Ariku: Ok, well… Miya has abandoned me for the time being. -sniff- But I'll recover… Gah, who the fuck am I kidding? She's GONE. HELL YEAH!
Disclaimer: She does not own Yu-Gi-Oh, though she desperately wishes she did. But she does own Lucia. Oh, yes, she doesn't own the lyrics to the songs.
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Chapter 6: Don't Ignore The Voices
Lucia had awoke with a cold and empty feeling encasing her heart. 'Why? Why did this have to happen?' she asked herself desperately. A warm, greeting sun was flooding light into the room, nearly blinding her. "Gah, can't you just fucking go away!?" She didn't care how childish her yelling must've sounded. Especially when it was directed at the sun of all things. She sniffed in disdain and hugged her knees to her chest, eyes staring at her pants.
Tomorrow would be a school day for Ryou and Bakura. 'I can't expect them to allow me to stay here. I'm just a big fucking inconvenience.' She had decided to stop going to school all-together when she was fifteen.
She mentally stabbed away any thoughts of them trusting her to stay here while they were at school. 'I haven't earned the right.' Her brother's apartment was about five blocks away from this house. "Well, I need clean clothes, so I guess I should start walking." She hopped out of the bed, and walked over to the window, leaving a light trail of blood behind her. Blood was soaking through the bandages. She opened the window, and without even considering that she was going to drop from a second story window, she jumped out. And was gone like that.
Ryou sunk into the couch and muttered a simple, "Wow…" "Did I make you feel any better, hikari?" Bakura was sitting on the other side of the couch, just finishing licking a very sticky hand. "I feel great," Ryou stated matter-of-factly, smiling at his yami. 'But what about Lucia?' something in his mind nagged. "I'll be right back, Bakura." Before he had a chance to object, the boy was up the stairs and on his way to the room Lucia was in.
He picked out the room she had been asleep in before, figuring it would be the room she would've chosen. He couldn't hear any noise from inside, so he tapped on the door lightly with his knuckle.
"Lucia? Hey Lucia, are you awake?"
She had to be. It had been five hours since she had gone to take a nap, and Ryou didn't know anyone who could sleep through all the noise that Bakura and himself had been making downstairs. He felt himself blush as he knocked again, a little louder. He stood there for a little over five minutes before opening the door so it was just slightly ajar. The room was bright, and cold. It felt empty.
Ryou could feel a slight breeze coming from the room, and he pushed open the door all the way, looking around. The bed was empty. The window was open. There was a trail of blood from the bed to the window. "What the--?" He cut himself off as he spied a small piece of paper of the windowsill, carefully folded and reading in nicely written letters across the front 'To Ryou.' He walked over to the window slowly and snatched up the note, reading the top first before unfolding it. The letter was short and precise in it's point, sealed with a kiss that was marked by soft lavender lipstick. The ink was purple. He carefully read:
Dear Ryou,
I can't thank you enough for the hospitality and kindness you've shown me.
I'm sorry I was such a bother, and I wish we could've met under better circumstances. But I'm glad we met all the same.
It wouldn't be fair of me to ask you to let me stay here, so I'm going to figure something out after I pick up a few things.
Once again, thank you. And tell Bakura I said goodbye as well.
I'll never forget you.
Love,
Lucia
She didn't sound a thing like the badass rogue he had met the day before. She sounded… tame. And why was she saying "I'll never forget you"? Ryou had formed a friendship with her, and with ever fiber of his being did he want it to continue. "She wasn't a bother… she was an angel to have around. Why… why did she leave without even letting us know?" 'Bakura will be happy to hear she's gone' he thought with a tinge of anger making his temples throb.
"Bakura!" he shouted as he practically flew down the stairs, grasping the note tightly in his right hand. His yami caught him and raised a slender brow, "What's wrong, hikari?" Ryou took a moment to stop his head from spinning and looked up. "She's gone!" he hissed, retreating from his yami's grasp and handing him the note. Bakura took a moment to look the note over and heaved a fake sigh.
"So she's gone."
"Yes genius, she's gone." Ryou was surprised at how he was speaking to the tomb robber, but it didn't really matter. His prime concern was Lucia. Was she ok?
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The sun was falling, though you couldn't of seen it anyways. Dark, ominous rains clouds were enshrouding the sky, promising rain. Lucia was climbing the stairs of her brother's former apartment building with great effort, a sharp pain stinging her side every time she dare take a step. She wasn't going to use the elevator. In her mind, she needed to overcome this bedamned weakness of hers.
"Whatdya know, I'm there." She removed a key from one of her pockets and shoved it in the lock, turning it. Click. She turned the doorknob and entered the apartment.
Music met her ears, which she quickly identified as Eve 6's 'Think Twice.' "He barely thought once," she said bitterly.
Wait till the day you finally see
I've been here waiting patiently
Crossing my fingers and my t's
She cried on my shoulder begging please
She ignored the rock music and headed into the other room which served as a bedroom. She rustled through the closet and picked out a pair of flared black pants with chains hanging down from the waist in various lengths and a matching black hoody that read in white letters 'It's people like you that make people like me need medication.'
She slid the sweater over her head, slid out of her jeans and into the black pants, and with that, she was changed. 'No need for a shirt under it' she thought. "I'd just get it bloody too." Besides, she had the bandages.
After getting dressed, she walked into the other room and strolled over to the fridge. The cold blast she got when she opened the door felt all too wonderful on her skin at this point. She grabbed a Smirnoff and twisted the top off effortlessly. "Only thing he ever had to fucking drink around here."
She sat down on the couch and gulped her drink down, turning on the TV before. The evening weather report was being delivered by a woman so chirpy Lucia wanted to smack her. Cartoons were on. 'How senseless.' She changed the channel again.
"Oh wa fucking hoo… the health food channel!" she exclaimed, her voice drenched in sarcasm. Her attention was directed towards the ever blaring CD player, having switched on a song that she recognized immediately. And it tore her heart in two.
When you feel all alone…
And the world has turned it's back on you…
Give me a moment please…
To tame your wild, wild heart…
Messiah had once sung those very words to her when she was little. His voice… was beautiful, as she remembered it. When she was vulnerable and innocent, she had loved his singing. When she needed him. She still needed him. His air of cockiness, his strength, and that sense of security only a brother could give…
She whispered to these very words, a tear trickling down her cheek…
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend your broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
"But I am alone." That was the painful, unholy truth. She calmly got up and switched the CD player off. "You shouldn't of put that silly sense of security in my head, Messiah. You knew you wouldn't of been able to keep it up."
'So did you. You just refused to acknowledge the truth of the matter.' "I know I was stupid and naïve, OK!? Just leave me alone!" The silence mocked her. 'Maybe I should just live here' she thought. Bills would come eventually. Oh well, Messiah's debit card was around here somewhere. He had plenty of money to sustain her for a year or more.
"Thanks to Mom and Dad, even though they were worthless crackheads." She put large emphasis on the last word.
'You don't feel guilty about using your brother's money?' "No, I don't. He's dead, why would he care? Or do you have a better plan? 'Cause please, I'd love to know all about it." 'Ask if you can live with Ryou and Bakura.' "NO!" 'It'll be a lonely existence, you know.' "Then I'll get a job," she sighed.
This argument with her inner voice was not going well. 'Why are you shutting them out? Ryou was only trying to be friends.' "Friends? No… such… thing." 'Oh come now… you're just going to put up barriers because your brother is dead?' "You know what, fuck you. I've had great experiences with people in the past and it's turned me it's a real mother fucking people person." 'My my… you sure love f-sharps, don't you?' "SHUT UP!"
Her inner voice had quieted down now, but what was there to do without a bastard of a know-it-all voice to argue with? 'Think about Ryou.' "I thought I told you to shut up…" 'Gack, fine. Ignore your feelings for him. Go ahead.' "I WILL! Ugh… you know what, I'm going for a walk." It was pouring rain outside. The rain always was a wonderful thing. She loved walking in it, just… enjoying the feeling. She pulled the sweater all the way on and headed out the door, locking it behind her. Of course, the debit card in her pocket. Girls just love to shop.
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"So why are you so worried about her, hikari?" "I just am, OKAY!?!" "Fine, fine."
Ryou had 'persuaded' his yami to come and help look for Lucia, but it was turning into a hopeless search. "Where could she of gone…?" 'Well, where is a place she can stay?' "Her brother's apartment!" She had mentioned it while they were walking yesterday, but that was it. She didn't exactly go into deep detail of where it was.
Bakura felt soft rain drop hit his face and he growled. "It's raining." "Good for it." "Ra, Ryou, what has turned you into such a smart ass?!" "Well yami, you constantly give me chances to be a smart ass, so why shouldn't I take them?"
The tomb robber stood there in a stupor, trying to figure out how that logic worked. When he finally figured out how it did work, he snarled, making his hikari smile. He snaked his arms around the shorter's waist and pulled him close, "We've looked in plenty of places, Ryou. Where else would this girlfriend of yours be?"
"Her brother's apartment." "And where's that?" "I'm not quite sure," Ryou laughed sheepishly. "Well that's a whole lot of Ra damned help." It was pouring now, and both the boys were soaked. Ryou shivered and looked around. Being the smart boy he is, he came up with a good idea of exactly where the apartment might be.
"Her brother was the one who had committed suicide, and what if he jumped from his very apartment building? If we head in the direction Yami took Lucia, then we might find it. Or better yet, find Lucia."
"It's a wonderful plan, aibou. But what happens if we don't find her?" "If we don't find her then, I give you permission to take me home and screw me senseless. We'll end the search" "Pssh, like I need permission. But I know this girl actually means something to you, so I'll hold off."
"Gee, thanks."
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Her barriers were already forming, turning her heart pitch black. "Never again." Her brother would be the last of her loved ones to leave her, for she would not make the mistake of getting close to anyone ever again.
'But you still care about Ryou. I know you do, stupid ass.' "You know for a figment of my imagination you're a real arrogant, pompous jackass." 'It's a gift. And guess what? I may be an arrogant, pompous jackass, but I'm right.' "Atleast you accept it." 'GAH! Don't you get it yet, you thick headed dork!? Ryou wouldn't hurt you! He cares about you, and you're going to block him out!? I'm ashamed to be stuck in your empty head.'
This was just becoming insulting. She was soaked and chilled to the bone now, and being avoided by the people on the street with umbrellas. Come on, she was talking to herself and willingly getting drenched. Who wouldn't wanna avoid her? She was a complete emotional and mental wreck.
Not to mention she seemed to completely miss the figure closing in on her from behind. This was going to be a crappy night for Lucia…
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Ariku: It's 12:25 a.m. and I finally… FINISHED! Voices are fun. And oh I'm so happy… I have four reviews. YIPPEE!!!! -ahem- Hope you liked chapter 6. I was especially inspired this time!…
Random Dude: -cough- She's a nutcase.
Ariku: And proud of it…