Disclaimers-I kind of forgot about these so I just thought 14 chapters in was a good place to start. The West Wing is in no way any part of mine-all the characters belong to Aaron Sorkin, NBC and now John Wells. Also Every Time by Britney Spears is hers and she sings it well.
Thanks so much to all of you who are reading my stories and a special thanks to TheRealMcCoy for reviewing. I enjoy and look forward to seeing what you have to say. I've never written a song fic, I hope it isn't too sappy, but this song seemed perfect for what I thought they might be feeling. Anyway, enjoy!
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Josh sat in the hospital chair, his eyes fixated on Donna. He was afraid that if he fell asleep, if he looked away for one moment that she would be gone. Every time he looked away something bad seemed to happen to the ones he loved. He had lost his sister, he had lost his father, the President had been shot and then he had lost Donna, then she almost died but as if life was reminding him how unfair it was, he almost lost her again. She looked so small and delicate curled into the hospital blankets. He stared at her wrists feeling cold and sad that she thought that was her answer. He couldn't believe that she thought she had lost so much that only death would bring her redemption.
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
It was nearly dawn before Josh let his eyes drift shut. His hand held hers, touching her he felt anchored to her and would know if she needed him. Slowly his eyes closed and he was whisked off into his dreams where Donnatella Moss was always in his arms and she never wanted to be anywhere else.
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
Donna opened her eyes a few hours before dawn to find Josh sleeping soundly next to her. She felt his hand holding hers and she smiled weakly. She couldn't believe that she had gotten to his place in her life. She never wanted to feel that way again. She loved Josh, her family and her friends, why she ever thought that she never had answers was beyond her. She took a long look Josh. He looked so young when he slept.
She felt the cold metal of the engagement ring around her neck. She wouldn't be so stupid. She had her second if not third chance at life now. Every time she thought they were so close something seem to get in the way. No more. She wanted to be his; she wanted to spend the rest of her life loving him; if he would still have her.
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
Donna had thought about their life together, their wedding, their home, their children. She had no trouble envisioning a Joshua Junior running around the house with his toy donkey. His first words would be "Congress sucks" followed by "Democrats Rule" and hopefully some where in there he would learn "Mommy" and "Daddy."
Every time she thought about all the times that they almost lost each other it was ridiculous, how did they end up with so many chances?
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
I need you, she thought.
Donna clutched his hand wanting to feel close to him some how. She didn't know what was going to happen when the morning came. She just hoped that he wouldn't hate her forever, that he would find it in his heart to give her one more chance. That was all she needed to make this right. Just one more chance.
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
Donna finally fell back to sleep. Her dreams were full of hopeful images of her future, of their future together. She remembered the nights that she wished she wouldn't have feelings for Josh that it just made everything too complicated, but in the end her heart had won out and now all she wanted was to find her way back into his arms.
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby