Hey all! I know I have a few typos' in the last couple of chaps. I tried to fix them but for some unknown reason it wouldn't let me. Anyways, sorry for all of that. I hope that I do better this chapter. I never know who bad it really is until I reread it on ff.net. Ne ways on with the story.........................
Chapter Four
"Why won't the well work!" 'Thud' She tried again and again, but she only hit the bottom. "Inuyashaaaaaaa, why won't it work?" She screamed "I don't know, Kagome. Are you sure you're doing it right?" She scoffed. "Doing it right? DOING IT RIGHT? THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO DO IT, YOU IDIOT!" He laughed. "Oh, I guess you're right." He leaned over the well to look at her, his laughing was really starting to piss her off. "Sit." With a loud thud and a few curse words he was in the well with her. He was in the well alright. About a foot into the dirt in the well. "What did you do that for?" She was laughing now. "I was just seeing if I was the only one who couldn't get through. And, you were laughing at me, so, I thought that this would shut you up." Mumbling incoherent words under his breath, she laughed. "You would figure by now that you would have gotten used to your face hitting the ground. After four years of it I'm surprised that you two aren't best friends." She giggled, he grimaced, "You have to remember, Kagome, that it has actually only been two years, since you went away for the other two. He said her name as if it were venomous. She climbed out of the well at sat on the edge. She looked at him in anger from the last sentence that shot from his mouth. "Well, maybe if I didn't have to compete with a dead woman, then I wouldn't have left."
Inuyasha slowly worked his way up to set next to her. "What am I going to do? I really needed to go home for a while." He turned to look at her, "Look, you've been gone for two years. Is it really going to hurt you to stick around for a while?"
"I suppose not. But, I don't have any supplies, and I need some time alone for once." She never thought that she would actually say those words. She had been alone for so long, but, in all actuality, she really did need to be alone. She needed time to cope with everything going on in her world. Both of them. She had stuff she needed to do on the other side of the well and she needed to contemplate how she was going to handle being around Inuyasha........and Kikyo.
She finally gave in with a long sigh. "Look , I'll stay, I have no choice do I? But, I don't want to stay with you. I just don't think that I could handle seeing you with Kikyo. Now or ever." She said it with determination and finality. She could not and would not stay with them no matter what he said. No matter how much he persuaded. Wether or not they were 'officially' a couple, watching the two interact with each other was just too much for her. Thinking about the two being together was enough to make her stomach turn. "Where are you going to stay then?" He had a soft tone to his voice. "I have no idea....I really don't. Maybe with one of the villagers or with Sango. I don't know where she's at, but I'm sure you could take me to her. Would you Inuyasha? Will you take me to see Sango and Shippou?" She asked him excitedly.
"You've been gone for too long Kagome. You know I would take you anywhere you wanted to go as long as it was within reason." He put his arm around her shoulder and she leaned into him. She could have easily took his arm away, she could have easily not put her head on his shoulder, but she did. No matter how hard she tried to let him go, he was still her rock. Her comfort. Her safe-place. She knew that she could always count on him to be there for her, no matter the circumstance. "I'll take you to them tomorrow. Right now I need to check back in on Kikyo." He moved his arms away from her shoulder and stood up. Now why did he have to go and say her name and spoil their little 'moment' together? "Feh." She said mocking one of Inuyasha's little smart remarks. "Kagome, am I rubbing off on you?" She laughed at him, "In your dreams, Inuyasha, in your dreams."
She stood up, and a thought crossed her mind. Walking up beside Inuyasha, she took his hand in hers, entwining their fingers together. He looked at her and then down to their hands. "Kagome....." He was cut off when she started talking. "You know I truly forgot how beautiful this place was. I had forgotten how much this place does feel like home to me." She turned to look at him with a smile on her face. He tightened the hold on her hand and they walked silently back to the hut.
As soon as they reached the hut, Inuyasha noticed that something wasn't right. Something didn't smell right and something didn't feel right. Immediately letting go of Kagome's hand, he rushed into the hut. Kagome was about to enter when she seen a blur of red and white fly past her. It landed on the ground about a hundred feet away. She ran to Inuyasha's side. "Are you alright? Inuyasha?!" The silent form on the ground didn't respond. "Inuyasha, wake up?" Tears were welling in her eyes. She just got him back and she was not about to lose him again. She turned towards the hut to see what had thrown him such a great distance.
Naraku. A full grown, adult Naraku. 'How had he gotten so big in such a short amount of time?' She thought to herself. He was standing right outside the doorway, and she had seen that he had some kind of brown powder in his hands. He was tossing the powder into the wind and watching it fly away laughing menacingly. "Say goodbye, Inuyasha, to your precious Kikyo." 'What is he doing? What does he mean, say goodbye' She turned back to Inuyasha. His eyes were fluttering open. "Inuyasha, wake up. Are you O.K.?" He moaned and rubbed the back of his head. "Naraku, I'm gonna kill you!" As fast as he was thrown to the ground, he was running back towards Naraku. He drew tetsusaiga and the sword transformed. As soon as he got close enough to him he vanished. He vanished without a trace and a evil laugh trailing behind him.
Inuyasha couldn't stop himself in time as he face planted the wall of the hut. A deep, loud growl escaped his mouth as he furiously hit the wall with his fist. "DAMN YOU, NARAKU!!!!" He turned around and slid his back down the wall, defeated. He just sat there staring at the ground. Kagome rushed to his side. "Inuyasha, what happened? What did he mean say goodbye? How did he 'grow up' all of a sudden?" A thousand questions filtered through her mind. She went to put a hand on his shoulder, but he withdrew. Taken back by his sudden actions, she just stared at him. Wonder, shock, and tears were her eyes. "WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!" She had to scream it, she had to yell at him he wasn't responding to her. He still ignored her. "I promised. I promised her." That was all he said. He kept repeating it over and over. Staring at the nothingness of the ground.
Tears escaped Kagome's eyes. She couldn't get him to talk to her, he just sat there listlessly. As if realizing where he was he looked up to Kagome and her tears. Her fear for him had made her cry and snapped him out of his languid mood. "Kagome, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He wrapped his arms around her neck and drew her to him. She gasped, but didn't complain. "Inuyasha, what happened? Please tell me." Her arms snaked around his back to complete the hug. Her tears had stopped flowing, as she rested her head to his chest. He rested his on top of her head.
"He killed her, again." She pulled her head away from the dull thud of his heart beating. "He did what? How?" The look of pain and heartache filled his eyes as he looked at her. "She's gone Kagome. I should have smelled him. I should have known. I shouldn't have left her alone." Kagome suddenly felt guilt wash over her. "If I had went to the well alone, she would still be alive. If you hadn't walked me back you could've been here to protect her. It's all my fault, Inuyasha. That powder. That brown powder was her, wasn't it?" She gulped. Even though she despised Kikyo, Inuyasha loved her. He would continue to love her until he died. No replacements. Nothing would ever heal the whole in his heart that only her love could fill. Nothing and noone. Not even Kagome Higurashi. His head snapped back to look at her. His eyes were stern, hard, and truthful. "Kagome, don't you ever, and I mean ever think that this was your fault. It was no body's fault but my own. I knew better, and yet, I still left her. Don't blame yourself."
The honesty and sincerity in his eyes made her believe that he didn't think that it was her fault. She did feel a little better inside, but not a lot. She had the death of Kikyo on her conscious now not that she didn't really mind, but Inuyasha did. The pain that he was going through because of her hurt more than anything she had ever felt before. How much more pain was kami going to give her until he finally drove her crazy. She pulled away from him hastily, wiping the tears away from her eyes. She didn't even know she had been crying. "No! It is my fault. It will always be my fault!"
She turned and ran. Where she was running to, she didn't know, didn't care. She just had to get away. Away from him. Away from pain. Away from herself. She heard Inuyasha calling her name, but she continued to run. She just wanted to be alone. Completely and utterly alone. Why did everything and everyone she come in contact with suffer because of her. She ran into the dense forest. How far had she run? She didn't know, all she knew is that she couldn't run anymore. She pressed her head to a tree, wrapped her arms around it, and cried. Lonely tears of sadness streaked her face.
The sound of crunching leaves reached her ears and she stiffened. Kami only knew what kind of demons lurked in these woods. Gathering courage, she turned to face the demon completely unarmed. "Don't ever run away from me again!" Relief graced her face as Inuyasha tightly wound his arms around her, and not some fearsome deamon. She cried freely into his chest. "Kagome, what has gotten you so upset?" He asked her with a gentleness in his voice. "Inuyasha.......sob sob....because of me.....sob sob.....Kikyo has died, Kaede has died, my family has died.....sob sob......the Shikon jewel got shattered......do I need to continue or do you see the pattern here? Everything that I touch turns to bits. Everyone that I love and care about dies." She couldn't look at him. Not with the tears and regret in her eyes. But everything she said was true.
Life would have been much better without Kagome Higurashi....... to her anyways. Inuyasha cupped her chin in his hands to raise her eyes up to him. " You care about me don't you Kagome, and I'm not dead. Kagome, what happened to Kikyo was not your fault. What happened to Kaede, was not your fault, as the same with your family. Now, as far as the jewel goes, that was your fault." He laughed a little thinking back on how she did break the jewel. A small smile, even if it was little, had spread across her face. "Well, I do suppose the jewel was my fault. But, Inuyasha, why does everyone I care about have to leave me. I know I didn't care for Kikyo, but you did. You cared about her, you loved her, and because of me she's gone. Why did that man have to kill my family? Why did Kaede have to die? Why did you choose Kikyo............" Amongst the rambling that she was doing, that last sentence wasn't supposed to come out. She quickly moved her head away from him and turned around, a little embarrassed.
"Why is the grass green? Why is the sky blue? Why do trees grow so tall? Why about a million things. I can go on and on if you want me to. What happened to everyone was not your fault. Kikyo had my heart over fifty years ago, Kagome. If she had not met me at all then she would not have died. Did you ever stop to think about that? I have to live everyday knowing that if we had not met, she would have lived. But, also, if we would have not met, I wouldn't know how to love and to be loved. " He talked softly and calmly. In all the time that she had known Inuyasha, she had never once thought of that. She never thought of the pain that he felt knowing that if they hadn't met things would have been different. Kikyo would have lived had she not met him, but neither would have known what it was like to love. Neither would have known what it was like to feel, what she felt right now, for the man standing behind her. She turned to him "No, Inuyasha, I had never thought about it. You are right. So, why do things have to turn out this way? To live, love, then lose it all in the blink of an eye? We have both loved and lost Inuyasha, me to you, and you to her." To say that Kagome was nervous after she said that would have been an understatement. She was terrified to the core. She knew what rejection felt like and it didn't feel good. She waited for his reaction, silently.
Inuyasha didn't know what to say. Did she just say that she loved him. Well, not in that specific order, but she did. He had just lost Kikyo again, he didn't know if he was ready for all of this. Not that he didn't care for Kagome, because he did. He cared for her a lot. He just didn't think he was ready. He could actually say that he did love her. He just needed time.
"Kagome," His mouth was tightly clamped as Kagome crushed her lips to his. She wrapped her arms around his neck. A loud moan escaped his mouth. To hell with time. All caution was thrown to the wind. She was making him feel, like he had a thousand lightening bolts running through his body. He knew then and there, she was his. His spine tingled from top to bottom. His hands reached her hips and he pulled her closer to him. Crushing her against him. She had her hands on the back of his neck playing in his hair. Leaving a trail of electricity where ever her fingers touched. He had his hands running up and down her back in small circles. She opened her mouth to deepen the kiss. He thought it couldn't get better. That was, until she licked the outer rim of his lips with her tongue. He moaned and she took it as a perfect opportunity to stick her tongue in his mouth to play with his. Something in his stomach turned upside down when she did that. Their tongues danced together, perfectly in tune with the other. She had awoken feelings inside of him that he didn't know was there. She made him feel, alive. New. Whole. "Kagome." He moaned her name only to make her act more aggressively. She let her hands roam softly over his chest. His nicely, toned chest. How many nights had she thought about running her hands over him?
She didn't know what had overcome her. At this moment she didn't really care. All she knew, all she felt was him. All she ever wanted was him. She had kissed him basically out of a want to feel. To feel him, to kiss him, to touch him. To love him. A kiss can tell so many things. You know if the kiss is right and if it feels right, then there is something more. And right now she felt it. She felt so much more than just a kiss. She felt like the earth was shaking, her body felt like it couldn't get enough of him, her head was telling her to stop, but she couldn't. She felt safe and secure. She felt free. She felt no pain. "Inuyasha." She said his name softly. His hands running up and down her back, was euphoric. She couldn't get enough. She didn't ever want to get enough. Ever.
They pulled apart and let their foreheads stay together. Each gasping for breath. Neither of them wanted to pull away, if they hadn't they would have stayed that way all night. "I'm sorrry, Inuyasha. I don't know what came over me." She whispered through a raspy breath. He ran a clawed finger down her jaw line and over her lips. "Don't tell me that you're sorry for that. Because I'm not nor will I ever be." A smile spread across his lips. " I think we should get back to the hut. It's starting to get dark." She looked around, it was getting dark. How long had they been there kissing?
He would never feel sorry for the kiss. If she hadn't kissed him, where would he have been? He would have been living about fifty years ago, in a dream that was to never come true. He would have been living with the memory of a love that he could never have. He would have been living for the wrong person in the wrong time.
That kiss had awoken him in so many ways. He was now living for Kagome. He was living for her in a time and place that did exist. He was living for her not in a dream, but in life. He was living for her and possibly for a future.
She felt better after she had kissed him. She felt like so many burdens had been lifted off of her chest. She was smiling not only on the outside, but on the inside as well. The weakness in her knees was still there, she didn't care though.
She put an arm around his waist and leaned into him. He put an arm around her shoulder and rested his head on hers and they walked back to the hut together like that. He built a small fire in the middle of the hut as she readied herself for bed. She laid down on a mat near the fire. Her mind was so full of Inuyasha and the kiss they shared. 'Maybe things will start looking up for me now.' She thought to herself as she looked at the blaze of the fire. Inuyasha went to sit in the corner of the hut nearest to Kagome.
She sheepishly turned to him. His eyes were dead on her, watching her every move. "Inuyasha, thank you. For everything." She said still looking at him. "Keh, don't worry about it." Ah, his usual little remark. "Inuyasha....?" "What, Kagome?" He asked her kindly. "Would you......um..would you like to sleep next to me tonight?" Oh, kami, did she actually just say that. His mouth dropped open and his eyes widened. "If you don't want to that's fine....." "Move over." He cut off the rest of her sentence.
She scooted over and made room for him. He laid tetsusaiga beside him and lied down next to her. He wrapped an arm around her neck and she rolled on her side to lay her head on his chest. He fiddled with her hair, running his fingers through it. She traced little circles on his chest with her finger. Neither one had to say anything because they both new what the other was thinking. Sighing happily and yawning, sleep finally overtook Kagome. Inuyasha noticed the smooth, steadiness of her breathing. He looked down at her face. The fire made her glow. "Why did it take me so long to get here, Kagome? I'm sorry for the many times that I hurt you. I was just stuck to something that I knew would never happen. I've wanted to lay here with you so many times before. I'm glad you asked me. Goodnight, Kagome." He kissed the top of her head and closed his eyes. He slowly drifted to sleep, but not before he said one more thing to her.... "I love you Kagome."
A/N: I know, I know waff and fluff...Sounds like something that you would do to your laundry. Waff and fluff. Haha I like waff and fluff. I'm not good at writing it, but I like it. Thanks to all of those who reviewed my last chapters. Do you guys think that it was too soon to have their first kiss. Just review and let me know. If there are any suggestions let me know that too I'm all up for anything that you guys throw at me.... Until next time.........
Chapter Four
"Why won't the well work!" 'Thud' She tried again and again, but she only hit the bottom. "Inuyashaaaaaaa, why won't it work?" She screamed "I don't know, Kagome. Are you sure you're doing it right?" She scoffed. "Doing it right? DOING IT RIGHT? THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY TO DO IT, YOU IDIOT!" He laughed. "Oh, I guess you're right." He leaned over the well to look at her, his laughing was really starting to piss her off. "Sit." With a loud thud and a few curse words he was in the well with her. He was in the well alright. About a foot into the dirt in the well. "What did you do that for?" She was laughing now. "I was just seeing if I was the only one who couldn't get through. And, you were laughing at me, so, I thought that this would shut you up." Mumbling incoherent words under his breath, she laughed. "You would figure by now that you would have gotten used to your face hitting the ground. After four years of it I'm surprised that you two aren't best friends." She giggled, he grimaced, "You have to remember, Kagome, that it has actually only been two years, since you went away for the other two. He said her name as if it were venomous. She climbed out of the well at sat on the edge. She looked at him in anger from the last sentence that shot from his mouth. "Well, maybe if I didn't have to compete with a dead woman, then I wouldn't have left."
Inuyasha slowly worked his way up to set next to her. "What am I going to do? I really needed to go home for a while." He turned to look at her, "Look, you've been gone for two years. Is it really going to hurt you to stick around for a while?"
"I suppose not. But, I don't have any supplies, and I need some time alone for once." She never thought that she would actually say those words. She had been alone for so long, but, in all actuality, she really did need to be alone. She needed time to cope with everything going on in her world. Both of them. She had stuff she needed to do on the other side of the well and she needed to contemplate how she was going to handle being around Inuyasha........and Kikyo.
She finally gave in with a long sigh. "Look , I'll stay, I have no choice do I? But, I don't want to stay with you. I just don't think that I could handle seeing you with Kikyo. Now or ever." She said it with determination and finality. She could not and would not stay with them no matter what he said. No matter how much he persuaded. Wether or not they were 'officially' a couple, watching the two interact with each other was just too much for her. Thinking about the two being together was enough to make her stomach turn. "Where are you going to stay then?" He had a soft tone to his voice. "I have no idea....I really don't. Maybe with one of the villagers or with Sango. I don't know where she's at, but I'm sure you could take me to her. Would you Inuyasha? Will you take me to see Sango and Shippou?" She asked him excitedly.
"You've been gone for too long Kagome. You know I would take you anywhere you wanted to go as long as it was within reason." He put his arm around her shoulder and she leaned into him. She could have easily took his arm away, she could have easily not put her head on his shoulder, but she did. No matter how hard she tried to let him go, he was still her rock. Her comfort. Her safe-place. She knew that she could always count on him to be there for her, no matter the circumstance. "I'll take you to them tomorrow. Right now I need to check back in on Kikyo." He moved his arms away from her shoulder and stood up. Now why did he have to go and say her name and spoil their little 'moment' together? "Feh." She said mocking one of Inuyasha's little smart remarks. "Kagome, am I rubbing off on you?" She laughed at him, "In your dreams, Inuyasha, in your dreams."
She stood up, and a thought crossed her mind. Walking up beside Inuyasha, she took his hand in hers, entwining their fingers together. He looked at her and then down to their hands. "Kagome....." He was cut off when she started talking. "You know I truly forgot how beautiful this place was. I had forgotten how much this place does feel like home to me." She turned to look at him with a smile on her face. He tightened the hold on her hand and they walked silently back to the hut.
As soon as they reached the hut, Inuyasha noticed that something wasn't right. Something didn't smell right and something didn't feel right. Immediately letting go of Kagome's hand, he rushed into the hut. Kagome was about to enter when she seen a blur of red and white fly past her. It landed on the ground about a hundred feet away. She ran to Inuyasha's side. "Are you alright? Inuyasha?!" The silent form on the ground didn't respond. "Inuyasha, wake up?" Tears were welling in her eyes. She just got him back and she was not about to lose him again. She turned towards the hut to see what had thrown him such a great distance.
Naraku. A full grown, adult Naraku. 'How had he gotten so big in such a short amount of time?' She thought to herself. He was standing right outside the doorway, and she had seen that he had some kind of brown powder in his hands. He was tossing the powder into the wind and watching it fly away laughing menacingly. "Say goodbye, Inuyasha, to your precious Kikyo." 'What is he doing? What does he mean, say goodbye' She turned back to Inuyasha. His eyes were fluttering open. "Inuyasha, wake up. Are you O.K.?" He moaned and rubbed the back of his head. "Naraku, I'm gonna kill you!" As fast as he was thrown to the ground, he was running back towards Naraku. He drew tetsusaiga and the sword transformed. As soon as he got close enough to him he vanished. He vanished without a trace and a evil laugh trailing behind him.
Inuyasha couldn't stop himself in time as he face planted the wall of the hut. A deep, loud growl escaped his mouth as he furiously hit the wall with his fist. "DAMN YOU, NARAKU!!!!" He turned around and slid his back down the wall, defeated. He just sat there staring at the ground. Kagome rushed to his side. "Inuyasha, what happened? What did he mean say goodbye? How did he 'grow up' all of a sudden?" A thousand questions filtered through her mind. She went to put a hand on his shoulder, but he withdrew. Taken back by his sudden actions, she just stared at him. Wonder, shock, and tears were her eyes. "WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!" She had to scream it, she had to yell at him he wasn't responding to her. He still ignored her. "I promised. I promised her." That was all he said. He kept repeating it over and over. Staring at the nothingness of the ground.
Tears escaped Kagome's eyes. She couldn't get him to talk to her, he just sat there listlessly. As if realizing where he was he looked up to Kagome and her tears. Her fear for him had made her cry and snapped him out of his languid mood. "Kagome, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He wrapped his arms around her neck and drew her to him. She gasped, but didn't complain. "Inuyasha, what happened? Please tell me." Her arms snaked around his back to complete the hug. Her tears had stopped flowing, as she rested her head to his chest. He rested his on top of her head.
"He killed her, again." She pulled her head away from the dull thud of his heart beating. "He did what? How?" The look of pain and heartache filled his eyes as he looked at her. "She's gone Kagome. I should have smelled him. I should have known. I shouldn't have left her alone." Kagome suddenly felt guilt wash over her. "If I had went to the well alone, she would still be alive. If you hadn't walked me back you could've been here to protect her. It's all my fault, Inuyasha. That powder. That brown powder was her, wasn't it?" She gulped. Even though she despised Kikyo, Inuyasha loved her. He would continue to love her until he died. No replacements. Nothing would ever heal the whole in his heart that only her love could fill. Nothing and noone. Not even Kagome Higurashi. His head snapped back to look at her. His eyes were stern, hard, and truthful. "Kagome, don't you ever, and I mean ever think that this was your fault. It was no body's fault but my own. I knew better, and yet, I still left her. Don't blame yourself."
The honesty and sincerity in his eyes made her believe that he didn't think that it was her fault. She did feel a little better inside, but not a lot. She had the death of Kikyo on her conscious now not that she didn't really mind, but Inuyasha did. The pain that he was going through because of her hurt more than anything she had ever felt before. How much more pain was kami going to give her until he finally drove her crazy. She pulled away from him hastily, wiping the tears away from her eyes. She didn't even know she had been crying. "No! It is my fault. It will always be my fault!"
She turned and ran. Where she was running to, she didn't know, didn't care. She just had to get away. Away from him. Away from pain. Away from herself. She heard Inuyasha calling her name, but she continued to run. She just wanted to be alone. Completely and utterly alone. Why did everything and everyone she come in contact with suffer because of her. She ran into the dense forest. How far had she run? She didn't know, all she knew is that she couldn't run anymore. She pressed her head to a tree, wrapped her arms around it, and cried. Lonely tears of sadness streaked her face.
The sound of crunching leaves reached her ears and she stiffened. Kami only knew what kind of demons lurked in these woods. Gathering courage, she turned to face the demon completely unarmed. "Don't ever run away from me again!" Relief graced her face as Inuyasha tightly wound his arms around her, and not some fearsome deamon. She cried freely into his chest. "Kagome, what has gotten you so upset?" He asked her with a gentleness in his voice. "Inuyasha.......sob sob....because of me.....sob sob.....Kikyo has died, Kaede has died, my family has died.....sob sob......the Shikon jewel got shattered......do I need to continue or do you see the pattern here? Everything that I touch turns to bits. Everyone that I love and care about dies." She couldn't look at him. Not with the tears and regret in her eyes. But everything she said was true.
Life would have been much better without Kagome Higurashi....... to her anyways. Inuyasha cupped her chin in his hands to raise her eyes up to him. " You care about me don't you Kagome, and I'm not dead. Kagome, what happened to Kikyo was not your fault. What happened to Kaede, was not your fault, as the same with your family. Now, as far as the jewel goes, that was your fault." He laughed a little thinking back on how she did break the jewel. A small smile, even if it was little, had spread across her face. "Well, I do suppose the jewel was my fault. But, Inuyasha, why does everyone I care about have to leave me. I know I didn't care for Kikyo, but you did. You cared about her, you loved her, and because of me she's gone. Why did that man have to kill my family? Why did Kaede have to die? Why did you choose Kikyo............" Amongst the rambling that she was doing, that last sentence wasn't supposed to come out. She quickly moved her head away from him and turned around, a little embarrassed.
"Why is the grass green? Why is the sky blue? Why do trees grow so tall? Why about a million things. I can go on and on if you want me to. What happened to everyone was not your fault. Kikyo had my heart over fifty years ago, Kagome. If she had not met me at all then she would not have died. Did you ever stop to think about that? I have to live everyday knowing that if we had not met, she would have lived. But, also, if we would have not met, I wouldn't know how to love and to be loved. " He talked softly and calmly. In all the time that she had known Inuyasha, she had never once thought of that. She never thought of the pain that he felt knowing that if they hadn't met things would have been different. Kikyo would have lived had she not met him, but neither would have known what it was like to love. Neither would have known what it was like to feel, what she felt right now, for the man standing behind her. She turned to him "No, Inuyasha, I had never thought about it. You are right. So, why do things have to turn out this way? To live, love, then lose it all in the blink of an eye? We have both loved and lost Inuyasha, me to you, and you to her." To say that Kagome was nervous after she said that would have been an understatement. She was terrified to the core. She knew what rejection felt like and it didn't feel good. She waited for his reaction, silently.
Inuyasha didn't know what to say. Did she just say that she loved him. Well, not in that specific order, but she did. He had just lost Kikyo again, he didn't know if he was ready for all of this. Not that he didn't care for Kagome, because he did. He cared for her a lot. He just didn't think he was ready. He could actually say that he did love her. He just needed time.
"Kagome," His mouth was tightly clamped as Kagome crushed her lips to his. She wrapped her arms around his neck. A loud moan escaped his mouth. To hell with time. All caution was thrown to the wind. She was making him feel, like he had a thousand lightening bolts running through his body. He knew then and there, she was his. His spine tingled from top to bottom. His hands reached her hips and he pulled her closer to him. Crushing her against him. She had her hands on the back of his neck playing in his hair. Leaving a trail of electricity where ever her fingers touched. He had his hands running up and down her back in small circles. She opened her mouth to deepen the kiss. He thought it couldn't get better. That was, until she licked the outer rim of his lips with her tongue. He moaned and she took it as a perfect opportunity to stick her tongue in his mouth to play with his. Something in his stomach turned upside down when she did that. Their tongues danced together, perfectly in tune with the other. She had awoken feelings inside of him that he didn't know was there. She made him feel, alive. New. Whole. "Kagome." He moaned her name only to make her act more aggressively. She let her hands roam softly over his chest. His nicely, toned chest. How many nights had she thought about running her hands over him?
She didn't know what had overcome her. At this moment she didn't really care. All she knew, all she felt was him. All she ever wanted was him. She had kissed him basically out of a want to feel. To feel him, to kiss him, to touch him. To love him. A kiss can tell so many things. You know if the kiss is right and if it feels right, then there is something more. And right now she felt it. She felt so much more than just a kiss. She felt like the earth was shaking, her body felt like it couldn't get enough of him, her head was telling her to stop, but she couldn't. She felt safe and secure. She felt free. She felt no pain. "Inuyasha." She said his name softly. His hands running up and down her back, was euphoric. She couldn't get enough. She didn't ever want to get enough. Ever.
They pulled apart and let their foreheads stay together. Each gasping for breath. Neither of them wanted to pull away, if they hadn't they would have stayed that way all night. "I'm sorrry, Inuyasha. I don't know what came over me." She whispered through a raspy breath. He ran a clawed finger down her jaw line and over her lips. "Don't tell me that you're sorry for that. Because I'm not nor will I ever be." A smile spread across his lips. " I think we should get back to the hut. It's starting to get dark." She looked around, it was getting dark. How long had they been there kissing?
He would never feel sorry for the kiss. If she hadn't kissed him, where would he have been? He would have been living about fifty years ago, in a dream that was to never come true. He would have been living with the memory of a love that he could never have. He would have been living for the wrong person in the wrong time.
That kiss had awoken him in so many ways. He was now living for Kagome. He was living for her in a time and place that did exist. He was living for her not in a dream, but in life. He was living for her and possibly for a future.
She felt better after she had kissed him. She felt like so many burdens had been lifted off of her chest. She was smiling not only on the outside, but on the inside as well. The weakness in her knees was still there, she didn't care though.
She put an arm around his waist and leaned into him. He put an arm around her shoulder and rested his head on hers and they walked back to the hut together like that. He built a small fire in the middle of the hut as she readied herself for bed. She laid down on a mat near the fire. Her mind was so full of Inuyasha and the kiss they shared. 'Maybe things will start looking up for me now.' She thought to herself as she looked at the blaze of the fire. Inuyasha went to sit in the corner of the hut nearest to Kagome.
She sheepishly turned to him. His eyes were dead on her, watching her every move. "Inuyasha, thank you. For everything." She said still looking at him. "Keh, don't worry about it." Ah, his usual little remark. "Inuyasha....?" "What, Kagome?" He asked her kindly. "Would you......um..would you like to sleep next to me tonight?" Oh, kami, did she actually just say that. His mouth dropped open and his eyes widened. "If you don't want to that's fine....." "Move over." He cut off the rest of her sentence.
She scooted over and made room for him. He laid tetsusaiga beside him and lied down next to her. He wrapped an arm around her neck and she rolled on her side to lay her head on his chest. He fiddled with her hair, running his fingers through it. She traced little circles on his chest with her finger. Neither one had to say anything because they both new what the other was thinking. Sighing happily and yawning, sleep finally overtook Kagome. Inuyasha noticed the smooth, steadiness of her breathing. He looked down at her face. The fire made her glow. "Why did it take me so long to get here, Kagome? I'm sorry for the many times that I hurt you. I was just stuck to something that I knew would never happen. I've wanted to lay here with you so many times before. I'm glad you asked me. Goodnight, Kagome." He kissed the top of her head and closed his eyes. He slowly drifted to sleep, but not before he said one more thing to her.... "I love you Kagome."
A/N: I know, I know waff and fluff...Sounds like something that you would do to your laundry. Waff and fluff. Haha I like waff and fluff. I'm not good at writing it, but I like it. Thanks to all of those who reviewed my last chapters. Do you guys think that it was too soon to have their first kiss. Just review and let me know. If there are any suggestions let me know that too I'm all up for anything that you guys throw at me.... Until next time.........