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Warning: Shounen-ai.... Seiji/Touma and Shin/Shuu. Seiji/Touma is still the main focus of course.

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Nightmares and Sickness

By: NightShadow

Chapter Eighteen

Relief

It was a few hours later when Touma woke up. Looking at Seiji he found him still, thankfully, sleeping peacefully. He climbed out of bed carefully so he wouldn't wake the sleeping blonde. He definitely needed his rest and Touma didn't want to be the one to disturb him. He was relieved to see that the swordsman hadn't had another horrible nightmare.

The blue-haired archer went to their balcony and just sat there enjoying the cool breeze of the wind. He thought about Seiji and how he was tortured by Tomo. How could I have let that happen? He foolishly questioned himself, yet again. He had no idea what Seiji had to endure, and had no intention of asking, not only did he just not want to know, he didn't want to make Seiji relive all the horrible things that must have happened to him. The only good thing that had come out of all this was that he had finally been able to tell Seiji that he loved him. That definitely didn't make up for it though. He would give up their relationship, if necessary, to take back what Tomo had done to his blonde. There would always be the chance that he'd summon up enough courage to tell Seiji a different time. However, he couldn't take back all the things that Tomo had done to Seiji so there was no point in thinking about it really.

Touma jumped when he felt strong arms circle around his shoulders. He soon relaxed when he found out that it was Seiji.

"What are you doing out here?" Seiji asked, his voice sounding strained and tired.

"Just thinking." Touma replied, thinking it best to not tell Seiji to get more sleep, though it sounded like he needed it. Seiji certainly wouldn't appreciate it.

"About what?" The blonde asked next to Touma's ear.

A shiver ran down Touma's spine. "The past few weeks." He felt bad for mentioning it when he felt Seiji tense. "I'm s--"

The swordsman had moved in front of him and cut him off with a kiss. "You don't need to apologize. I am the one who asked what you were thinking about." He stated honestly. "Don't feel guilty about all of it either. None of it is your fault. Promise me you won't."

Touma looked away from his lover but Seiji pulled his head back so he could look directly into his eyes. "Promise me."

Touma sighed, giving in, knowing he wouldn't be able to get away without promising. "Alright, I promise." Even though he just promised this, he still knew it would take a long time before he finally did stop blaming himself.

Seiji grabbed a chair and pulled it in front of Touma so he was facing him.

"How are you feeling?" The archer asked after a while of silence.

"Better than I was during breakfast." He answered truthfully. Sure, he still felt a little dizzy and nauseous, but nothing compared to what he had felt like in the morning.

Touma nodded. "Do you think you'll be able to eat anything?"

"I'm not hungry right now. Maybe later."

The archer frowned. "Seiji, you need to eat something. You're still not eating right and you just threw up everything that you had to eat."

The blonde looked down at his hands in his lap. "I told you I'm not hungry. I'll try later."

"Stubborn." He muttered under his breath. He knew there was no way he'd be able to get Seiji to eat anything at the moment so gave up. He will eat something later. He thought determinedly.

They heard someone knock on their door. Touma got up and answered it. He found Ryo standing there waiting. "You can come in if you want."

"Alright." He said stepping into their room. "I was just wondering how Seiji was doing." Ryo said feeling like he was imposing. "I was also wondering if you guys wanted to go on a picnic. Shin and Shuu are bothin coming. Shin has already started to make the food." They had reached the balcony while Ryo was talking.

The ebony-haired trooper looked at Seiji and noticed he seemed more tired than he had the other day. I guess it's to be expected. He shrugged it off.

"What do you think, koi? Are you up to it?" Touma questioned the blonde, not sure if he even should go since he needed a lot more rest., but he couldn't just tell him that he wasn't allowed to go. That would surely ruin their relationship.

Seiji shrugged. "Sure, sounds fun." He really didn't want to go but if he said no the others would get all worried and ask questions.

Touma could tell that Seiji wasn't telling them something but didn't ask the blonde knowing that he wouldn't tell him anything unless he wanted to. "When are we going to leave?"

"Around noon. Pretty much whenever Shin is finished." Ryo answered, guessing how long it would take the water trooper with the food. With how much Shuu eats it could take longer than that. He thought jokingly. Well, Touma eats quite a bit too.

Touma looked at the clock and saw it was 11:47. "Alright, we'll be down in a few."

Ryo nodded and left. He didn't know if it really was a good idea for Seiji to be going anywhere even if it was hot out, especially after what happened at breakfast. However, the blonde needed to get out of the house and do something. Besides, it would be rude if Shin, Shuu and himself just left without asking either of the other troopers. He just hoped it wasn't a mistake.

"Are you sure you really want to go?" Touam asked concerned.

"Un, it might help take my mind off other things and help me relax." Not only was the swordsman feeling nauseous and dizzy but he also felt trapped. At first when he came back from the hospital he welcomed being home but now he was stuck there; not able to do anything that he wanted like he used to. The troopers being protective of him since his capture. It damaged his pride even more but he'd allow it, at least until his fever subsided. You'd think it'd be gone by now. Seiji thought disturbed.

"If you're sure..."

"Hai." The blonde was getting tired of his overprotectiveness. He still loved the man a lot but he didn't need to be so protective. "Let me take a quick shower. Then I'll go downstairs." He felt dirty, like he really needed a shower, especially since he was actually getting out of the house. He hadn't been able to take one in quite a while since he hadn't been able to support himself but now he could so he jumped at the opportunity.

Seiji turned to get his clothes and felt strong but gentle arms surround his waist. "Gomen, koi, I'm just concerned." Touma gave a sad sigh. "You scared the hell out of me when you went missing and then the hospital..." He trailed off not wanting to mention those thoughts.

Seiji shuddered, thinking about the past events and then he leaned back against Touma, dismissing his bad thoughts. "I know, you're only worried, and you have every right to be. I guess I'm just a little uptight about being stuck inside for so long and not being about to do anything by myself, not that I don't love your company." The blonde said meaning every word but thinking, I want to meditate. Even after what happened he still needed to meditate. It relaxed him so much that he didn't have a care in the world; he didn't have to think about anything, which would be a major relief. He knew he probably wouldn't be able to meditate in a long time though since Tomo had captured him while meditating.

Seiji turned to face Touma and gave him a passionate kiss. "I'm going to take my shower now. Tell the guys I'll be down once I'm done."

"Okay, have fun." Touma smiled and let Seiji go. Then he left and went down to the others.

Seiji shook his head in amusement. He picked up his clothes and once more headed for the bathroom; this time not being stopped. The blonde turned the dials to make the water the right temperature. Once he got it right he took off his clothes and stepped in, enjoying the feel of the warm water cascading downhis smooth skin. Though he did have some scars his skin was still as smooth as it had ever been.

He let out a content sigh. This is really what I needed.
Touma got downstairs and saw that Shuu was trying to eat some of the food that Shin was trying to make. "Stop, love. You can have some later, when it's ready." He heard Shin shout at the Kongo bearer.

Touma saw Shuu pout. "You know that doesn't work on him, Shuu. Why do you even bother?" He said, surprising both troopers since they hadn't known he was in the room.

"Where's Seiji?" Ryo asked confused.

"He's taking a shower. He'll be down in a while."

"Is he feeling well?" Shin asked, ever being the mother-hen.

"I'm not so sure, but I do think it'll be good for him to get out of the house and actually do something."

They nodded. Shin went back to preparing with Ryo helping. Touma went to help as well. He also grabbed some medicine, just in case Seiji should need it. Can never be too careful. The archer thought while picking up a case of the pills.

Minutes later they were done and just had to wait for Seiji to finish up.

About ten minutes later Seiji came down wearing a blue shirt with black pants. He looked a lot more refreshed than he had been.

"Are you ready?" Touma asked, happy that Seiji looked better.

"Hai." He followed the others out. Shin locked the door behind them and then they set out to find a good place to have their picnic.
The troopers had just found a spot so started to set up. Beautiful trees surrounded them and the grass was lush all around. There was still clear sky with no chance of rain. Even if it did rain the great tree that they were sitting under would keep them dry.

Seiji didn't really feel up to the picnic, for he still felt nauseous but tried to ingnore it.

"Is everything alright?" Touma asked, concerned when he saw Seiji's face; you could easily tell something was wrong. Whether Seiji would actually admit it was a whole different story.

"Un, just thinking." That was partially true. He was thinking about not wanting to be there.

Touma knew that would be the response and that he wouldn't get a different one so he jsut let it go. Seiji wouldn't tell him.... at least not yet.

By then everything was out and they were ready to eat, to Seiji's dismay. He'd have to eat to put up the front that he was, infact, alright.

The blonde ate little food, but enough and no one questioned him because of his incident during breakfast.

After eating they just sat or laid down and talked; just had fun.

It had been hours later when they finally decided that they should head back home. It was already dark out. Seiji, who had been leaning against Touma with his head on his shoulder, fell asleep not long ago. The exhaution of the morning events having their effect on his still slightly weak state.

The blue-haired archer picked his lover up without disturbing him and carried him.

"Must have been a lot more tired than he thought." Shin said, carrying the blanket they had used to sit on. Shuu was carrying the food and Ryo just walked beside Touma and Seiji.

"I'm kind of surprised he made it this late. He looked so tired before the shower. I guess it helped him a lot." Touma stated.

"Well, it's a good thing he's finally getting rest. We all know he needs it." Ryo said relieved.

They continued walking, occasionally one of them would start up a conversation. They had been glad that the picnic went well.

Seiji woke with the sun shinning through the window onto his face. He didn't mind that much for he liked the sun, but didn't appreciate it at this moment.

The blonde turned away from the sun, and saw that Touma was next to him, still sleeping. He smiled and closed his eyes, falling back into his peaceful sleep.

Touma woke up minutes after Seiji had fallen back asleep, and got out of his bed, without waking Seiji. He checked the blonde's forehead for a fever and was relieved and very ecstatic to find that it was completely gone... finally.

Seiji murmured something and moved. He then slowly opened his beautiful violet eyes and stared at his lover. He felt a lot better than he had yesterday. He yawned and sat up.

Touma threw his arms around Seiji and kissed him deeply, no longer able to hold in his excitment.

At first Seiji was taken aback by the archer's actions but quickly fell into the kiss. He realized that his fever must be gone. He had felt Touma's hand on his forehead and then opened his eyes to see the immense relief on his lover's face.

When they broke apart they wasted no time waiting for the next and devoured each other's mouths again.

Owari

And it ends really happy.... -=sniff sniff=- Kinda sad... that it's over. It lasted for quite a while. I made it longer than they have been lately.... hope you guys enjoyed it!! I'm workin' on an InuYasha fic now and the LOTR fic still, that's not complete yet. Oh, and if ya wanna know what the InuYasha fic is goin' to be about check out my profile; there's a couple summaries there. But anywayz.. hope you all enjoyed this fic!

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