I'm Back
Sirius woke up suddenly sitting bolt up right, the room was dark and could hardly see; he looked around quickly and saw someone stood in the shadows. He swung his legs over the side of the bed, and looked over at the shadows.
"You can come in, if you want." Sirius told him.
Slowly Harry walked out of the shadow's and into the small strip of light just coming from the lamp on the bedside table, he looked at Sirius hard as if trying to make out if this was really him; Sirius smiled at him. But Harry didn't smile back; he just flung his arms around him and started to cry; while Sirius gentle hugged him back.
"I'm sorry Harry." Sirius whispered. "You're ok though, and I'm; well I don't know about me only that I'm back some how."
"You left me, I though that I had lost you; you were..." Harry tried to explain, but didn't know how to that he was finally here to tell him.
"I thought I was gone as well, I'm not completely sure where I was though; it was all like a dream like one of those you knew you had but can't remember." Sirius said thoughtfully as Harry sat down beside of him.
Harry looked down at his feet, while Sirius just looked forward; they just sat there for a while not speaking just happy enough to sit with one another. Until someone knocked on the door softly.
Sirius looked up and smiled slightly. "Come in Moony."
Harry looked at him wondering how he knew it was going to be him, and then he looked over at the door as it opened slowly and Remus walked in; he looked over at the two of them and then closed the door behind him carrying a box.
"How did you know it was me?" Remus asked him.
"You knock to quietly." Sirius told him, and then smiled. "So what have you got there?"
"This is yours, I've had it all these years; I thought I lost it until recently." Remus told him, handing over the box.
Sirius took it off of him, it felt quite heavy but he still didn't know what it was; he opened the lid slowly. He heard her voice as soft as the wind.
'Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight'
Sirius quickly closed it and looked up at Remus, who was looking down at him as though worried about him.
"It's nothing." Sirius mumbled to them.
***
Severus walked into his office feeling very pleased with himself; everything was working to plan so far; it was only a matter of time before it all came together. He walked over to his desk and picked up the photo of the young woman who smiled up at him, he touched her face softly and smiled down at her.
"Soon, soon we'll be together." Severus told her.
He walked behind his desk and sat down on his chair still holding the photo, he took one last look at it before he replaced it on his desk; and unlocked the top draw and pulled out a black dusty book. He opened it and it fell open on the page that he was looking for though it wasn't written in English, it wasn't even a language that belonged to that world; but somehow he understood it, well understood the part what he needed. (Or so he thought.)
He read through the chants and potion's he would need again and again, until he finally had them memorised; he had been studying this for months but has been looking for away to use it for fifteen years, and it was finally here.
Severus looked up at the photo. "It's up to you now, I know you can do it."
***
Sirius had put the box in the bottom of his wardrobe and wouldn't open it again; it was just too painful to keep hearing her voice like that as though she was haunting him; even though he knew she wouldn't do anything like that.
He walked into the kitchen and sat down facing Remus, everyone was still a little funny around him considering; he didn't blame them because he felt the same way. But there was also something else nagging him at the back of his mind as though he was supposed to be doing something.
"So what have you found?" Remus asked him, as he put his cup of tea down.
"Not much, I found that old box full of photo's of Nissa's; you know the one." Sirius told him.
"Oh yeah, I don't believe how she got some of them; make sure that those ones are never seen, you know the ones that I'm talking about." Remus said smiling.
"Of course mate." Sirius said.
"So who's Nissa?" Harry asked over hearing the name mentioned again.
"Nissa, oh I remember her; beautiful lass she was and had quite a fiery spirit as well." Moody told him. "It was horrible though what happened to her, I can't believe that it's been fifteen years already."
Harry looked at Moody and then looked down at Sirius and Lupin waiting for their answer, because Moody's hadn't really told him that much; or had it?
"Severus always blamed me for what happened, but I realised that he only did that because he blamed himself; like we all did." Sirius said. "That bastard, he loved her I guest in his own way."
"So you were together, or were she with Snape?" Harry asked.
"I can't image Snape being with anyone, not that I would want too of course." Ron said shuddering at the thought.
"Yeah we were together, and she was friends with him; even though she was a Gryffindor like us." Sirius told them, even though he didn't like to talk about her and him in the same sentence.
Sirius looked down at the plate of food in front of him and then pushed it away he wasn't in the mind for eating; he could hear her voice speaking softly inside of his mind, he knew that it was only his imagination but it was too much.
'Not eating well that isn't at all like you; you should really eat something. You have to keep your strength up now don't you.'
Part of Sirius wished that he couldn't hear her still, and then he wished that he had never wished it; because that was all he had left of her, photo's and her voice. He had lost her, lost his chance to be with her.
He pushed his chair back, telling Remus that he was going to lay down and then went back up stair's to his bedroom. Remus understood that he didn't like to talk about Nissa because it hurt him so much, he had been there the day of the act; he had been with Sirius when they were told and the day before. It had almost destroyed him, but he somehow managed to pulled himself through it with the help of his friends. But what Sirius had told him about what had happened inside Azkaban, that somehow she had managed to talk to him even though she didn't have a soul and she was lost and then how she died; he wondered how he had come through it all so strong, but it seemed as though it was finally taking its toile on him now.
Sirius walked into his bedroom and turned the lights off, someone was playing music again in one of the bedroom's; he didn't know which he had thought they were all still downstairs, but he hadn't really been paying that much attention so he didn't really know.
The song was repeating, he wished that it wouldn't; why was they doing this to him, did they want to hurt him even more then what he was already hurting?
'Long lost words whispers slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
Hunting you I can smell you- alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me'
He closed his eyes as he listened to the song playing over and over again, the words only partly sinking in. He could feel soft arms wrap around him and a head resting upon his chest, as though she was sleeping beside him peacefully. There was no other sound in the house, only their breathes and the sound of their beating hearts lulling them to sleep.
(A/N: - I hope you liked the chapter, the song was by Evanescence, called Haunted off the album Fallen. Thanks to NeoQueenSerenity18 for your review, I'm glad that you liked the song and I hope you like this one as well. Though I might be putting a few more in as the story goes on.
But I would like to say sorry at this point, because I never put it in the summary; but you'll understand kind of whom Nissa is if you've already read the other stories in the series because this is the seventh. But if you haven't then it doesn't matter completely because you find out what's going on soon enough and who everyone is.
Anyway, please review now you've got this far and keep reading once I've posted.
Siri Lupin, hoping to hear from you all soon.
Sirius woke up suddenly sitting bolt up right, the room was dark and could hardly see; he looked around quickly and saw someone stood in the shadows. He swung his legs over the side of the bed, and looked over at the shadows.
"You can come in, if you want." Sirius told him.
Slowly Harry walked out of the shadow's and into the small strip of light just coming from the lamp on the bedside table, he looked at Sirius hard as if trying to make out if this was really him; Sirius smiled at him. But Harry didn't smile back; he just flung his arms around him and started to cry; while Sirius gentle hugged him back.
"I'm sorry Harry." Sirius whispered. "You're ok though, and I'm; well I don't know about me only that I'm back some how."
"You left me, I though that I had lost you; you were..." Harry tried to explain, but didn't know how to that he was finally here to tell him.
"I thought I was gone as well, I'm not completely sure where I was though; it was all like a dream like one of those you knew you had but can't remember." Sirius said thoughtfully as Harry sat down beside of him.
Harry looked down at his feet, while Sirius just looked forward; they just sat there for a while not speaking just happy enough to sit with one another. Until someone knocked on the door softly.
Sirius looked up and smiled slightly. "Come in Moony."
Harry looked at him wondering how he knew it was going to be him, and then he looked over at the door as it opened slowly and Remus walked in; he looked over at the two of them and then closed the door behind him carrying a box.
"How did you know it was me?" Remus asked him.
"You knock to quietly." Sirius told him, and then smiled. "So what have you got there?"
"This is yours, I've had it all these years; I thought I lost it until recently." Remus told him, handing over the box.
Sirius took it off of him, it felt quite heavy but he still didn't know what it was; he opened the lid slowly. He heard her voice as soft as the wind.
'Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight'
Sirius quickly closed it and looked up at Remus, who was looking down at him as though worried about him.
"It's nothing." Sirius mumbled to them.
***
Severus walked into his office feeling very pleased with himself; everything was working to plan so far; it was only a matter of time before it all came together. He walked over to his desk and picked up the photo of the young woman who smiled up at him, he touched her face softly and smiled down at her.
"Soon, soon we'll be together." Severus told her.
He walked behind his desk and sat down on his chair still holding the photo, he took one last look at it before he replaced it on his desk; and unlocked the top draw and pulled out a black dusty book. He opened it and it fell open on the page that he was looking for though it wasn't written in English, it wasn't even a language that belonged to that world; but somehow he understood it, well understood the part what he needed. (Or so he thought.)
He read through the chants and potion's he would need again and again, until he finally had them memorised; he had been studying this for months but has been looking for away to use it for fifteen years, and it was finally here.
Severus looked up at the photo. "It's up to you now, I know you can do it."
***
Sirius had put the box in the bottom of his wardrobe and wouldn't open it again; it was just too painful to keep hearing her voice like that as though she was haunting him; even though he knew she wouldn't do anything like that.
He walked into the kitchen and sat down facing Remus, everyone was still a little funny around him considering; he didn't blame them because he felt the same way. But there was also something else nagging him at the back of his mind as though he was supposed to be doing something.
"So what have you found?" Remus asked him, as he put his cup of tea down.
"Not much, I found that old box full of photo's of Nissa's; you know the one." Sirius told him.
"Oh yeah, I don't believe how she got some of them; make sure that those ones are never seen, you know the ones that I'm talking about." Remus said smiling.
"Of course mate." Sirius said.
"So who's Nissa?" Harry asked over hearing the name mentioned again.
"Nissa, oh I remember her; beautiful lass she was and had quite a fiery spirit as well." Moody told him. "It was horrible though what happened to her, I can't believe that it's been fifteen years already."
Harry looked at Moody and then looked down at Sirius and Lupin waiting for their answer, because Moody's hadn't really told him that much; or had it?
"Severus always blamed me for what happened, but I realised that he only did that because he blamed himself; like we all did." Sirius said. "That bastard, he loved her I guest in his own way."
"So you were together, or were she with Snape?" Harry asked.
"I can't image Snape being with anyone, not that I would want too of course." Ron said shuddering at the thought.
"Yeah we were together, and she was friends with him; even though she was a Gryffindor like us." Sirius told them, even though he didn't like to talk about her and him in the same sentence.
Sirius looked down at the plate of food in front of him and then pushed it away he wasn't in the mind for eating; he could hear her voice speaking softly inside of his mind, he knew that it was only his imagination but it was too much.
'Not eating well that isn't at all like you; you should really eat something. You have to keep your strength up now don't you.'
Part of Sirius wished that he couldn't hear her still, and then he wished that he had never wished it; because that was all he had left of her, photo's and her voice. He had lost her, lost his chance to be with her.
He pushed his chair back, telling Remus that he was going to lay down and then went back up stair's to his bedroom. Remus understood that he didn't like to talk about Nissa because it hurt him so much, he had been there the day of the act; he had been with Sirius when they were told and the day before. It had almost destroyed him, but he somehow managed to pulled himself through it with the help of his friends. But what Sirius had told him about what had happened inside Azkaban, that somehow she had managed to talk to him even though she didn't have a soul and she was lost and then how she died; he wondered how he had come through it all so strong, but it seemed as though it was finally taking its toile on him now.
Sirius walked into his bedroom and turned the lights off, someone was playing music again in one of the bedroom's; he didn't know which he had thought they were all still downstairs, but he hadn't really been paying that much attention so he didn't really know.
The song was repeating, he wished that it wouldn't; why was they doing this to him, did they want to hurt him even more then what he was already hurting?
'Long lost words whispers slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
Hunting you I can smell you- alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me'
He closed his eyes as he listened to the song playing over and over again, the words only partly sinking in. He could feel soft arms wrap around him and a head resting upon his chest, as though she was sleeping beside him peacefully. There was no other sound in the house, only their breathes and the sound of their beating hearts lulling them to sleep.
(A/N: - I hope you liked the chapter, the song was by Evanescence, called Haunted off the album Fallen. Thanks to NeoQueenSerenity18 for your review, I'm glad that you liked the song and I hope you like this one as well. Though I might be putting a few more in as the story goes on.
But I would like to say sorry at this point, because I never put it in the summary; but you'll understand kind of whom Nissa is if you've already read the other stories in the series because this is the seventh. But if you haven't then it doesn't matter completely because you find out what's going on soon enough and who everyone is.
Anyway, please review now you've got this far and keep reading once I've posted.
Siri Lupin, hoping to hear from you all soon.