Title: Dying Words
Author: ladydaendre
Summary: Jonathan's musings after he is killed in "Conversations With Dead Things."
Rating: PG
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They say that when you die, you see your life flash before your eyes. So, naturally, when I felt a knife driven into my gut by my good pal Andrew, I expected to see my entire life story shown on the wall of the basement above the Seal of Danzalthar in the fifteen seconds it would take me to die. But, guess what, folks, this is completely false.
God, the pain was so unbearable, I thought that I'd die from the pain, and not from the loss of blood. And the pain wasn't just physical pain, it was a mental anguish, too. Mental anguish from trying to figure out why one of my best friends, one of the people I trusted my life with, had just taken that very thing away from me. I still don't know why he did that stupid, foolish act. But I had a feeling it had to do with the seal I died upon.
When my life left me, there was no being, no Death or Grim Reaper, or whatnot to bring my soul to Heaven. No, I didn't even go to Heaven. Because of my genius best friend, I get to roam Purgatory forever. I get to see my best friend continue to make a fool out of himself and wonder where I went wrong.
Now that I'm dead, apparently whatever evil thing Andrew's been listening to can take my form. As much as I pity Andrew, I could never forgive him. I don't care if he thought that evil thing was Warren. He didn't have to kill me, there are others. And why couldn't he check out this seal thing with Buffy before killing me? He really is foolish...but enough of my rants. Wandering around Sunnydale without anyone seeing you gets to be tiring, you know. I just wish there was one soul, one person who could see me. Even if I could speak to Buffy, who probably hates my guts for helping Andrew (although I thought we were going to try and join her gang by helping destroy the seal), at least I'd be able to continue communication with someone.