The Forbidden Forest
Sirius was still sat on the floor, long after the light had disappeared and the orb along with it; he was still trying to get his head around it. He looked up and down the corridor and then got up suddenly, he ran down the corridor as fast as he could to Remus' classroom; he knew that he was teaching but he didn't care this was fair more important.
Sirius burst into the classroom startling everyone making them all stare at him, as he walked over to Remus.
"Remus, she's alive; she's alive." Sirius told him.
"What are you talking about?" Remus asked him concerned for his friend.
"She spoke to me; she's alive and wants me to find her." Sirius told him.
"What?" Remus asked; he didn't have a clue what he was talking about only that he sounded a little mad. "Maybe if you just sit down for a moment, and calm down and then start again."
"No, I can't I've got to go; I've got to find her she needs me." Sirius told him, and then turned round and walked well almost ran back out again.
Remus just stared after him completely confused by his behaviour and wondered if he should go after him, he looked back at his class and then at the open door again; he knew Sirius could look after himself if anything happened but this was different he was acting strange, even more so then normal.
Sirius walked down the corridor almost at a run, he wasn't really thinking straight only that he had to find her somehow; he didn't know how only that he had too. He didn't know what he had been excepting from Remus when he had gone to tell him, only that he needed to tell someone.
Sirius almost knocked Snape over as he charged through the entrance hall on his way out into the grounds.
"Watch where you're going Black!" Severus shouted after him; but once he was outside he smiled to himself and said quietly. "Hope you find her soon, you're wasting too much of my time."
Sirius walked out into the cold afternoon, and walked across the grounds heading for the Forbidden Forest; he didn't really know why that's where he was going. Part from that was the closest forest, and he has found her in there before. As he walked over he started to remember...
She waited until it was all clear and then ran into the Forbidden Forest, they followed after her; but she had disappeared before they entered after her.
"I don't think we need this on in here." Sirius said as he pulled the cloak off, and all three of them appeared from underneath.
"Where do you think she went?" James asked.
"Do we really have to go in there?" Peter asked holding onto the edge of James' robes.
"Yes." Sirius answered firmly.
They started to walk forward James and Sirius pulled out their wands and lit them so that they could see a little better. They walked for about fifteen minute's farer into the forest without even a trace of her anywhere, until they heard something, a howl; a pricing cold howl as though it was in pain. They all hoped that it wasn't Remus.
"Do you think that it's that female werewolf what Remus said?" James asked.
"I don't know." Sirius answered, with something nagging at the back of his mind.
"Maybe we should go back if they're werewolves in here." Peter moaned pulling at James' sleeve, but neither of them answered him and carried on.
And then they heard another howl even louder then before, it was getting closer, and they all knew that it couldn't be Remus. Peter started to pull at both of their sleeves trying to get them to go back not wanting to go any farer, even if there wasn't a werewolf getting closer. Sirius swung round to get Peter off of him, but slipped on a broken branch and then fell down a hole covered with leaves.
He tried to stop himself as he fell down the slippery, wet and slimy slope. He put his wrist out in front of him as he was reaching the bottom and couldn't see what was down there because he had dropped his wand, he heard and felt the pain as it broke; he bit down on his lip so hard that it started to bleed as he came to a stop at the bottom.
He sat there for a moment holding his wrist and sucking his now bleeding lip, when he heard something walking towards him, it was like soft feet upon the ground; he thought it was the werewolf. He didn't know what to do; he couldn't attack because it would betray everything which he had ever said to Remus.
He looked hard into the darkness that was surrounding him and seemed to be closing in on him; he couldn't hear the creature anymore. He looked behind him wondering if James would come down for him or if he had to get back up there somehow, when something or someone jumped down and landed right in front of him.
He quickly turned back round to see what it was. It wasn't what he was expecting. Nissa sat there in front of him like a cat and eyeing him up as if was wondering what to do with him. She slowly crawled over to him; she reached out for his broken hand, which he let her take.
They looked at each other not taking their eyes off the other encase they would disappear. Sirius looked into her eyes, he had seen them before but this time they were much softer; they were still that of a wild creature but there was something else in them as they looked back at him.
She lifted his hand in hers, they were still ice cold, she crested her face against his hand; both started to become warmer from each others touch. She kissed his hand and then his wrist, her lips felt like fire against his skin after the coldness of her touch; but he couldn't feel the pain anymore.
He touched her face with his other hand she moved her face to meet his touch and purred quietly as he crested her face, she closed her eyes and purred louder with each touch and made to kiss his hand as it came near to her lips.
Sirius moved closer into her, she sat in-between his legs crawling softly at his robes as she lent her head on his shoulder and curled into his body at which he wrapped his arms closely around her.
Sirius laid there with her sleeping peacefully in his arms, her hair had changed back to its normal red during the night, which Sirius thought it suited her much better then the blue; and made her feel so much warmer.
Nissa woke with a start and Sirius let go of her straight away, she looked at him and the position they had been in and then jumped to her feet, as if she had no idea what had happened.
"Nissa..." Sirius said getting to his feet but she didn't answer. "Nis, are you alright?"
Nissa looked around trying to remember what happened but she couldn't remember anything after Remus, and she hoped that he was alright. Sirius stepped forward as it started to rain, he reached out to touch her but she stepped away him; she hadn't even seen him because he was behind but she had known.
"Nis, come on we need to get back inside." Sirius told her. "Its staring to rain, and everyone will be wondering where we are."
She nodded and they started to make their way up the slop he had fallen down the night before. Nissa saw something on the ground; she bent down and picked it up. She looked over at Sirius and smiled slightly.
"I think you dropped something." Nissa told him handing him his wand back.
"Thanks." Sirius said. He had a million or so questions buzzing around that he wanted to ask her, but he didn't want too frighten her off as he normally did.
When they reached the top Nissa stopped and looked back down and then at Sirius who had already started to walk.
"Were you lot following me again?" Nissa asked as she followed.
"Well kind of." Sirius admitted.
"Maybe it was a good thing last night." Nissa admitted as well, and then stopped him. "Sirius what... I mean... well... Did I do anything?"
Sirius looked at her for a moment realising that she really didn't remember; and then he smiled at her reassuringly.
"No nothing. I found you after I fell, and we couldn't get back up, we just fell asleep down there; that's all." Sirius told her.
Nissa looked at him for a moment, and then smiled at him; they carried on walking for a while.
"I'm not going out with him." Nissa suddenly told him.
Sirius smiled brightly to himself but didn't say anything, but he didn't really need to break the silence because that was done for him.
"There you are!" Roared Hagrid, almost running over to the two of them. "What do you think you were doing, spending the whole night in there?"
Sirius and Nissa just stood there; neither of them really knew what to say. Hagrid lectured them all the way back to the castle and up to Professor McGonagall's office and then left them to her...
...Sirius had been trying every chance he got, just saying the spell but it wasn't working. They were walking across the grounds to go to Care of Magical Creatures, when he suddenly felt odd, different, as though something was happening to him.
There was a loud pop and he was all on fours and on the ground, barking up at them as a giant bear like dog. He ran around them all barking playfully as they walked.
"Great Sirius, you really live up to your name now." Remus said as he stocked his ears. "But maybe you should change back."
"Hey great dog, who does he belong too?" Liam asked.
Sirius was running around everyone playfully, they all loved him, nothing new there then. Then he saw Lily and Nissa walking over as well, he ran up to them well up to Nissa. Who didn't look as happy to see him as everyone else had, infact she moved quickly out of his path and around to Lily's other side; but he followed her making her keep moving away from him.
"It's a dog, its not going to hurt you." Natalie told her as she stocked him, which he liked the attention.
"I'm not a big dog person, I prefer cats; I'm more of a cat person." Nissa told them as she backed away from him, but he kept following her.
He stood up on his hine legs and reached up to her, this time though she didn't move away from him.
"Come along, Miss Tiania dog's are not a pet that we allow." The Professor told her.
"He isn't mine; I haven't even brought my cats." Nissa told him moving away from the dog again, with James and Remus laughing at her. "It isn't funny."
"Of course it is." James told her.
The dog stayed with them all lesson, Sirius never changed back; and they never told Nissa that it was him. But half way through the lesson, Natalie stepped back onto his paw putting her heel through his foot; he howled in pain and tried to limp away. The teacher told them all to leave him alone.
"We can't just leave him." Nissa said as she watched him limp over to the forest.
"You didn't want to be anywhere near him a minute ago." Ella reminded her.
"It's an animal, and he's hurt." Lily said.
"He's a dog and he's still getting loads of attention off the girls, what does he do put a love potion in all of their drinks every morning." James joked.
When the lesson was finally over, James, Remus and Peter went over to the forest to find him; Nissa quickly ran after them after leaving the others because they wouldn't come anywhere near the forest.
"Wait up!" Nissa shouted as she ran over to them, they all stopped and waited for her.
"You're still coming?" James asked her.
"Yeah course." Nissa answered.
"How can you be afraid of dogs?" Remus asked her.
Nissa smiled at him. "It's my friend's fault, when I was little. He could change into a dog, as big as that one. Well him and his friend who was a werewolf well they jumped out at me freighting me half to death, they thought of course that it was dead funny. But after that I've always been a bit iffy around them."
"But you're a werewolf." Remus reminded her, while James and Peter laughed at her story which she choice to ignore.
"I wasn't a werewolf then, and he was the first one I ever saw." Nissa told him as they walked under the trees. "He wasn't the last, I've seen hundred's; not that there are hundreds of them about here."
"I wish you would make more sense." James told her, and then she broke away from them and headed in the opposite direction. "Where are you going? You're supposed to stay on the path!"
Nissa didn't answer him, she ducked under a large bunch and there he was sat there licking his paw. Nissa sat down beside him; he looked at her and licked her hand as she took hold of his paw in her other.
"What did you smell him?" James asked coming up behind her smiling at Remus.
"No, I heard him." Nissa told him as she looked into the eyes of the dog; and then smiled at him. "Well this form does suit you considering your name; maybe you should change back though Sirius."
"Wait a minute, wait a minute." James said. "How did, what makes you think that's Sirius?"
"Why does everyone know the name thing, and I don't." Peter asked, though no one was paying him any attention.
"I just know." Nissa said.
"I'm just surprised you didn't realise sooner." Remus told her.
Nissa looked up at him and smiled. "I'm a little out of touch, I didn't realise about you straight away; well not until I saw you up close." She turned back to Sirius. "You know I can heal your paw if you change back, or I'll change you myself."
Sirius changed back with a pop and smiled at her. "I didn't fancy the potion."
"I wouldn't have used a potion." Nissa told him and then kissed his hand.
He could feel a small fire on her lips and then on his hand, and then there was no more pain.
"Thanks." Sirius said. "But you do know that you'll have to tell us how you do all this one day."
Nissa smiled at him. "I promise one day."
"I'll be holding you to that." Sirius reassured her...
... "Why weren't you in Potion's, he said you have another detention because you didn't show." Lily told her. "What's going on?"
"Nothing." Nissa said as she stepped back right into Remus, she couldn't even look him in the face.
"Of course there is, you never miss a class even if your with us and one of those other lessons is going on you don't even seem to miss that." Lily said.
"I don't want to talk about it." Nissa told her.
"That's just it; you never want to talk about anything you just keep everything to yourself." Sirius said as he walked to the ladder. "Like it would hurt you to let someone in."
Nissa lost control she lunged at Sirius before Remus could stop her, she punched him in the face and fell back on the ground pulling her on top of him because he was so shocked at her out burst; with blood running down his face. He looked up at her shocked by her behaviour, she looked down at him ready to hit him again and suddenly realised what she was doing; she quickly got to her feet and ran all the way back down too the school.
James helped him to his feet while everyone was still staring at him; Remus though wasn't at all friendly towards him as they took him to the hospital wing.
"Come on Remus, she was the one who hit him." James told him.
"And he desired it." Remus told him, making them all stop.
"She hit me, look blood and everything." Sirius said.
"You care about her, why don't you stop pretending." Remus told him. "She needs you and you're hurting her even more."
"What does that mean?" Sirius asked. "I thought we've already been over this, I'm not her mate and she never wanted to me to be."
It suddenly hit Remus that was it, that was what had upset him not that she hadn't told him, but because she had said that she wouldn't have taken him as her mate.
"Sirius, it doesn't matter what she might have said; people say one thing to covering up for their feeling's." Remus told him. "Do you remember that I said that I could smell her on you afterwards? Well yesterday morning, I didn't smell you on her; I smelt someone else."
"What, I bet it was Snape." Sirius shouted completely losing his mind.
"Don't be so stupid. It was Jevidah." Remus told him.
Sirius stepped back as though someone had hit him in the face again. "No, no you're wrong; it can't be. Because then that would mean..." But he couldn't bring himself to say it.
James looked from Sirius to Remus. "He's right, it can't be."
"Of course it can." Remus said. "It would explain a lot, it isn't you it's him."
Sirius turned away from them as he told them. "It is me as well if its true and I know it is. She can contract me magical, she did she...I told her to leave me alone."
They all looked at him, he wouldn't face them how could he after what he had just told them; he had let them all down and he had let her down, because he was so stubborn.
Sirius walked away but not towards the hospital wing, none of them tried to stop him as he left; what would they say? He walked down the entrance hall and stood at the open door for a while looking out over the grounds, and then walked out after a while he changed into the bear like dog and ran as fast as he could towards the forest.
He entered the forest it was different from last time he had come in here looking for her, one he hadn't been on his own and another it had been at night. He walked for over an hour trying to use his dog senses to find her but he couldn't it was as though she had put some sort of block up so that he couldn't find her, but he wasn't going to give up even if he had to stay out here all night by himself.
Sirius heard someone behind him and changed back into himself as he turned round, to see Nissa there; it had taken him over an hour and half but she had finally come to him.
"What the hell do you want?" Nissa asked him wryly. "He told you didn't he?"
"Sorry is a little hollow, but what else can I say." Sirius said. "That I'm a clueless idiot who doesn't desire someone like you, because I am. Especially because I didn't listen to you, I was annoyed; but I knew what he was like and I still did nothing. I'm fifteen almost sixteen; I was scared that I was committing in away. And I lost sight of everything else."
Nissa looked at him for a while before she said anything. "I'm fifteen myself, I wasn't asking for a commitment, because I knew that you couldn't give it; but I wasn't looking for one either. But...I..." Nissa couldn't say anymore it was to much the tears were blinding as she sucking to the ground, Sirius knelt down beside her not wanting to take her in his arms; not wanting to hurt her again. "I could have done something, why didn't I?"
"You did, it was me; you did everything that you could." Sirius told her, she looked up at him her face shined with tears and more leaking through her beautiful red eyes; making him want to cry with her.
"I could have, before he took my magic." Nissa told him slowly.
"What do you mean he took your magic?" Sirius asked her horrified. "You contacted me."
"Yes, with the last of my magic." Nissa told him.
Sirius couldn't believe what she was telling him, she had put all her hope in him; and he had failed her down.
"I have it back now though, it was only short term." Nissa went on. "But I'm not going too that detention, I can't."
"Of course, I would think you crazy if you did go; not that I would have let you." Sirius told her.
Nissa moved a little closer to him, her long hair falling forward he couldn't help but reach out for her; she pushed him away at first but he wouldn't let her go, he took her in his arms and she just cried. He knew she didn't want anything off him just for him to hold her and make her feel safe, but he wanted so much more...
Sirius shock himself of the memories as he stopped in front of the forest, it just looked like normal; and wondered if he was ever going to find her in there.
(A/N: -First flash back was from their third year- from the story 'Going Under'.
Second flash back was from their firth year as was the last- from the story 'By the Light of the Magical Moon'.
I'm getting there, sorry about keeping you in suspense but it's the whole part of the story; it's coming soon though so keep reading you won't be disappointed.
Sirius was still sat on the floor, long after the light had disappeared and the orb along with it; he was still trying to get his head around it. He looked up and down the corridor and then got up suddenly, he ran down the corridor as fast as he could to Remus' classroom; he knew that he was teaching but he didn't care this was fair more important.
Sirius burst into the classroom startling everyone making them all stare at him, as he walked over to Remus.
"Remus, she's alive; she's alive." Sirius told him.
"What are you talking about?" Remus asked him concerned for his friend.
"She spoke to me; she's alive and wants me to find her." Sirius told him.
"What?" Remus asked; he didn't have a clue what he was talking about only that he sounded a little mad. "Maybe if you just sit down for a moment, and calm down and then start again."
"No, I can't I've got to go; I've got to find her she needs me." Sirius told him, and then turned round and walked well almost ran back out again.
Remus just stared after him completely confused by his behaviour and wondered if he should go after him, he looked back at his class and then at the open door again; he knew Sirius could look after himself if anything happened but this was different he was acting strange, even more so then normal.
Sirius walked down the corridor almost at a run, he wasn't really thinking straight only that he had to find her somehow; he didn't know how only that he had too. He didn't know what he had been excepting from Remus when he had gone to tell him, only that he needed to tell someone.
Sirius almost knocked Snape over as he charged through the entrance hall on his way out into the grounds.
"Watch where you're going Black!" Severus shouted after him; but once he was outside he smiled to himself and said quietly. "Hope you find her soon, you're wasting too much of my time."
Sirius walked out into the cold afternoon, and walked across the grounds heading for the Forbidden Forest; he didn't really know why that's where he was going. Part from that was the closest forest, and he has found her in there before. As he walked over he started to remember...
She waited until it was all clear and then ran into the Forbidden Forest, they followed after her; but she had disappeared before they entered after her.
"I don't think we need this on in here." Sirius said as he pulled the cloak off, and all three of them appeared from underneath.
"Where do you think she went?" James asked.
"Do we really have to go in there?" Peter asked holding onto the edge of James' robes.
"Yes." Sirius answered firmly.
They started to walk forward James and Sirius pulled out their wands and lit them so that they could see a little better. They walked for about fifteen minute's farer into the forest without even a trace of her anywhere, until they heard something, a howl; a pricing cold howl as though it was in pain. They all hoped that it wasn't Remus.
"Do you think that it's that female werewolf what Remus said?" James asked.
"I don't know." Sirius answered, with something nagging at the back of his mind.
"Maybe we should go back if they're werewolves in here." Peter moaned pulling at James' sleeve, but neither of them answered him and carried on.
And then they heard another howl even louder then before, it was getting closer, and they all knew that it couldn't be Remus. Peter started to pull at both of their sleeves trying to get them to go back not wanting to go any farer, even if there wasn't a werewolf getting closer. Sirius swung round to get Peter off of him, but slipped on a broken branch and then fell down a hole covered with leaves.
He tried to stop himself as he fell down the slippery, wet and slimy slope. He put his wrist out in front of him as he was reaching the bottom and couldn't see what was down there because he had dropped his wand, he heard and felt the pain as it broke; he bit down on his lip so hard that it started to bleed as he came to a stop at the bottom.
He sat there for a moment holding his wrist and sucking his now bleeding lip, when he heard something walking towards him, it was like soft feet upon the ground; he thought it was the werewolf. He didn't know what to do; he couldn't attack because it would betray everything which he had ever said to Remus.
He looked hard into the darkness that was surrounding him and seemed to be closing in on him; he couldn't hear the creature anymore. He looked behind him wondering if James would come down for him or if he had to get back up there somehow, when something or someone jumped down and landed right in front of him.
He quickly turned back round to see what it was. It wasn't what he was expecting. Nissa sat there in front of him like a cat and eyeing him up as if was wondering what to do with him. She slowly crawled over to him; she reached out for his broken hand, which he let her take.
They looked at each other not taking their eyes off the other encase they would disappear. Sirius looked into her eyes, he had seen them before but this time they were much softer; they were still that of a wild creature but there was something else in them as they looked back at him.
She lifted his hand in hers, they were still ice cold, she crested her face against his hand; both started to become warmer from each others touch. She kissed his hand and then his wrist, her lips felt like fire against his skin after the coldness of her touch; but he couldn't feel the pain anymore.
He touched her face with his other hand she moved her face to meet his touch and purred quietly as he crested her face, she closed her eyes and purred louder with each touch and made to kiss his hand as it came near to her lips.
Sirius moved closer into her, she sat in-between his legs crawling softly at his robes as she lent her head on his shoulder and curled into his body at which he wrapped his arms closely around her.
Sirius laid there with her sleeping peacefully in his arms, her hair had changed back to its normal red during the night, which Sirius thought it suited her much better then the blue; and made her feel so much warmer.
Nissa woke with a start and Sirius let go of her straight away, she looked at him and the position they had been in and then jumped to her feet, as if she had no idea what had happened.
"Nissa..." Sirius said getting to his feet but she didn't answer. "Nis, are you alright?"
Nissa looked around trying to remember what happened but she couldn't remember anything after Remus, and she hoped that he was alright. Sirius stepped forward as it started to rain, he reached out to touch her but she stepped away him; she hadn't even seen him because he was behind but she had known.
"Nis, come on we need to get back inside." Sirius told her. "Its staring to rain, and everyone will be wondering where we are."
She nodded and they started to make their way up the slop he had fallen down the night before. Nissa saw something on the ground; she bent down and picked it up. She looked over at Sirius and smiled slightly.
"I think you dropped something." Nissa told him handing him his wand back.
"Thanks." Sirius said. He had a million or so questions buzzing around that he wanted to ask her, but he didn't want too frighten her off as he normally did.
When they reached the top Nissa stopped and looked back down and then at Sirius who had already started to walk.
"Were you lot following me again?" Nissa asked as she followed.
"Well kind of." Sirius admitted.
"Maybe it was a good thing last night." Nissa admitted as well, and then stopped him. "Sirius what... I mean... well... Did I do anything?"
Sirius looked at her for a moment realising that she really didn't remember; and then he smiled at her reassuringly.
"No nothing. I found you after I fell, and we couldn't get back up, we just fell asleep down there; that's all." Sirius told her.
Nissa looked at him for a moment, and then smiled at him; they carried on walking for a while.
"I'm not going out with him." Nissa suddenly told him.
Sirius smiled brightly to himself but didn't say anything, but he didn't really need to break the silence because that was done for him.
"There you are!" Roared Hagrid, almost running over to the two of them. "What do you think you were doing, spending the whole night in there?"
Sirius and Nissa just stood there; neither of them really knew what to say. Hagrid lectured them all the way back to the castle and up to Professor McGonagall's office and then left them to her...
...Sirius had been trying every chance he got, just saying the spell but it wasn't working. They were walking across the grounds to go to Care of Magical Creatures, when he suddenly felt odd, different, as though something was happening to him.
There was a loud pop and he was all on fours and on the ground, barking up at them as a giant bear like dog. He ran around them all barking playfully as they walked.
"Great Sirius, you really live up to your name now." Remus said as he stocked his ears. "But maybe you should change back."
"Hey great dog, who does he belong too?" Liam asked.
Sirius was running around everyone playfully, they all loved him, nothing new there then. Then he saw Lily and Nissa walking over as well, he ran up to them well up to Nissa. Who didn't look as happy to see him as everyone else had, infact she moved quickly out of his path and around to Lily's other side; but he followed her making her keep moving away from him.
"It's a dog, its not going to hurt you." Natalie told her as she stocked him, which he liked the attention.
"I'm not a big dog person, I prefer cats; I'm more of a cat person." Nissa told them as she backed away from him, but he kept following her.
He stood up on his hine legs and reached up to her, this time though she didn't move away from him.
"Come along, Miss Tiania dog's are not a pet that we allow." The Professor told her.
"He isn't mine; I haven't even brought my cats." Nissa told him moving away from the dog again, with James and Remus laughing at her. "It isn't funny."
"Of course it is." James told her.
The dog stayed with them all lesson, Sirius never changed back; and they never told Nissa that it was him. But half way through the lesson, Natalie stepped back onto his paw putting her heel through his foot; he howled in pain and tried to limp away. The teacher told them all to leave him alone.
"We can't just leave him." Nissa said as she watched him limp over to the forest.
"You didn't want to be anywhere near him a minute ago." Ella reminded her.
"It's an animal, and he's hurt." Lily said.
"He's a dog and he's still getting loads of attention off the girls, what does he do put a love potion in all of their drinks every morning." James joked.
When the lesson was finally over, James, Remus and Peter went over to the forest to find him; Nissa quickly ran after them after leaving the others because they wouldn't come anywhere near the forest.
"Wait up!" Nissa shouted as she ran over to them, they all stopped and waited for her.
"You're still coming?" James asked her.
"Yeah course." Nissa answered.
"How can you be afraid of dogs?" Remus asked her.
Nissa smiled at him. "It's my friend's fault, when I was little. He could change into a dog, as big as that one. Well him and his friend who was a werewolf well they jumped out at me freighting me half to death, they thought of course that it was dead funny. But after that I've always been a bit iffy around them."
"But you're a werewolf." Remus reminded her, while James and Peter laughed at her story which she choice to ignore.
"I wasn't a werewolf then, and he was the first one I ever saw." Nissa told him as they walked under the trees. "He wasn't the last, I've seen hundred's; not that there are hundreds of them about here."
"I wish you would make more sense." James told her, and then she broke away from them and headed in the opposite direction. "Where are you going? You're supposed to stay on the path!"
Nissa didn't answer him, she ducked under a large bunch and there he was sat there licking his paw. Nissa sat down beside him; he looked at her and licked her hand as she took hold of his paw in her other.
"What did you smell him?" James asked coming up behind her smiling at Remus.
"No, I heard him." Nissa told him as she looked into the eyes of the dog; and then smiled at him. "Well this form does suit you considering your name; maybe you should change back though Sirius."
"Wait a minute, wait a minute." James said. "How did, what makes you think that's Sirius?"
"Why does everyone know the name thing, and I don't." Peter asked, though no one was paying him any attention.
"I just know." Nissa said.
"I'm just surprised you didn't realise sooner." Remus told her.
Nissa looked up at him and smiled. "I'm a little out of touch, I didn't realise about you straight away; well not until I saw you up close." She turned back to Sirius. "You know I can heal your paw if you change back, or I'll change you myself."
Sirius changed back with a pop and smiled at her. "I didn't fancy the potion."
"I wouldn't have used a potion." Nissa told him and then kissed his hand.
He could feel a small fire on her lips and then on his hand, and then there was no more pain.
"Thanks." Sirius said. "But you do know that you'll have to tell us how you do all this one day."
Nissa smiled at him. "I promise one day."
"I'll be holding you to that." Sirius reassured her...
... "Why weren't you in Potion's, he said you have another detention because you didn't show." Lily told her. "What's going on?"
"Nothing." Nissa said as she stepped back right into Remus, she couldn't even look him in the face.
"Of course there is, you never miss a class even if your with us and one of those other lessons is going on you don't even seem to miss that." Lily said.
"I don't want to talk about it." Nissa told her.
"That's just it; you never want to talk about anything you just keep everything to yourself." Sirius said as he walked to the ladder. "Like it would hurt you to let someone in."
Nissa lost control she lunged at Sirius before Remus could stop her, she punched him in the face and fell back on the ground pulling her on top of him because he was so shocked at her out burst; with blood running down his face. He looked up at her shocked by her behaviour, she looked down at him ready to hit him again and suddenly realised what she was doing; she quickly got to her feet and ran all the way back down too the school.
James helped him to his feet while everyone was still staring at him; Remus though wasn't at all friendly towards him as they took him to the hospital wing.
"Come on Remus, she was the one who hit him." James told him.
"And he desired it." Remus told him, making them all stop.
"She hit me, look blood and everything." Sirius said.
"You care about her, why don't you stop pretending." Remus told him. "She needs you and you're hurting her even more."
"What does that mean?" Sirius asked. "I thought we've already been over this, I'm not her mate and she never wanted to me to be."
It suddenly hit Remus that was it, that was what had upset him not that she hadn't told him, but because she had said that she wouldn't have taken him as her mate.
"Sirius, it doesn't matter what she might have said; people say one thing to covering up for their feeling's." Remus told him. "Do you remember that I said that I could smell her on you afterwards? Well yesterday morning, I didn't smell you on her; I smelt someone else."
"What, I bet it was Snape." Sirius shouted completely losing his mind.
"Don't be so stupid. It was Jevidah." Remus told him.
Sirius stepped back as though someone had hit him in the face again. "No, no you're wrong; it can't be. Because then that would mean..." But he couldn't bring himself to say it.
James looked from Sirius to Remus. "He's right, it can't be."
"Of course it can." Remus said. "It would explain a lot, it isn't you it's him."
Sirius turned away from them as he told them. "It is me as well if its true and I know it is. She can contract me magical, she did she...I told her to leave me alone."
They all looked at him, he wouldn't face them how could he after what he had just told them; he had let them all down and he had let her down, because he was so stubborn.
Sirius walked away but not towards the hospital wing, none of them tried to stop him as he left; what would they say? He walked down the entrance hall and stood at the open door for a while looking out over the grounds, and then walked out after a while he changed into the bear like dog and ran as fast as he could towards the forest.
He entered the forest it was different from last time he had come in here looking for her, one he hadn't been on his own and another it had been at night. He walked for over an hour trying to use his dog senses to find her but he couldn't it was as though she had put some sort of block up so that he couldn't find her, but he wasn't going to give up even if he had to stay out here all night by himself.
Sirius heard someone behind him and changed back into himself as he turned round, to see Nissa there; it had taken him over an hour and half but she had finally come to him.
"What the hell do you want?" Nissa asked him wryly. "He told you didn't he?"
"Sorry is a little hollow, but what else can I say." Sirius said. "That I'm a clueless idiot who doesn't desire someone like you, because I am. Especially because I didn't listen to you, I was annoyed; but I knew what he was like and I still did nothing. I'm fifteen almost sixteen; I was scared that I was committing in away. And I lost sight of everything else."
Nissa looked at him for a while before she said anything. "I'm fifteen myself, I wasn't asking for a commitment, because I knew that you couldn't give it; but I wasn't looking for one either. But...I..." Nissa couldn't say anymore it was to much the tears were blinding as she sucking to the ground, Sirius knelt down beside her not wanting to take her in his arms; not wanting to hurt her again. "I could have done something, why didn't I?"
"You did, it was me; you did everything that you could." Sirius told her, she looked up at him her face shined with tears and more leaking through her beautiful red eyes; making him want to cry with her.
"I could have, before he took my magic." Nissa told him slowly.
"What do you mean he took your magic?" Sirius asked her horrified. "You contacted me."
"Yes, with the last of my magic." Nissa told him.
Sirius couldn't believe what she was telling him, she had put all her hope in him; and he had failed her down.
"I have it back now though, it was only short term." Nissa went on. "But I'm not going too that detention, I can't."
"Of course, I would think you crazy if you did go; not that I would have let you." Sirius told her.
Nissa moved a little closer to him, her long hair falling forward he couldn't help but reach out for her; she pushed him away at first but he wouldn't let her go, he took her in his arms and she just cried. He knew she didn't want anything off him just for him to hold her and make her feel safe, but he wanted so much more...
Sirius shock himself of the memories as he stopped in front of the forest, it just looked like normal; and wondered if he was ever going to find her in there.
(A/N: -First flash back was from their third year- from the story 'Going Under'.
Second flash back was from their firth year as was the last- from the story 'By the Light of the Magical Moon'.
I'm getting there, sorry about keeping you in suspense but it's the whole part of the story; it's coming soon though so keep reading you won't be disappointed.