Authors note!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hello everyone! Thanks for all the great reviews. Okay I have to clear something up. I know I would be annoyed if this happened in another story so I'll clear it up. It's about jade traveling through the well. I know that she wouldn't normally be able to do it, but it's my story and it wouldn't work if she couldn't so I made an exception for her. Let's pretend! YAY! Okay now, on with the story!
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Kagome sat shuddering in inuyasha's embrace. He pulled her tighter when she didn't respond. She sat staring listlessly into space. She slowly turned her head to look at inuyasha. Those eyes again. Those hollow dead eyes. Entrancing in a deathly sort of way. Her vision slid in and out of focus. Unsteadily she shoved inuyasha away and pushed herself to her feet. Inuyasha began to protest but she waved him away. Tears still coursed down her cheeks. She turned away from him and began to walk away, the look she had last given him holding him in place. His feet were frozen to the ground, a look of remorse plastered on his face.
Kagome staggered away from inuyasha's form, her knees wobbling, ready to give out. She continued to walk, not stopping. Her heart's shreds burning in her chest. Her hair whipped wildly around in the air, lashing out and striking her face. She let out a soft moan.
"Why do I have to be so useless? Why can't I do anything right. I am nothing, worthless not to be pitied. I have nothing left." She soft cry was whisked away and swept across the soft grass where she and inuyasha had sat not long ago.
Another heart wrenching moan escaped her lips. She continued to stumble forward. A broken soul, lost and wandering is what she had become. Her shuffling feet abruptly stopped as she reached the edge of a cliff. She looked up at the sky and closed her eyes, the soft breeze beckoning to her. Her eyes opened slowly blurred by tears. A soft sigh wafted from her mouth as she let her self fall.
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Jade stood in the middle of the hall, surrounded by employees of the mental hospital. A grim smile crept onto her face. Around her lay the bodies of those who had opposed her. Not much blood had been spilled. The other employees backed up slowly in apprehension, clearing the way for jade. She began to shuffle leisurely down the hall towards the main exit. A sudden cry made some flinch. Jade just smirked as a man burst out of the small group towards jade.
"Really, you need to stop trying to be a hero; you just don't fit the part." With that she sidestepped the charge and hit the man in the head with the blunt edge of her knife.
Then she continued to make her way toward the exit chuckling slightly to her. "Time to pay old Shuya a visit. I bet he'll be happy to see me. He always is."
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Jade stood with her eyes closed, rain pouring down her face. She opened her mouth and shouted. "SHUYA! OH SHUYA LET ME IN!"
The front door creaked open. Jade made her way up the rickety stairs and flung herself through the door into the houses comforting warmth. Shuya stood in the middle of the hall, his arms crossed, a smile tugging at his lips. Jade strode over to him, a sneaky smile on her face. She stuck her face right up to shuya's until their noses were touching. His soft breath was laced with alcohol.
"What Shuya? No welcoming party?"
"Sorry sweetie, no party today, I kicked everyone out in honor of your arrival. I thought we could have our own private party. You need a good rest, at least if what my sources say is true. Plus the cops have been tailing you."
"Have you been watching me Shuya?"
"Well of course I have, I couldn't just let my little sis go gallivanting around now could I?"
Jade punched Shuya lightly in the shoulder. "I told you a million times, I'm not your sister, stop treating me like a kid!" jade grimaced as she remembered her real brother. Shuya always seemed to be able to bring back the memories she kept hidden. The past she always lied about.
Shuya saw her grimace and put a warm protective arm over her shoulder. He laid his head on top of hers, his dark shaggy hair mixing with the garish porcelain. "I'm sorry," he said, his voice warm and soothing. "I didn't mean anything by it. Now come on, let's celebrate your arrival okay?"
Jade nodded and let herself be led into the living room by Shuya. As she walked her mind wandered. Back to the day her brother had died.
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His breath was slow and ragged on her face. She could smell the stale alcohol clearly. His eyes were blood shot as the beady pupils glared at her.
"Stupid damn girl."
He brought up his hand and struck her across the face. She remained silent. He wrapped his fingers around her throat and threw her against the wall. She bit her lip to keep from crying out as she slid down to the stained carpet.
'Making noise will only make him angrier.' She thought feverishly.
He advanced on her again, this time throwing her across the coffee table. Glasses shattered beneath her and rained down onto the dirty carpet.
'Don't cry! It doesn't hurt that bad!' she thought as tears welled up in her dark eyes.
"Clean up this mess you made girl!"
She nodded silently and began to gather up the broken glass. She ignored the blood trickling down her back. It seeped into her shirt, soaked into the gray material. New bruises appeared to join the others that accessorized her once delicate skin. But she ignored all this. Careful not to bleed on the rug, she went and threw away the broken glass.
"Just another typical day," she whispered softly. Her voice empty and lacking emotion, she gathered up to her battered and broken body and headed to her room to her ready for school.
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She walked hunched in the rain. It beat down on her, the cold penetrating her thin coat and seeping into her skin. She shivered uncontrollably but continued walking.
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She jumped and almost screamed as she felt an arm lain heavily on her thin shoulders. She turned and smiled weakly at what she saw. He smiled back. Dean had moved out on his 14th birthday, he had promised jade she could come live with him as soon as he got a place to live a job to support them. He didn't like their mom's new boyfriend anymore then she did.
"Hello Dean," she said softly.
"Hey Jade, what's up?"
"Let's go, Bryce is probably waiting for us with Michael."
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Jade slid next to Bryce. He patted her knee gently, not mentioning the new bruises.
"Hey ice queen."
Everyone at school called her ice queen. There was always someone telling her to smile and not to look so stuck up.
She could feel the moss catching in her hair as she laid her head on a broad moss rock. She liked to go to class with the dirt under her fingernails, rain streaking her mascara; a crown of twigs and moss laced in her hair. It began to rain again the pale common may rain. The rain smelled of rot and rain and Christmas. Jade inhaled deeply and closed her eyes drifting into a dreamless sleep.
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Dean shook her gently, her eyes widened with fear before she realized it was just dean.
"What?"
"The bell rang."
"So?"
"You gotta go to class, if you skip again they'll call dad, you know that."
"I don't care."
Still, Jade stood and brushed the brambles from her pants. Dean laced his arm through hers and escorted her to her first class.
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Jade unlocked the front door and walked into the empty flat. She walked into the cold listless kitchen and began to cook dinner with a defeated sigh.
"Ramen again? Is this all we have?" she asked herself.
"Oh well" she said with another beaten sigh. "It's not like it matters anymore."
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Dinner finished, Jade walked outside into the chilly air. Dusk was coming on fast. She sighed. He father would be home late once again.
'Oh well, it just gives me some time to spend time with Dean.'
She set off at leisure's pace, taking her time walking to the old railroad tracks. She met dean there often and they watched the freight cars go by, leaving pennies on the tracks to be flattened. She almost smiled remembering this. She hadn't truly smiled in awhile. Not since her mother had left her alone. She did this sometimes, leave without warning then show up a couple months later announcing that they were moving again. Jade didn't know if she was actually living or not, but she was dead to her.
Jade stopped as she reached the old train tracks. Dean was swaying along in the middle of them, she sighed as she watched him teeter back and forth. He was drunk. He always got drunk after a fight with his mother or one of his friends. Her eyes moistened. She blinked the tears back. She hadn't cried for years, she wouldn't start now.
Absorbed in her thoughts she did not hear the approaching train. Her gaze stayed plastered on dean as he tripped and fell, his boot caught beneath an old rusty metal bar. She giggled sadly as he struggled to free his boot. His body stiffened suddenly and he turned slowly.
His features contorted with fear as he squinted into the distance. Jade's senses came whirling back to her as she watched Dean struggling frantically to release his boot.
She turned slowly and faced the oncoming train. She shook her head as she turned back to Dean.
"No," she whispered "Please god no!"
She began to run towards him, her hands outstretched, trying desperately to reach him faster. The train closed the remaining distance between itself and dean quickly.
"DEAN!" Jade screamed frantically, trying to reach his outstretched hand.
"Jade, be good for dad......................goodbye,"
A split second later the train slammed into him. Splattering Justine's pale features with blood. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Rain.
It began again, washing away his memory, washing him away. He was gone. Jade sank down on her knees into a forming puddle. Tears splashed onto the ground with the rain, mixing with the mud. She was crying.
Her hand slammed down onto the ground, crystals of water flying into the melancholy air. Her hair plastered to her tear stained face. She clawed at her face, trying to make the aching in her heart go away.
"Why? Why did he have to die? He was all I had!"
Sobs racked her shoulders. She shook violently, rocking back and forth, her head buried in her hands. She rose slowly and began to walk. She walked and walked, her feet dragging on the ground. Tears continued to cascade down her cheeks.
She stopped and climbed onto a ledge. Green paint pealed from the metal. She looked down. Murky water churned far below her. Menacingly glaring at her. She sighed and let herself fall. Her frail broken body arched as her speed increased, the water looming ever nearer. Before she hit the water, she smiled.
Just smiled.
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'I would've died that day if it weren't for that damn hobo! Sheesh, it would have saved me so much pain.' Tears welled up in her eyes, yet she refused to let them spill. Shuya squeezed her shoulder gently. He had done his best to replace Dean and stitch up the hole in her heart. She was grateful to him. He gently sat jade down on the couch and handed her a drink. She took a sip. "Hmmmmmm, coke laced with vanilla vodka. Nice. Not my favorite, but still okay."
"As sharp as ever I see." Shuya smiled at her. She grinned back. Shuya sighed inwardly; despite all his efforts he had never been able to bring the happiness back to her smile. Jade sighed and closed her eyes. The memories just kept coming.
"Shuya?" her eyes snapped open. "Fuck it; give me the whole damn bottle."
Shuya smiled and handed her the bottle and some shot glasses. She looked at the bottle in her hands. Then the glasses. Then the bottle again. "Screw this!" she said and began to chug. Shuya burst out laughing. She hadn't changed at all, she still had the same fiery spirit and could chug longer and faster then any man.
~later~
*hiccup* "so Shuya, yah met a girlie yet? A chika? Hehehehe!"
Shuya smiled. He loved it when she was drunk. "Actually jade, no, I had a girlfriend but she ditched me for an American guy. So how 'bout you? How's your love life."
Jade sat up quickly her eyes wide and he body swaying slightly. "I met someone. And woo, let me tell you, he is a hottie. He saved me from a demon after I saved this little girl and it turns out that this guy is the half brother of the hanyou I'm staying with. Yah see *hiccup* he wants to kill his half brother cause he doesn't like half demons, and plus he wants inuyasha's sword. Inuyasha is the brother. Sesshomaru is the guy I met. Man is he sexy!"
Shuya chuckled as she rambled. "Come on now jade, demons? I think you've had a little too much to drink."
"But it's for truth! I mean, for *hiccup* real!" jade's face was flushed as she shakily gat to her feet. "I gots ta go fors a walk. I'll be back soon. Don't cha wait up yah hear?!" she made her way shakily towards the door. Once outside the fresh air slapped her in the face. "Much better! My head is clearing already!"
She slowly tottered down the hill. She was heading for ling's bar. Ling would be happy to see her. She turned sharply, almost falling over. She walked a dark alley, a shortcut to Ling's. "I'll be there in a jiffy! Good thing I know a shortcut! Hehehehe!"
"Well, well, well, what do we have here boys? Looks like we got ourselves a little guest." Gruff chuckles erupted behind jade. She froze and turned her head slowly. Three men stepped out of the shadows, leers on their dirty faces. Jade turned to run, but the alcohol was really kicking in.
"Looks like this little birdie had a little too much to drink. Let's have some fun shall we?" he advanced on her slowly. Jade's eyes widened in fear. Her expression plainly said-OH shit!
'Damn it all to hell! I can't fight! My coordination is shot!'
"Let's take her somewhere more private to have some fun? Eh men? What'cha think?" more stupid chuckles met this suggestion. Jade whimpered.
'Shit! Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit! SHIT!' jade's mind raced frantically as the man flung her over his shoulder. He didn't bother to muffle her at all. She screamed the first that came to her mind. "SESSHOMARU! HELP!" the man carrying her cursed and threw her down on the ground. He pounced on top of her and his fingers closed around her neck. Jade gasped for air, inside she wailed, screams filled her head, but from her mouth came only a small whimper.
"You need to be taught a lesson you little bitch." Again with the stupid slow chuckles.
Jade let her mind give way to complete fear, it seized her body and she began to shake violently. Her heart threatened the pump right out of her chest. Her eyes widened even more. And she shook her head, unable to speak. Suddenly the shaking stopped and she went limp on the ground. The man smiled and began to advance upon the motionless body before him.
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Authors note!!!
Ooooooooooooooooooo! Tow cliffies in one, kagome and jade! Don't worry, I won't let that filthy man touch jade! I haven't decided what to do with kagome, I know that she will hit the ground, but should she die? Hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Oh right-
Dear Dead eyes Jade, don't worry I won't let him defile you! I'm not like Cameron! Neither is the guy in the story! Hehehehe, or is he? Are you happy now? I finally posted the 13th chapter! Sheesh, now you can start bugging me about the 14th. I can't wait! Lol. Guess what? It's 4:11. You cursed me! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! *runs around in circles* anyway, later!
Now here's a treat, but be warned, it's not to eat!
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Porcelain"
City of blue tile.
Figure in Ceramics.
Where we reach out.
Grab for Porcelain.
But it's too fragile to hold.
And it shatters in our hands.
In time the seasons will seal these shards.
Into the slits that denote your wrists.
Death is the answer.
To calculations composed of motions that are the same.
And secret and different (secretly the same).
A missing alphabet with a message for us.
When people die.
They take a piece of us with them.
And holes in clouds are minutes passing.
Rescind this line and several ties.
The skyline unfolds into explanation.
That sometimes words give up.
And silently walk off the edge the edge of the page.
And here the cry opens up and reveals the word inside.
The crack in the porcelain.
The silent line of sky-lit eyes show.
Death up there shine more brightly than lives down here.
Try and live.
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please review!
Hello everyone! Thanks for all the great reviews. Okay I have to clear something up. I know I would be annoyed if this happened in another story so I'll clear it up. It's about jade traveling through the well. I know that she wouldn't normally be able to do it, but it's my story and it wouldn't work if she couldn't so I made an exception for her. Let's pretend! YAY! Okay now, on with the story!
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Kagome sat shuddering in inuyasha's embrace. He pulled her tighter when she didn't respond. She sat staring listlessly into space. She slowly turned her head to look at inuyasha. Those eyes again. Those hollow dead eyes. Entrancing in a deathly sort of way. Her vision slid in and out of focus. Unsteadily she shoved inuyasha away and pushed herself to her feet. Inuyasha began to protest but she waved him away. Tears still coursed down her cheeks. She turned away from him and began to walk away, the look she had last given him holding him in place. His feet were frozen to the ground, a look of remorse plastered on his face.
Kagome staggered away from inuyasha's form, her knees wobbling, ready to give out. She continued to walk, not stopping. Her heart's shreds burning in her chest. Her hair whipped wildly around in the air, lashing out and striking her face. She let out a soft moan.
"Why do I have to be so useless? Why can't I do anything right. I am nothing, worthless not to be pitied. I have nothing left." She soft cry was whisked away and swept across the soft grass where she and inuyasha had sat not long ago.
Another heart wrenching moan escaped her lips. She continued to stumble forward. A broken soul, lost and wandering is what she had become. Her shuffling feet abruptly stopped as she reached the edge of a cliff. She looked up at the sky and closed her eyes, the soft breeze beckoning to her. Her eyes opened slowly blurred by tears. A soft sigh wafted from her mouth as she let her self fall.
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Jade stood in the middle of the hall, surrounded by employees of the mental hospital. A grim smile crept onto her face. Around her lay the bodies of those who had opposed her. Not much blood had been spilled. The other employees backed up slowly in apprehension, clearing the way for jade. She began to shuffle leisurely down the hall towards the main exit. A sudden cry made some flinch. Jade just smirked as a man burst out of the small group towards jade.
"Really, you need to stop trying to be a hero; you just don't fit the part." With that she sidestepped the charge and hit the man in the head with the blunt edge of her knife.
Then she continued to make her way toward the exit chuckling slightly to her. "Time to pay old Shuya a visit. I bet he'll be happy to see me. He always is."
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Jade stood with her eyes closed, rain pouring down her face. She opened her mouth and shouted. "SHUYA! OH SHUYA LET ME IN!"
The front door creaked open. Jade made her way up the rickety stairs and flung herself through the door into the houses comforting warmth. Shuya stood in the middle of the hall, his arms crossed, a smile tugging at his lips. Jade strode over to him, a sneaky smile on her face. She stuck her face right up to shuya's until their noses were touching. His soft breath was laced with alcohol.
"What Shuya? No welcoming party?"
"Sorry sweetie, no party today, I kicked everyone out in honor of your arrival. I thought we could have our own private party. You need a good rest, at least if what my sources say is true. Plus the cops have been tailing you."
"Have you been watching me Shuya?"
"Well of course I have, I couldn't just let my little sis go gallivanting around now could I?"
Jade punched Shuya lightly in the shoulder. "I told you a million times, I'm not your sister, stop treating me like a kid!" jade grimaced as she remembered her real brother. Shuya always seemed to be able to bring back the memories she kept hidden. The past she always lied about.
Shuya saw her grimace and put a warm protective arm over her shoulder. He laid his head on top of hers, his dark shaggy hair mixing with the garish porcelain. "I'm sorry," he said, his voice warm and soothing. "I didn't mean anything by it. Now come on, let's celebrate your arrival okay?"
Jade nodded and let herself be led into the living room by Shuya. As she walked her mind wandered. Back to the day her brother had died.
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His breath was slow and ragged on her face. She could smell the stale alcohol clearly. His eyes were blood shot as the beady pupils glared at her.
"Stupid damn girl."
He brought up his hand and struck her across the face. She remained silent. He wrapped his fingers around her throat and threw her against the wall. She bit her lip to keep from crying out as she slid down to the stained carpet.
'Making noise will only make him angrier.' She thought feverishly.
He advanced on her again, this time throwing her across the coffee table. Glasses shattered beneath her and rained down onto the dirty carpet.
'Don't cry! It doesn't hurt that bad!' she thought as tears welled up in her dark eyes.
"Clean up this mess you made girl!"
She nodded silently and began to gather up the broken glass. She ignored the blood trickling down her back. It seeped into her shirt, soaked into the gray material. New bruises appeared to join the others that accessorized her once delicate skin. But she ignored all this. Careful not to bleed on the rug, she went and threw away the broken glass.
"Just another typical day," she whispered softly. Her voice empty and lacking emotion, she gathered up to her battered and broken body and headed to her room to her ready for school.
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She walked hunched in the rain. It beat down on her, the cold penetrating her thin coat and seeping into her skin. She shivered uncontrollably but continued walking.
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She jumped and almost screamed as she felt an arm lain heavily on her thin shoulders. She turned and smiled weakly at what she saw. He smiled back. Dean had moved out on his 14th birthday, he had promised jade she could come live with him as soon as he got a place to live a job to support them. He didn't like their mom's new boyfriend anymore then she did.
"Hello Dean," she said softly.
"Hey Jade, what's up?"
"Let's go, Bryce is probably waiting for us with Michael."
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Jade slid next to Bryce. He patted her knee gently, not mentioning the new bruises.
"Hey ice queen."
Everyone at school called her ice queen. There was always someone telling her to smile and not to look so stuck up.
She could feel the moss catching in her hair as she laid her head on a broad moss rock. She liked to go to class with the dirt under her fingernails, rain streaking her mascara; a crown of twigs and moss laced in her hair. It began to rain again the pale common may rain. The rain smelled of rot and rain and Christmas. Jade inhaled deeply and closed her eyes drifting into a dreamless sleep.
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Dean shook her gently, her eyes widened with fear before she realized it was just dean.
"What?"
"The bell rang."
"So?"
"You gotta go to class, if you skip again they'll call dad, you know that."
"I don't care."
Still, Jade stood and brushed the brambles from her pants. Dean laced his arm through hers and escorted her to her first class.
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Jade unlocked the front door and walked into the empty flat. She walked into the cold listless kitchen and began to cook dinner with a defeated sigh.
"Ramen again? Is this all we have?" she asked herself.
"Oh well" she said with another beaten sigh. "It's not like it matters anymore."
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Dinner finished, Jade walked outside into the chilly air. Dusk was coming on fast. She sighed. He father would be home late once again.
'Oh well, it just gives me some time to spend time with Dean.'
She set off at leisure's pace, taking her time walking to the old railroad tracks. She met dean there often and they watched the freight cars go by, leaving pennies on the tracks to be flattened. She almost smiled remembering this. She hadn't truly smiled in awhile. Not since her mother had left her alone. She did this sometimes, leave without warning then show up a couple months later announcing that they were moving again. Jade didn't know if she was actually living or not, but she was dead to her.
Jade stopped as she reached the old train tracks. Dean was swaying along in the middle of them, she sighed as she watched him teeter back and forth. He was drunk. He always got drunk after a fight with his mother or one of his friends. Her eyes moistened. She blinked the tears back. She hadn't cried for years, she wouldn't start now.
Absorbed in her thoughts she did not hear the approaching train. Her gaze stayed plastered on dean as he tripped and fell, his boot caught beneath an old rusty metal bar. She giggled sadly as he struggled to free his boot. His body stiffened suddenly and he turned slowly.
His features contorted with fear as he squinted into the distance. Jade's senses came whirling back to her as she watched Dean struggling frantically to release his boot.
She turned slowly and faced the oncoming train. She shook her head as she turned back to Dean.
"No," she whispered "Please god no!"
She began to run towards him, her hands outstretched, trying desperately to reach him faster. The train closed the remaining distance between itself and dean quickly.
"DEAN!" Jade screamed frantically, trying to reach his outstretched hand.
"Jade, be good for dad......................goodbye,"
A split second later the train slammed into him. Splattering Justine's pale features with blood. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Rain.
It began again, washing away his memory, washing him away. He was gone. Jade sank down on her knees into a forming puddle. Tears splashed onto the ground with the rain, mixing with the mud. She was crying.
Her hand slammed down onto the ground, crystals of water flying into the melancholy air. Her hair plastered to her tear stained face. She clawed at her face, trying to make the aching in her heart go away.
"Why? Why did he have to die? He was all I had!"
Sobs racked her shoulders. She shook violently, rocking back and forth, her head buried in her hands. She rose slowly and began to walk. She walked and walked, her feet dragging on the ground. Tears continued to cascade down her cheeks.
She stopped and climbed onto a ledge. Green paint pealed from the metal. She looked down. Murky water churned far below her. Menacingly glaring at her. She sighed and let herself fall. Her frail broken body arched as her speed increased, the water looming ever nearer. Before she hit the water, she smiled.
Just smiled.
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'I would've died that day if it weren't for that damn hobo! Sheesh, it would have saved me so much pain.' Tears welled up in her eyes, yet she refused to let them spill. Shuya squeezed her shoulder gently. He had done his best to replace Dean and stitch up the hole in her heart. She was grateful to him. He gently sat jade down on the couch and handed her a drink. She took a sip. "Hmmmmmm, coke laced with vanilla vodka. Nice. Not my favorite, but still okay."
"As sharp as ever I see." Shuya smiled at her. She grinned back. Shuya sighed inwardly; despite all his efforts he had never been able to bring the happiness back to her smile. Jade sighed and closed her eyes. The memories just kept coming.
"Shuya?" her eyes snapped open. "Fuck it; give me the whole damn bottle."
Shuya smiled and handed her the bottle and some shot glasses. She looked at the bottle in her hands. Then the glasses. Then the bottle again. "Screw this!" she said and began to chug. Shuya burst out laughing. She hadn't changed at all, she still had the same fiery spirit and could chug longer and faster then any man.
~later~
*hiccup* "so Shuya, yah met a girlie yet? A chika? Hehehehe!"
Shuya smiled. He loved it when she was drunk. "Actually jade, no, I had a girlfriend but she ditched me for an American guy. So how 'bout you? How's your love life."
Jade sat up quickly her eyes wide and he body swaying slightly. "I met someone. And woo, let me tell you, he is a hottie. He saved me from a demon after I saved this little girl and it turns out that this guy is the half brother of the hanyou I'm staying with. Yah see *hiccup* he wants to kill his half brother cause he doesn't like half demons, and plus he wants inuyasha's sword. Inuyasha is the brother. Sesshomaru is the guy I met. Man is he sexy!"
Shuya chuckled as she rambled. "Come on now jade, demons? I think you've had a little too much to drink."
"But it's for truth! I mean, for *hiccup* real!" jade's face was flushed as she shakily gat to her feet. "I gots ta go fors a walk. I'll be back soon. Don't cha wait up yah hear?!" she made her way shakily towards the door. Once outside the fresh air slapped her in the face. "Much better! My head is clearing already!"
She slowly tottered down the hill. She was heading for ling's bar. Ling would be happy to see her. She turned sharply, almost falling over. She walked a dark alley, a shortcut to Ling's. "I'll be there in a jiffy! Good thing I know a shortcut! Hehehehe!"
"Well, well, well, what do we have here boys? Looks like we got ourselves a little guest." Gruff chuckles erupted behind jade. She froze and turned her head slowly. Three men stepped out of the shadows, leers on their dirty faces. Jade turned to run, but the alcohol was really kicking in.
"Looks like this little birdie had a little too much to drink. Let's have some fun shall we?" he advanced on her slowly. Jade's eyes widened in fear. Her expression plainly said-OH shit!
'Damn it all to hell! I can't fight! My coordination is shot!'
"Let's take her somewhere more private to have some fun? Eh men? What'cha think?" more stupid chuckles met this suggestion. Jade whimpered.
'Shit! Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit! SHIT!' jade's mind raced frantically as the man flung her over his shoulder. He didn't bother to muffle her at all. She screamed the first that came to her mind. "SESSHOMARU! HELP!" the man carrying her cursed and threw her down on the ground. He pounced on top of her and his fingers closed around her neck. Jade gasped for air, inside she wailed, screams filled her head, but from her mouth came only a small whimper.
"You need to be taught a lesson you little bitch." Again with the stupid slow chuckles.
Jade let her mind give way to complete fear, it seized her body and she began to shake violently. Her heart threatened the pump right out of her chest. Her eyes widened even more. And she shook her head, unable to speak. Suddenly the shaking stopped and she went limp on the ground. The man smiled and began to advance upon the motionless body before him.
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Authors note!!!
Ooooooooooooooooooo! Tow cliffies in one, kagome and jade! Don't worry, I won't let that filthy man touch jade! I haven't decided what to do with kagome, I know that she will hit the ground, but should she die? Hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Oh right-
Dear Dead eyes Jade, don't worry I won't let him defile you! I'm not like Cameron! Neither is the guy in the story! Hehehehe, or is he? Are you happy now? I finally posted the 13th chapter! Sheesh, now you can start bugging me about the 14th. I can't wait! Lol. Guess what? It's 4:11. You cursed me! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! *runs around in circles* anyway, later!
Now here's a treat, but be warned, it's not to eat!
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Porcelain"
City of blue tile.
Figure in Ceramics.
Where we reach out.
Grab for Porcelain.
But it's too fragile to hold.
And it shatters in our hands.
In time the seasons will seal these shards.
Into the slits that denote your wrists.
Death is the answer.
To calculations composed of motions that are the same.
And secret and different (secretly the same).
A missing alphabet with a message for us.
When people die.
They take a piece of us with them.
And holes in clouds are minutes passing.
Rescind this line and several ties.
The skyline unfolds into explanation.
That sometimes words give up.
And silently walk off the edge the edge of the page.
And here the cry opens up and reveals the word inside.
The crack in the porcelain.
The silent line of sky-lit eyes show.
Death up there shine more brightly than lives down here.
Try and live.
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