Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy 8, nor its' characters. Just borrowin' them for a while. ^_^ I also don't have a dime, nor a nickel, or a penny. So, sorry if you were plannin' on suein' me. I'm a poor lil' girl with only her hopes and dreams to become a great writer. On to the story!
Hidden Feelings
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Chapter Three-Bloody Rage
She woke up with a hangover that made her heart and mind beat together. She raised herself up and immediately regretted it as she ran[more like stumbled] as fast as she could to the bathroom. After spraying half of a can of Lysol, she went into the kitchen and got out a tub of vanilla ice cream. (See, another plain thing about you. Your taste is as plain as your lifestyle. I may be plain, but that's how I am, live with it. Sheesh, look who woke up on the wrong side of the bed.) Fujin plopped down on her hard bed and started to eat the ice cream slowly. She looked outside and frowned. The sunlight was blocked off by the gray clouds that passed across the sky. After a few mouthfuls she got distressed and decided against the ice cream. She got up and put the rest of the ice cream back into the freezer. She quickly shredded her clothes and her eye patch as she got ready for a long soothing shower. As the icy waters cascaded over her body, she changed the knobs so the water was hot and searing. The steam rolled off of her cold body and formed a foggy screen around her. Her body was riddled with sobs as her tears were well camouflaged by the tumbling waterfall. As she got out, she slipped and fell on the hard tiled floor. She breathed raggedly as she got up slowly and looked herself in the mirror. Even after a well deserved shower, she still looked like shit. She sighed lightly and shook her head. Deciding this was the day she would change herself. (Maybe changing myself will make me feel better about myself...or maybe you're admitting that you are plain and need to change. Just look at it this way, change is strange, but it's also good. Yea, I guess so, maybe it'll make me happy too.) She quickly brushed her hair and dried it with her quiet style hair dryer. She turned on her radio and the loud tunes of Disturbed played out of the speakers.
"It doesn't really seem like I'm getting through to you!" Fujin started to sing. (This song is just like your life. I guess so, sorta. You talk to Seifer, yet it doesn't seem like he cares, or your words are much to him.) She grabbed her eye patch and put it on. Then she went to her closet, and looked inside for some appealing clothes. Her usual outfit hung there, waiting to be put on. She grabbed a pair of black shorts and a white tank top. She dropped her towel and quickly replaced her bare skin with her undergarments and her "new" attire. Then she grabbed the black coat and that Raijin got her for her birthday. She opened her door, locked it, and walked out. Heading towards the Cafeteria, to go find Raijin and Seifer. When she got there, Seifer was already sitting with that patronizing chick who she recognized as the blonde bimbo from the day before. Her eyes narrowed into small slits as she held up her head without wavering. She muttered something that sounded like "itch" under her breath as she walked over to *their* table.
"Hey Fujin." Seifer said as he looked at her out of the corner of his eye. He was too preoccupied with the little slut to even look at her fully. The bimbo purred as Seifer trailed his hand across her cheek. Fujin growled lightly and Seifer finally looked over at her.
"Nice outfit, Fuj."
She smirked at him sarcastically. He noticed her upset attitude and frowned slightly.
"Is something wrong, Fuj?" He asked slightly concerned. "Raijin told me you've been acting strangely lately. He's very worried about you." (Raijin may be worried, but I bet you're not Seifer.)
"FINE."
He looked at her with a sideways glance, then turned towards his playmate. He whispered something in her ear, she nodded, and left them to chat.
"Fuj, I know you better than that. 'FINE' with you means just fucking peachy. What's up Fuj?"
He patted the seat next to him, she sat down and sighed. He looked at her weary form and frowned even more.
"SICK." His features turned into a mess of concern. "You're sick? you gonna be okay?" She shook her head, indicating no. "SICK....of everything." She added the latter silently. He looked around and noticed all the people taking in their food humbly.
"How 'bout we talk privately Fuj. It's kinda crowded here."
She nodded silently and followed him out of the Cafeteria. They walked slowly down the hallways. Seifer with his head held up high, and Fujin looking at the ground and her feet. It's almost as if she felt like she was in trouble. Like she were the prisoner and he, like in her dreams, the great golden hero. (I wonder where we're going) She followed him all the way to the second floor where they both entered the Disciplinary Committee Room (should've known.) He let her in first and closed the door after he entered.
"SO?" She inquired as she sat down in the steel chair and began to stare at the gray table.
"Raijin has been very concerned about you Fuj." He paused as he shifted uncomfortably. (And you Seifer, are you concerned about poor ol' Fuu? Of course not.) As if he read her mind he continued. "Fuj, I'm also beginning to worry. This is the first I've seen you in days. And every time you seem to look worse. What's happening Fuj. Raij tells me you're drinking!?" She avoided his eyes at best, but couldn't any longer, so, she looked up. (this feels like a lecture.)
"Sorry for having a life outside of you, Seifer"she hissed.
He stepped back as if he were bitten by a rabid dog. At this reaction, she looked down at her hands. (Yell at me, Seifer. Tell me what a dog I truly am. The fat black cat with the one eye. The stray that you took under your wing. Tell me you're sick of me, too.) He walked towards her hesitantly.
"Fuj, if you have a problem, you know me an' Raij are right here supporting you. We're a posse, we look out for one another." He placed a hand upon her shoulder.
"I don't need help. I'm just sick of everything. okay!?"
Her voice began to crack and a single tear fell from her eye. He didn't know what to do, he just stood there with his mouth open wide. (Oh Fuj, what can I do to make you feel happy? I know you're upset. I wish I could just kiss your pain away, but I'm not even that brave. Please don't cry.) She stood up, and ran out the door, pushing him roughly out of her way. She ran to the nearest bathroom, knowing he'd follow her to her room. She wiped wildly at the tears that flowed from her eye. Quickly, she checked the bathroom stalls for any individuals. Then she crouched down and pulled a razor out of her shoe. As the tears fell silently down the drain of the sink, so did her blood that reaped from her soul and her wrists.
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A/N:Hehehe...what to do now...*smiles deviously at you all* I'm not afraid of your rotten veggies, so hah! *proudly stands where she is* Did you like the "black cat with one eye" that was a reference to the greatest poet ever(no, not me), Edgar Allen Poe. Also, Disturbed that lil' quote was from the song "The Game"...awesome cd, you should go buy it. Really hits the spot with RAGE. *smiles* love ya! Review, you are really givin' me the boost here! Hitori and Pink, thank ya *winks ^_~*
Hidden Feelings
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Chapter Three-Bloody Rage
She woke up with a hangover that made her heart and mind beat together. She raised herself up and immediately regretted it as she ran[more like stumbled] as fast as she could to the bathroom. After spraying half of a can of Lysol, she went into the kitchen and got out a tub of vanilla ice cream. (See, another plain thing about you. Your taste is as plain as your lifestyle. I may be plain, but that's how I am, live with it. Sheesh, look who woke up on the wrong side of the bed.) Fujin plopped down on her hard bed and started to eat the ice cream slowly. She looked outside and frowned. The sunlight was blocked off by the gray clouds that passed across the sky. After a few mouthfuls she got distressed and decided against the ice cream. She got up and put the rest of the ice cream back into the freezer. She quickly shredded her clothes and her eye patch as she got ready for a long soothing shower. As the icy waters cascaded over her body, she changed the knobs so the water was hot and searing. The steam rolled off of her cold body and formed a foggy screen around her. Her body was riddled with sobs as her tears were well camouflaged by the tumbling waterfall. As she got out, she slipped and fell on the hard tiled floor. She breathed raggedly as she got up slowly and looked herself in the mirror. Even after a well deserved shower, she still looked like shit. She sighed lightly and shook her head. Deciding this was the day she would change herself. (Maybe changing myself will make me feel better about myself...or maybe you're admitting that you are plain and need to change. Just look at it this way, change is strange, but it's also good. Yea, I guess so, maybe it'll make me happy too.) She quickly brushed her hair and dried it with her quiet style hair dryer. She turned on her radio and the loud tunes of Disturbed played out of the speakers.
"It doesn't really seem like I'm getting through to you!" Fujin started to sing. (This song is just like your life. I guess so, sorta. You talk to Seifer, yet it doesn't seem like he cares, or your words are much to him.) She grabbed her eye patch and put it on. Then she went to her closet, and looked inside for some appealing clothes. Her usual outfit hung there, waiting to be put on. She grabbed a pair of black shorts and a white tank top. She dropped her towel and quickly replaced her bare skin with her undergarments and her "new" attire. Then she grabbed the black coat and that Raijin got her for her birthday. She opened her door, locked it, and walked out. Heading towards the Cafeteria, to go find Raijin and Seifer. When she got there, Seifer was already sitting with that patronizing chick who she recognized as the blonde bimbo from the day before. Her eyes narrowed into small slits as she held up her head without wavering. She muttered something that sounded like "itch" under her breath as she walked over to *their* table.
"Hey Fujin." Seifer said as he looked at her out of the corner of his eye. He was too preoccupied with the little slut to even look at her fully. The bimbo purred as Seifer trailed his hand across her cheek. Fujin growled lightly and Seifer finally looked over at her.
"Nice outfit, Fuj."
She smirked at him sarcastically. He noticed her upset attitude and frowned slightly.
"Is something wrong, Fuj?" He asked slightly concerned. "Raijin told me you've been acting strangely lately. He's very worried about you." (Raijin may be worried, but I bet you're not Seifer.)
"FINE."
He looked at her with a sideways glance, then turned towards his playmate. He whispered something in her ear, she nodded, and left them to chat.
"Fuj, I know you better than that. 'FINE' with you means just fucking peachy. What's up Fuj?"
He patted the seat next to him, she sat down and sighed. He looked at her weary form and frowned even more.
"SICK." His features turned into a mess of concern. "You're sick? you gonna be okay?" She shook her head, indicating no. "SICK....of everything." She added the latter silently. He looked around and noticed all the people taking in their food humbly.
"How 'bout we talk privately Fuj. It's kinda crowded here."
She nodded silently and followed him out of the Cafeteria. They walked slowly down the hallways. Seifer with his head held up high, and Fujin looking at the ground and her feet. It's almost as if she felt like she was in trouble. Like she were the prisoner and he, like in her dreams, the great golden hero. (I wonder where we're going) She followed him all the way to the second floor where they both entered the Disciplinary Committee Room (should've known.) He let her in first and closed the door after he entered.
"SO?" She inquired as she sat down in the steel chair and began to stare at the gray table.
"Raijin has been very concerned about you Fuj." He paused as he shifted uncomfortably. (And you Seifer, are you concerned about poor ol' Fuu? Of course not.) As if he read her mind he continued. "Fuj, I'm also beginning to worry. This is the first I've seen you in days. And every time you seem to look worse. What's happening Fuj. Raij tells me you're drinking!?" She avoided his eyes at best, but couldn't any longer, so, she looked up. (this feels like a lecture.)
"Sorry for having a life outside of you, Seifer"she hissed.
He stepped back as if he were bitten by a rabid dog. At this reaction, she looked down at her hands. (Yell at me, Seifer. Tell me what a dog I truly am. The fat black cat with the one eye. The stray that you took under your wing. Tell me you're sick of me, too.) He walked towards her hesitantly.
"Fuj, if you have a problem, you know me an' Raij are right here supporting you. We're a posse, we look out for one another." He placed a hand upon her shoulder.
"I don't need help. I'm just sick of everything. okay!?"
Her voice began to crack and a single tear fell from her eye. He didn't know what to do, he just stood there with his mouth open wide. (Oh Fuj, what can I do to make you feel happy? I know you're upset. I wish I could just kiss your pain away, but I'm not even that brave. Please don't cry.) She stood up, and ran out the door, pushing him roughly out of her way. She ran to the nearest bathroom, knowing he'd follow her to her room. She wiped wildly at the tears that flowed from her eye. Quickly, she checked the bathroom stalls for any individuals. Then she crouched down and pulled a razor out of her shoe. As the tears fell silently down the drain of the sink, so did her blood that reaped from her soul and her wrists.
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A/N:Hehehe...what to do now...*smiles deviously at you all* I'm not afraid of your rotten veggies, so hah! *proudly stands where she is* Did you like the "black cat with one eye" that was a reference to the greatest poet ever(no, not me), Edgar Allen Poe. Also, Disturbed that lil' quote was from the song "The Game"...awesome cd, you should go buy it. Really hits the spot with RAGE. *smiles* love ya! Review, you are really givin' me the boost here! Hitori and Pink, thank ya *winks ^_~*