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Hidden Feelings
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Chapter Five-Stubborn Persuasion
He watched her sleeping form. Her beautiful silver mane dancing softly around her shoulders as the wind shifted it restlessly. He stroked her pale face lightly, while he looked at her longingly. Deep within his stern mind, he wished he could just hold her in his arms and tell her everything would be okay. If only they could be together. (Hyne, must I endure this pain any longer. I wish she could understand, how much I truly care for her. But she never would. She'd look at me like I'm freak. It'd never work. She's like this because of me. Probably tired from following me around for so long. Oh, Fuj.) He had his hand wrapped around her hand, he's had it that way since he was in there. He picked up her hand and brushed it against his face. (If only this were real, where you were brushing my face by choice. What happened to you Fuj? Why'd you start drinking, why'd you hurt yourself. Why?) Doctor Kadowaki came inside her room and looked at Seifer sorrowfully.
"Seifer, I'm sorry to disturb you, but...we have to talk."
"sure...what 'bout?"
"Well, Fujin."
"is something wrong? You said she was going to be fine." Worridly, he stood up.
"physically, Seifer, but mentally, she needs help."
"what are we going to do about it?"
"I think it would be in Fujins' best interests to be admitted into the finest facility. Where she can get professional help." She answered him quietly.
Seifer was silent for a long period of time. Unbeknowest to them both, Fujin lay wide awake, but hidden beneathe the security of her eyelid. (No...Seifer don't give me up. I'll be good. Just don't let me go. Don't let them take me away from your sunlight.) He shook his head back and forth slowly.
"It's not up to me. You have to talk to Fujin. Even if it were up to me, I wouldn't let you take her." He stated firmly.
Dr. Kadowaki looked at him suspiciously, but understood plainly that their friendship was too deep to mess with. Fujin sighed silently in relief. Dr. Kadowaki nodded in silent contempt.
"Well then, I doubt she'll be any easier to persaude. You both are one of a kind. Though, the facts stand, she needs help, and the question is, how do we help her?"
Fujin opened up her eye and spoke softly, "I don't need help, and you can't force me to get any. I wont admit myself."
They both looked surprised at her sudden admittance to the conversation.
"Well then, I suppose it is best for you to stay around your friends, but you need help. No matter what you think, Fujin. Killing yourself is not an answer."
Fujin nodded silently, and crossed her arms. As if she suddenly felt very cold, left out. (They may be accepting the fact that I'm fucked up, but they make me feel so outside. All I wanted was to be accepted and loved by Seifer.)
"For now, Fujin. You have to stay in here, alright?"
Fujin nodded again. (Why do I feel like she's treating me like a child. /You are a child, that's why./ No, I'm not. I'm stronger than that. /Are you so sure? Cowards kill themselves, because they're weak and they can't handle the hardships of life. Like you./) She let the hard cold exterior meld with her flesh as she started to stare out the window again.
Several days later, she was back to her normal lifestyle[well, as normal as it could get]. It seemed everyone around her was treading softly, as to not disturb her. Two junior classmen were staring at her, so she narrowed her eye at them and barred her teeth. They ran away quickly. Some were so obnoxious, that one came up to her and said she should've used a gun. When she returned to her dormitory, there was a note pinned to her door. She quietly read it aloud.
"Fujin, at 1000 hrs, come by my office. We need to have a quick discussion about your next mission. -Squall"
(Oh just fucking great! Another mission, and I'm about to explode if one more person tip toes around me like nothing happened, when something DID happen.) She looked at her watch, and realized she had enough time to take a short shower and grab a quick bite to eat before she had to meet the Commander. She blew out a sigh that made her hair shift out of her eye.
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A/N: I know I'm absolutely horrid for holding onto this chapter, 'til I got some reviews. But hey, that's how it goes with me. I personally didn't like chapter four, so I didn't think you liked it either. I didn't think you'd want to read anymore of this shit anyways. *sighs* sorry, I depress myself in to thinking all my work is shit. Anyways, hope you like, review pwetty pwease. ^.^
Hidden Feelings
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Chapter Five-Stubborn Persuasion
He watched her sleeping form. Her beautiful silver mane dancing softly around her shoulders as the wind shifted it restlessly. He stroked her pale face lightly, while he looked at her longingly. Deep within his stern mind, he wished he could just hold her in his arms and tell her everything would be okay. If only they could be together. (Hyne, must I endure this pain any longer. I wish she could understand, how much I truly care for her. But she never would. She'd look at me like I'm freak. It'd never work. She's like this because of me. Probably tired from following me around for so long. Oh, Fuj.) He had his hand wrapped around her hand, he's had it that way since he was in there. He picked up her hand and brushed it against his face. (If only this were real, where you were brushing my face by choice. What happened to you Fuj? Why'd you start drinking, why'd you hurt yourself. Why?) Doctor Kadowaki came inside her room and looked at Seifer sorrowfully.
"Seifer, I'm sorry to disturb you, but...we have to talk."
"sure...what 'bout?"
"Well, Fujin."
"is something wrong? You said she was going to be fine." Worridly, he stood up.
"physically, Seifer, but mentally, she needs help."
"what are we going to do about it?"
"I think it would be in Fujins' best interests to be admitted into the finest facility. Where she can get professional help." She answered him quietly.
Seifer was silent for a long period of time. Unbeknowest to them both, Fujin lay wide awake, but hidden beneathe the security of her eyelid. (No...Seifer don't give me up. I'll be good. Just don't let me go. Don't let them take me away from your sunlight.) He shook his head back and forth slowly.
"It's not up to me. You have to talk to Fujin. Even if it were up to me, I wouldn't let you take her." He stated firmly.
Dr. Kadowaki looked at him suspiciously, but understood plainly that their friendship was too deep to mess with. Fujin sighed silently in relief. Dr. Kadowaki nodded in silent contempt.
"Well then, I doubt she'll be any easier to persaude. You both are one of a kind. Though, the facts stand, she needs help, and the question is, how do we help her?"
Fujin opened up her eye and spoke softly, "I don't need help, and you can't force me to get any. I wont admit myself."
They both looked surprised at her sudden admittance to the conversation.
"Well then, I suppose it is best for you to stay around your friends, but you need help. No matter what you think, Fujin. Killing yourself is not an answer."
Fujin nodded silently, and crossed her arms. As if she suddenly felt very cold, left out. (They may be accepting the fact that I'm fucked up, but they make me feel so outside. All I wanted was to be accepted and loved by Seifer.)
"For now, Fujin. You have to stay in here, alright?"
Fujin nodded again. (Why do I feel like she's treating me like a child. /You are a child, that's why./ No, I'm not. I'm stronger than that. /Are you so sure? Cowards kill themselves, because they're weak and they can't handle the hardships of life. Like you./) She let the hard cold exterior meld with her flesh as she started to stare out the window again.
Several days later, she was back to her normal lifestyle[well, as normal as it could get]. It seemed everyone around her was treading softly, as to not disturb her. Two junior classmen were staring at her, so she narrowed her eye at them and barred her teeth. They ran away quickly. Some were so obnoxious, that one came up to her and said she should've used a gun. When she returned to her dormitory, there was a note pinned to her door. She quietly read it aloud.
"Fujin, at 1000 hrs, come by my office. We need to have a quick discussion about your next mission. -Squall"
(Oh just fucking great! Another mission, and I'm about to explode if one more person tip toes around me like nothing happened, when something DID happen.) She looked at her watch, and realized she had enough time to take a short shower and grab a quick bite to eat before she had to meet the Commander. She blew out a sigh that made her hair shift out of her eye.
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A/N: I know I'm absolutely horrid for holding onto this chapter, 'til I got some reviews. But hey, that's how it goes with me. I personally didn't like chapter four, so I didn't think you liked it either. I didn't think you'd want to read anymore of this shit anyways. *sighs* sorry, I depress myself in to thinking all my work is shit. Anyways, hope you like, review pwetty pwease. ^.^