Chapter Five: Tears at the Grave
Tohru sprinted through the rain carrying an umbrella with her looking every which way for a sign of Kyo. But because it was so cloudy it was almost impossible. She brushed a hand through her hair as she stopped and gazed at her surroundings.
"He couldn't have gotten too far" she thought to herself as she continued to walk.
She finally spotted him in a strange field covered with gravestones. As she walked towards him she noticed that each of the markers had the name Sohma on them.
"This must be where all the Sohmas are buried," she said to herself as she cautiously walked up to him.
He was on his knees staring at the ground. Suddenly he struck the ground with his fist.
"Damn it. Damn it all to hell. How could you do this to me? How could you be so selfish!" he yelled at the grave that he was in front of, "Did you think I'd be better off! Do you know what you left me with! A father who cares nothing for me! A father who didn't explain a damn thing! A father who blamed me for everything! Damn you! I hate you! You selfish, horrible," he started to cry so many tears that he could barely see, "How could you leave me like that! Don't you know you were the only person who ever loved me and cared about me? You were all I had."
Tohru walked over and stood behind him as he continued to cry. She felt the tears fall down her own face as she saw how much pain he was going through.
"How could you think that I'd be better off? What was going through your head? I don't understand. I don't understand any of this!" he threw the crumpled envelope and the letter, which he had taken with him towards the grave, "You coward! You pathetic loser!"
"I'm sorry" Tohru spoke up.
"Huh?" he looked up then looked behind him.
"I'm so sorry Kyo" she repeated, "I can't do anything. I can't do anything to help you. Just like I couldn't do anything to save mom."
"Tohru?"
"I'm worthless" she sank to her knees, "I can't save anyone. I can't" she cried, "I'm just worthless."
"Tohru don't say that" he said coming over to her and kneeling before, "You're not worthless."
"But I can't help you. I don't know what to do in this situation."
"No one asked you to."
"I couldn't save her. Why did they die Kyo? Why did she have to die?"
Kyo sighed and nodded his head as if he understood.
"It's not as if it was something we could change."
She looked up at him.
"We had no power over it. So blaming ourselves like we've been doing is stupid. Really isn't it? I mean I have blaming myself for mother's death and you've been doing the same. Maybe silently. But you have been haven't you?"
She nodded her head.
"We're both a couple of idiots" he said, "What happened, happened. We can't change that. No matter how hard we may wish it. I don't want you to fix my problem Tohru. I only want you to do one thing."
"What's that?"
"Just be yourself. That's all I have ever wanted. No matter how different the rest of the world acts, I don't want you to change. And I don't want to see you cry anymore. You've suffered enough.
"And so have you."
"Huh?"
"And so have you. Don't you think?"
"Yea" he nodded.
"We should get back it's getting cold" Tohru replied starting to get up.
"Wait before we go, I wanted to tell you something" he pulled at her hand so she would remain kneeling.
"Okay" she said, "What is it?"
"I saw your mother one last time after my mom passed away. She came to the funeral."
"Really?"
"Yea. I'll never forget it."
(FLASHBACK)
Kyo Sohma stood by a tree crying so hard. Harder than he ever had. He did it in secret though. He didn't want anyone to see him cry. From around the corner of the house Kyoko Honda came over to him.
"Hi there Kyo" she said with a smile as she knelt down.
"Go away!" he replied gruffly.
"I realize that you're upset. But I had to see you before I left."
"Huh?"
"You know, your mommy loved you so much."
"I know! She's the only one that loved me!"
"What?" Kyoko looked at him in surprise.
"My daddy doesn't love me. Nobody else in the family loves me either."
"I'm sure that's not true."
"It is. They all blame me. They blame me for her dying."
Kyoko frowned but nodded.
"Well that's their loss."
"Huh?"
"That they don't understand what a neat little guy you are" she patted his head, "Oh by the way I went into your house and got something for you" she pulled the photograph out that he had looked at so many times, "I know how much you liked it" she handed it to him, "And I also know that your mom would want you to have it."
"Thank you" he said in a small voice as he pressed it against his chest.
"I have to go now Kyo" she stood up.
"Will I ever see you again?" he looked up at her with hopeful eyes.
"Oh I hope so. But until then do you think that you can promise me something."
"Uh huh" he nodded.
(END FLASHBACK)
"That was the last time I ever saw her" Kyo replied, "I still have the photograph, but it's at my Master's."
"What was the promise she asked you to keep Kyo?" Tohru asked.
"Huh? Oh I don't really remember. I was so young and all."
"Oh. Hey the sun is coming out" she replied as she stood up, "We should head back huh?"
"Yea" he nodded, "Go wait at the gate. I'll be there in a minute," he said as he stood up.
"Okay" she nodded.
Authors Note: Hi everybody! Only one more to go! It's going to be real short too! So I will see you at the end!
Next Chapter: Solemn Vow
Tohru sprinted through the rain carrying an umbrella with her looking every which way for a sign of Kyo. But because it was so cloudy it was almost impossible. She brushed a hand through her hair as she stopped and gazed at her surroundings.
"He couldn't have gotten too far" she thought to herself as she continued to walk.
She finally spotted him in a strange field covered with gravestones. As she walked towards him she noticed that each of the markers had the name Sohma on them.
"This must be where all the Sohmas are buried," she said to herself as she cautiously walked up to him.
He was on his knees staring at the ground. Suddenly he struck the ground with his fist.
"Damn it. Damn it all to hell. How could you do this to me? How could you be so selfish!" he yelled at the grave that he was in front of, "Did you think I'd be better off! Do you know what you left me with! A father who cares nothing for me! A father who didn't explain a damn thing! A father who blamed me for everything! Damn you! I hate you! You selfish, horrible," he started to cry so many tears that he could barely see, "How could you leave me like that! Don't you know you were the only person who ever loved me and cared about me? You were all I had."
Tohru walked over and stood behind him as he continued to cry. She felt the tears fall down her own face as she saw how much pain he was going through.
"How could you think that I'd be better off? What was going through your head? I don't understand. I don't understand any of this!" he threw the crumpled envelope and the letter, which he had taken with him towards the grave, "You coward! You pathetic loser!"
"I'm sorry" Tohru spoke up.
"Huh?" he looked up then looked behind him.
"I'm so sorry Kyo" she repeated, "I can't do anything. I can't do anything to help you. Just like I couldn't do anything to save mom."
"Tohru?"
"I'm worthless" she sank to her knees, "I can't save anyone. I can't" she cried, "I'm just worthless."
"Tohru don't say that" he said coming over to her and kneeling before, "You're not worthless."
"But I can't help you. I don't know what to do in this situation."
"No one asked you to."
"I couldn't save her. Why did they die Kyo? Why did she have to die?"
Kyo sighed and nodded his head as if he understood.
"It's not as if it was something we could change."
She looked up at him.
"We had no power over it. So blaming ourselves like we've been doing is stupid. Really isn't it? I mean I have blaming myself for mother's death and you've been doing the same. Maybe silently. But you have been haven't you?"
She nodded her head.
"We're both a couple of idiots" he said, "What happened, happened. We can't change that. No matter how hard we may wish it. I don't want you to fix my problem Tohru. I only want you to do one thing."
"What's that?"
"Just be yourself. That's all I have ever wanted. No matter how different the rest of the world acts, I don't want you to change. And I don't want to see you cry anymore. You've suffered enough.
"And so have you."
"Huh?"
"And so have you. Don't you think?"
"Yea" he nodded.
"We should get back it's getting cold" Tohru replied starting to get up.
"Wait before we go, I wanted to tell you something" he pulled at her hand so she would remain kneeling.
"Okay" she said, "What is it?"
"I saw your mother one last time after my mom passed away. She came to the funeral."
"Really?"
"Yea. I'll never forget it."
(FLASHBACK)
Kyo Sohma stood by a tree crying so hard. Harder than he ever had. He did it in secret though. He didn't want anyone to see him cry. From around the corner of the house Kyoko Honda came over to him.
"Hi there Kyo" she said with a smile as she knelt down.
"Go away!" he replied gruffly.
"I realize that you're upset. But I had to see you before I left."
"Huh?"
"You know, your mommy loved you so much."
"I know! She's the only one that loved me!"
"What?" Kyoko looked at him in surprise.
"My daddy doesn't love me. Nobody else in the family loves me either."
"I'm sure that's not true."
"It is. They all blame me. They blame me for her dying."
Kyoko frowned but nodded.
"Well that's their loss."
"Huh?"
"That they don't understand what a neat little guy you are" she patted his head, "Oh by the way I went into your house and got something for you" she pulled the photograph out that he had looked at so many times, "I know how much you liked it" she handed it to him, "And I also know that your mom would want you to have it."
"Thank you" he said in a small voice as he pressed it against his chest.
"I have to go now Kyo" she stood up.
"Will I ever see you again?" he looked up at her with hopeful eyes.
"Oh I hope so. But until then do you think that you can promise me something."
"Uh huh" he nodded.
(END FLASHBACK)
"That was the last time I ever saw her" Kyo replied, "I still have the photograph, but it's at my Master's."
"What was the promise she asked you to keep Kyo?" Tohru asked.
"Huh? Oh I don't really remember. I was so young and all."
"Oh. Hey the sun is coming out" she replied as she stood up, "We should head back huh?"
"Yea" he nodded, "Go wait at the gate. I'll be there in a minute," he said as he stood up.
"Okay" she nodded.
Authors Note: Hi everybody! Only one more to go! It's going to be real short too! So I will see you at the end!
Next Chapter: Solemn Vow