Freedom Chapter One
(Duo POV)
I am grocery shopping today. I suppose living on L1 has advantages, things like a high population so it has alot of local grocery stores. It is also illegal to own any personal transportation, other than a bicycle. The colony has a complex system of bullet trains, which produce no polution and are the fastest form of public transportation in the universe. A bullet uses elecrtomagnetism to actually hover one-fourth of an inch above the tracks. Pretty cool.
I have lived on L1 since Hilde and Dorothy got married. Before, when they were just dating, me and Hilde both lived on L2, in separate houses. But after Hilde left to go live in Earth with Dorothy and be a Preventer along side the forked-eye-browed wonder. I decided to move too, so I packed up and moved to L1. I am currently living in one of L1's infamous, monotonous houses. All the houses on L1 look the same, some have a basement, but that doesn't change it's appearence much. All the houses a white with a grey roof, they have the same design, and they all have a tree in front of them. Except, i painted my front door red, so it is special.
I heard that Wufei was on a mission on L1 today. I am hoping to avoid him at all costs. Wufei has special senses that can tell when you're lying to him, especially when you are hiding emotions. I don't think I'd be able to hide my suicidal feelings from him. But I don't see why he should be so upset about me wanting to be dead, he has always gave me the impression that he didn't like me very much. But the thing about Wufei is, he is severly honor-bound, I can't help but think he wouldn't hesitate to lock me away in a padded room for good.
But maybe, I'm over reacting. Maybe he wouldn't notice, or maybe he wouldn't care. I hope he wouldn't notice, much as Wufei dislikes me, it would still hurt to know that he doesn't care that I'm emotionally hurt and dying. I wonder if people would think I'm selfish because I'm in love with Heero and he's with Trowa. I know Wufei would, he's like that.
(Heero POV)
I visited Relena in prison yesterday. She got sent to jail when someone ratted on her about all the illegal shit she's done (like stalking and reading other people's mail) and at the party we had after the Mariemaia thing, she thought that Duo was in love with me (I honestly haven't got any idea where she got that idea) and felt that she could never get me to show my true feeling towards her with him in the way. So she shot Duo in the chest, almost killed him too. He was in a coma for a month and after that his self confidence was pretty much gone. So as soon as he fully recovered, he packed up and left for the L2 colony cluster.
Now, Duo, is living on L1. At first, I wasn't sure why Duo wanted to live on a Japanese colony. Of course, I didn't know he could speak Japanese, appearently he does.
I've decided to visit Duo today. That's why I'm on a shuttle to L1 right now. I suppose I should have called first, but Howard only gave me Duo's address. I wish I would have visited him sooner. I don't think I would be as normal as I am now if it wasn't for him. He introduced me to reading books and smiling.
I wouldn't have ever been able to have semi-successful relationships if I hadn't met Duo. Maybe that's why Relena thought Duo loved me. When I found out that was why she shot him, I just started laughing! I think I would know if Duo was in love with me, Duo isn't afraid of rejection. He would have said something.
Wouldn't he?
(Duo's POV)
I am so bored. Since I got home from my shopping, I've been meandering about my house, picking up reandom clutter and dusting off knick-knacks. I suppose I should vacuum after I'm done to finish the job. God, I feel like a housewife right now. I even have a some rice-crispie treats cooling on my kitchen counter.
I'm almost done cleaning now. I just have to vacuum my bedroom, then I can eat my treats and sit down with my favorite book ever, 'Catcher in the Rye'. Ever since Relena shot me and I found out that there is no way in hell that Heero will ever love me, I've become a bit of a book freak. Some of my favorites are 'Catcher in the Rye', 'Boy Meets Boy', 'The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big Round Things', and 'Ella Enchanted' (1).
I guess that kinda means that Relena was good for something. Of course, I'd liked 'Catcher in the Rye' since I was fifteen, during the war. I even got Heero into it. I think I have that kind of effect on people. The odd talent to affect their actions. Pretty pointless talent if you ask me, it wouldn't do you any good unless your friend was trying to kill himself--and I'm the only one I know who is even remotely suicidal.
I wish Heero loved me. I know I love him more than anything in the world. But I'm too afraid of rejection to say anything. I'm just a stupid, horrible coward. I don't even deserve to live anymore.
I was brought out of my reverie when I here tapping on my door. I turn off the vacuum cleaner and walk to the door. I hope it isn't Wufei. That would just about ruin my whole fucking day. Slowly I open the door, praying to God it isn't Wufei.
It isn't. It's Heero. I haven't seen Heero since after I got out of the hospital from my bullet wound. God, I hope he isn't just here to tell me Relena died or some shit like that.
"Hi, Duo! How have you been?" oh my God, since when is he ever this happy?
"I've been fine," I'm such a liar.
"Great! Can I come in?"
I mentally slap myself for being so rude to the love of my life. "Oh, sorry, Heero. Come in. I've got some rice-crispie treats, would you like one?"
"Yeah, okay," I didn't know Heero liked sweet stuff.
I led him into my living room and go off to the kitchen.
(Heero's POV)
It didn't take long to find Duo's home. Since I grew up on L1, I knew where his street was. Duo's house looks just like all the others on his street, except for the black, metal house-numbers by the door reading '289'.
I walk up the steps to Duo's front door and knock lightly. I wait a few moments before I see Duo's face poking out from inside the house.
"Hi, Duo! How have you been?"
"I've been fine," that's good, I was afraid I would find Duo a real mess.
"Great! Can I come in?" I hope I don't sound too happy.
"Oh, sorry, Heero. Come in. I've got some rice-crispie treats, would you like one?"
"Yeah, okay," yum! I love reice-crispie treats.
Duo led me into the living room and he leaves for the kitchen. I notice 'Catcher in the Rye' sitting on Duo's coffee table. I pick it up and flip to my favorite part.
(Duo's POV)
I cannot believe Heero-fucking-Yuy is in my living room right now! Jesus Christ, what a way to depress me more. And why the hell is he so happy? I thought he was the Mr. Stoic-Dark-and-Silent of the year!
Dammit, this sucks. Why did Heero wait two years before visiting me? Does he really just not like me very much? Is he just doing this because Quatre made him? Of all my old war friends, Trowa is the only one who visits me regularly and Quatre calls everyday. Wufei and I have seen each other three times in the last two years, all of which were when I was on a mission.
I haven't made any new friends on L1. I'm kind of a lost cause when it comes to being social. I guess it could be worse, I could be drinking, or doing drugs, or even out whoring myself shudder. If you look at it that way, cutting myself and wanting to die isn't as bad as it could be.
At least, I think it is.
(Footnotes)
1- these are all really good books, I love all of them.
(Duo POV)
I am grocery shopping today. I suppose living on L1 has advantages, things like a high population so it has alot of local grocery stores. It is also illegal to own any personal transportation, other than a bicycle. The colony has a complex system of bullet trains, which produce no polution and are the fastest form of public transportation in the universe. A bullet uses elecrtomagnetism to actually hover one-fourth of an inch above the tracks. Pretty cool.
I have lived on L1 since Hilde and Dorothy got married. Before, when they were just dating, me and Hilde both lived on L2, in separate houses. But after Hilde left to go live in Earth with Dorothy and be a Preventer along side the forked-eye-browed wonder. I decided to move too, so I packed up and moved to L1. I am currently living in one of L1's infamous, monotonous houses. All the houses on L1 look the same, some have a basement, but that doesn't change it's appearence much. All the houses a white with a grey roof, they have the same design, and they all have a tree in front of them. Except, i painted my front door red, so it is special.
I heard that Wufei was on a mission on L1 today. I am hoping to avoid him at all costs. Wufei has special senses that can tell when you're lying to him, especially when you are hiding emotions. I don't think I'd be able to hide my suicidal feelings from him. But I don't see why he should be so upset about me wanting to be dead, he has always gave me the impression that he didn't like me very much. But the thing about Wufei is, he is severly honor-bound, I can't help but think he wouldn't hesitate to lock me away in a padded room for good.
But maybe, I'm over reacting. Maybe he wouldn't notice, or maybe he wouldn't care. I hope he wouldn't notice, much as Wufei dislikes me, it would still hurt to know that he doesn't care that I'm emotionally hurt and dying. I wonder if people would think I'm selfish because I'm in love with Heero and he's with Trowa. I know Wufei would, he's like that.
(Heero POV)
I visited Relena in prison yesterday. She got sent to jail when someone ratted on her about all the illegal shit she's done (like stalking and reading other people's mail) and at the party we had after the Mariemaia thing, she thought that Duo was in love with me (I honestly haven't got any idea where she got that idea) and felt that she could never get me to show my true feeling towards her with him in the way. So she shot Duo in the chest, almost killed him too. He was in a coma for a month and after that his self confidence was pretty much gone. So as soon as he fully recovered, he packed up and left for the L2 colony cluster.
Now, Duo, is living on L1. At first, I wasn't sure why Duo wanted to live on a Japanese colony. Of course, I didn't know he could speak Japanese, appearently he does.
I've decided to visit Duo today. That's why I'm on a shuttle to L1 right now. I suppose I should have called first, but Howard only gave me Duo's address. I wish I would have visited him sooner. I don't think I would be as normal as I am now if it wasn't for him. He introduced me to reading books and smiling.
I wouldn't have ever been able to have semi-successful relationships if I hadn't met Duo. Maybe that's why Relena thought Duo loved me. When I found out that was why she shot him, I just started laughing! I think I would know if Duo was in love with me, Duo isn't afraid of rejection. He would have said something.
Wouldn't he?
(Duo's POV)
I am so bored. Since I got home from my shopping, I've been meandering about my house, picking up reandom clutter and dusting off knick-knacks. I suppose I should vacuum after I'm done to finish the job. God, I feel like a housewife right now. I even have a some rice-crispie treats cooling on my kitchen counter.
I'm almost done cleaning now. I just have to vacuum my bedroom, then I can eat my treats and sit down with my favorite book ever, 'Catcher in the Rye'. Ever since Relena shot me and I found out that there is no way in hell that Heero will ever love me, I've become a bit of a book freak. Some of my favorites are 'Catcher in the Rye', 'Boy Meets Boy', 'The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big Round Things', and 'Ella Enchanted' (1).
I guess that kinda means that Relena was good for something. Of course, I'd liked 'Catcher in the Rye' since I was fifteen, during the war. I even got Heero into it. I think I have that kind of effect on people. The odd talent to affect their actions. Pretty pointless talent if you ask me, it wouldn't do you any good unless your friend was trying to kill himself--and I'm the only one I know who is even remotely suicidal.
I wish Heero loved me. I know I love him more than anything in the world. But I'm too afraid of rejection to say anything. I'm just a stupid, horrible coward. I don't even deserve to live anymore.
I was brought out of my reverie when I here tapping on my door. I turn off the vacuum cleaner and walk to the door. I hope it isn't Wufei. That would just about ruin my whole fucking day. Slowly I open the door, praying to God it isn't Wufei.
It isn't. It's Heero. I haven't seen Heero since after I got out of the hospital from my bullet wound. God, I hope he isn't just here to tell me Relena died or some shit like that.
"Hi, Duo! How have you been?" oh my God, since when is he ever this happy?
"I've been fine," I'm such a liar.
"Great! Can I come in?"
I mentally slap myself for being so rude to the love of my life. "Oh, sorry, Heero. Come in. I've got some rice-crispie treats, would you like one?"
"Yeah, okay," I didn't know Heero liked sweet stuff.
I led him into my living room and go off to the kitchen.
(Heero's POV)
It didn't take long to find Duo's home. Since I grew up on L1, I knew where his street was. Duo's house looks just like all the others on his street, except for the black, metal house-numbers by the door reading '289'.
I walk up the steps to Duo's front door and knock lightly. I wait a few moments before I see Duo's face poking out from inside the house.
"Hi, Duo! How have you been?"
"I've been fine," that's good, I was afraid I would find Duo a real mess.
"Great! Can I come in?" I hope I don't sound too happy.
"Oh, sorry, Heero. Come in. I've got some rice-crispie treats, would you like one?"
"Yeah, okay," yum! I love reice-crispie treats.
Duo led me into the living room and he leaves for the kitchen. I notice 'Catcher in the Rye' sitting on Duo's coffee table. I pick it up and flip to my favorite part.
(Duo's POV)
I cannot believe Heero-fucking-Yuy is in my living room right now! Jesus Christ, what a way to depress me more. And why the hell is he so happy? I thought he was the Mr. Stoic-Dark-and-Silent of the year!
Dammit, this sucks. Why did Heero wait two years before visiting me? Does he really just not like me very much? Is he just doing this because Quatre made him? Of all my old war friends, Trowa is the only one who visits me regularly and Quatre calls everyday. Wufei and I have seen each other three times in the last two years, all of which were when I was on a mission.
I haven't made any new friends on L1. I'm kind of a lost cause when it comes to being social. I guess it could be worse, I could be drinking, or doing drugs, or even out whoring myself shudder. If you look at it that way, cutting myself and wanting to die isn't as bad as it could be.
At least, I think it is.
(Footnotes)
1- these are all really good books, I love all of them.