Yes! It's the truth! Mighty kakite returns from the eternal doom of homework and activities! Ha. Well, This story has turned out to be quite interesting indeed.... Ends up my 'best friend' began to hang out with this guy and totally turned him from the awesome nice guy I knew. Now he's a total jerk like her... Luckily my heart mends easily on the quest for happiness and I'm on the easily found road to love once again. BUT have no fear! It won't end up that way, but it won't be happy either so hold onto your seats for the ride to utter destruction, betrayal, harsh conclusions and lonliness.
At home now, my happiness I once felt has left me now. I should have known it was temporary. My mom asked about Inuyasha, and why he wasn't there with me. I told her that I ended it and you should have seen the look on her face. But I've been thinking too much lately, and I am thinking just how happy I was with Inuyasha, and how good he was to me, and how lonely I am now. I am realizing that maybe I really do love him after all. Yeah, some time to realize this Kagome! I'm such an idiot sometimes it scares me. I want something, I get it, and decide I don't want it, get ride of it and decide I want it again! How MANY times do I have to change my mind before I am happy with my decision.
The well tugs my soul down into a somersault and I'm dizzy as I hit the feudal soil. The cranes I made at home rustle in my backpack... all 500 of them. I tried to make it to a thousand in order to get my mind off of Inuyasha. Turns out a thousand is as big number, and even bigger if you've got something in the back of your mind. More then once the golden square of paper ended up as a dog or a heart rather then a crane.
I remember when I was small, my mother would point to the mounds of colorful birds and tell me that there was a thousand of them in there. That was a big number for a kid as small as I was, and even bigger because it meant one wish. The folder got one wish. And now, today, I made it only halfway there. I have in my bag half a wish. Some people would wish for money, and a half a million dollars isn't too bad. Other people would wish for giant house and get half of a house, which would be not only an architectural marvel but a cool thing to have. But me. I would wish to have Inuyasha back... but you can't get half a lover, nor can you give only a meager half of your love.
And so I am left with this half a wish rustling in my big yellow backpack, precious enough for me to take, and yet not enough for me to get the whole Inuyasha back.
A stone catches the edge of my shoe and my knees crash to the ground, meeting tall grass. A bee buzzes by my ear and I flinch violently, avoiding its angry path. That bee is me in so many ways. I fly aimlessly, only changing my course when I hit something solid, or something goes wrong. Every so often I find a beautiful flower to land on, and on it I gather so many memories, but I have to leave that flower and move on. Memories are my only souvenir.
My knees are still in the itchy grass, they will never be anywhere else.
Everyone has changed in the few days that I have been gone. Inuyasha disappeared yesterday, according to an apologetic Miroku.
I hear a familiar rustle in the trees every so often and turn thinking it's Inuyasha, but am disappointed when I find it is only the wind. Luckily I can return mostly to my energetic self that everyone knew before.
Inuyasha reappeared today from his vacation. I got a glance against everyone else's FEH. I opened my mouth to say something but he was already in his tree waiting for dinner. I caught Sango giving me a puzzled look, which quickly ended as a turned in her direction.
No one seems to be worried about me, even though I go for long walks alone and often get up at night and go to the edge of the river to watch the clear water flowing purposefully downhill to a set destination. I guess it just make me angry because that exactly what I need. Someone to worry about me, little old selfish me. I need someone to say "Kagome are you ok?" to which I would reply "No, I'm doing actually quite horribly thanks."
I'm sitting on a low tree branch right now, looking out across the gurgling water. I could have sworn I saw Kikyo's reflection from this very same spot numerous times. But I try and focus my eyes and it's gone before I can get a clear picture. I wonder at why I'm still here if we're not looking for shards. It is of course because these are the only people that almost understand me. I've drifted too far apart from my friends at home. This harsh reality shoots me in the chest in just such a way that I'm still alive, but the bullet's still there. The bullet taunts me with the fact that even these caring friends aren't giving me the attention I need. Even these people that I love more then the world don't understand my stupid stupid soul.
I find myself back on the trail to camp, the trail I've walked so many times it's more of a path. Suddenly, as if from nowhere I collide with Red and I stumble backwards. It seems this Red is also silver and white, with purple beads and yellow eyes and staring at me angrily.
I sigh and step around it, continuing my walk when I once again crash into Red. I thought it was raining for a moment as I feel a drop hit my arm, then I realize I'm crying.
"Would you stop wandering off like that, I've had it with this whole night walking thing." His voice complains.
"I will wander off when and where I want to until I see reason to stop." My voice snaps, far off from my spinning mind.
"You don't need a fucking reason, woman! But I'll give you one anyway; you'll get killed by all the fucking demons out here. Now get back to the hut before I have to pick you up and carry you back."
That one silences me, but inspires me at the same time. I look to the left for only a second before turning that way and wandering off into the thick foliage. I've always found that if you just stop and walk off, something's bound to happen that was better if you tried to think of the right thing to say. And sure enough, he's coming after me.
"Damn you Kagome, get back here."
I am laughing now for the first time in I don't know how long and crashing as fast as I can through the thick branches. The forest swallows me and closes to the disruptive hanyou on my tail. I stop for a breath and to calm my giggling, which is dieing fast as I remember the reason that rain fell that night.
I wait for Inuyasha to find me as I listen to his crashing get nearer and nearer. I whisper into the wind three unbearable words that I wish reached his ears. But he's found me now and I smile at him. He seems puzzled by that so I continue, laughing a little. I remember now why I loved him so much, why I trusted him, why he made me laugh. But with white comes black, with day comes night, and with love comes hate. It seems Inuyasha has forgotten or refuses to remember why he loved me and what I did for him because he just glares back at my smile.
"Why are you smirking at me, bitch." He insists, and I reply with nothing but a long sigh.
"Amazing the short memory that comes with a broken heart, eh?" I say with a fading smile, observing his comic confusion. Seeing he isn't going to say anything, I decide to explain myself further. "Love is such a stupid thing that it has top have a reason for some of us, and I just remembered mine. Yours unfortunately I think is lost forever. I'm going back to camp now, anyway."
His eyes open wide and glow yellow in the night. As I walk off I whisper, "tell me if you find it, because then I'd like to beg for your forgiveness."
It feels so good to love again. I chuckle to myself as I massage my stomach. I just hope Inuyasha finds his reason again, so that my child can have him as a father. Yes, I'm pregnant. It's been out of my mind for a while, mostly due to my trying to ignore it. The symptoms aren't bad yet and so no one but me really knows. I think they suspected it that day long ago when Inuyasha and I were still together. But not now, two weeks later, I keep that pretty well hidden.
It's comforting to know something no one else knows.
Yup, that's right, the END! No, JUST KIDDING! It will go on! Just tell me if u want a happy ending or a sad ending, though I'm leaning more towards a happy one I guess. Please review, as always I beg! Thanks for reading.
At home now, my happiness I once felt has left me now. I should have known it was temporary. My mom asked about Inuyasha, and why he wasn't there with me. I told her that I ended it and you should have seen the look on her face. But I've been thinking too much lately, and I am thinking just how happy I was with Inuyasha, and how good he was to me, and how lonely I am now. I am realizing that maybe I really do love him after all. Yeah, some time to realize this Kagome! I'm such an idiot sometimes it scares me. I want something, I get it, and decide I don't want it, get ride of it and decide I want it again! How MANY times do I have to change my mind before I am happy with my decision.
The well tugs my soul down into a somersault and I'm dizzy as I hit the feudal soil. The cranes I made at home rustle in my backpack... all 500 of them. I tried to make it to a thousand in order to get my mind off of Inuyasha. Turns out a thousand is as big number, and even bigger if you've got something in the back of your mind. More then once the golden square of paper ended up as a dog or a heart rather then a crane.
I remember when I was small, my mother would point to the mounds of colorful birds and tell me that there was a thousand of them in there. That was a big number for a kid as small as I was, and even bigger because it meant one wish. The folder got one wish. And now, today, I made it only halfway there. I have in my bag half a wish. Some people would wish for money, and a half a million dollars isn't too bad. Other people would wish for giant house and get half of a house, which would be not only an architectural marvel but a cool thing to have. But me. I would wish to have Inuyasha back... but you can't get half a lover, nor can you give only a meager half of your love.
And so I am left with this half a wish rustling in my big yellow backpack, precious enough for me to take, and yet not enough for me to get the whole Inuyasha back.
A stone catches the edge of my shoe and my knees crash to the ground, meeting tall grass. A bee buzzes by my ear and I flinch violently, avoiding its angry path. That bee is me in so many ways. I fly aimlessly, only changing my course when I hit something solid, or something goes wrong. Every so often I find a beautiful flower to land on, and on it I gather so many memories, but I have to leave that flower and move on. Memories are my only souvenir.
My knees are still in the itchy grass, they will never be anywhere else.
Everyone has changed in the few days that I have been gone. Inuyasha disappeared yesterday, according to an apologetic Miroku.
I hear a familiar rustle in the trees every so often and turn thinking it's Inuyasha, but am disappointed when I find it is only the wind. Luckily I can return mostly to my energetic self that everyone knew before.
Inuyasha reappeared today from his vacation. I got a glance against everyone else's FEH. I opened my mouth to say something but he was already in his tree waiting for dinner. I caught Sango giving me a puzzled look, which quickly ended as a turned in her direction.
No one seems to be worried about me, even though I go for long walks alone and often get up at night and go to the edge of the river to watch the clear water flowing purposefully downhill to a set destination. I guess it just make me angry because that exactly what I need. Someone to worry about me, little old selfish me. I need someone to say "Kagome are you ok?" to which I would reply "No, I'm doing actually quite horribly thanks."
I'm sitting on a low tree branch right now, looking out across the gurgling water. I could have sworn I saw Kikyo's reflection from this very same spot numerous times. But I try and focus my eyes and it's gone before I can get a clear picture. I wonder at why I'm still here if we're not looking for shards. It is of course because these are the only people that almost understand me. I've drifted too far apart from my friends at home. This harsh reality shoots me in the chest in just such a way that I'm still alive, but the bullet's still there. The bullet taunts me with the fact that even these caring friends aren't giving me the attention I need. Even these people that I love more then the world don't understand my stupid stupid soul.
I find myself back on the trail to camp, the trail I've walked so many times it's more of a path. Suddenly, as if from nowhere I collide with Red and I stumble backwards. It seems this Red is also silver and white, with purple beads and yellow eyes and staring at me angrily.
I sigh and step around it, continuing my walk when I once again crash into Red. I thought it was raining for a moment as I feel a drop hit my arm, then I realize I'm crying.
"Would you stop wandering off like that, I've had it with this whole night walking thing." His voice complains.
"I will wander off when and where I want to until I see reason to stop." My voice snaps, far off from my spinning mind.
"You don't need a fucking reason, woman! But I'll give you one anyway; you'll get killed by all the fucking demons out here. Now get back to the hut before I have to pick you up and carry you back."
That one silences me, but inspires me at the same time. I look to the left for only a second before turning that way and wandering off into the thick foliage. I've always found that if you just stop and walk off, something's bound to happen that was better if you tried to think of the right thing to say. And sure enough, he's coming after me.
"Damn you Kagome, get back here."
I am laughing now for the first time in I don't know how long and crashing as fast as I can through the thick branches. The forest swallows me and closes to the disruptive hanyou on my tail. I stop for a breath and to calm my giggling, which is dieing fast as I remember the reason that rain fell that night.
I wait for Inuyasha to find me as I listen to his crashing get nearer and nearer. I whisper into the wind three unbearable words that I wish reached his ears. But he's found me now and I smile at him. He seems puzzled by that so I continue, laughing a little. I remember now why I loved him so much, why I trusted him, why he made me laugh. But with white comes black, with day comes night, and with love comes hate. It seems Inuyasha has forgotten or refuses to remember why he loved me and what I did for him because he just glares back at my smile.
"Why are you smirking at me, bitch." He insists, and I reply with nothing but a long sigh.
"Amazing the short memory that comes with a broken heart, eh?" I say with a fading smile, observing his comic confusion. Seeing he isn't going to say anything, I decide to explain myself further. "Love is such a stupid thing that it has top have a reason for some of us, and I just remembered mine. Yours unfortunately I think is lost forever. I'm going back to camp now, anyway."
His eyes open wide and glow yellow in the night. As I walk off I whisper, "tell me if you find it, because then I'd like to beg for your forgiveness."
It feels so good to love again. I chuckle to myself as I massage my stomach. I just hope Inuyasha finds his reason again, so that my child can have him as a father. Yes, I'm pregnant. It's been out of my mind for a while, mostly due to my trying to ignore it. The symptoms aren't bad yet and so no one but me really knows. I think they suspected it that day long ago when Inuyasha and I were still together. But not now, two weeks later, I keep that pretty well hidden.
It's comforting to know something no one else knows.
Yup, that's right, the END! No, JUST KIDDING! It will go on! Just tell me if u want a happy ending or a sad ending, though I'm leaning more towards a happy one I guess. Please review, as always I beg! Thanks for reading.