Spirit Within.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me.
I've been alone all along.
My Immortal – Evanescence
You never did spend Christmas day with us. Not once in the three or four years you worked by my side, or as my lover, or as my best friend. I don't know if you were lonely each year. I never thought to look for you, ask you over. I know what answer I would have got off you anyway.
"Have you ever wanted to spend Christmas day with six people who you spend every day with knowing they hate you? Probably not. But you're not me are you Luv?"
I try to look happy. For the others sake. As they laugh and joke. Singing happily and drunkenly on Dawn's new karaoke machine, a present from Xander. I know she's not old enough to drink but I let her today, and she's singing loudly, crashing into the tree stood in the corner. Burbles lie around broken now as Willow laughs and Dawn giggles. If you were here, I know you'd be smirking too. Safe in the knowledge that you were right when you told me it's not a good idea to let teenagers drink no matter what the celebration. Of course I went against you, thinking I knew best.
I know that because you've never spent this day with me I shouldn't be bothered now. But I am. Maybe it's because I know I won't see you the next day. Or the day after that. Or ever again. It hurts to think it. Hear from my friends. But I know you're here. In the form of your lighter, left accidently at my house and in spirit within me. Merry Christmas Spike.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me.
I've been alone all along.
My Immortal – Evanescence
You never did spend Christmas day with us. Not once in the three or four years you worked by my side, or as my lover, or as my best friend. I don't know if you were lonely each year. I never thought to look for you, ask you over. I know what answer I would have got off you anyway.
"Have you ever wanted to spend Christmas day with six people who you spend every day with knowing they hate you? Probably not. But you're not me are you Luv?"
I try to look happy. For the others sake. As they laugh and joke. Singing happily and drunkenly on Dawn's new karaoke machine, a present from Xander. I know she's not old enough to drink but I let her today, and she's singing loudly, crashing into the tree stood in the corner. Burbles lie around broken now as Willow laughs and Dawn giggles. If you were here, I know you'd be smirking too. Safe in the knowledge that you were right when you told me it's not a good idea to let teenagers drink no matter what the celebration. Of course I went against you, thinking I knew best.
I know that because you've never spent this day with me I shouldn't be bothered now. But I am. Maybe it's because I know I won't see you the next day. Or the day after that. Or ever again. It hurts to think it. Hear from my friends. But I know you're here. In the form of your lighter, left accidently at my house and in spirit within me. Merry Christmas Spike.