Okay, okay I know you guys hated my ending, but it you'll give me another chance I'm sure I can make it up! Trust me, I've had a good long think about where I want this story to go, with the help of my friend Em and although I'm not going rewrite the last chapter, thing might have a bit of a….twist on them. J Have a nice day!
Chapter 16: Looking back
I'll never get over it; I know that no matter how far I run the images of those weeks will lay embedded in my mind. Some days are easy and others are hell. But I have no one else to blame but myself. I have to accept that my best friend died because I let love over take me. Love killed her, my love. Its three months today since I last saw her, dying, dying in my arms. Squall's trial has been and gone. I was a witness and had to be taken off the stand because I was "unstable". I've had all the support you could ever want, but it's not enough. People tell me it wasn't my fault, but their wasting their breath. The trial was held last week, it went alright, I was more stable this time, but it was one of the worst experiences of my life. Lawyers accusing me and I felt so evil, so full of sin, they claimed I wanted her dead. That's when I lost it. I couldn't help it. I'm getting therapy, as the court basically demanded, looking down their noses at me, like I was just a piece of dirt. My therapist knows nothing of what I'm going through, but she's nice and it's a good way to clear the thoughts in my head.
Squall's in jail. Just seeing him at the trial made me loath him with so much power I thought I was going to burst.
I've lost my old life; I will never be the same person I was. All my friends have been there especially Zell and Irvine. Selphie won't even look at me, that relationship will take a lot of time to build up again.
So a new day begins each day, the sun rises just like any other day. As if nothing had ever even happened, but I know the truth, this guilt eating away at me inside. It's slowly crushing what spirit I have left, how can I go on…?