This is my first Alias fanfic...I hope you like it...it's pretty much just leads to and includes the conversation Syd and Vaughn are inevitably going to have to have...I don't really know if the story will go any further...we'll see how you like it...
I'd really love for some comments...they keep the story going...
I don't own Alias or any of it's characters (even though I wouldn't mind owning Vaughn = )
Here we go:
Thoughts (Vaughn POV)
I have never felt so lost in my entire life, but at the same time I know I'm so close to being found. I need her more than I need the air I'm breathing, but I don't deserve her. I love her and would give my life to save her from any hurt, and I caused her the most unimaginable pain. I don't know how to live with that. I need to know how she feels, I need to know if she can forgive me then maybe I can forgive myself.
The kiss, oh the kiss. The last time I've ever been so happy was when we shared a similar moment in the middle of the SD-6 offices. That moment the world stopped spinning and everyone disappeared except us. I swear I was in heaven. After everything I was standing there again...this time in a different setting, holding her, kissing her, feeling her. I could barely breathe and that wasn't because I had a punctured lung. She brought me to life with that one kiss, she saved me, she always saves me. Even if it's with a quick smile in passing.
I always tried to live my life without regrets, not my mind is filled with them. Every night I race through everything I could've done to avoid what happened. What if I would've gone in with Sydney that night, or brought her home with me? What if I didn't give up on her, if I would've searched more? What if I would've waited? What ifs...they accomplish nothing but still I can't get them out of my head. I can't get her out of my head and I don't want to. She's my everything and without her I'm not longer here, I disappear with her.
Lauren. She killed me, maybe not physically but every other way imaginable. She stole my life from me, she stole Sydney. I would have rather died then ever met her. She's gone, but the pain she cause isn't, it's still here, it's still with Sydney. I made Lauren go away now I need to work on her lasting memories. Lauren to me is just another name for hate.
Sydney, Sydney is my life, my existence, me. She completes who I am and gives my life meaning. Making her smile is the best feeling in the world. Knowing I could comfort her, that she could talk to me, that was the biggest honor I've ever been blessed with. I have to admit, when she started turning to Eric with her problems it hurt. But at least she was okay, at least she had someone, and I knew Eric would treat her amazingly. Her skin is smooth and warm, her fingertips send my body to ecstasy. Her eyes read mine and she knows exactly what I'm thinking. Her embrace is my home. Her smile is my heartbeat. Now I just need to tell her.
I'd really love for some comments...they keep the story going...
I don't own Alias or any of it's characters (even though I wouldn't mind owning Vaughn = )
Here we go:
Thoughts (Vaughn POV)
I have never felt so lost in my entire life, but at the same time I know I'm so close to being found. I need her more than I need the air I'm breathing, but I don't deserve her. I love her and would give my life to save her from any hurt, and I caused her the most unimaginable pain. I don't know how to live with that. I need to know how she feels, I need to know if she can forgive me then maybe I can forgive myself.
The kiss, oh the kiss. The last time I've ever been so happy was when we shared a similar moment in the middle of the SD-6 offices. That moment the world stopped spinning and everyone disappeared except us. I swear I was in heaven. After everything I was standing there again...this time in a different setting, holding her, kissing her, feeling her. I could barely breathe and that wasn't because I had a punctured lung. She brought me to life with that one kiss, she saved me, she always saves me. Even if it's with a quick smile in passing.
I always tried to live my life without regrets, not my mind is filled with them. Every night I race through everything I could've done to avoid what happened. What if I would've gone in with Sydney that night, or brought her home with me? What if I didn't give up on her, if I would've searched more? What if I would've waited? What ifs...they accomplish nothing but still I can't get them out of my head. I can't get her out of my head and I don't want to. She's my everything and without her I'm not longer here, I disappear with her.
Lauren. She killed me, maybe not physically but every other way imaginable. She stole my life from me, she stole Sydney. I would have rather died then ever met her. She's gone, but the pain she cause isn't, it's still here, it's still with Sydney. I made Lauren go away now I need to work on her lasting memories. Lauren to me is just another name for hate.
Sydney, Sydney is my life, my existence, me. She completes who I am and gives my life meaning. Making her smile is the best feeling in the world. Knowing I could comfort her, that she could talk to me, that was the biggest honor I've ever been blessed with. I have to admit, when she started turning to Eric with her problems it hurt. But at least she was okay, at least she had someone, and I knew Eric would treat her amazingly. Her skin is smooth and warm, her fingertips send my body to ecstasy. Her eyes read mine and she knows exactly what I'm thinking. Her embrace is my home. Her smile is my heartbeat. Now I just need to tell her.