What A Boy Wants
Disclaimer : Yeah...you've already known this... I don't own them, 'kay?
"..." Thinking '...' Talking
Chapter 9
Ken's POV
I shift my weight uncomfortably. I can feel he's staring at me...It's uncomfortable...really!! Why should he stares at me all the time? Omi had already told me that...before I went to the hospital last week...I had a relationship with Aya...Hmm...I remember a little about my strange dream...so that's real? So why don't I remember? Do I get amnesia? I don't think so...If I get amnesia, I should forget everything about myself...so why do I just forget about him?
Ugh...every time I think about it, my head starts to feel like it ready to explode...better don't think about it anymore...
Hmm...he's still staring at me... I wonder, why should he tries that hard to be near me. I don't mean to be harsh...but...somehow I'm afraid to be near him. No, I don't feel disgusted...about having relationship with the same gender...maybe if the situation was different...I would fall in love with him. He's so gorgeous, I admit it...and sometimes he seems so kind and gentle, I add...but I don't know why...I just don't want to be near him...
Geez...too much thinking. Now in front of me there're bundle of giggling girls. They're bubbling, chirping and all...I faked a laugh...Because, if I don't, they will start pouting...try to make me laugh...and it's annoying...really!!!
"Nee...Ken-san...I've heard a rumor that you already a...umm... lover?" One blonde girl asks me and make me surprised...The best answer for this question is...a laugh...yes, a laugh. So I laugh again and answer, "Hey...where do you get such information? I don't have any girl friend at all!" That's true...I don't have any lover...girl...or...boy...
"Umm...so...do you have any boy friend?" She continues. I frown. 'Hey! Do every one sat that I'm a gay?' But, I force a smile. "Heh...What are you talking about? Of course I don't! Hey...do you think that I'm a gay?" I ask with a fake amusing tone.
They're giggling louder now. I think it's already finished...but then one girl speak up again, "T, that's because...you look...ehm...so close with Aya- san...so..."And she starts to giggle again. I frown deeper..."...really? Ow hell, don't think about it too much..." And before I can think further...as usual...my mouth decides to take the action first. "Why should he become my lover? And I don't think, we ever talk each other...hmm...maybe I would date him when the hell freeze..." After I end my sentences, I start to realize what I did I say... God!!! If he heard it, he'll kill me!!!! But I decide to cover my nervousness with a laugh...yeah, that's my best ability...to cover all of my feeling with laughs...
BLAAMM!!!!
Whoaa...the land is tremble. Is there any earthquake? Hmm...I don't think so... I turn my head and I...see...Aya's hair...waving outside the door...
Shit!!! He heard me!!! OMG!!! What should I do?!! WhatshouldIdo?!! WhatshouldIdo...??!! He'll kill me when he comes back!!!
For seconds I just stand, speechless....thinking and blinking...Ow...okay, Ken...now use your genius brain... The first think you should do is...hmm...what? Oh yeah!!! I should explain things to him!!! Tell him that I was joking and he will understand...won't he? I ruffle my own hair...'Hmm...don't know until we try it...' I decide...Uppss...too much thinking again... I must run or I'll lose him...
So I run...try to catch him...
Ah...there he is...
"AYA!!!"
He ignores me...Crap, he really mad at me...
"AYA!!!" I try again
He still walks without even bothered to listen to my shout. Hmmm... so there's on;y one choice left for me...run...and catch his hands...
"A..." Suddenly a sharp pain hits me. My head starts to ache badly. I grab my own hair and wince...It hurt...!! I force myself to still concentrate about my surrounding...
Why it feels so familiar...?
I stare to asphalt road below me...my vision start to blur...
Yeah...I think I had been here before...at this spot...in the middle of the road...but for what? When?
I can feel the others are staring at me...Yeah...I must be look like a crazy person...kneeling in the middle of the road and holding my own head...
But I can't do anything...
It hurts...
Hurts so much...
Some one help me...please...
~To be continued...~
Hora!!!! I'm sorry that I take a long time for updating this fic... Can't help it... bcoz I have final exams...even until now... so I can't write too much... By the way... how about my grammar? Am I progressing? Or even going worse? Tell me 'kay... review, review and REVIEW!!!! And Thx for all that already read mine and still read it... Once again... REVIEW!!! And keep reading 'kay? Jaa ne!!!
Disclaimer : Yeah...you've already known this... I don't own them, 'kay?
"..." Thinking '...' Talking
Chapter 9
Ken's POV
I shift my weight uncomfortably. I can feel he's staring at me...It's uncomfortable...really!! Why should he stares at me all the time? Omi had already told me that...before I went to the hospital last week...I had a relationship with Aya...Hmm...I remember a little about my strange dream...so that's real? So why don't I remember? Do I get amnesia? I don't think so...If I get amnesia, I should forget everything about myself...so why do I just forget about him?
Ugh...every time I think about it, my head starts to feel like it ready to explode...better don't think about it anymore...
Hmm...he's still staring at me... I wonder, why should he tries that hard to be near me. I don't mean to be harsh...but...somehow I'm afraid to be near him. No, I don't feel disgusted...about having relationship with the same gender...maybe if the situation was different...I would fall in love with him. He's so gorgeous, I admit it...and sometimes he seems so kind and gentle, I add...but I don't know why...I just don't want to be near him...
Geez...too much thinking. Now in front of me there're bundle of giggling girls. They're bubbling, chirping and all...I faked a laugh...Because, if I don't, they will start pouting...try to make me laugh...and it's annoying...really!!!
"Nee...Ken-san...I've heard a rumor that you already a...umm... lover?" One blonde girl asks me and make me surprised...The best answer for this question is...a laugh...yes, a laugh. So I laugh again and answer, "Hey...where do you get such information? I don't have any girl friend at all!" That's true...I don't have any lover...girl...or...boy...
"Umm...so...do you have any boy friend?" She continues. I frown. 'Hey! Do every one sat that I'm a gay?' But, I force a smile. "Heh...What are you talking about? Of course I don't! Hey...do you think that I'm a gay?" I ask with a fake amusing tone.
They're giggling louder now. I think it's already finished...but then one girl speak up again, "T, that's because...you look...ehm...so close with Aya- san...so..."And she starts to giggle again. I frown deeper..."...really? Ow hell, don't think about it too much..." And before I can think further...as usual...my mouth decides to take the action first. "Why should he become my lover? And I don't think, we ever talk each other...hmm...maybe I would date him when the hell freeze..." After I end my sentences, I start to realize what I did I say... God!!! If he heard it, he'll kill me!!!! But I decide to cover my nervousness with a laugh...yeah, that's my best ability...to cover all of my feeling with laughs...
BLAAMM!!!!
Whoaa...the land is tremble. Is there any earthquake? Hmm...I don't think so... I turn my head and I...see...Aya's hair...waving outside the door...
Shit!!! He heard me!!! OMG!!! What should I do?!! WhatshouldIdo?!! WhatshouldIdo...??!! He'll kill me when he comes back!!!
For seconds I just stand, speechless....thinking and blinking...Ow...okay, Ken...now use your genius brain... The first think you should do is...hmm...what? Oh yeah!!! I should explain things to him!!! Tell him that I was joking and he will understand...won't he? I ruffle my own hair...'Hmm...don't know until we try it...' I decide...Uppss...too much thinking again... I must run or I'll lose him...
So I run...try to catch him...
Ah...there he is...
"AYA!!!"
He ignores me...Crap, he really mad at me...
"AYA!!!" I try again
He still walks without even bothered to listen to my shout. Hmmm... so there's on;y one choice left for me...run...and catch his hands...
"A..." Suddenly a sharp pain hits me. My head starts to ache badly. I grab my own hair and wince...It hurt...!! I force myself to still concentrate about my surrounding...
Why it feels so familiar...?
I stare to asphalt road below me...my vision start to blur...
Yeah...I think I had been here before...at this spot...in the middle of the road...but for what? When?
I can feel the others are staring at me...Yeah...I must be look like a crazy person...kneeling in the middle of the road and holding my own head...
But I can't do anything...
It hurts...
Hurts so much...
Some one help me...please...
~To be continued...~
Hora!!!! I'm sorry that I take a long time for updating this fic... Can't help it... bcoz I have final exams...even until now... so I can't write too much... By the way... how about my grammar? Am I progressing? Or even going worse? Tell me 'kay... review, review and REVIEW!!!! And Thx for all that already read mine and still read it... Once again... REVIEW!!! And keep reading 'kay? Jaa ne!!!