Chapter Thirty-Eight: Over
Xander had taken Buffy back up to her room while she was crying; she laid he on her bed and cried herself to sleep. Down stairs Willow, Xander and Dawn sat in Buffys living room, Willow comforted Dawn as she cried for the loss of her brother in law and her sisters pain. Once Dawn had stopped crying, they looked up at the ceiling and heard Buffys heart wrenching sobs and calls for Spike
"God, poor Buffy, she's heart broken" Xander said sadly
"Did you see the look in her eyes...I haven't seen that look since...." Xander cut himself off looking at Willow
"After what I did its ok Xander, I remember what I was like, that's why I stopped Buffy, we'd lose her for ever, I cant let her do that to herself" Willow said
"Do you think she'll be ok" Xander said
"I really don't know Xander" Willow said stroking Dawns hair
*~*~*~*~
Buffy opened her eyes and looked out into her bedroom, she watched as the sun shone through her window and the birds sung outside, she smiled; she turned over to her side and looked into the blue eyes of her husband
"Morning luv" Spike side
"Are you really here" Buffy said
"I think that's for you to decide pet" Spike said stroking her cheek
Buffy leaned into his touch and looked into his eyes, in the distance she heard music
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now...]
[Lay a whisper ]
[On my pillow]
[Leave the winter]
[On the ground]
[I wake up lonely]
[There's air of silence]
[In the bedroom]
[And all around..]
[Touch me now ]
[I close my eyes]
[And dream away]
"What's that music" Buffy asked running her fingers through his hair lovingly
"Don't know sweetheart," Spike said
"You know if your not really here, this is like the worst song to listen to ever" She said with a smile
"Yeah" He said chuckling
"You look so real, maybe everything that happened before was a dream" She said hopefully
"Maybe" Spike said smiling
Buffy moved closer to him and kissed him, when he broke the kiss Buffy still had her eyes closed
"I love you, Buffy" Spike whispered
Buffy was about to say it back when she open her eyes and he was gone
"Spike" She whispered
"SPIKE" She screamed
*~*~*~*~*~
"Spike" Buffy said waking up, she looked around at her bedroom just like she had done in her dream, only now; there was no sun, no birds and more importantly no Spike.
Buffy looked to the empty space in her bed and stroked his pillow softly as tears started to come down her face once again
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now]
[It must of been good]
[But I lost it somehow...]
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now]
[From the moment we touched]
['Til the time had run out]
Buffy lay her head down on his pillow and smelled it knowing it would smell
like him, of his unique scent as she listened to the words of the song
[Make-believing]
[We're together]
[That I'm sheltered]
[By your heart...]
[But in and outside]
[I turn to water]
[Like a tear drop]
[In your palm]
[And it's a hard]
[Winter's day]
[I dream away...]
"Its not over" She whispered to herself as she got up and walked into the hallway to go and turn of the song that was not making her feel better
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now]
[It was all that I wanted]
[Now I'm living without...]
[It's where the water flows]
[It's where the wind blows...]
*~*~*~*~*~
Down stairs Willow, Xander and Dawn waited for Kennedy to arrive with Alex. Willow watched as Kennedy drove up with Rachel asleep in the car and Alex in her arms as she walked towards the house Willow walked out as Xander stroked Dawns hair as she slept on his lap
"Hey, what's going on" Kennedy asked giving Alex to Willow
"Spikes gone, and Buffy is not dealing very well" Willow said as Alex slept on her shoulder
*~*~*~*~*
Buffy watched as Willow and Kennedy talked out side, she watched her son in Willows arms, her and Spikes son, she knew that she needed him in her arms
*~*~*~*~
"I don't think we should leave Alex here, she's a bit unstable, come on lets take Alex back to our place" Willow said walking back with Alex to the car
*~*~*~*~
Buffy watched in horror as she heard her best friend say she was unstable and say she was going to take her son away Buffy thought fast and grabbed the radio that was playing the song she was going to turn off, she turned around and sent the radio crashing through the window
*~*~*~*~
Willow and Kennedy jumped as the radio landed with a crash a few feet behind them Xander and Dawn ran outside and looked at the scene in front of them, they looked up at the window to see Buffy standing at the broken window, then move away
Buffy walked down stairs and came to the front and walked out side "Buffy what the hell did you think you were doing" Xander said
"Give me my son" Buffy growled
"Buffy we think it's best if we take Alex with us for a while, just to give you some time to..." Willow was cut off by Buffy
"No, I really appreciate the thought but I really need my son right now" Buffy said stretching out her arms indicating her son
"But Buffy, you threw a radio through a window and you've been crying none stop since Spike..." Xander said
"I KNOW, ALL I WANT IS MY SON" Buffy yelled cutting off Xander, as she didn't want walking to hear anyone say that Spike was gone, Alex woke up to the shouting
"Buffy, calm down..." Dawn said
"NO, WHY DONT YOU PEOPLE GET IT, ALL I WANT IS MY LITTLE BOY OK" She said taking Alex from Willow
"Buffy I think one of us should stay with you" Dawn said
"No, Dawn I just want to be alone with Alex and Sp..." Tears welled up in Buffys eyes as she nearly said Spike
"Ok, just give us a call if you need us ok" Willow said as they all started to back away
"Mommy, where's daddy?" Alex asked sleepily
Buffy looked at her son in her arms
Willow, Xander, Kennedy and Dawn all turned around and waited to hear what she was going to say
"Erm Alex baby your daddy, is...gone, he's gone..." Buffy said
Willow, Xander and Dawn let out breath, as it was the first time she had said, but felt sorry that she had to say it to her son but to their surprise she carried on
"...But, we are going to get him back, me and you, because your daddy would never leave you or me for too long, he just cant stay away can he" She said rubbing noses with Alex as she turned round and walked into the house
Willow, Xander, Kennedy and Dawn watched in shock at what they just heard as they watch Buffy shut the door
"Did that just happen," Xander said
"I can't believe Buffy lied to Alex like that" Dawn said
"She didn't, I think she actually thinks she will get him back" Willow said
"So what, your saying she's in some kind of denial" Xander said
The four of them watch as Buffy walked past the broken window with Alex still in her arms
Roxette Lay- It must have been Love
Xander had taken Buffy back up to her room while she was crying; she laid he on her bed and cried herself to sleep. Down stairs Willow, Xander and Dawn sat in Buffys living room, Willow comforted Dawn as she cried for the loss of her brother in law and her sisters pain. Once Dawn had stopped crying, they looked up at the ceiling and heard Buffys heart wrenching sobs and calls for Spike
"God, poor Buffy, she's heart broken" Xander said sadly
"Did you see the look in her eyes...I haven't seen that look since...." Xander cut himself off looking at Willow
"After what I did its ok Xander, I remember what I was like, that's why I stopped Buffy, we'd lose her for ever, I cant let her do that to herself" Willow said
"Do you think she'll be ok" Xander said
"I really don't know Xander" Willow said stroking Dawns hair
*~*~*~*~
Buffy opened her eyes and looked out into her bedroom, she watched as the sun shone through her window and the birds sung outside, she smiled; she turned over to her side and looked into the blue eyes of her husband
"Morning luv" Spike side
"Are you really here" Buffy said
"I think that's for you to decide pet" Spike said stroking her cheek
Buffy leaned into his touch and looked into his eyes, in the distance she heard music
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now...]
[Lay a whisper ]
[On my pillow]
[Leave the winter]
[On the ground]
[I wake up lonely]
[There's air of silence]
[In the bedroom]
[And all around..]
[Touch me now ]
[I close my eyes]
[And dream away]
"What's that music" Buffy asked running her fingers through his hair lovingly
"Don't know sweetheart," Spike said
"You know if your not really here, this is like the worst song to listen to ever" She said with a smile
"Yeah" He said chuckling
"You look so real, maybe everything that happened before was a dream" She said hopefully
"Maybe" Spike said smiling
Buffy moved closer to him and kissed him, when he broke the kiss Buffy still had her eyes closed
"I love you, Buffy" Spike whispered
Buffy was about to say it back when she open her eyes and he was gone
"Spike" She whispered
"SPIKE" She screamed
*~*~*~*~*~
"Spike" Buffy said waking up, she looked around at her bedroom just like she had done in her dream, only now; there was no sun, no birds and more importantly no Spike.
Buffy looked to the empty space in her bed and stroked his pillow softly as tears started to come down her face once again
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now]
[It must of been good]
[But I lost it somehow...]
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now]
[From the moment we touched]
['Til the time had run out]
Buffy lay her head down on his pillow and smelled it knowing it would smell
like him, of his unique scent as she listened to the words of the song
[Make-believing]
[We're together]
[That I'm sheltered]
[By your heart...]
[But in and outside]
[I turn to water]
[Like a tear drop]
[In your palm]
[And it's a hard]
[Winter's day]
[I dream away...]
"Its not over" She whispered to herself as she got up and walked into the hallway to go and turn of the song that was not making her feel better
[It must have been love]
[But it's over now]
[It was all that I wanted]
[Now I'm living without...]
[It's where the water flows]
[It's where the wind blows...]
*~*~*~*~*~
Down stairs Willow, Xander and Dawn waited for Kennedy to arrive with Alex. Willow watched as Kennedy drove up with Rachel asleep in the car and Alex in her arms as she walked towards the house Willow walked out as Xander stroked Dawns hair as she slept on his lap
"Hey, what's going on" Kennedy asked giving Alex to Willow
"Spikes gone, and Buffy is not dealing very well" Willow said as Alex slept on her shoulder
*~*~*~*~*
Buffy watched as Willow and Kennedy talked out side, she watched her son in Willows arms, her and Spikes son, she knew that she needed him in her arms
*~*~*~*~
"I don't think we should leave Alex here, she's a bit unstable, come on lets take Alex back to our place" Willow said walking back with Alex to the car
*~*~*~*~
Buffy watched in horror as she heard her best friend say she was unstable and say she was going to take her son away Buffy thought fast and grabbed the radio that was playing the song she was going to turn off, she turned around and sent the radio crashing through the window
*~*~*~*~
Willow and Kennedy jumped as the radio landed with a crash a few feet behind them Xander and Dawn ran outside and looked at the scene in front of them, they looked up at the window to see Buffy standing at the broken window, then move away
Buffy walked down stairs and came to the front and walked out side "Buffy what the hell did you think you were doing" Xander said
"Give me my son" Buffy growled
"Buffy we think it's best if we take Alex with us for a while, just to give you some time to..." Willow was cut off by Buffy
"No, I really appreciate the thought but I really need my son right now" Buffy said stretching out her arms indicating her son
"But Buffy, you threw a radio through a window and you've been crying none stop since Spike..." Xander said
"I KNOW, ALL I WANT IS MY SON" Buffy yelled cutting off Xander, as she didn't want walking to hear anyone say that Spike was gone, Alex woke up to the shouting
"Buffy, calm down..." Dawn said
"NO, WHY DONT YOU PEOPLE GET IT, ALL I WANT IS MY LITTLE BOY OK" She said taking Alex from Willow
"Buffy I think one of us should stay with you" Dawn said
"No, Dawn I just want to be alone with Alex and Sp..." Tears welled up in Buffys eyes as she nearly said Spike
"Ok, just give us a call if you need us ok" Willow said as they all started to back away
"Mommy, where's daddy?" Alex asked sleepily
Buffy looked at her son in her arms
Willow, Xander, Kennedy and Dawn all turned around and waited to hear what she was going to say
"Erm Alex baby your daddy, is...gone, he's gone..." Buffy said
Willow, Xander and Dawn let out breath, as it was the first time she had said, but felt sorry that she had to say it to her son but to their surprise she carried on
"...But, we are going to get him back, me and you, because your daddy would never leave you or me for too long, he just cant stay away can he" She said rubbing noses with Alex as she turned round and walked into the house
Willow, Xander, Kennedy and Dawn watched in shock at what they just heard as they watch Buffy shut the door
"Did that just happen," Xander said
"I can't believe Buffy lied to Alex like that" Dawn said
"She didn't, I think she actually thinks she will get him back" Willow said
"So what, your saying she's in some kind of denial" Xander said
The four of them watch as Buffy walked past the broken window with Alex still in her arms
Roxette Lay- It must have been Love