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Chapter Forty-Eight: Miss
Two Weeks Later
For the past couple of weeks Buffy had been missing Spike more than anything, she would sometimes go round to the house to see him but Lexy always sent her away, she would see the two of them around and she would be livid when she saw Lexy flirt with him.
Faith had gone round to Willow, Xander and Dawn and proved Buffy's story to them, they all came round and begged for Buffys forgiveness but Buffy had forgiven them when she found out they found out how to get Angel back and called Cordelia.
Faith wasn't very happy about that detail but didn't tell anyone.
Faith was happy about the fact she was still staying round Buffy's house Buffy was now 5 mouths pregnant and getting quite big, so Faith suggested Buffy, Willow, Dawn and herself go out to a quiet club before Buffy got into her major stages of pregnancy.
Buffy hesitated but then let Faith talk her into it.
As soon as Buffy got in to the club she saw Spike and Lexy, together. Buffy watched as Spike walked across the club and chatting to Lexy, she felt tears come to her eyes and was about to turn and leave, only to be stopped by Faith who caught her, turned her around and walked her to a table to sit down as Willow and Dawn followed.
"Please guys, can we just go back to my place and stay in?"
"Why? Come on it will be fun, girls night out, and we get to watch people make a fool out of them selves while singing on stage. And you're five months pregnant, this might be the only chance you can go out before you have the twins " Willow said as they all looked up at the twin girls singing Livin La Vida Loca.
Willow looked over from the stage to see Buffy was looking at something Willow followed her eye line to see Spike talking to Lexy, she looked at Buffy with tears in her eyes, Willow nudged Faith who nudged Dawn, they all looked at Spike then at Buffy.
"Dammit what's he doing here?" Faith said.
"Buffy are you ok?" Dawn asked.
"Huh? Oh yeah it not his fault he doesn't remember us." She said looking away.
"But why is he here? Shouldn't he be trying to get his memory back about oh lets say his family?" Willow said.
"He probably got bored, he goes out when he gets too bored, I remember on our honeymoon I had just come back from talking to the people in the room across from us, well when I got back Spike lifted me up from the ground, he kissed me then took my hand and said that he was tired of the hotel scene, even though we were only there a couple of hours. We went out, he rented a motor cycle and we road around for hours, then we stopped by this near by beach and kissed and...other stuff while the sun set in front of us...it was so..." Buffy stopped as she realised that half way through the story tears poured down her face. Willow Dawn and Faith looked at each other then at Buffy as Willow stood up and put a comforting arm around her.
"Oh god, I miss him so much it hurts, and the worse thing about it is this hurts more then when he wasn't here at all, he's so close yet..." She looked up at Spike as he started to laugh with Lexy.
"God look at me, breaking down in the middle of the club, I m just gonna step out for a while ok" She said getting up.
"B don't you wanna go home?" Faith asked worriedly.
"No, this is your night as well, don't worry, I'll be back." She said walking towards the club, then she spotted Lexy walk to the restroom and followed she went into one of the stalls and sat down on the seat while listening to the conversation between Lexy and someone else.
"Did you see the guy I am with, he's hot, and he's got this sexy British accent too." She said.
"You sure he's single?" The girl asked.
"He has a wife but he said he doesn't remember her, I think that he's trying to tell me he wants me to help him forget about her."
"You taking him home?" The other one said.
"He is already living with me, but tonight, I think he will be sleeping across the hall, with me." She said as they left, Buffy came out of the stall and walked to the mirror and redid her make up.
"Over my dead body!" She said to herself.
Once she finished her makeup she nodded to her self and walked out the door, she walked to the stage and picked up the microphone, she put the song word she wanted on the screen then looked out to the crowd.
"Oh my god Buffy!" Dawn said looking up on stage as the three women looked up at their friend in shock.
Spike looked up at the stage as the women he had meet a couple of weeks ago was on stage, She claimed she had known him for 11 years, married for five and they had a son together and she was pregnant with their baby. Spike couldn't remember so thought nothing of it, he felt sorry for the women but it wasn't his fault.
"Hi everyone, erm this next song I would like to dedicate to my husband, before I start I'd just like to say, I love you baby, please come home." She said looking Spike right in the eye as the music started.
Spike couldn't look away from her, no matter how much the girl beside him tried talking to him; his eyes were locked with Buffys, Buffy looked in to Spike eyes and sang:
*How do I, get through a night without you*
*If I had to live without you, *
*What kind of life would that be... *
*Oh I, need you in my arms need you to hold*
*Your my world, my heart, my soul, if you ever leave*
*Baby you would take away everything good in my life*
*And tell me now, how do I live without you*
*I want to know, *
*How do I breathe without you*
*If you ever go, *
*How do I ever, ever survive*
*How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live*
*Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky*
*There would be no love in my life, *
*There'd be no world left for me*
As Buffy sang Spike gasped as everything came back to him, his past with Buffy, the bad then he remembered coming back to her after he died in Sunnydale, then he remembered them going to the doctors and finding out she was pregnant...
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"Your pregnant with, a baby." He said holding her by the waist.
"No Spike with a snake of course with a baby, with your baby." She said smiling.
"I'm gonna be a dad." He said as the same excitement built up inside him.
"And I'm gonna be a mom." She said, as she got more and more excited.
They hugged as the doctor left the room to give them some time alone.
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...proposing to her
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"Err Buffy, I love you more than anything in the world, I love everything about you, even this ketchup thing you've got going on,"
"And now, we are having a baby and I can love him as much as I love you."
"It gonna be a g..." Buffy tried to say before Spike started talking again.
"And what I'm trying to say is...Buffy Anne Summers," He said reaching in to his pocket.
Buffy gasped as he opened a small red velvet box to present a gold ring with a blood red ruby and a diamond on each side off it.
"Will you marry me?"
"Oh my god" Spike looked as tears ran down her face, she started to nod and realised he needed words, "Yes." She simply said.
A smile grew on Spikes face. "Yes" He said repeating what she said.
"Yes, of course I'll marry you." She said jumping up into his arms and kissing him passionately on the lips.
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...then marrying her
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"Spike, baby I love you more than anything in this world, you're my everything, you're my heart, you're my soul, you make me feel complete and free. All you have to do is hold me or I'll look into those beautiful blue eyes and I'll know that everything is going to be ok. I'll never have enough time to show you how much I love you. And I can't wait for our baby to know what an amazing man his father really is."
"Then, by the power vested in me, by the state of California. I now pronounce you, husband and wife. You may kiss your bride," the justice told him. Spike's smile stole her breath away as he reached for her, slowly pulling her to him.
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.... when she gave birth to there son
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"It's a boy." The midwife said as she took the baby away to get cleaned up.
"You did great Buffy." Spike said as she leaned back in his arms, he kissed her all over her face.
The nurses wrapped him in a blue blanket The midwife held the little bundle of blue in her arms and handed him to Buffy.
"Oh my god, he is so beautiful." Buffy said with tears coming down her face as she held her son in her arms.
"Yeah, the most beautiful boy in the world." Spike said as tears came down his face.
Buffy held a hand to his cheek to wipe the tears away, Spike smiled and started to chuckle.
"What's so funny?" Buffy said looking up at him.
"Its just, I never thought I would be this happy, ever, I'm the luckiest man in the universe." He said as she reached up and kissed him softly on the lips, before going to watch her son.
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... when his son said his first word
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"Come on Alex, let's get you cleaned up" Spike said picking Alex up.
"Dadda" Alex said Spike looked at his son in awe.
"Did you just say dadda, you just said dadda, BUFFY!" Spike screamed running into the kitchen.
"What?" She said while making Alex's bottle.
"He just said dadda, he said dada!" He said frantically.
"Oh my god, are you serious? And I missed it" She said standing in front of them.
"Come on baby say it again for mummy to hear".
"Dadda" Alex said smiling.
"OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD good boy" Buffy squealed, she looked up at Spike to see there were tears in his eyes.
"Aww Spike you're crying" Buffy said stroking his face.
"No, I'm not, there's just...something in my eye that's all" He said using his free hand to wipe his eyes of his tears.
"Of course, dadda" She said leaning up and kissing him.
"Momma" Alex said. Spike and Buffy started laughing and squealing again.
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...when she said she was pregnant with his second child
=== "Spike honey looks like theirs a new edition to the Crawford family." She said rubbing her stomach
"You mean...?" Spike said putting his hand on her stomach.
"I'm pregnant!" She said looking at him as all her friends and family screamed around them as the kiss passionately.
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...his last words to his son
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"Ok, Alex I need you to be brave and stay here for a little while longer until auntie Willow comes and gets you." Spike said lowering Alex back down to the chair.
"NO, DADDY NO!" Alex screamed as tears came down his eyes clutching on to Spike.
"Hey hey, shh its ok, Alex I'll be back soon, but tonight you've got to put that new coat of yours in action, remember who am I when I've got it on" Spike said pulling Alex's arms from around his neck and kneeling in front of him
"You're the Big Bad" Alex sniffled
"That's right so tonight, you're gonna have to be the Lil Big Bad while I go get your mommy" Spike said
Alex nodded reluctantly "That's my boy, don't worry Alex I won't be long" He said kissing Alex on the fore head
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...and finally when he had to say good bye to her
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"Spike, I don't think I can live with out you" She whispered
"You have to Buffy, for Alex, for the little one growing inside of you," He said putting his hand on her stomach
"NO, not without you, I need you," She cried
Spike couldn't take it any more and pulled her to his chest, as she cried into his shirt he cried into her hair
"Tell Alex I love him and that he'll have to take over being the Big Bad for me," He said chuckling slightly, Spike looked back and realised it was time He pulled away from her and looked into her eyes, and kissed her one last time then kissed her fore head before backing away
"Oh god, Spike please don't go, I love you" She said trying to hold on to him Spike hugged her again
"I love you Buffy I'll always love you no matter what" He said before pushing her away and running to the portal
"SPIKE, NO" She screamed as he jumped in, almost instantly it closed up behind him
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So much more came flooding back, as he carried on watching her
*And I, baby I don't know what I would do*
*I'd be lost if I lost you, if you ever leave*
*Baby you would take away everything real in my life*
*And tell me now, how do I live without you*
*I want to know, *
*How do I breathe without you*
*If you ever go, *
*How do I ever, ever survive*
*How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live... *
Buffy couldn't finish the song as she put the microphone down and jumped of the stage with her hand over her mouth and ran away holding her swollen stomach Spike jumped out of his chair and up to the stage
"Hey stop that woman" Spike shouted "Err hey people, I've got a song, that I would like to dedicate to ...my wife" He said smiling as Buffy gasped and slowly turned around and looked at him Spike smiled at her and sung
*I could stay awake just to hear you breathing*
*Watch you smile while you are sleeping*
*While you're far away dreaming*
*I could spend my life in this sweet surrender*
*I could stay lost in this moment forever*
*Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure*
Buffy brought her hands to her mouth as she sobbed even harder as she recognised the song, their song
"Hey isn't that..." Faith asked
"That's there song, Buffy told me that's her and Spikes song, oh my god he remembers" Willow said smiling at Buffys face
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*Cause I'd miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Cause even when I dream of you*
*The sweetest dream will never do*
*I'd still miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
Spike walked off the stage slowly and started to walk towards her as the crowd parted as the spot light shone on his head
*Lying close to you feeling your heart beating*
*And I'm wondering what you're dreaming*
*Wondering if it's me you're seeing*
*Then I kiss your eyes*
*And thank God we're together*
*I just want to stay with you in this moment forever*
*Forever and ever*
Once he reached her he took her hand and walked her to the front of the stage, he put her hand on his shoulder and his hand on her waist and began to slowly sway to the music
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*Cause I'd miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Cause even when I dream of you*
*The sweetest dream will never do*
*I'd still miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*I don't want to miss one smile*
*I don't want to miss one kiss
*I just want to be with you
*Right here with you, just like this
*I just want to hold you close
*Feel your heart so close to mine
*And just stay here in this moment
*For all the rest of time
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*Cause I'd miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Cause even when I dream of you*
*The sweetest dream will never do*
*I'd still miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*I don't want to miss a thing*
As the song ended Spike threw the microphone to someone and leant down and kiss Buffy passionately as tears still made their way down her cheeks The club clapped and whooped at the couple as they kissed When they parted she looked into his eyes
"I love you" She whispered
"I love you too" He said hugging her tightly
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Buffy and Spike stood holding each other on the dance floor as the music restarted and people started to dance around them Lexy saw the show and stomped over to Spike and Buffy
"Hey, Spike, what the hell is going on" She said
"Lexy, look..." Spike started slightly pulling away from Buffy but his arms were still around her
"Don't 'Lexy look' me," She said pulling Spike away from Buffy
"You came here with me tonight and this bitch sings you a little song and you go running to her"
"Hey, that my wife you talking about" Spike said, Buffy smiled at him defending her
"Your wife, so now she's your wife after..." Lexy yelled, then she spotted Buffy smiling and walking up to her
"And what are you smiling at bitch, don't you forget who your husband has been with these past few week" Lexy said with her hands on her hips
"But who does he want to be with now" Buffy said smugly
"YOU FUCKING..." Lexy screamed raising her hand to slap Buffy round the face, only to find that a strong hand grabbed her wrist
Spike pulled Lexy back from Buffy Spike smiled sweetly at Lexy
"Err Lexy pet, thank you for everything that you have done for me, putting me up and everything, but I think I'll go home now...and also here's a little tip..."
Spike took a step closer to Lexy as he still held her wrist "...if you ever try and touch her again, you'll have me to deal with ok," Spike said squeezing her wrist slightly then letting it go, Lexy turned on her heel and walked out the club Spike turned to Buffy and took her hand; kissing it softly he pulled her to him
"Come on baby, lets go home" He said smiling
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Buffy and Spike walked in silence most of the way home with their arms around each other until Spike broke the silence
"How's the pregnancy going, your nearly five months now in it" He asked reaching over and laying his hand on her swollen stomach
"You haven't been told have you" She said smiling
"Told what"
"I'm... we're having...twins" She said Spike stopped suddenly with a shocked expression on his face
"Twins" He said
"Yeah, I found out couple of weeks ago" She said a few paces in front of him He walked up to her and kissed her
"That's great Buffy, I'm... I'm sorry I couldn't be there" He said Buffy raised a hand to his face
"Its ok, you're here now" She said smiling
"But still I would have wanted to be there" He said
"Spike its ok, really, Faith, god I don't know what I would have done without her and Angel was there with me a little" Buffy said
"Angel, oh, really" Spike said jealousy dripping off his voice
"Yeah, he's with Alex now" Buffy said
Spike looked at Buffy but didn't answer as they kept walking Buffy told Spike about how they got Angel back and how he has been trying to make it up to her since by helping with Alex and the house and her pregnancy And Spike couldn't help but feel jealous
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Once they got in the house Spike looked around at the now familiar setting
"Guys, we're back" Buffy yelled
"Mommy" Alex yelled running in to Buffy's open arms
"Hey baby, look who's back" She said stepping to the side to let Alex see Spike
"DADDY" Alex screamed leaping into Spike arms
"Hey there mate" Spike said as his son clung to his neck
"I missed you daddy." Alex said
"I missed you too Alex" Spike said kissing the side of his head
"Can you come and play with me and uncle Angel, we're playing zombies" Alex said wriggling out of his grasp and pulling on his hand
"You be zombie with uncle Angel and I be warrior" He said pulling Spike in to the dining room, Spike looked up and saw Angel hiding behind a curtain
"You go hide and I count to 14 and I have to kill you and uncle Angel ok" Alex said as Buffy walked up stairs to get changed
"Ok, why 14" Spike asked
"Because I like the number 14" He said turning around
"Ok" Spike said as Alex started counting
Spike walked over to the curtain Angel was at and went behind the one next to him
"Angel" Spike said
"Spike, you remember then" Angel said
"Yep, you can stop trying to take Buffy now" Spike said
"5, 6..." Alex said as he counted slowly
"What the hell are you talking about" Angel said
"I've heard about all your goings on, trying to jump in to my boots huh" Spike said
"Spike, I don't know what you are talking about" Angel said
"8, 9..." Alex said
"You know exactly what I'm talking about, I thought we were friends Angel" Spike said
"We were" Angel said, then realised he used past tense "I mean..."
"Just remember Angel this is my family and..."
"That you weren't here for" Angel stated
"12, 13..."
"I am now" Spike growled
"14 come out zombies" Alex said
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Buffy entered her room after hearing Alex tell Spike he like the number 14, she shut the door and leaned her back against it, she closed her eyes and thought to he self 'Thank you, for sending him back' before moving away and looking at her bed and thinking it was going to be the first time in 3 mouths that she was not going to bed alone
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Downstairs Angel, Spike and Alex played for a while, Angel and Spike glared at each other
"I got you uncle Angel" Alex said clinging to Angel's legs Angel smiled and picked him up
"Guess you did kiddo" Angel said playfully punching Alex's cheek
Spike glared at Angel and was about to say something to him when Buffy came down the stairs in a t- shirt and jeans
"Hey, you guys having fun" She said walking to Alex and Angel and tickling Alex playfully in Angels arms
Spike watched the display and it was making his blood boil
"Did you have a nice time, Buffy" Angel asked
"Better then nice" She said glancing over at Spike
"Right, err I guess this one should get to bed" He said
"No cant I stay up and play with daddy" Alex said
"No mate, I'll play with you in the morning" Spike said walking to Angel and Alex
"Ok, night uncle Angel" He said wrapping his arms around Angels neck
"Night Alex" Angel said putting him down
"Night daddy, will you come and see me later" Alex said clinging to his legs
"Course I will mate" He said
"Come on Alex" Buffy said holding Alex's hand as they went up stairs Spike and Angel watch as Buffy disappeared up stairs
"Think you're so smart don't you" Spike said
"What is your problem, Spike?" Angel said
"You are, ya ponce! You're my problem. You're king of a 30-floor castle, with all the cars, comfort, power, and glory you could ever want, and now your trying to take my family away from me, the only thing in my life that matters to me and you want it, It's not fair Angel."
Angel looked at Spike angrily
"FAIR, you asked for a soul. I didn't! It almost killed me I spent a hundred years trying to come to terms with infinite remorse. You spent 3 weeks moaning in a basement, and then you were fine! Then you became human, got Buffy, a son, a home, everything that I could possibly want but cant have what's fair about that" Angel said angrily but not loud enough for Buffy to hear.
"So what over all these years you've been pretending to be fine with Buffy and I, pretending to be our friend, what you thought that if you kept you self close enough over time you would get her back, you were just been waiting for your chance to take Buffy away from me" Spike said.
Angel looked at him but didn't get a chance to answer because Buffy walked in and sensed the tension.
"What's going on?" Buffy said.
"Nothing, I best be going" Angel said walking to the door.
Buffy followed him to the door as Spike watched from the door way as they talked for a second then Buffy giggled and Angel leant down and kissed her on the cheek and walked out.
Buffy turned to Spike with a smile and walked to him, she slipped her arms round his waist and tried to rest her head on his chest only to have him pull away and walk into the next room.
Buffy frowned and went after him.
"Spike what's wrong?" Buffy said.
"Nothing" He said bluntly.
"No something's wrong." She said worriedly.
Spike looked at her.
"Is something going on between you and Angel?" He said.
"What?" She asked, shocked
"While I was gone did you and peaches get back together?" He said.
"Spike, I'm pregnant with your children." She said laying her hands on her stomach.
"I know it's just..."
"Then why would you think I would have sex with another man?" She said a little angry he would even think that.
"Well what was all that about then, all the giggling and kissing and you saying he is hanging about so much." Spike said as he began to pace.
Buffy walked up to him and grabbed the back of his head to stop him pacing.
"Spike, do you have any idea how much I love you?" She said.
"Yeah but, I haven't been here have I, for all I know you could have gone back to your ex for a little while." Spike said.
Buffy couldn't believe what he was saying; she pushed him away and walked away then walked back.
"Where the hell is all this coming from Spike?" She yelled.
"Truthfully its always been there, I got turned into a vampire because the woman I loved broke my heart, I came to Sunnydale with Dru then after a while she breaks my heart I fall in love with you Buffy, and you, well you broke my heart for a long time, over and over before you mended it again by being with me, and I just don't want you to break it again that's all."
"That's all, Spike do you know what I went through to get you back, I had to relive all the terrible things I said to you after you fell in love with me and before that, I know I broke you heart over and over because it broke my heart just as much watching myself do it, and every time I did, it made me disgusted with myself but also made me love you so much more for putting up with it, and I don't think for the rest of my life I could ever be with anyone else, I could never break your heart again Spike." She said as tears coming down her face.
"Please don't Buffy, I couldn't take it," Spike said with his own tears coming down his face.
"I love you Spike, I love you so much, I promise I'll never ever break your heart." She said kissing him .
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Spike and Buffy held each other and talked for a little while before going up stairs to bed.
Spike lay in bed with Buffy and cuddled each other, then they saw there bedroom door open and Alex rubbing his eyes with tears steaming down is face as he clutched his blanket.
"Oh Alex, come here baby." Buffy said.
Alex walked over to Buffy and Spike and climbed into bed with them, Alex's sniffled as he sat in between his parents.
"What's wrong son?" Spike said.
"I heard you shouting and thought daddy had gone away again." He cried Buffy and Spike looked at each other and sigh.
"Alex we're sorry, your mom and I were just having a discussion that's all." Spike said.
"Yeah, your dads not going anywhere again, we promise." Buffy said.
"But you promised before and then you were gone." Alex hiccupped.
"I know and Alex I'm so sorry for leaving but this time I double promise this time I will be here for you and your mom and your little baby brothers or sisters ok" Spike said glancing up at Buffy to make sure she knew he was talking to her too, Buffy smiled.
"Can I sleep with you two tonight?" He said
"Course you can sweetheart" Buffy said snuggling down. Alex snuggled up to his mother then reached round him and grabbed his father's arm so it went over him and his mother and so Spike was pressed up against his back.
Buffy and Spike smiled at each other over Alex's head and kissed softly.
"I love you" Buffy mouthed.
"I love you too" Spike mouthed back before they both closed there eyes and the three of them fell asleep wrapped in each others arms.
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The next morning Spike woke up and looked over at his family, he smiled and reached over and softly placed his hand on Buffys stomach, his smile grew when he felt the one of the babies kick under his hand, when he started to chuckle Alex woke up.
"Morning mate" Spike whispered, as Buffy was still asleep.
"Hi daddy, can we play?" Alex whispered.
"You want to play already?" Spike said Alex nodded.
"Don't you want some breakfast first?" Spike said. Alex nodded again.
"Ok, let's go and let your mommy sleep." Spike said getting up slowly and turning around to let Alex jump on his back. They went down stairs as Buffy slept.
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Spike and Alex were down stairs eating breakfast when the door opened and Faith walked in.
"Hey blondie, hey Alex." Faith said.
"So apparently, you don't knock any more." Spike said teasingly.
"Apparently not" Faith said, "Glad to have you back man" She added.
"Glad to be back" Spike said looking at his son.
*~*~*~*~*
Buffy woke up with a smile on her face, she reached over the bed trying to find the body of her husband, only to feel and empty space, she opened her eyes expecting to see her family there beside her, her Spike back home only to find an empty bed. Buffy shot up in bed, her heart started racing and she started to panic.
"Spike...Spike?" She whispered she swallowed hard and started to shake her head.
"Oh no, oh... no... NO" She said getting louder.
"NO PLEASE, NO, SPIKE..." She screamed.
*~*~*~*~
Spike looked at Faith as he heard the screaming.
"Hey come on Alex, lets go play outside" She said picking up Alex and motioning Spike to go.
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"SPIKE PLEASE GOD... SPIKE!" She cried.
Spike burst in to the room and ran over to her and held on to her It took her a few second to realise who it was and once she did she started crying.
"Buffy what's wrong?" Spike said.
"I... I thought it was a dream, you coming back home everything was all a dream, when I woke up and you weren't there I panicked." She said clutching on to him and not letting go.
"I'm sorry Buffy, I went down stairs to make breakfast for Alex, then Faith came and we got talking."
"Is she down stairs with him now?" She said still holding on to him.
"Yeah" Spike said.
"Good, cause I'm not ready for you to let me go yet, please don't let me go" She said tightening her grip on him.
"I'm not gonna let you go baby I'm never gonna let you go" Spike whispered to her.
See and you thought I'd keep them apart and have Spike have no memory of his family for long, no way. And by the way
Miss a thing =Aeorsmith
How do I live without you= Leann Rimes
Chapter Forty-Eight: Miss
Two Weeks Later
For the past couple of weeks Buffy had been missing Spike more than anything, she would sometimes go round to the house to see him but Lexy always sent her away, she would see the two of them around and she would be livid when she saw Lexy flirt with him.
Faith had gone round to Willow, Xander and Dawn and proved Buffy's story to them, they all came round and begged for Buffys forgiveness but Buffy had forgiven them when she found out they found out how to get Angel back and called Cordelia.
Faith wasn't very happy about that detail but didn't tell anyone.
Faith was happy about the fact she was still staying round Buffy's house Buffy was now 5 mouths pregnant and getting quite big, so Faith suggested Buffy, Willow, Dawn and herself go out to a quiet club before Buffy got into her major stages of pregnancy.
Buffy hesitated but then let Faith talk her into it.
As soon as Buffy got in to the club she saw Spike and Lexy, together. Buffy watched as Spike walked across the club and chatting to Lexy, she felt tears come to her eyes and was about to turn and leave, only to be stopped by Faith who caught her, turned her around and walked her to a table to sit down as Willow and Dawn followed.
"Please guys, can we just go back to my place and stay in?"
"Why? Come on it will be fun, girls night out, and we get to watch people make a fool out of them selves while singing on stage. And you're five months pregnant, this might be the only chance you can go out before you have the twins " Willow said as they all looked up at the twin girls singing Livin La Vida Loca.
Willow looked over from the stage to see Buffy was looking at something Willow followed her eye line to see Spike talking to Lexy, she looked at Buffy with tears in her eyes, Willow nudged Faith who nudged Dawn, they all looked at Spike then at Buffy.
"Dammit what's he doing here?" Faith said.
"Buffy are you ok?" Dawn asked.
"Huh? Oh yeah it not his fault he doesn't remember us." She said looking away.
"But why is he here? Shouldn't he be trying to get his memory back about oh lets say his family?" Willow said.
"He probably got bored, he goes out when he gets too bored, I remember on our honeymoon I had just come back from talking to the people in the room across from us, well when I got back Spike lifted me up from the ground, he kissed me then took my hand and said that he was tired of the hotel scene, even though we were only there a couple of hours. We went out, he rented a motor cycle and we road around for hours, then we stopped by this near by beach and kissed and...other stuff while the sun set in front of us...it was so..." Buffy stopped as she realised that half way through the story tears poured down her face. Willow Dawn and Faith looked at each other then at Buffy as Willow stood up and put a comforting arm around her.
"Oh god, I miss him so much it hurts, and the worse thing about it is this hurts more then when he wasn't here at all, he's so close yet..." She looked up at Spike as he started to laugh with Lexy.
"God look at me, breaking down in the middle of the club, I m just gonna step out for a while ok" She said getting up.
"B don't you wanna go home?" Faith asked worriedly.
"No, this is your night as well, don't worry, I'll be back." She said walking towards the club, then she spotted Lexy walk to the restroom and followed she went into one of the stalls and sat down on the seat while listening to the conversation between Lexy and someone else.
"Did you see the guy I am with, he's hot, and he's got this sexy British accent too." She said.
"You sure he's single?" The girl asked.
"He has a wife but he said he doesn't remember her, I think that he's trying to tell me he wants me to help him forget about her."
"You taking him home?" The other one said.
"He is already living with me, but tonight, I think he will be sleeping across the hall, with me." She said as they left, Buffy came out of the stall and walked to the mirror and redid her make up.
"Over my dead body!" She said to herself.
Once she finished her makeup she nodded to her self and walked out the door, she walked to the stage and picked up the microphone, she put the song word she wanted on the screen then looked out to the crowd.
"Oh my god Buffy!" Dawn said looking up on stage as the three women looked up at their friend in shock.
Spike looked up at the stage as the women he had meet a couple of weeks ago was on stage, She claimed she had known him for 11 years, married for five and they had a son together and she was pregnant with their baby. Spike couldn't remember so thought nothing of it, he felt sorry for the women but it wasn't his fault.
"Hi everyone, erm this next song I would like to dedicate to my husband, before I start I'd just like to say, I love you baby, please come home." She said looking Spike right in the eye as the music started.
Spike couldn't look away from her, no matter how much the girl beside him tried talking to him; his eyes were locked with Buffys, Buffy looked in to Spike eyes and sang:
*How do I, get through a night without you*
*If I had to live without you, *
*What kind of life would that be... *
*Oh I, need you in my arms need you to hold*
*Your my world, my heart, my soul, if you ever leave*
*Baby you would take away everything good in my life*
*And tell me now, how do I live without you*
*I want to know, *
*How do I breathe without you*
*If you ever go, *
*How do I ever, ever survive*
*How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live*
*Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky*
*There would be no love in my life, *
*There'd be no world left for me*
As Buffy sang Spike gasped as everything came back to him, his past with Buffy, the bad then he remembered coming back to her after he died in Sunnydale, then he remembered them going to the doctors and finding out she was pregnant...
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"Your pregnant with, a baby." He said holding her by the waist.
"No Spike with a snake of course with a baby, with your baby." She said smiling.
"I'm gonna be a dad." He said as the same excitement built up inside him.
"And I'm gonna be a mom." She said, as she got more and more excited.
They hugged as the doctor left the room to give them some time alone.
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...proposing to her
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"Err Buffy, I love you more than anything in the world, I love everything about you, even this ketchup thing you've got going on,"
"And now, we are having a baby and I can love him as much as I love you."
"It gonna be a g..." Buffy tried to say before Spike started talking again.
"And what I'm trying to say is...Buffy Anne Summers," He said reaching in to his pocket.
Buffy gasped as he opened a small red velvet box to present a gold ring with a blood red ruby and a diamond on each side off it.
"Will you marry me?"
"Oh my god" Spike looked as tears ran down her face, she started to nod and realised he needed words, "Yes." She simply said.
A smile grew on Spikes face. "Yes" He said repeating what she said.
"Yes, of course I'll marry you." She said jumping up into his arms and kissing him passionately on the lips.
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...then marrying her
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"Spike, baby I love you more than anything in this world, you're my everything, you're my heart, you're my soul, you make me feel complete and free. All you have to do is hold me or I'll look into those beautiful blue eyes and I'll know that everything is going to be ok. I'll never have enough time to show you how much I love you. And I can't wait for our baby to know what an amazing man his father really is."
"Then, by the power vested in me, by the state of California. I now pronounce you, husband and wife. You may kiss your bride," the justice told him. Spike's smile stole her breath away as he reached for her, slowly pulling her to him.
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.... when she gave birth to there son
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"It's a boy." The midwife said as she took the baby away to get cleaned up.
"You did great Buffy." Spike said as she leaned back in his arms, he kissed her all over her face.
The nurses wrapped him in a blue blanket The midwife held the little bundle of blue in her arms and handed him to Buffy.
"Oh my god, he is so beautiful." Buffy said with tears coming down her face as she held her son in her arms.
"Yeah, the most beautiful boy in the world." Spike said as tears came down his face.
Buffy held a hand to his cheek to wipe the tears away, Spike smiled and started to chuckle.
"What's so funny?" Buffy said looking up at him.
"Its just, I never thought I would be this happy, ever, I'm the luckiest man in the universe." He said as she reached up and kissed him softly on the lips, before going to watch her son.
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... when his son said his first word
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"Come on Alex, let's get you cleaned up" Spike said picking Alex up.
"Dadda" Alex said Spike looked at his son in awe.
"Did you just say dadda, you just said dadda, BUFFY!" Spike screamed running into the kitchen.
"What?" She said while making Alex's bottle.
"He just said dadda, he said dada!" He said frantically.
"Oh my god, are you serious? And I missed it" She said standing in front of them.
"Come on baby say it again for mummy to hear".
"Dadda" Alex said smiling.
"OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD good boy" Buffy squealed, she looked up at Spike to see there were tears in his eyes.
"Aww Spike you're crying" Buffy said stroking his face.
"No, I'm not, there's just...something in my eye that's all" He said using his free hand to wipe his eyes of his tears.
"Of course, dadda" She said leaning up and kissing him.
"Momma" Alex said. Spike and Buffy started laughing and squealing again.
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...when she said she was pregnant with his second child
=== "Spike honey looks like theirs a new edition to the Crawford family." She said rubbing her stomach
"You mean...?" Spike said putting his hand on her stomach.
"I'm pregnant!" She said looking at him as all her friends and family screamed around them as the kiss passionately.
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...his last words to his son
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"Ok, Alex I need you to be brave and stay here for a little while longer until auntie Willow comes and gets you." Spike said lowering Alex back down to the chair.
"NO, DADDY NO!" Alex screamed as tears came down his eyes clutching on to Spike.
"Hey hey, shh its ok, Alex I'll be back soon, but tonight you've got to put that new coat of yours in action, remember who am I when I've got it on" Spike said pulling Alex's arms from around his neck and kneeling in front of him
"You're the Big Bad" Alex sniffled
"That's right so tonight, you're gonna have to be the Lil Big Bad while I go get your mommy" Spike said
Alex nodded reluctantly "That's my boy, don't worry Alex I won't be long" He said kissing Alex on the fore head
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...and finally when he had to say good bye to her
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"Spike, I don't think I can live with out you" She whispered
"You have to Buffy, for Alex, for the little one growing inside of you," He said putting his hand on her stomach
"NO, not without you, I need you," She cried
Spike couldn't take it any more and pulled her to his chest, as she cried into his shirt he cried into her hair
"Tell Alex I love him and that he'll have to take over being the Big Bad for me," He said chuckling slightly, Spike looked back and realised it was time He pulled away from her and looked into her eyes, and kissed her one last time then kissed her fore head before backing away
"Oh god, Spike please don't go, I love you" She said trying to hold on to him Spike hugged her again
"I love you Buffy I'll always love you no matter what" He said before pushing her away and running to the portal
"SPIKE, NO" She screamed as he jumped in, almost instantly it closed up behind him
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So much more came flooding back, as he carried on watching her
*And I, baby I don't know what I would do*
*I'd be lost if I lost you, if you ever leave*
*Baby you would take away everything real in my life*
*And tell me now, how do I live without you*
*I want to know, *
*How do I breathe without you*
*If you ever go, *
*How do I ever, ever survive*
*How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live... *
Buffy couldn't finish the song as she put the microphone down and jumped of the stage with her hand over her mouth and ran away holding her swollen stomach Spike jumped out of his chair and up to the stage
"Hey stop that woman" Spike shouted "Err hey people, I've got a song, that I would like to dedicate to ...my wife" He said smiling as Buffy gasped and slowly turned around and looked at him Spike smiled at her and sung
*I could stay awake just to hear you breathing*
*Watch you smile while you are sleeping*
*While you're far away dreaming*
*I could spend my life in this sweet surrender*
*I could stay lost in this moment forever*
*Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure*
Buffy brought her hands to her mouth as she sobbed even harder as she recognised the song, their song
"Hey isn't that..." Faith asked
"That's there song, Buffy told me that's her and Spikes song, oh my god he remembers" Willow said smiling at Buffys face
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*Cause I'd miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Cause even when I dream of you*
*The sweetest dream will never do*
*I'd still miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
Spike walked off the stage slowly and started to walk towards her as the crowd parted as the spot light shone on his head
*Lying close to you feeling your heart beating*
*And I'm wondering what you're dreaming*
*Wondering if it's me you're seeing*
*Then I kiss your eyes*
*And thank God we're together*
*I just want to stay with you in this moment forever*
*Forever and ever*
Once he reached her he took her hand and walked her to the front of the stage, he put her hand on his shoulder and his hand on her waist and began to slowly sway to the music
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*Cause I'd miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Cause even when I dream of you*
*The sweetest dream will never do*
*I'd still miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*I don't want to miss one smile*
*I don't want to miss one kiss
*I just want to be with you
*Right here with you, just like this
*I just want to hold you close
*Feel your heart so close to mine
*And just stay here in this moment
*For all the rest of time
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*Cause I'd miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Cause even when I dream of you*
*The sweetest dream will never do*
*I'd still miss you baby*
*And I don't want to miss a thing*
*Don't want to close my eyes*
*I don't want to fall asleep*
*I don't want to miss a thing*
As the song ended Spike threw the microphone to someone and leant down and kiss Buffy passionately as tears still made their way down her cheeks The club clapped and whooped at the couple as they kissed When they parted she looked into his eyes
"I love you" She whispered
"I love you too" He said hugging her tightly
*~*~*~*~*
Buffy and Spike stood holding each other on the dance floor as the music restarted and people started to dance around them Lexy saw the show and stomped over to Spike and Buffy
"Hey, Spike, what the hell is going on" She said
"Lexy, look..." Spike started slightly pulling away from Buffy but his arms were still around her
"Don't 'Lexy look' me," She said pulling Spike away from Buffy
"You came here with me tonight and this bitch sings you a little song and you go running to her"
"Hey, that my wife you talking about" Spike said, Buffy smiled at him defending her
"Your wife, so now she's your wife after..." Lexy yelled, then she spotted Buffy smiling and walking up to her
"And what are you smiling at bitch, don't you forget who your husband has been with these past few week" Lexy said with her hands on her hips
"But who does he want to be with now" Buffy said smugly
"YOU FUCKING..." Lexy screamed raising her hand to slap Buffy round the face, only to find that a strong hand grabbed her wrist
Spike pulled Lexy back from Buffy Spike smiled sweetly at Lexy
"Err Lexy pet, thank you for everything that you have done for me, putting me up and everything, but I think I'll go home now...and also here's a little tip..."
Spike took a step closer to Lexy as he still held her wrist "...if you ever try and touch her again, you'll have me to deal with ok," Spike said squeezing her wrist slightly then letting it go, Lexy turned on her heel and walked out the club Spike turned to Buffy and took her hand; kissing it softly he pulled her to him
"Come on baby, lets go home" He said smiling
*~*~*~*~*
Buffy and Spike walked in silence most of the way home with their arms around each other until Spike broke the silence
"How's the pregnancy going, your nearly five months now in it" He asked reaching over and laying his hand on her swollen stomach
"You haven't been told have you" She said smiling
"Told what"
"I'm... we're having...twins" She said Spike stopped suddenly with a shocked expression on his face
"Twins" He said
"Yeah, I found out couple of weeks ago" She said a few paces in front of him He walked up to her and kissed her
"That's great Buffy, I'm... I'm sorry I couldn't be there" He said Buffy raised a hand to his face
"Its ok, you're here now" She said smiling
"But still I would have wanted to be there" He said
"Spike its ok, really, Faith, god I don't know what I would have done without her and Angel was there with me a little" Buffy said
"Angel, oh, really" Spike said jealousy dripping off his voice
"Yeah, he's with Alex now" Buffy said
Spike looked at Buffy but didn't answer as they kept walking Buffy told Spike about how they got Angel back and how he has been trying to make it up to her since by helping with Alex and the house and her pregnancy And Spike couldn't help but feel jealous
*~*~*~*~*
Once they got in the house Spike looked around at the now familiar setting
"Guys, we're back" Buffy yelled
"Mommy" Alex yelled running in to Buffy's open arms
"Hey baby, look who's back" She said stepping to the side to let Alex see Spike
"DADDY" Alex screamed leaping into Spike arms
"Hey there mate" Spike said as his son clung to his neck
"I missed you daddy." Alex said
"I missed you too Alex" Spike said kissing the side of his head
"Can you come and play with me and uncle Angel, we're playing zombies" Alex said wriggling out of his grasp and pulling on his hand
"You be zombie with uncle Angel and I be warrior" He said pulling Spike in to the dining room, Spike looked up and saw Angel hiding behind a curtain
"You go hide and I count to 14 and I have to kill you and uncle Angel ok" Alex said as Buffy walked up stairs to get changed
"Ok, why 14" Spike asked
"Because I like the number 14" He said turning around
"Ok" Spike said as Alex started counting
Spike walked over to the curtain Angel was at and went behind the one next to him
"Angel" Spike said
"Spike, you remember then" Angel said
"Yep, you can stop trying to take Buffy now" Spike said
"5, 6..." Alex said as he counted slowly
"What the hell are you talking about" Angel said
"I've heard about all your goings on, trying to jump in to my boots huh" Spike said
"Spike, I don't know what you are talking about" Angel said
"8, 9..." Alex said
"You know exactly what I'm talking about, I thought we were friends Angel" Spike said
"We were" Angel said, then realised he used past tense "I mean..."
"Just remember Angel this is my family and..."
"That you weren't here for" Angel stated
"12, 13..."
"I am now" Spike growled
"14 come out zombies" Alex said
*~*~*~*~
Buffy entered her room after hearing Alex tell Spike he like the number 14, she shut the door and leaned her back against it, she closed her eyes and thought to he self 'Thank you, for sending him back' before moving away and looking at her bed and thinking it was going to be the first time in 3 mouths that she was not going to bed alone
*~*~*~*~
Downstairs Angel, Spike and Alex played for a while, Angel and Spike glared at each other
"I got you uncle Angel" Alex said clinging to Angel's legs Angel smiled and picked him up
"Guess you did kiddo" Angel said playfully punching Alex's cheek
Spike glared at Angel and was about to say something to him when Buffy came down the stairs in a t- shirt and jeans
"Hey, you guys having fun" She said walking to Alex and Angel and tickling Alex playfully in Angels arms
Spike watched the display and it was making his blood boil
"Did you have a nice time, Buffy" Angel asked
"Better then nice" She said glancing over at Spike
"Right, err I guess this one should get to bed" He said
"No cant I stay up and play with daddy" Alex said
"No mate, I'll play with you in the morning" Spike said walking to Angel and Alex
"Ok, night uncle Angel" He said wrapping his arms around Angels neck
"Night Alex" Angel said putting him down
"Night daddy, will you come and see me later" Alex said clinging to his legs
"Course I will mate" He said
"Come on Alex" Buffy said holding Alex's hand as they went up stairs Spike and Angel watch as Buffy disappeared up stairs
"Think you're so smart don't you" Spike said
"What is your problem, Spike?" Angel said
"You are, ya ponce! You're my problem. You're king of a 30-floor castle, with all the cars, comfort, power, and glory you could ever want, and now your trying to take my family away from me, the only thing in my life that matters to me and you want it, It's not fair Angel."
Angel looked at Spike angrily
"FAIR, you asked for a soul. I didn't! It almost killed me I spent a hundred years trying to come to terms with infinite remorse. You spent 3 weeks moaning in a basement, and then you were fine! Then you became human, got Buffy, a son, a home, everything that I could possibly want but cant have what's fair about that" Angel said angrily but not loud enough for Buffy to hear.
"So what over all these years you've been pretending to be fine with Buffy and I, pretending to be our friend, what you thought that if you kept you self close enough over time you would get her back, you were just been waiting for your chance to take Buffy away from me" Spike said.
Angel looked at him but didn't get a chance to answer because Buffy walked in and sensed the tension.
"What's going on?" Buffy said.
"Nothing, I best be going" Angel said walking to the door.
Buffy followed him to the door as Spike watched from the door way as they talked for a second then Buffy giggled and Angel leant down and kissed her on the cheek and walked out.
Buffy turned to Spike with a smile and walked to him, she slipped her arms round his waist and tried to rest her head on his chest only to have him pull away and walk into the next room.
Buffy frowned and went after him.
"Spike what's wrong?" Buffy said.
"Nothing" He said bluntly.
"No something's wrong." She said worriedly.
Spike looked at her.
"Is something going on between you and Angel?" He said.
"What?" She asked, shocked
"While I was gone did you and peaches get back together?" He said.
"Spike, I'm pregnant with your children." She said laying her hands on her stomach.
"I know it's just..."
"Then why would you think I would have sex with another man?" She said a little angry he would even think that.
"Well what was all that about then, all the giggling and kissing and you saying he is hanging about so much." Spike said as he began to pace.
Buffy walked up to him and grabbed the back of his head to stop him pacing.
"Spike, do you have any idea how much I love you?" She said.
"Yeah but, I haven't been here have I, for all I know you could have gone back to your ex for a little while." Spike said.
Buffy couldn't believe what he was saying; she pushed him away and walked away then walked back.
"Where the hell is all this coming from Spike?" She yelled.
"Truthfully its always been there, I got turned into a vampire because the woman I loved broke my heart, I came to Sunnydale with Dru then after a while she breaks my heart I fall in love with you Buffy, and you, well you broke my heart for a long time, over and over before you mended it again by being with me, and I just don't want you to break it again that's all."
"That's all, Spike do you know what I went through to get you back, I had to relive all the terrible things I said to you after you fell in love with me and before that, I know I broke you heart over and over because it broke my heart just as much watching myself do it, and every time I did, it made me disgusted with myself but also made me love you so much more for putting up with it, and I don't think for the rest of my life I could ever be with anyone else, I could never break your heart again Spike." She said as tears coming down her face.
"Please don't Buffy, I couldn't take it," Spike said with his own tears coming down his face.
"I love you Spike, I love you so much, I promise I'll never ever break your heart." She said kissing him .
*~*~*~*~
Spike and Buffy held each other and talked for a little while before going up stairs to bed.
Spike lay in bed with Buffy and cuddled each other, then they saw there bedroom door open and Alex rubbing his eyes with tears steaming down is face as he clutched his blanket.
"Oh Alex, come here baby." Buffy said.
Alex walked over to Buffy and Spike and climbed into bed with them, Alex's sniffled as he sat in between his parents.
"What's wrong son?" Spike said.
"I heard you shouting and thought daddy had gone away again." He cried Buffy and Spike looked at each other and sigh.
"Alex we're sorry, your mom and I were just having a discussion that's all." Spike said.
"Yeah, your dads not going anywhere again, we promise." Buffy said.
"But you promised before and then you were gone." Alex hiccupped.
"I know and Alex I'm so sorry for leaving but this time I double promise this time I will be here for you and your mom and your little baby brothers or sisters ok" Spike said glancing up at Buffy to make sure she knew he was talking to her too, Buffy smiled.
"Can I sleep with you two tonight?" He said
"Course you can sweetheart" Buffy said snuggling down. Alex snuggled up to his mother then reached round him and grabbed his father's arm so it went over him and his mother and so Spike was pressed up against his back.
Buffy and Spike smiled at each other over Alex's head and kissed softly.
"I love you" Buffy mouthed.
"I love you too" Spike mouthed back before they both closed there eyes and the three of them fell asleep wrapped in each others arms.
*~*~*~*~
The next morning Spike woke up and looked over at his family, he smiled and reached over and softly placed his hand on Buffys stomach, his smile grew when he felt the one of the babies kick under his hand, when he started to chuckle Alex woke up.
"Morning mate" Spike whispered, as Buffy was still asleep.
"Hi daddy, can we play?" Alex whispered.
"You want to play already?" Spike said Alex nodded.
"Don't you want some breakfast first?" Spike said. Alex nodded again.
"Ok, let's go and let your mommy sleep." Spike said getting up slowly and turning around to let Alex jump on his back. They went down stairs as Buffy slept.
*~*~*~*~
Spike and Alex were down stairs eating breakfast when the door opened and Faith walked in.
"Hey blondie, hey Alex." Faith said.
"So apparently, you don't knock any more." Spike said teasingly.
"Apparently not" Faith said, "Glad to have you back man" She added.
"Glad to be back" Spike said looking at his son.
*~*~*~*~*
Buffy woke up with a smile on her face, she reached over the bed trying to find the body of her husband, only to feel and empty space, she opened her eyes expecting to see her family there beside her, her Spike back home only to find an empty bed. Buffy shot up in bed, her heart started racing and she started to panic.
"Spike...Spike?" She whispered she swallowed hard and started to shake her head.
"Oh no, oh... no... NO" She said getting louder.
"NO PLEASE, NO, SPIKE..." She screamed.
*~*~*~*~
Spike looked at Faith as he heard the screaming.
"Hey come on Alex, lets go play outside" She said picking up Alex and motioning Spike to go.
*~*~*~*
"SPIKE PLEASE GOD... SPIKE!" She cried.
Spike burst in to the room and ran over to her and held on to her It took her a few second to realise who it was and once she did she started crying.
"Buffy what's wrong?" Spike said.
"I... I thought it was a dream, you coming back home everything was all a dream, when I woke up and you weren't there I panicked." She said clutching on to him and not letting go.
"I'm sorry Buffy, I went down stairs to make breakfast for Alex, then Faith came and we got talking."
"Is she down stairs with him now?" She said still holding on to him.
"Yeah" Spike said.
"Good, cause I'm not ready for you to let me go yet, please don't let me go" She said tightening her grip on him.
"I'm not gonna let you go baby I'm never gonna let you go" Spike whispered to her.
See and you thought I'd keep them apart and have Spike have no memory of his family for long, no way. And by the way
Miss a thing =Aeorsmith
How do I live without you= Leann Rimes