The Musings of a Lost Love
Hermione always had loved him, even when he was an insensitive prat. So why did I think I had a chance with her? Perhaps because he constantly argued with her, I believed she didn't love him; but you know the saying, opposites attract. I was a tad clueless at first; it seemed highly improbable. As for him, he knew he loved her from the fourth-year Yule Ball when he finally noticed she was a girl. They started dating from seventh year; it took them a little time to break the boundaries. He had promised to love her forever.
She was the happiest I had ever seen her. Yet I remained the "happy supporter", who secretly wanted the brilliant girl to be mine. Not that anyone could own her, of course.
Then he was gone, died heroically in battle. That's around the time we started dating; I always knew from the pit of my stomach that she was just filling me in place of the deep chasm he had taken away from her heart. But I refused to listen to this gut instinct, which haunted my dreams. I imagined that he had come back from the dead calling for her to join him; and she did. Without even pondering the choices for a second, she did. That part hurt the most. The sad irony is, if I had listened to that premonition I would be away from these tortuous thoughts that still disturb me.
And as the twist of fate would have it, he was never killed; her love had kept him alive. She was ecstatic when she found out; she was practically glowing from the radiance she displayed, a radiance I could never put on her face. All I could do is pretend to be happy.
I was ashamed at myself for wishing him still to be deceased. This way, all of Hermione's memories of him to stay obscured under and she would still love me.
But alas, I always knew she was not rightfully mine. He promised he would love her forever. This phrase would also begin to trouble my existence.
A/N
This is only the first chapter, it is not a "one-shot".
Sorry, the story will get better later on (if I decide to continue).
I realized AFTER I wrote it is a TAD bit like Pearl Harbor.
This was not intentional and the story doesn't turn out like the movie at all.
Thanks everyone
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