"That was good pizza," I said, breaking the ever so nerve-racking silence that had gone on throughout all of our meal. Or rather, me sitting eating pizza while Heero typed away at that blasted laptop, zombily eating at a slice of pizza. Can't you at least eat with me? What's so important that you can't take a little break?
"Yeah,"
"So…Heero" I hesitated. Just take a deep breath and ask him, Duo.
"Yeah?"
"Can I tell you something?"
"Sure" he replied, not even looking up from the screen. I took a breath, then another, trying to keep from becoming too nervous.
"We-we're friends, right?"
"Yep" he took another bite of pizza and asked with his mouth full, "z tha all?"
"No, not quite. I just wanted to, that is, had to ask…" Damn it, this is hard! "Well, I was wondering…"
"What?" he asked with slight concern in his voice.
"I've been thinking," I started, "We've been doing lots of missions together and stuff and I noticed, or stared to kind of see, at least I think, well. I…(long pause) Heero I love you!" There, I said it. I bit my lip as I waited for a reaction from him. He stopped typing and looked up at me, but I couldn't tell what he was thinking, his emotions were hidden. There was a long silence. Say something! Anything! I could feel my face turning red. My heartbeat pounded in my ears.
"I…" he began, "don't" The finality and simplicity of his words cut me. My heart dropped like an anchor in the depths of my soul. He doesn't love me. "I love Relena, you know that," he continued gently. "I can only love her" It was simple, true, but hurtful. He didn't mean to hurt me with that, I'm sure. He was just telling me the truth. Well how did you think he was going to react? Were you expecting him to run into your arms and cry out to you "Oh Duo! I've been waiting for this day for ever! I have always loved you but I have been too afraid to tell you!"? Just face it. He doesn't love you. You need to move on. But I can't move on! I love him even though he doesn't return my love! I was lost in a sea of confusion. I couldn't think straight. I need to get away. I got up and walked to the door.
"Yeah, Relena. I know. Sorry. Just forget it. I-I'm going to go…take a walk, don't wait up for me," I managed to sputter. Words were failing me. I began to open the door. Tears were forming in my eyes. Don't cry Duo, not here, not in front of Heero. He doesn't need that. He already feels bad enough. Just go.
"I'm sorry Duo," He said softly. "I really am."
Slowly, I closed the door behind me and left. Now, unable to hold them in, the tears began to stream down my face. I rushed outside to calm myself and headed for Quatre and Trowa's place.