A/N: oopsie, eh... forget the one shot thing in the first chapter. -.- i'm bad with typos, and i'm sorry for the spelling grammer, as I said before this was just to get my juices flowing so I could update my other fic. And thanks you for all the ppl that reviwed you guys are great motivaters. Much love to yah

Summary:

The Diary of one girl, but the story of a life time

Disclaimer: NO I -do not- own CCS! (this story might turn out as crap anyway. but,I wish I could own Syaoran, he's so freaking cute.

..UnderNeath..

Ch. 1

-Don't Tell Me-

..--Sakura's dairy--..

(Friday)

10/18/08 11:50PM

Hey guys,

I'm so sorry I haven't written you lately. -.-;; your poor old Sakura here has been trampeled with school work, job work, and of course the social life. Anyways.. hehe, You remember my last entry of course? I wrote... oh something about getting our little Syaoran back and playing with his mind. Well I did just that these past couple of days. It was quite fun actually. I found it absolutely amusing when he was catching onto the bait. I'd sit there grinning my head off at him and he well... he..umm. hell, well let me type you guys just exactly what happened, you might just get a kick out of this to. ..our poor little Syaoran falling in love, and actually wanting it, while I will triumph and win. ok so here it is...

I was walking down the hallway early in the morning on Monday.., and suddenly I caught our dear Syaoran falling all over some girl near my locker. For some reason I had the nerve to just go over there, and give him one good one in the balls, but I didn't and kept my kool and went to my locker.

I could hear them next to me, making noises..giggling and the sort. I quickly slammed my locker annoyed , and discusted then rushed past them to my first class. I knew that if I did anything then, that it could ruin my plans.. and atleast he'll have one last Fuck before I get him.

Syaoran sits across from me in this class, so at the time, it was easy enough for me to make the moves I wanted. I slowly ran

my foot up the side of his thigh then down his legs, rubbing it smoothly. He grinned at me with those sexy lips, and I smirked and shoved my feathery pen over the side of the table. I knew he was catching on as soon as I did that, because he reached under the table, never moving his gaze and grabbed my feathery pen. I then felt the soft feathers glide quickly up my leg, then slowly down, just before he put it back on the table.

I gave him a discusted look, trying to hide the fact that I wanted more, and I watched how he smirked with pleasure watching me sqwirm in my seat. Oh yea... you could say that did it, not only did I assume it was turning both of us on, it was also making me forget what I was actually trying to do. So without hesitation I licked my blood red lips at him then leaned a little more foward in my seat, so he could get an eye full. I watched as he adjusted a few times or more, and wondered if he had erected yet or not. Before I could do one more test of my own to clear off the day, the bell rang and fucked up my last plan. I didn't mind afterwards though, because as soon as that class, and the one after it was over, i'd see him again and this time I wouldn't mess up.

It was around 12pm, we had about an hour or so before class ended and they freed us from their jail. Atleast that's what Tomo,Melin and I call it. Heh, i'll tell you about what happened with them later. Anyways.. I caught Syaoran sitting outside on a bench near a Cherry Blossom tree. He looked asleep as I approached him, so I carefully tip toed over. My eyes just wouldn't leave his body,or his face. I never did realize just how much he had changed since highschool, but now it's overwhelming. And then without me knowing it I found myself under him, on the bench and him on top of me.

I was really surprized by his reaction and I didn't know what too do, but just look up at him. I mean... my body just completly froze, and my heart felt like it had melted all over again as soon as our eyes connected. I thought that he might try something, but as soon as I opened my mouth to speak he put his thumb on it and trailed it to my chin. He then sat up, his messy chestnut hair swaying in the wind, and his white open shirt, ruffled.(A/N :O SO HAWT, cough sorry)

I sat up and looked at him, my eyes wide and full of curiosity. I watched him as his head was up and staring into space. I whispered his name, and watched him turn to me. His eyes twinkled like the stars, and his face looked so much like before...When he used to make me feel like honey. "Sakura... I'm sorry" was all Syaoran said before he got up then ran and disappeared into the building. ..My plan...the incident...my life.. everything was falling apart the instant, he left me, and the instant I felt like I couldn't hold on anymore.

So my journal readers...,as you can see. Mon. Wasn't exactly the best day for me.. and neither were the days after that. ...But thankgod today is Fri. Atleast I have 2 days where I won't see him, or anyone for that matter. This just might be my

time where I can unwind and write some more in here about what went on the rest of the week. But I think I filled you

people in on quite a bit for the moment so I'm going to log off, and if your reading this, please don't tell anyone.

Love,

Sakura