He said as he patted her head, she was going to glare at him but thought better of it. He was right, she hadn't done much for herself earlier with the divorce issue sinking in and all.
" Yeah I suppose your right, I mean, I didn't even attempt to tackle my hair this morning."
Johnny chuckled before tugging her towards the bathroom where he filled the sink with warm water. Before he could even inquire as to what he was doing her head was in the water being scrubbed at viciously.
She came up gasping for air as he grabbed a towel and partially dried her hair.
" What the hell?! You a hair dresser now?" she asked as she giggled.
" Nope. You kinda get the experience when you have to deal with my hair every day. My style, is not easy."
"I suppose not, " She shrugged as she retrieved a comb and helped him brush through her unruly locks of lavender.
" I think it needs a cut though. And maybe some colour," she thought out loud.
" Yeah, it's getting pretty long now a days. Wanna get it cut, mines about due for a trim anyways," Johnny inquired as he tugged lightly at a particularily stubborn tangle.
She lifted an eye brow at him. Johnny offering to go to the hairdressers, with her. Now that was something new. She sighed and nodded her head. Johnny finished with her hair and tossed the comb onto a shelf.
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A few hours later, Aspin walked into a downtown cafe alone. Johnny had gotten an unexpected phone call and headed off in his own direction. She sat down at a table in the back corner near a window, watching the people outside continue on with their happy lives.
Just the thought of being happy made her sad. Without her family being together, she might not ever be happy again. She sighed and ordered a glass of iced tea as she suddenly found herself wondering why she had thought to come to the cafe in the first place.
Her answer walked through the door at that moment. She groaned as Kane sauntered in but even though she really wanted to at the moment, she didn't leave or sink down in her chair with hopes that he wouldn't notice her. She actually stared right at him.
" What's up with the new hair?" He asked much like the jerk he was as he sat in the chair across from her without any invitation.
She narrowed her eyes and stared down at the table, not even bothering to answer him. She really wasn't in the mood for an argument at the moment.
" Hey, I asked you a question you know!" He growled, becoming unusually agitated at her silence.
" Just stop......" Aspin whispered, her hair falling in front of her eyes as she stared into her lap.
" What?" he asked as he reached over to her.
" Just stop!" she shouted, " Stop making fun of me, stop bothering me, stop making me ask myself if my life is even worth while...... please just stop........" she trailed off.
She glanced up at him, he eyes full of the pain that was bottled up inside of her as a tear slipped down her right cheek. She grabbed her purse, leaving a five dollar bill on the table to cover the cost of her drink and bolted out the door leaving Kane to wonder in her wake.
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A few minutes later she found herself wandering around the busy downtown streets. People hurriedly pushed past her, sometimes making her stumble but she didn't care. She knew it had been wrong of her to snap on Kane like that, but sometimes he just made her so angry.
" Maybe I should apologize...." She voiced her thoughts.
" Maybe you should, but I don't really know the circumstances." A familliar and friendly voice sounded from behind her.
Aspin whirled around causing her hair to swirl around in the air and land back in a messy heap. She quickly smoothed it back down as she smiled up at the newcomer
" When did you get back?! Why?! How?!" a million in one questions blurted out of her mouth, " I can't believe it, Zeo!"
" One question at a time cuz," Zeo smiled as he gave her a gentle hug, " I came back because it's summer in Australia and I thought you could use a pal."
Aspin frowned but it quickly turned back into a smile. Zeo smiled then wrapped one arm causally over Aspin's shoulder and began to steer her back down the street.
" It's just been so long. It's really great to have you back in town with us you know." Aspin remarked with a happy smile.
She hadn't seen her cousin Zeo in almost a year since he had gone off to university. Even though he was a few years older and lived halfway around the world it was if no time had gone by and they were just carefree kids again.
"So, why were you thinking of apologizing?" Zeo inquired. In all her excitment, Aspin had nearly forgotten all about her little outbreak with Kane.
" Well... I was just sitting in the cafe when he came up to me and asked me about my hair," Aspin replied as she pointed up at her head. Her purple hair was now streaked with black with two black pieces framing her face, " It was just with all that's been going on. I dunno, I just flipped on him. He looked really shocked when I yelled at him, and then I had to leave because everybody was staring."
Zeo nodded his head in understanding. " I don't blame ya. Anything would set me off if I was in that situation."
They continued to walk down the street. They chatted endlessly, both equally curious about what had been going on in the others life for the past year. Time went on and eventually the two parted their separate ways.
For the time being, everything was peaceful in Aspin's life and that was all she cared about at the moment. She stared blankly at her front door before taking in a deep breath and grabbing the door knob.
" I've gotta come back someday, so why not today?" She asked herself as she twisted the door knob.
The door opened with a little squeek and she quickly shut and locked it before it got too cold in the front hall. She peered into the living room quickly. Her mother sat in a chair, asleep. Stacked messily on her lap were old photo's of them as a family.
Aspin sighed and quickly removed the pictures and placing them on the nearby end table.
" Have a good one mom," She whispered as she kissed her mother on the forehead and turned down the lamp.
She looked over at the photo's, spotting one particular one under the pile. She carefully removed it and let out a low sigh. It was a photo of them when she was small. It had been taken at a community picnic and everbody was there. Zeo, Amber, Kai, Kane, Johnny, Mom, Dad, everbody.
She took it gently and quietly snuck up the stairs. The house seemed so quiet and foreign to her as she walked through the darkened halls towards her bedroom. Once in, she quietly shut the door and got changed into her usual shorts and t-shirt bed attire. She climbed under the blankets and propped the picture up against her lamp.
" Good-night," she whispered as she gave one of the photo's occupants a secret smile and shut off the light.
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Sorry about the shortness, but it's all I can write right now.... write right, now that sounds wierd..... anyways! Please review, and I'm sorry about the shortness and the long wait! *Gives everybody puppy dog eyes, please forgive me!*