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Ok... this chapter is kind of pointless, but oh well. Lots of cursing cause I do that a lot myself, but that's why this is rated R! Everyone who reviewed... thanks so much!
Chapter 4
Assuming
Lily woke up the next day with a splitting headache. She also remembered a dream she had been having, one of her and James. They had been outside by the lake sitting under a willow tree. James had his arms around her and her back was resting against his chest. They sat in what seemed to be a sad silence for hours, until it grew dark. Once the moon was out, Lily awoke.
"Oh God my head. What the fuck did I do last night?" Then the events that occurred last night came rushing back — Malfoy, James, the kiss, — and that only made her headache worse. She looked over to her clock and noticed that it was 12:00 pm. Just in time for lunch, Lily thought. She got up and changed into jeans and an over-sized T-shirt, not needing her robes because it was a Saturday. After brushing her teeth and hair and applying some makeup, Lily walked down to the Great Hall.
"Hey Lillers!" said Sirius with a big smile.
"You're too fucking hyper for this early in the morning," Lily snapped, not being a morning person at all.
"Lils, it's 12 in the afternoon." stated Remus, while slipping his arm around Arielle. Lily just raised her eyebrows at this, which made the two of them grin. Lily then noticed that James was missing. Looking around the hall, she spotted him at the Hufflepuff table with Kelly Hefferman, the school slut. Lily was hurt, though she tried not to show it. Her eyes continued to roam until they met an icey-blue stare. Her emerald orbs widened as Lucius Malfoy winked at her. Thoughts of his hands in her body went through her head as memories of last night flooded into her mind, until she remembered James coming to her rescue. Where's that asshole when you need him? she though to herself. Going to make out with the hoe, where else? She answered her own question as she saw James and Kelly leave the hall.
"James is gonna score again! Damn Corita, why can't we have some fun? We haven't had sex in forever!" complained Mr-I'm-An-Idiot-Black.
"Whoa! Mental pictures! I'm damaged for life!" Remus said, taking a break from snogging Arielle.
"Did I miss something? When did you 2 start shoving your tongues down each other's throats in public?" Lily asked in confusion.
"Since we started going out. God Lils, you call me blonde," said an exasperated Arielle.
"Yea well, you can't call ME blonde cause I have red hair," and then as an after thought she added, "blonde." Everyone went back to eating and then decided to go back to the Head Boy/Girl common room. Bad idea. Once they got there, the found a half naked James and Kelly Hefferman in her bra and underwear. The following things were said out loud.
"Get a bloody room!" (Lily)
"Score man!" (Sirius)
"Did not need to see that." (Remus)
"He's hotter than you, Si." (Corita)
"Ugh." (Arielle)
"Damn James, how do you— did you just say he's hotter than me?" cried Sirius.
"Yes, I did. Look at his 6 pack!" Corita replied
"Yeah, and he has nice arms," added Arielle.
"Those are good arms to have," concluded Lily.
"Hold on! James, put some clothes on. Kelly, get out. Arielle, come with me," ordered Remus as he dragged Arielle out of the portrait hole.
"Looks like Remus is gettin' some," stated the ever so horny Sirius.
"At least someone's gettin' some," murmured James.
"Si, let's go. I have to . . . um . . . study," Corita said while slyly winking at him, and they proceeded to leave as well.
This left Lily and James alone together. They hadn't spoken since the kiss, and neither knew where to start.
"So, Ari and Remus huh?" Lily started awkwardly.
"Yeah, they started dating at the ball." replied James. This is so weird, he thought. "So, how've you been?" he asked.
"Um, ok I guess. As well as can be expected," she said.
"Yeah, how're you dealing with that?" he asked, referring to the incident with Malfoy.
"Ok. Look James, I don't wanna tell the others about that. Sirius would have a hissy fit and everything would just get worse. So, please, just don't tell anyone?" she explained, wanting to get off the topic.
"Sure Lils. If you wanna talk, just give me a call, ok?" She nodded and he went upstairs to get his broom. When he came back down, Lily was on the couch reading a muggle book called The Giver. "I'm gonna go play some quidditch. Wanna come?"
"James, its 20 degrees outside. Are you crazy?"
"I'll take that as a 'no'." he chuckled, and continued his on his way outside.
Lily and James talked on a regular basis, and soon forgot about their kiss. Soon November turned into December and it was 1 week before Christmas break. The 6 friends were talking about holiday plans at dinner one evening.
"So, who's going where?" Arielle asked. "I'm going home."
"Yeah, me too." added Corita.
"James' house, with James," said Sirius.
"Home is where the heart is . . . and food," said Remus. They all looked towards Lily expectantly, waiting for her to say she was going home for the holidays. They then realized what they had brought up. Lily's parents had died, so she wouldn't be going home. She slowly rose from her seat and walked out of the hall. Sirius got up to go after her, but Remus put a hand on his shoulder to stop him.
"Let her be alone mate," he stated, and they left it at that.
Later that night, the 6 friends had been looking for Lily. She hadn't been seen since dinner and they were getting worried. Being the stupid gits they were, they forgot about The Marauder's Map and decided to search the entire castle. James found her staring out of a window in the Astronomy Tower around 12:00 am.
She felt his eyes on her, but she made no move to acknowledge his presence. She just wanted to be alone. Then, in a monotone voice, she spoke,
"I'm cold."
"That's cause it's December Lils,"replied James as he cautiously walked towards her. Lily continued to speak as if he hadn't said a word.
"I'm numb. I don't feel anything. I keep expecting to see them walk through the door or receive an owl they sent me, but they won't. They can't. They're gone." As she spoke her eyes began to glisten with a fresh wave of tears.
"Lily, you were doing so good. You were coping. What happened?"
"No, I wasn't coping,"she turned to look at him, her eyes filled with venom. "I was hiding. I was trying to forget, trying to make it go away," her voice rose as she continued. "You, Arielle, Remus, everyone, with your perfect lives. Talking about Christmas and family. Well I don't have any!" She was not screaming at him with tears streaming down her face. "My parents are dead, my sister's a stupid bitch who hates me and blames me for their death. That's not even the sad part. What hurts the most is how right she is."
"Don't you dare say that. You know that what happened to your parents was not your fault," he said forcefully as he advanced on her.
"Why not? You know that he's after me. You know that he came there looking for me. You know that if I had been there he would have killed me instead of them."
"Lil we went through this. He's Voldemort. He would have killed them either way. God Lils, we thought you were over this. We assumed you were dealing!" By now he was yelling as well.
"Well we all know what they say about assuming. It makes an ass out of you and me. I came here to be alone James. If you're gonna yell at me about how I feel then get the fuck out!"
"I'm not gonna leave you here alone so you can do God knows what."
"You think I would do that? Just because I'm upset does not mean that I want to die. There you go assuming again."
"What's going on?" asked Sirius. The other 4 teens had just walked in on their fighting friends. "We can hear you from down the hall."
"Si, tell her she's being an idiot. She won't listen to me," James said is an exasperated tone.
"Don't you bring him into this. And don't tell me how I should feel. Need I remind you that both of your parents are alive? God forbid anything should happen to your parents, cause I love them to death, but if it did, then, and only then can you tell me I'm being rash." And with that said, she walked out of the room.
"Care to explain what happened James?" Sirius asked, ready to pounce if James was the reason for Lily's tears.
"Now, now Si. Let's let him talk before we jump to conclusions," Remus intervened , though he was also shooting James murderous glances.
"Fuck this. What the hell did you say to make Lily cry James?" an extremely pissed off Corita spoke while striding over to James. Sirius intercepted her before she could kill his best friend.
"Remus is right. Let him explain himself."
"I told you. She's being an idiot." James went to leave, but saw Remus's glance telling him that he would let Sirius loose if he didn't go further into depth. "I found her up here staring out of the widow . . ." and he proceeded to tell them what happened.
"You inconsiderate bastard!" yelled Corita. She then went to find Lily.
"ME?!? How am I an inconsiderate bastard?"
"You really expected her to be over their death? You're an idiot James. Her parents were killed less than 4 months ago. She blamed herself for what happened to Corita, how could you expect her to not blame herself for what happened to her parents?" Sirius continued where Corita left off and then followed her out of the tower. James looked towards Remus and Arielle for help.
"You really fucked up this time man. I say you give her, and the 2 of them, a couple of days and then apologize," said Remus.
"Yeah James. They'll come around. And Lily's just upset. She'll be herself in a day or so, and then you can make it up to her," the ever-so sympathetic Arielle stated.
"Thanks guys. I think I'm just gonna go to bed." And he too left the tower. This left Remus and Arielle alone in the Astronomy Tower, and we all know what happens in there. Let's just say the 2 decided to keep up tradition.
There you go. The extremely pointless chapter. Review Please!
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Ok... this chapter is kind of pointless, but oh well. Lots of cursing cause I do that a lot myself, but that's why this is rated R! Everyone who reviewed... thanks so much!
Chapter 4
Assuming
Lily woke up the next day with a splitting headache. She also remembered a dream she had been having, one of her and James. They had been outside by the lake sitting under a willow tree. James had his arms around her and her back was resting against his chest. They sat in what seemed to be a sad silence for hours, until it grew dark. Once the moon was out, Lily awoke.
"Oh God my head. What the fuck did I do last night?" Then the events that occurred last night came rushing back — Malfoy, James, the kiss, — and that only made her headache worse. She looked over to her clock and noticed that it was 12:00 pm. Just in time for lunch, Lily thought. She got up and changed into jeans and an over-sized T-shirt, not needing her robes because it was a Saturday. After brushing her teeth and hair and applying some makeup, Lily walked down to the Great Hall.
"Hey Lillers!" said Sirius with a big smile.
"You're too fucking hyper for this early in the morning," Lily snapped, not being a morning person at all.
"Lils, it's 12 in the afternoon." stated Remus, while slipping his arm around Arielle. Lily just raised her eyebrows at this, which made the two of them grin. Lily then noticed that James was missing. Looking around the hall, she spotted him at the Hufflepuff table with Kelly Hefferman, the school slut. Lily was hurt, though she tried not to show it. Her eyes continued to roam until they met an icey-blue stare. Her emerald orbs widened as Lucius Malfoy winked at her. Thoughts of his hands in her body went through her head as memories of last night flooded into her mind, until she remembered James coming to her rescue. Where's that asshole when you need him? she though to herself. Going to make out with the hoe, where else? She answered her own question as she saw James and Kelly leave the hall.
"James is gonna score again! Damn Corita, why can't we have some fun? We haven't had sex in forever!" complained Mr-I'm-An-Idiot-Black.
"Whoa! Mental pictures! I'm damaged for life!" Remus said, taking a break from snogging Arielle.
"Did I miss something? When did you 2 start shoving your tongues down each other's throats in public?" Lily asked in confusion.
"Since we started going out. God Lils, you call me blonde," said an exasperated Arielle.
"Yea well, you can't call ME blonde cause I have red hair," and then as an after thought she added, "blonde." Everyone went back to eating and then decided to go back to the Head Boy/Girl common room. Bad idea. Once they got there, the found a half naked James and Kelly Hefferman in her bra and underwear. The following things were said out loud.
"Get a bloody room!" (Lily)
"Score man!" (Sirius)
"Did not need to see that." (Remus)
"He's hotter than you, Si." (Corita)
"Ugh." (Arielle)
"Damn James, how do you— did you just say he's hotter than me?" cried Sirius.
"Yes, I did. Look at his 6 pack!" Corita replied
"Yeah, and he has nice arms," added Arielle.
"Those are good arms to have," concluded Lily.
"Hold on! James, put some clothes on. Kelly, get out. Arielle, come with me," ordered Remus as he dragged Arielle out of the portrait hole.
"Looks like Remus is gettin' some," stated the ever so horny Sirius.
"At least someone's gettin' some," murmured James.
"Si, let's go. I have to . . . um . . . study," Corita said while slyly winking at him, and they proceeded to leave as well.
This left Lily and James alone together. They hadn't spoken since the kiss, and neither knew where to start.
"So, Ari and Remus huh?" Lily started awkwardly.
"Yeah, they started dating at the ball." replied James. This is so weird, he thought. "So, how've you been?" he asked.
"Um, ok I guess. As well as can be expected," she said.
"Yeah, how're you dealing with that?" he asked, referring to the incident with Malfoy.
"Ok. Look James, I don't wanna tell the others about that. Sirius would have a hissy fit and everything would just get worse. So, please, just don't tell anyone?" she explained, wanting to get off the topic.
"Sure Lils. If you wanna talk, just give me a call, ok?" She nodded and he went upstairs to get his broom. When he came back down, Lily was on the couch reading a muggle book called The Giver. "I'm gonna go play some quidditch. Wanna come?"
"James, its 20 degrees outside. Are you crazy?"
"I'll take that as a 'no'." he chuckled, and continued his on his way outside.
Lily and James talked on a regular basis, and soon forgot about their kiss. Soon November turned into December and it was 1 week before Christmas break. The 6 friends were talking about holiday plans at dinner one evening.
"So, who's going where?" Arielle asked. "I'm going home."
"Yeah, me too." added Corita.
"James' house, with James," said Sirius.
"Home is where the heart is . . . and food," said Remus. They all looked towards Lily expectantly, waiting for her to say she was going home for the holidays. They then realized what they had brought up. Lily's parents had died, so she wouldn't be going home. She slowly rose from her seat and walked out of the hall. Sirius got up to go after her, but Remus put a hand on his shoulder to stop him.
"Let her be alone mate," he stated, and they left it at that.
Later that night, the 6 friends had been looking for Lily. She hadn't been seen since dinner and they were getting worried. Being the stupid gits they were, they forgot about The Marauder's Map and decided to search the entire castle. James found her staring out of a window in the Astronomy Tower around 12:00 am.
She felt his eyes on her, but she made no move to acknowledge his presence. She just wanted to be alone. Then, in a monotone voice, she spoke,
"I'm cold."
"That's cause it's December Lils,"replied James as he cautiously walked towards her. Lily continued to speak as if he hadn't said a word.
"I'm numb. I don't feel anything. I keep expecting to see them walk through the door or receive an owl they sent me, but they won't. They can't. They're gone." As she spoke her eyes began to glisten with a fresh wave of tears.
"Lily, you were doing so good. You were coping. What happened?"
"No, I wasn't coping,"she turned to look at him, her eyes filled with venom. "I was hiding. I was trying to forget, trying to make it go away," her voice rose as she continued. "You, Arielle, Remus, everyone, with your perfect lives. Talking about Christmas and family. Well I don't have any!" She was not screaming at him with tears streaming down her face. "My parents are dead, my sister's a stupid bitch who hates me and blames me for their death. That's not even the sad part. What hurts the most is how right she is."
"Don't you dare say that. You know that what happened to your parents was not your fault," he said forcefully as he advanced on her.
"Why not? You know that he's after me. You know that he came there looking for me. You know that if I had been there he would have killed me instead of them."
"Lil we went through this. He's Voldemort. He would have killed them either way. God Lils, we thought you were over this. We assumed you were dealing!" By now he was yelling as well.
"Well we all know what they say about assuming. It makes an ass out of you and me. I came here to be alone James. If you're gonna yell at me about how I feel then get the fuck out!"
"I'm not gonna leave you here alone so you can do God knows what."
"You think I would do that? Just because I'm upset does not mean that I want to die. There you go assuming again."
"What's going on?" asked Sirius. The other 4 teens had just walked in on their fighting friends. "We can hear you from down the hall."
"Si, tell her she's being an idiot. She won't listen to me," James said is an exasperated tone.
"Don't you bring him into this. And don't tell me how I should feel. Need I remind you that both of your parents are alive? God forbid anything should happen to your parents, cause I love them to death, but if it did, then, and only then can you tell me I'm being rash." And with that said, she walked out of the room.
"Care to explain what happened James?" Sirius asked, ready to pounce if James was the reason for Lily's tears.
"Now, now Si. Let's let him talk before we jump to conclusions," Remus intervened , though he was also shooting James murderous glances.
"Fuck this. What the hell did you say to make Lily cry James?" an extremely pissed off Corita spoke while striding over to James. Sirius intercepted her before she could kill his best friend.
"Remus is right. Let him explain himself."
"I told you. She's being an idiot." James went to leave, but saw Remus's glance telling him that he would let Sirius loose if he didn't go further into depth. "I found her up here staring out of the widow . . ." and he proceeded to tell them what happened.
"You inconsiderate bastard!" yelled Corita. She then went to find Lily.
"ME?!? How am I an inconsiderate bastard?"
"You really expected her to be over their death? You're an idiot James. Her parents were killed less than 4 months ago. She blamed herself for what happened to Corita, how could you expect her to not blame herself for what happened to her parents?" Sirius continued where Corita left off and then followed her out of the tower. James looked towards Remus and Arielle for help.
"You really fucked up this time man. I say you give her, and the 2 of them, a couple of days and then apologize," said Remus.
"Yeah James. They'll come around. And Lily's just upset. She'll be herself in a day or so, and then you can make it up to her," the ever-so sympathetic Arielle stated.
"Thanks guys. I think I'm just gonna go to bed." And he too left the tower. This left Remus and Arielle alone in the Astronomy Tower, and we all know what happens in there. Let's just say the 2 decided to keep up tradition.
There you go. The extremely pointless chapter. Review Please!
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