By the time I arrived at Trowa and Quatre's front door, I had stopped crying. I still wasn't feeling all that great, but at least I could think straight again. What was I thinking? I should have waited until he made a move. But he wouldn't have. So it was for the best, right? Maybe not…maybe it would have been different had I kept my mouth shut. Shut up, Duo! You know that you wouldn't have been able to keep it a secret forever. Don't dwell on whether it would have worked out better, because it's never going to be the way you want it. So just forget it. I rang the doorbell. I can't forget though.

Okay, I'll try to think of something else. Uhhh…the sky! Yeah, that has nothing to do with Heero. It's so blue and beautiful, a perfect color…like Heero's eyes, so deep, so blue. Well, that didn't work. Let's try…that candy wrapper on the ground over there. It's bubble gum, I think. Hehe, I remember that one time I made Heero try some bubble gum I had bought. He blew this huge bubble and it stayed all blown out. So he took it out of his mouth and popped it al over my face. I took hours to get it all out of my hair, but he actually laughed, a rare occurrence, so I wasn't mad. Yeah… that was fun. Dammit, this is hopeless! Everything, even garbage, makes me think of him. This is so hard! Just then, the door opened to reveal a very hyper Quatre.

"Duo! What's up?" he asked. Quickly, I tried to look like I was perfectly fine and happy.

"Oh, just wanted to drop in and hangout for a while" I answered mock-casually.

"Sure," He said cheerfully. "Where's Heero?"

"He, h-he's not coming" I faltered.

"Oh, oh ok," he said slowly. He studied me for a couple seconds, and then turned in the directon of the kitchen. "Make you comfortable," he said, motioning to the couch. "Trowa! Duo's here!"

"Ok! I'm coming!" came Trowa's voice from the other room.

"He's making cookies," Quatre said, smiling.

"Trowa bakes? No way!" I laughed.

"I thought he was kidding when he asked how to make them, but he really wanted to try,"

"That's cool, I guess. I mean I definitely can't cook. It's a useful trade I suppose"

"Yeah, besides, he's having so much fun with it." Right then, Trowa came in with a plate of cookies. He was covered in flour and melted chocolate. He looked really funny, so I couldn't help but laugh.

"Cookies!" he exclaimed. "Hope you like 'em!"

" I looked at the cookies, and couldn't bring myself to eat one. Chocolate makes me think of Heero. He loves chocolate, almost as mucb as I do. I couldn't.

"Heero, right? It's ok, Duo. We know" Quatre said. Confused, I sat down on the couch. We had a lot to discuss…