I know I know...bad cliffhangers...sorry guys!...finally the actual conversation...here it goes:

The Conversation

"Vaughn?"

"Hey Syd." After two hours of driving that's what he came I come up with? He scolded himself silently. "Can I come in?"

She moved away from the door, "sure." Vaughn walked past her into her living room. He half expected to be surrounded with her old apartment but instead he was encircled with new furniture and picture frames. New books on the shelf and new pillows on the floor. Her soft voice broke the silence. "It's late, if everything okay?"

"Yeah, I just--" he couldn't keep a steady tone and knew that she knew, "I was thinking about things and I needed to come here and just, just tell you something."

"Okay," Sydney wasn't sure what she was preparing herself for but she motioned for him to sit down and she took a seat close to him but not too close. He stared at her looking for words in her chocolate brown eyes. "Vaughn, you're scaring me, what's the matter?"

He knew time was up and he took a deep breathe and let his emotions loose, "Okay, here it goes. Syd, I know I've messed up. And I can barely live with how much pain I put you through. And just thinking about you hurting kills me and knowing I caused it, it's unbearable."

Sydney recognized the hesitation in his voice and didn't question that he meant every word.

"But despite that I still did it. But I think you need to understand when you died I did too. After I hit rock bottom with the drinking and hallucinations I just closed that part of my life. I tried as hard as I could not to think about you. When I was with Lauren it was easier. She was everything you weren't. When things started to get serious it was easier to lay in bed at night pretending it was you in my arms...but it wasn't. Syd I thought you were gone and I did my best to deal with that. But then you came back and..."

His voice trailed off and Sydney tried to get a grasp on whether of not she should start to speak. After about a minute she took the plunge. But "Vaughn, it's okay." was all she managed to choke out.

"No it's not Syd!" He didn't yell but the tone of his voice changed to frustration, not with her but with himself. "I gave up on us I gave up on you! You were going on missions and pretending to be someone else and I was getting engaged! I betrayed you and as much as I want you to forgive me I don't understand how you can. You're everything to me, I look into your eyes and I see meaning, I see the reasons why I'm here. I thought that I could save you from the pain in your life. I thought I could rescue you."

Sydney was in tears. The man she loved was spilling his heart out to her and speaking the words she needed to hear but he was hurting, she could see it. The roles were reversed, she wanted him to be okay. "Vaughn," she spoke his name lower than a whisper but he heard it, he always heard it even when she didn't say it. "You did save me, you still save me."

"How? I hurt you Syd. You're savior would never have done that."

Sydney was genuinely confused. How would she explain she needed him too. That it was okay that he messed up, that she could forgive him. "You made a mistake. you thought I was dead Vaughn, I understand why you moved on."

"But I don't," Vaughn whispered.

"I don't even care about that anymore." Sydney thought they'd have to work through the past to get to the future but right now she just wanted him to hold her.

"Sydney, I don't deserve you. You're...you're you, you're Sydney. Ever since the first night I met you I prayed I could keep you from as much harm as possible. You opened my eyes, I didn't know who I was till you came along, you gave my life meaning. what have I ever done for you?"

Sydney was shocked, "Let's see, gotten shot, tortured, disobeyed your superiors, almost gotten fired, risked your life, broken the law, and about 100 other things. Vaughn you need to know that you mean just at much to me as I do to you. You say I gave your life meaning...well you brought me to life."

"Syd, I never wanted to see you in pain. I can't forgive myself for putting you through that."

"If you walk away and let this end because you don't think you're worthy of me that you'll secure the rest of my life in hell." She offered a slight smile to ease the tension of the heavy conversation.

Her smile helped Vaughn feel better but her eyes were really what did it. He could see it in her tears, she still loved him, he still loved her. They were okay again, no they were them again.

"Syd,"

Sydney prepared herself for another confession of guilt and self- loathing. Instead Vaughn grazed his hand on her cheek bringing her eyes up to meet his. Throughout the conversation they'd moved closer to each other like gravity, "I love you. I never said that enough."

Sydney blinked and tears streamed down her cheeks. She could see his resting in his green breathtaking eyes. "I love you too." She whispered it with more emotion than she's ever felt in her life.

Vaughn gently pressed his lips into hers and they were together again. the kiss gradually grew deeper and the emotion between them was undeniable. She knew that her and Vaughn were just getting back on track and her next question was dangerous but she wasn't apprehensive. She knew that this was going to last and there was no reason to take things slow except for pride. With Vaughn she didn't need to put on andy facades or show her strength, he already knew. She pulled away for just a moment, "Vaughn?" he nodded never breaking eye contact, "Stay with me tonight?"

"That would be a pretty hard offer to pass up," he smiled. they were joking again...just like two years ago. It was as if nothing ever changed. "of course I'll stay."
Neither of them planned on making love but neither of them planned on stopping if it led there. They wanted each other and they needed each other. Neither of them would judge the other so they didn't care. They became one again.

As they were laying in bed the clock reached 6am and Vaughn was still awake stroking Sydney's hair. "Syd?" the question she was waiting all night to hear, she was awake but didn't answer. He leaned down brushing his cheek against her skin and placing his lips the tiniest distance from her ear, "I love you. Goodnight" Sydney smile and fell asleep in his arms. Vaughn kissed her forehead and closed his eyes pulling her close to his chest. They were together again. They were no longer Sydney and Michael...they were Syd and Vaughn.

what do you think guys? continue? I have some ideas for other stories so I don't know if I should put it in this or leave it how it is....might be better to start a new story...tell me what you think...thanks!