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Summary: James has been going after Lily for 2 years. On their seventh,
James stops, thinking that their love wasn't meant to be…and Lily finds herself
wishing he didn't. But now, Lily can't quite bring herself to tell James how
she feels, let alone talk to him.
Authors Note: 16 reviews all in all!!! THANK YOU!!!! There's a correction
though, thanks to Anita Coffee, I made a mistake in the 1st chapter that
Sirius was a constellation, and it's not, it's actually a dog star.
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and then on my bio so stay tune to that. Okay, now to my humble thank you's!
ihateluv: sexy Snape? okay..haha. I'll try my best to
put a James-pranking-Snape thing. I updated as soon as I could, since I didn't
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nose must be a turn-on for you, huh? o0 Thank you so much for reviewing!
You're Hurricane, You're Fire in the Sun
By: kaleidoscopeeyes
"Will you be my girlfriend?"
James watched carefully at what was going on between Will and Lily, skillfully taking note of every detail. His eyes darted from Will's expression to Lily's hand movement. He studied the pattern of conversation through the opening and closing of one's lips. It was pretty obvious –
"He's asking her to be his girlfriend!" he declared aloud, so that Remus, Sirius, and Peter would know as well. They, too, were trying to study what was going, but none as meticulously as James was. They turned their heads to the opposite direction so as not to make it too evident that they were spying.
Just the thought of Lily dating another guy could send James into a fit of rage. Feelings of hatred towards Will suddenly flowed through his veins. He clenched his fists in anger, and narrowed his eyes. "I am NOT going to let this happen!" Then, in a blink of an eye, he rushed down to the other side of the Gryffindor table.
Lily didn't know what to do, or think, or say. She was clearly put on a spot. Will was your average nice guy, but she always knew she needed someone above average.
"Um…" Lily stammered, trying to grasp the right words. She looked at Will's expression; she didn't want to hurt him, she didn't want to be a heartbreaker. "Ye-. James?"
Just then, James clambered in between Lily and Will (and, not to mention, gave him a millisecond glare), pushing Lily toward the door that led them outside. "Sorry 'bout this Will, but Lily and I have to attend to some…uh…some head business!" He turned the other way and kept pulling Lily, who was trying to hold her ground.
"James, what head business? Dumbledore's still-ugh-here!" Lily questioned, apparently not believing in James' excuse. She was determined to stay in the Great Hall.
"I know, but we have to…uh…patrol the halls!" James explained, still pulling Lily.
"We don't patrol the halls during midday, you sod!" Lily exclaimed. The head couple had already received the attention of probably 99% of the people in the Great Hall, all interested in what was going to happen. "Evans, language!" McGonagall called out, hiding what seemed to be a smile, unless of course she was constipated. "Sorry, professor!"
"I thought it was you who said 'going over what people expect you to do is my only expectation'" James retorted, mimicking a high-pitched girls voice.
"I do not sound like that!" Lily screamed, still trying to stay still.
"Um, Lily?" Will finally said, after being pushed out of the conversation. The whole while he was just standing there not knowing what to do. "Your answer?" He shouted hopefully.
"Y-" Lily was cut by the slam of the giant doors. James was finally able to pull Lily out, thanks to his dedication and hard work in Quidditch. "HOW DARE YOU!" Lily screamed, raising a hand to slap James cheek. James quickly deflected the hit with a push of the arm and scooped Lily unto his shoulders. Lily screamed and pounded his back with her fist, but he would not let her down. He just continued walking.
Five minutes later, Lily gave up the screaming and dangled her body to make her weight heavier. 'I'll get him when he puts me down.' she thought.
Soon enough, he gently lay her down on a bed of white lilies. Lily looked around, and realized that he had brought her all the way to the other side of the lake. Her fingertips traced the delicate ivory petals surrounding her; she wanted nothing more than to lie on it and sleep peacefully. But she remembered, there were punishments to give, faces to slap, and people to kill. She quickly stood up and said "15 points from Gryffindor, for bringing a student somewhere against her will!"
"Haha!" James laughed. "Lily dear, I'm head boy." He slowed his speaking pattern as if talking to a 3 year old. "20 points to Gryffindor, for bringing a student to a beautiful place!" he declared triumphantly.
"30 points from Gryffindor, for interrupting a private conversation!" Lily added, turning red out of annoyance.
"45 points to Gryffindor, for saving a student from a situation!" James replied, just as calmly as ever. He even yawned.
"100 points from Gryffindor, for being a mean, nasty, scumball who doesn't deserve the right to walk on this earth!" Lily screamed, practically pulling her hair off.
Just then, a whirlwind of emotions burst into James. He didn't know what came over him but something inside him urged him to blurted out "200 points to Gryffindor" James said, in a slightly dazed tone "for loving the head girl."
Lily caught her breath, and didn't know whether to throw up or be flattered. She always knew he liked her, but LOVE? She didn't think so. She always thought she would be a fling, a name he would cross out of his not dated girls list, an item he would throw away when he was finished with it, but LOVE? She didn't think so.
She could feel her palms begin to sweat and her heart begin to leap. Her knees wanted to give way. She was still red, but not out of annoyance, out of anxiety, excitement. He gave her a small smile, and she wanted to melt.
"Lily, I know I've been arrogant, self-centered, immature…all those things you called me," he said, swallowing down his fear, at the same time half-heartedly laughing "but that was just because I, well, love you. At first it seemed like I didn't, and I just enjoyed teasing you, but I realize now that I can't get you out of my bloody brain!" he explained, smiling even wider now. "I have this problem revealing my, um, emotions, or being serious. That's why I'm always laughing or cracking jokes. But, gosh, LILY, YOU'RE DRIVING ME CRAZY!" He shouted at the top of his lungs.
Lily giggled at his outburst. She didn't know what to feel. A few minutes ago, she wanted to kill him…now she wanted to kiss him? From kill to kiss, that's certainly far! She gazed at the morning sky and sighed, unconsciously twirling her shining red hair around her finger, then letting it down so that a few strands covered her porcelain white face.
James reached out his arm, and slowly tucked in her hair behind her ear. He moved his hand from her ear to her chin, and then tilted it upward so her face was close to his. He stared deep into her expressive green eyes and touched his lips with hers, but only for a second. Then he stared into her eyes again, and moved away.
Lily seemed dazed. She lost herself in his whirlpool eyes. She felt his soft, meaningful lips on hers, and watched him move away. She didn't want him to move away. She wanted him beside her, forever.
Then a flash of memories with James took over her mind. She could see herself saying no to him in her 5th year, their walk from the library…how she almost had fun with him.
This couldn't be happening.
Now that she thought of it, James did mature during his 7th year. She shifted her eyes towards James' sincere face, showing no sign of mischievousness.
No. She didn't like him. She didn't like him. She couldn't like him.
After all those years, she couldn't like the enemy.
'No. I do NOT like him!' she thought to herself, with finality. 'I can't. I just can't.'
Before she had anything to say, James, who had been staring at her deeply, spoke "Lily I – aaahhhhh!" His eyes turned to the group of girls that called themselves Servants of the Great and Mighty James Potter Club.They went though Lily as if she was invisible and threw themselves at James. Some were screaming, while others just stared at him dazedly. In less than a second, ladies, who used too much make-up and wore shirts and skirts five sizes too small, surrounded James screaming, "I love you James!" or "There you are, my love!"
Lily looked from afar at the guy she hate and loved. She felt slightly hurt of how she was, so quickly, left out of the scenario. She lay on the grass, after being pushed by one of the many slutty females, and felt some tears begin to fall. Without the slightest thought, she rubbed the tears away, put on a happy smile, and stood up. "I will not let him hurt me."
Lily spent the rest of the day in the library with Alice. She desperately needed to bring her Transfiguration score up. Not only that, but she was trying to avoid James. During lunch and dinner, she took the seat she thought was farthest from the marauders and left as quickly as she came. She still couldn't put a name on what she was feeling at the moment, whether she was angry, or depressed, or even, jealous. One thing she did know was that she was confused, and that's the last thing she wanted to feel.
Lily twirled her hair while flipping through the pages in silence. Alice had already left, since she didn't know how to handle Lily. She didn't want to be at the receiving end of Lily's temper. Lily scribbled down notes on a piece of parchment and sighed heavily. Not even books could get him out of her mind.
She started to tap the table with the end of her quill, at the same time biting her lip in thought.
"Hi Lily."
Lily abruptly looked up to see who had slipped into the chair across hers. She gasped in shock. It was James, the last person she wanted to see. 'I swear, I would rather face Voldemort.' she thought.
She looked at him, then completely ignored his greeting and turned back at the book.
"Listen," James started, even if Lily paid him no mind, "Lily, it wasn't my fault that they barged in like that. You can't blame me."
Lily knew she couldn't. She knew it wasn't his fault. But she was still angry with him…for something, or at least, she wanted to be angry with him for something.
Lily grunted and continued reading. This was a sign to James that she was at least listening. "Lily, what I said earlier to you…I meant it. I-"
"That you love me?" Lily exploded. She couldn't take it anymore. She had to release that feeling that he gave her, that feeling that had been plaguing her for the entire day. "Ha! You don't know a thing about love!" she spited. This time, she was already standing. "You get girls every other day and tell them you love them. Then the next day, you discard them and act as if you never met them. I'm not going to be one of those girls!" Lily continued screaming. Madame Pince had rushed to the sight, trying to send the two students out, but with no prevail. Her voice was not as loud.
James looked up at Lily guiltily. He knew she was right, but hadn't she seen the change of personality this year. He didn't date one girl for his seventh year. He spent his time going after Lily.
"James," Lily said, eyes showing enmity, "you are such a bungling, shameless, soporific, audacious prat!"
James looked at her eyes, and saw so much anger. He was getting tired of always having to be the one to apologize. He had enough. "Lily, you are just way to stubborn!" James shouted, raising the danger level by standing up as well.
Madame Pince didn't know what to do. She couldn't have two bickering head students disrupt the study time of others. She looked at the red-faced Lily, than at the daggering glare of James, and tried to shoo each one out, but they just ignored her.
"GET AWAY FROM ME!"
"FINE, I WILL" James shouted back, his voice a lot louder than what Lily could have expected. "I'VE CHANGED LILY, AND YOU KNOW IT!"
Lily felt slightly intimidated by his temper. She heard rumors of how angry he could be. But she wasn't going to back down, she was too darn proud.
"CODSWALLOP!" Lily screamed at the top of her lungs. "THAT"S TOTAL PANTS!" She paused and lowered her voice, "But you want to know something? …I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOUR STUPID FACE AGAIN! EVER!" And with that, she shoved her things in her bag and ran towards the door.
"Well, you want to know something, too, Lily?" James called back, just as she pulled the door open to leave, "I DON'T BLOODY CARE! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU!" Lily looked at him, then turned her head rapidly, and left.
Madame Pince fanned herself that it was all over and slowly walked to her counter, wiping the sweat off her forehead, trying to act stern and in control. "C-carry on, students!"
Lily ran and ran towards the Gryffindor common room. Tears started falling out of control. Her hair whipped all over face, against the cold night breeze. Her vision was slightly blurred.
"What's wrong, m'dear?" the Fat Lady asked, her caring face shone.
"Lemon Bludgers." Lily said silently, trying to gulp down her tears.
The portrait swung open and Lily dashed through the common room, up to her dorm, trying to cover her tearing face.
James sat back down in the library, after he had fought with Lily. He didn't know what came over him. It took all his might to keep his temper down from going into overdrive. He felt, sort of guilty about what happened.
Second thoughts flew through his head. 'Maybe she wasn't the girl for me. Maybe I should just give up. There are so many girls I can get, why must I burden myself with getting Lily.' He brought up his hand to ruffle his hair, 'I need to move on.'
Just as if it were on cue, a pretty, slim blonde emerged from behind one of the bookshelves. Her eyes sparkled like blue sapphires and her smile dazzled white. "Hi James. I heard what happened between you and Lily. I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but it's pretty hard not to listen when you're screaming at the top of your lungs."
James looked up to see fellow Gryffindor chaser, Helen Watson. He smiled at her funny comment. "Hi Helen." He greeted. "Listen, do you want to meet, sometime tomorrow maybe? We can talk about quidditch or whatever?"
Helen looked at him enthusiastically. "Of course."
"I hate him! I hate him! I hate him! I hate him!" Lily shouted, now in her dormitory, pacing back and forth. Her roommates were still downstairs enjoying the night away. Alice sat on her bed watching Lily, again, trying to calm her down. She gave up her night with Frank to comfort Lily.
"I'm telling you, he's all the 'I-n's'(A/N: pronounced 'eye-ens')" Lily declared, now trying to kick the stuffing out of one of her pillows.
"'I-n's'?" Alice inquired.
"He's indolent! Incompetent! Insouciant!" Lily said.
"Uh…let me try." Alice cut in, thinking for an 'I-n' word, "In-noying!"
Lily ignored her try at humor and continued. "Insufferable!"
"Intelligent!" Alice replied, grinning.
"Invidious!"
"Interesting!"
"Intolerable!"
"Indispensable!" Alice continued, not giving up.
"Infuriating!"
"How about…In love…with you." Alice said, finally. She knew she had hit a spot.
Lily stopped suddenly. 'Did she know?'
Lily turned her head and smiled, so that no one could see. Her heart raced, and her smile grew. 'He said he loved me!'
A/N: Ah! What do you think? Originally, Lily was supposed to say 'Yes' and James would feel bad and jealous. But even I wouldn't like that to happen, and I would even start hating Will, and he's a nice guy! I noticed that there are a lot of interruptions in their speech, too. Haha.
You must understand Lily's feelings of immense hate and love switch easily from time to time. Like they say, there's a small border between the two. She's not fickle, she's just proud.And another thing, okay, they had a big fight, and they said some stuff, dumb stuff, but that's only because James was getting tired of Lily's stubbornness, and Lily is really still in denial (or starting the denial stage). They really don't mean it. Sometimes you can say things without thinking, and get caught in the heat of the argument. I hope you forgive them. Hehe. Okay? It'll all get better...Again, read my bio for chapter previews and story explanations.Please review! I'll be sooo happy! Comments, suggestions, constructive criticism, questions, ideas...list of teachers you hate! Anything! A big grin will be plastered on my face for a whole day because of one little click of the button. And I'll think of teaching you my Review Alert dance (once I make one).