Sorry its taken so long to update I had some serious writers block and I
have been writing other stories and new chapters to 'Slayer Love'
This chapter was just written out of desperation and I watched the episode and wondered what would happen if Buffy really knew what he felt that night
So here it is
Chapter Forty-Two: You're Beneath Me
Buffy looked around again and searched for Spike, she smiled as she watched him walk towards her
"Got a surprise for you luv" He said raising his hand to her face and stroking it softly, Buffy sighed as he touched her
"What does this mean" She said leaning into his touch
"It means they're liking your work pet and are giving you a reward" He said
Buffy smiled and walked towards him with her arms out to hug him only to walk straight threw him
"I guess it was to much to hug you huh" Buffy said
"Sorry darlin', just soft touching for tonight, but what I've got to show you today is quite important stuff, and I'm afraid not all of it your going to like"
Buffy looked up at him confused as she watch him click his fingers
Buffy looked around and didn't recognise where she was
"Spike, where are we" She asked
"Not where baby, when" He said pointing at William with his brown hair and wire glasses
"Oh my god is that you" Buffy said
"Yeah, I didn't particularly want you to see me like this" He said
"Why I think you look adorable" She said
"I do not look adorable I look like a poofter" Spike said
Buffy shook her head and watched as one of the other men snatched something of him
"What's going on" Buffy asked
"Well why don't we go and find out" Spike said walking over to them
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"Careful. The inks are still wet. Please, it's not finished." William said quietly
"Don't be shy." The man said as he began to read
"'My heart expands 'tis grown a bulge in it inspired by your beauty, effulgent.' ... Effulgent?" He said laughing
Everyone laughs, mocking William. Uncomfortable, Cecily glances at William and walks off. William shoots the man a sour look, snatches back his poem, and follows her.
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"Asshole" Buffy said
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"And that's actually one of his better compositions." One of the Aristocrats said
"Have you heard? They call him William the Bloody because of his bloody awful poetry!" Said another
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"Oh so that's were you got that name" Buffy said
"Yeah, don't go telling people though" He said with a smile
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"It suits him. I'd rather have a railroad spike through my head than listen to that awful stuff!" The man said
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Buffy looked up at Spike and gave him a knowing look at to what they just said
Spike gave Buffy a cheeky smile and gestured for her to come over to William and Cecily
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William approaches Cecily who is sitting on a sofa, away from the main party, and looking out the window.
"Cecily?" William said
She turns and sighs when she sees him.
"Oh. Leave me alone." She said
"Oh, they're vulgarians. They're not like you and I." He said glancing at the other people
"You and I? I'm going to ask you a very personal question and I demand an honest answer. Do you understand?"
He nods.
"Your poetry, it's... they're... not written about me, are they?"
"They're about how I feel." He said sincerely
"Yes, but are they about me?"
"Every syllable."
"Oh, God!"
"Oh, I know... it's sudden and ... please, if they're no good, they're only words but... the feeling behind them... I love you, Cecily"
"Please stop!" She said
"I know I'm a bad poet but I'm a good man and all I ask is that... that you try to see me-
"I do see you. That's the problem. You're nothing to me, William. You're beneath me."
She stands and walks off, leaving Spike devastated and alone.
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"Oh, look at your face, that fucking bitch did that to you, did you kill her" Buffy asked
"Do you remember Anya's friend Halfrek" Spike said
"Yeah, but what has that got to do with..." Buffy gasped as William ran past her and she realised what Spike was talking about
"Come on, lets see what happened to dear old William after Cecily ripped his heart out" He said walking outside
Buffy saw William and Drusilla talking in an ally, she watched Drusilla pull his shirt collar down and bury her fangs into his neck
Buffy gasped as she watch him cry out in pain then cry out in pleasure and sink to the floor
"My god, you died because you got your heart broken, you died because the woman you loved hurt you" Buffy said
"Yeah well women that I love seem to keep telling me I'm beneath them" He said
"What do you mean"
Spike just clicked his fingers again
Buffy looked around to find her and Spike behind the Bronze, they heard a fight round the corner and follow the sounds
Once the got there Spike was on his knees in front of herself
"Do you remember this pet" He asked
"Yeah I remember, had you realised you were in love with me when this happened" She asked him
"Oh yeah, keep that in mind and watch this" Spike said pointing to the scene
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Spike stares intently into Buffy's eyes, then steps back.
"Here endeth the lesson. I just wonder if you'll like it as much as she did." Spike said
"Get out of my sight. Now." Buffy said coldly
"Oh... did I scare ya? You're the Slayer. Do something about it. Hit me. Come on. One good swing. You know you want to." Spike said getting slightly closer
"I mean it."
"So do I. Give it me good, Buffy. Do it!"
Buffy could see the tension is rising between them.
"Spike..." Buffy said
Spike leaned in to kiss her. She backs away in horror.
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"Oh that's why you did that, I really had no idea how you felt about me"
"I figured that when you said what your about to say to me" Spike said nodding back to the scene
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"What the hell are you doing?" She said in horror
He grabs Buffy by the arms, his words coming in a breathless pant.
"Come on. I can feel it, Slayer. You know you want to dance."
"Say it's true. Say I do want to."
She shoves him to the ground and looks down at him with disgust.
"It wouldn't be you, Spike. It would never be you."
She tosses the wad of cash at him contemptuously.
"You're beneath me."
Buffy turns and walks off into the night, leaving Spike alone in the dark alley.
He begins to gather up the money, stifling a sob
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"Oh god Spike, I'm so sorry, I... god I'm such a bitch" Buffy said with tears coming down her face as she watch Spike gather the money then she gasped at the look he his face, it had turned from sad and hurt, to pure and utter anger
"See that look in my eyes Buffy, you saying those three little words to me made me shoot through the years, and I became that same spurned and awkward young man I once was. Your words hurt me more than your blows ever have." Spike said looking at him self
By now Buffy had floods of tears coming down her face
"I'm so sorry... I don't know what else to say,"
"Do you remember what I did after that" Spike said
Buffy thought for a minute and hung her head
"I found out about my mom and... Spike do we really have to do this" She said wiping away her tears and looking at the floor
"Yes we do"
"You came and sat with me when I cried, you... you comforted me" She said
"I comforted you, after you put me through the most pain I had had in a long time, I comforted you and the amazing thing about it is you still gave me shit afterwards" He said chuckling softly
"Spike please...stop" She said bringing her hands to her face as tears shook threw her body
"Sorry sweetheart, but they think you need to remember all this" Spike said walking to her and wiping away her tears with his thumb
"Time to go pet" Spike said clicking his fingers
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Buffy woke up with tears poring down her face
"Oh god, Spike I'm so sorry" Buffy said crying and holding her swollen stomach
"Mommy" Alex said coming in like he had every morning
"Hey baby, come here and give your old mom a hug" She said opening her arms up
"Why are you crying" He asked
"I had a bad dream"
Alex nodded
"Alex, do you think your mommy's horrible" She asked
"No, you're lovely" He said
"Thank you" Buffy said burying her head into her sons shoulder and kissing it softly
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This chapter was just written out of desperation and I watched the episode and wondered what would happen if Buffy really knew what he felt that night
So here it is
Chapter Forty-Two: You're Beneath Me
Buffy looked around again and searched for Spike, she smiled as she watched him walk towards her
"Got a surprise for you luv" He said raising his hand to her face and stroking it softly, Buffy sighed as he touched her
"What does this mean" She said leaning into his touch
"It means they're liking your work pet and are giving you a reward" He said
Buffy smiled and walked towards him with her arms out to hug him only to walk straight threw him
"I guess it was to much to hug you huh" Buffy said
"Sorry darlin', just soft touching for tonight, but what I've got to show you today is quite important stuff, and I'm afraid not all of it your going to like"
Buffy looked up at him confused as she watch him click his fingers
Buffy looked around and didn't recognise where she was
"Spike, where are we" She asked
"Not where baby, when" He said pointing at William with his brown hair and wire glasses
"Oh my god is that you" Buffy said
"Yeah, I didn't particularly want you to see me like this" He said
"Why I think you look adorable" She said
"I do not look adorable I look like a poofter" Spike said
Buffy shook her head and watched as one of the other men snatched something of him
"What's going on" Buffy asked
"Well why don't we go and find out" Spike said walking over to them
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"Careful. The inks are still wet. Please, it's not finished." William said quietly
"Don't be shy." The man said as he began to read
"'My heart expands 'tis grown a bulge in it inspired by your beauty, effulgent.' ... Effulgent?" He said laughing
Everyone laughs, mocking William. Uncomfortable, Cecily glances at William and walks off. William shoots the man a sour look, snatches back his poem, and follows her.
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"Asshole" Buffy said
=====
"And that's actually one of his better compositions." One of the Aristocrats said
"Have you heard? They call him William the Bloody because of his bloody awful poetry!" Said another
======
"Oh so that's were you got that name" Buffy said
"Yeah, don't go telling people though" He said with a smile
=====
"It suits him. I'd rather have a railroad spike through my head than listen to that awful stuff!" The man said
====
Buffy looked up at Spike and gave him a knowing look at to what they just said
Spike gave Buffy a cheeky smile and gestured for her to come over to William and Cecily
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William approaches Cecily who is sitting on a sofa, away from the main party, and looking out the window.
"Cecily?" William said
She turns and sighs when she sees him.
"Oh. Leave me alone." She said
"Oh, they're vulgarians. They're not like you and I." He said glancing at the other people
"You and I? I'm going to ask you a very personal question and I demand an honest answer. Do you understand?"
He nods.
"Your poetry, it's... they're... not written about me, are they?"
"They're about how I feel." He said sincerely
"Yes, but are they about me?"
"Every syllable."
"Oh, God!"
"Oh, I know... it's sudden and ... please, if they're no good, they're only words but... the feeling behind them... I love you, Cecily"
"Please stop!" She said
"I know I'm a bad poet but I'm a good man and all I ask is that... that you try to see me-
"I do see you. That's the problem. You're nothing to me, William. You're beneath me."
She stands and walks off, leaving Spike devastated and alone.
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"Oh, look at your face, that fucking bitch did that to you, did you kill her" Buffy asked
"Do you remember Anya's friend Halfrek" Spike said
"Yeah, but what has that got to do with..." Buffy gasped as William ran past her and she realised what Spike was talking about
"Come on, lets see what happened to dear old William after Cecily ripped his heart out" He said walking outside
Buffy saw William and Drusilla talking in an ally, she watched Drusilla pull his shirt collar down and bury her fangs into his neck
Buffy gasped as she watch him cry out in pain then cry out in pleasure and sink to the floor
"My god, you died because you got your heart broken, you died because the woman you loved hurt you" Buffy said
"Yeah well women that I love seem to keep telling me I'm beneath them" He said
"What do you mean"
Spike just clicked his fingers again
Buffy looked around to find her and Spike behind the Bronze, they heard a fight round the corner and follow the sounds
Once the got there Spike was on his knees in front of herself
"Do you remember this pet" He asked
"Yeah I remember, had you realised you were in love with me when this happened" She asked him
"Oh yeah, keep that in mind and watch this" Spike said pointing to the scene
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Spike stares intently into Buffy's eyes, then steps back.
"Here endeth the lesson. I just wonder if you'll like it as much as she did." Spike said
"Get out of my sight. Now." Buffy said coldly
"Oh... did I scare ya? You're the Slayer. Do something about it. Hit me. Come on. One good swing. You know you want to." Spike said getting slightly closer
"I mean it."
"So do I. Give it me good, Buffy. Do it!"
Buffy could see the tension is rising between them.
"Spike..." Buffy said
Spike leaned in to kiss her. She backs away in horror.
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"Oh that's why you did that, I really had no idea how you felt about me"
"I figured that when you said what your about to say to me" Spike said nodding back to the scene
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"What the hell are you doing?" She said in horror
He grabs Buffy by the arms, his words coming in a breathless pant.
"Come on. I can feel it, Slayer. You know you want to dance."
"Say it's true. Say I do want to."
She shoves him to the ground and looks down at him with disgust.
"It wouldn't be you, Spike. It would never be you."
She tosses the wad of cash at him contemptuously.
"You're beneath me."
Buffy turns and walks off into the night, leaving Spike alone in the dark alley.
He begins to gather up the money, stifling a sob
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"Oh god Spike, I'm so sorry, I... god I'm such a bitch" Buffy said with tears coming down her face as she watch Spike gather the money then she gasped at the look he his face, it had turned from sad and hurt, to pure and utter anger
"See that look in my eyes Buffy, you saying those three little words to me made me shoot through the years, and I became that same spurned and awkward young man I once was. Your words hurt me more than your blows ever have." Spike said looking at him self
By now Buffy had floods of tears coming down her face
"I'm so sorry... I don't know what else to say,"
"Do you remember what I did after that" Spike said
Buffy thought for a minute and hung her head
"I found out about my mom and... Spike do we really have to do this" She said wiping away her tears and looking at the floor
"Yes we do"
"You came and sat with me when I cried, you... you comforted me" She said
"I comforted you, after you put me through the most pain I had had in a long time, I comforted you and the amazing thing about it is you still gave me shit afterwards" He said chuckling softly
"Spike please...stop" She said bringing her hands to her face as tears shook threw her body
"Sorry sweetheart, but they think you need to remember all this" Spike said walking to her and wiping away her tears with his thumb
"Time to go pet" Spike said clicking his fingers
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Buffy woke up with tears poring down her face
"Oh god, Spike I'm so sorry" Buffy said crying and holding her swollen stomach
"Mommy" Alex said coming in like he had every morning
"Hey baby, come here and give your old mom a hug" She said opening her arms up
"Why are you crying" He asked
"I had a bad dream"
Alex nodded
"Alex, do you think your mommy's horrible" She asked
"No, you're lovely" He said
"Thank you" Buffy said burying her head into her sons shoulder and kissing it softly
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