Chapter 7 - Anger Management
Disclaimer : see previous chapters
Hey…apologies for taking so long to finish this chpt but my muse is playing games with me and I barely manage to scrap through with this. It's gonna be full of flash backs of mostly seasons 1 n 2 coz tt's all I've seen. I saw the trailer for "In Between" and find it most familiar…(by e way, I was already thinking abt the flash back thingy b4 I saw e trailer) hmm…the synopsis for tt episode is taking so long to upload…anyone saw tt episode could u like give me the details? Coz I'm dying here…email me, o.k? or tell me abt it in ur review. o.k…enuff rambling already…go on…read it and review!
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Jesse woke up to an empty med lab. Weird, how did I end up here, he wondered. Ooww…he touched his head. So the killer headache is still there…maybe that explains why I'm here…he thought till he saw he had a couple of bruises on his arms and his knuckles hurt. He remembered now; he had been sparring with Shalimar before…he frowned. He couldn't remember what had happened before he woke up except for…he pondered briefly before realisation dawned on him; the anger.
Shalimar was on the computer trying to hack into Genomex computers. This is taking so long, she sighed in frustration, fingers typing away as furiously as she can. Finally, I got through; she gave a triumphant smile when Genomex mainframe appeared on the screen; and I thought I was getting a little rusty. She frowned as she browsed through the files and a familiar name probe up; X257K. Oh my god, they were in it all along; as realisation dawned on her; I've got to tell Adam. But as she scrolled down she read some disturbing news. Her face contorted in horror as she read the experiments done with the serums and the test subjects.
They were two types of the serum; a fast acting one and the other, slow reacting. With the former, none of the test subjects had survived beyond the first twenty-four hours. With the latter, they survived longer though after a full-blown onslaught of running amok; the victim succumbs slowly to the administrations of the serum; dying in a not too lovely picture, internal organs shutting down slowly, internal haemorrhaging and the list goes on all within the next seventy-two hours before finally dying from all the strains. As of date, no cure or neutraliser had been discovered. She gasped as she realised what's lying ahead for Jesse. Oh no…she groaned. She lifted her comlink and spoke out in a harsh whisper, "Guys, you better come in and see this."
Jesse got up and nearly dropped on his face. He concentrated and tried again and again. It took him a good fifteen minutes just to get back on his feet. The pounding behind his eyes was more prominent than ever before and he wasn't in the mood to deal with it. I need to get out of here, he thought. He turned to his right and switched off the masses of alarms to the scanners and beepers set up to monitor his condition. He started to phased himself off the multitude of devices attached to his person and tried to make his way out of the lab.
Before he could make it out, he caught a glimpse of Shalimar on the computer and phased himself out through the wall. Feeling slightly dizzy, he froze, hearing footsteps. Taking a huge breathe he phased again; seeing Emma and Brennan making their way to his direction.
By the time he made it to his room, he was so exhausted that he lied on his bed, hoping to catch his breath, calm his pounding heart and hopefully the headache, too.
Half an hour later, he felt fine enough and got up to take a shower. God, I hate the smell of disinfectant, he said turning the shower on. Ten minutes later, feeling refreshed; he put on some clothes and took out some painkillers from the drawer near his bed. He frowned when he saw they were only four tablets left before swallowing all four. I could have sworn I just bought that a couple of days ago, he exclaimed.
Emma and Brennan had caught up with Shalimar, and Adam who was the first to arrive, sat with a grim look on his face. Shal's finding only confirms Adam's diagnosis and they were back to square one. Upon receiving the news, Emma made her way to the lab and was stunned to find the bed empty. Brennan saw her standing in the doorway and approached her. "Em, what's wrong?" he enquired before looking up towards the bed. "Damn, Jesse!" he ran towards the computer lab, alerting Adam of the situation at hand. " Don't worry, I've tracked him and he's in his room." he reassured them. "Besides he can't get far in his weaken state." he emphasised further. "Just give him some time to himself, alright?"
Meanwhile, Jesse wasn't feeling so great. The painkillers weren't working as quickly as he thought it would and he ended up getting more and more frustrated. He knew that it was only a matter of time before the others discovered he was gone from the med bay and he's really beginning to get pissed off by them, babying him like that. What do they think I am; some kind of kid who can't take care of himself? I hate it when they do that; it makes him feel so, so weak!
He got up from where he was lying on bed trying to calm the throbbing in his head and brushed his hair in the mirror and saw his pale completion and an overwhelming surge of anger overcame him that before he knew it, he had massed out his right arm and hit the mirror with it, shattering the mirror into a thousand fragments. He stood still staring at the damaged and looked at his hand. It was bleeding profusely despised being hit in a massed state. His powers are weakening due to his unstable molecules. That really hit the ball. The colour of the blood seems to trigger something in him and he got even angrier. The events of the past few years in his life flashed in his mind.
His family's disappointment in him so much that they sent him away, away from his parents, his friends, everyone before he could even deal with his puberty---mostly because they couldn't accept that their 'perfect son' is a mutant. The super-virus that nearly killed him---he hated that, he hated not having control over his powers; his own father's betrayal---how could you Noah, you don't deserve to be my dad; you've lost that privilege when you sold me out.
He clutched his right hand into a fist, ignoring the digging pains in his cut wounds or the fragments of the mirror that were still in his hand at that last memory but he wasn't yet finish. The memories keep on flashing by.
His stimulated claustrophobic experience, no thanks to the revengeful psychopath who put everyone who crosses his path to a nightmare they couldn't wake up from---like being stuck here he noted. He hated having a weakness---he was brought up to overcome them, to hide the flaws; great job with that, he frowned. The terrorist who nearly 'disperse' him literally for his own gains---well, he's been taken care of, he noted sourly.
Emma's betrayal---oh yes, he remembered what she did; wiping out his memories just like that and he had kept silent waiting for her to explain her actions but none had came. His fiancée's untimely death---he had felt his heart being wretched out of its place and tried to mourn for her but did anyone cared? No!
Brennan's real thoughts of him; not to mention the painful bashings he had received physically and psychologically---oh sure, he was under the influence of an aggression drug but still they must have come from somewhere, right? So they must be true. What a hypocrite!
Worse, oh so much worse was how they always expect him to be much more than what he is. When he is successful in such an endeavour, nobody stop to think or wondered how difficult it was for him; how excruciatingly painful it might be. He's not even asking for much, just a simple thanks would do but does he get them, oh no!
Good old Jesse, never complains of the tasks set out for him, and why not show our gratitude by completely forgetting about it? Let's all just take advantage of him and move on, shall we? And during those times when he does makes mistakes, how quick and efficient were they to point it out to him? How painful the criticisms were to swallow? And isn't the feeling of guilt punishment enough especially for someone like him, who feels and carries such heavy guilt all his life?
As if that weren't enough, he always get stayed behind in so many missions. Deep down he knows that Adam knows he is of much use by his side rather than out there in the fields like the rest of his team mates but he couldn't hide the pangs of jealousy whenever Adam send out his team mates only to leave him behind doing the technicalities.
Tasks, there are always tasks to be done. Fixing the helix, hacking the computers f Genomex or whatever organisation he had to break in to, setting up safe houses for new mutants and a million more menial stuff he has to do before Adam see him fit enough to even consider him for a mission. Brennan doesn't even lift a finger to help and yet he gets chosen as often as he gets rejected for missions. He's like the entire backstage crew while the rest of his team mates are the stars.
It's so unfair!
With that last thought he curled his other hand into a fist, massed and tried to smash the table.He surveyed the damaged done. His knuckles were bleeding from the impact but the table top wasn't even scratched. He's not only weakening, he's pissed.
He looked down and saw a frame that had fallen from the table. He picked it up and stared at it. It was a picture of the Mutant X team including Adam taken sometime last year. Although everyone in the picture was smiling he noted sourly that he was at the corner of the picture. Like an orphan suddenly remembered by a family filled with children and forced into the family portrait. Fury burned.
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O.k that's it. My muse has gone into hiding. Sorry this chpt is shorter than before but I have yet to think of the next chpt but I do have ideas…so bear with me k? u guys have to cut e some slack coz I am way too exhausted coz of school n work but I'll try my best.
Anyway...time to give my gratitude to all those kind and lovely souls who spent time to write their reviews. Appreciated them very much! So personal thanks seemed due…here it goes:
Note, again : In no particular order n sorry if I forgot to mention ur names
koalared : I love it that u love the chpts! Don't worry, of course I will continue to torment Jesse. *evil grin* Look forward to more angst from him, o.k? I can't guarantee on the not killing him part though coz I dislike happy endings…they r so cliques, u know? *winks* Anyway, let me know wat u think, k?
Feline-Feral : I know, I can't wait for more either. I love ur "Surprises All Around" although I find J/S as lovers weird like incest, lol!whatever…it was ur plot…thanks for e encouragement!
brigitta1 : My most loyal fan! If u thought this was Jesse angry ur in for more surprises. Yes, tormenting Jesse further would be necessary and pending in the future. *evil grins and laughter in background followed by flashes of lightning and rolls of thunder* I'm sad too coz I don't think I can cure him. (Gasp!oh e horror, e horror, lol!) let me know wat u think, k?
Kryle: R u still reading this? I hope this was good enuff for u…
gold stranger : hmm…Jesse's getting infected does not bode? Why? Tell me more…I shall try my best not to satisfy u so u'll give more reviews. *winks*
Raquelle2 : Glad u like it! Reviews please! By e way…I love ur "Power Predicament"…sigh!
Laily : Of course of all e bullets in e world our Jesse has to get shot with the serum coated one! He is all the more desirable when he's more vulnerable, right? *winks* Thanks for the encouragement, when can I give mine, huh? Go continue quick with e rest of ur stories!
Amon-ra1996: Ecstatic that u like it. By e way, I did have a nice holiday! Please continue with 'consequences' coz I'm dying here!!!1
Deb1 : Thanks for e review! Looking forward to hearing lots from u. Hah! Now ur hooked and tied around my little fingers, u want more, right? Lol
Rogue : I didn't go anywhere…it's just my muse that ran off and elope with Laily's muse. Lol. O.k, o.k, I get it already. Hope this tide u over till the next chpt. Just "tahan" (bear) with it a little longer, o.k? n I promise I'll be good .*evil grin*
k. tt's it..very sleepy right now..I's about 4 am n I've got to wake up at 5.30am….aaarrggghhh!!!!nite!!!reviews please!!! Now I've got to go coz my bed's calling me…it's missed me.lol!