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Sorry it took so long... but my english teacher gave me a shit load of essays to write, so i did those first. Here you go... by the way, people's thoughts are between the *'s
Chapter 5
With a Little Help From My Friends
When Lily got to breakfast the next morning, she sat all by herself. Not because she was mad at her friends, but more because she just wanted to be alone. Sirius Orion Black would have none of that.
"Go away S.O.B." Lily growled while pilling pancakes onto her plate.
"Not a chance Lilykins!" He smiles a blinding white smile, as he too filled his plate. "I'm not gonna let you spend Christmas alone either. You're coming to James' house with us."
"I am NOT going to his house."
"Lily," Sirius suddenly turned serious (no pun intended). "I know that you're upset right now. And I know that you want me to stop bothering you."
"That's an understatement," mumbled Lily.
"But I refuse to let you be alone." Sirius continued as if she hadn't said a word. "You're like my little sister . . . we're family. Being by yourself is not going to make these feelings go away. If anything, they'll just grow. You don't have to tell me now, but when you're ready to talk come find me. You're gonna have to tell me sooner or later." With that said, he stood and walked to Transfiguration.
What would you think if I sang out a tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Classes flew by until it was lunch time. Again, Lily sat alone, but not before giving Sirius a small smile. All throughout lunch she was plagued with thoughts of her parents and how much she missed them. Corita and Arielle stopped by to say "hi" and the 3 chatted as if nothing had happened the night before. That's why Lily loved her friends so much. They weren't annoying like Sirius was. They knew that when she was ready to talk about her feelings, she would, and they didn't pester her about it. They walked to their next class, which was Charms. When the class was over, Lily felt slightly better . . . maybe that had something to do with the Cheering Charms they practiced.
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing outta key.
After classes had finished, Lily went outside to sit by the lake. She thought for a while. She thought about James, her parents, James, Corita and Arielle, James, Sirius and Remus, Voldemort, James, and her parents. She stood to go inside when it had started to get dark out, and the realized she had tears falling from her eyes. She hadn't noticed that she had started to cry, but now she couldn't stop. She cried for her parents and how much she wished they were alive. She cried for James and how much she hated him but liked him at the same time. She cried for Sirius and how he never had the love and family she did. She cried for Remus and the painful change he goes through every full moon. She cried for herself and how Voldemort wanted her dead. She walked through the hallways trying to dry her tears. Once she reached the Fat Lady the only trace of her crying were her large, puffy, red eyes. *I need to find Sirius.* she thought. And that's what she did.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mmm I get high with a little help from my friends.
Mmm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
She walked into the common room only to find it completely empty. *Maybe it's later than I thought.* She looked at her muggle wrist watch and saw that it was 12:30 A.M.. She decided to check the boys' dorm. Opening the door as quietly as possible, all she heard were loud snores, but she knew that was Frank Longbottom, the other 7th year boy. Having been in here before, she knew which bed belonged to Sirius and walked straight to it. She opened his bead hangings to find him, James, and Remus plotting a prank on the Slytherins. They all turned to look at her.
"Um . . ." she sniffed, "I'm ready to talk now." Without looking back at the boys, Sirius started toward the door with Lily in tow.
"What about this prank, man? How are we supposed to pull it tomorrow if we don't finish it tonight?" asked a slightly put out James.
"Some things are more important than pranks James, and Lily's one of them," and he walked out of the room, hearing James mumble something sounded like "leaving us for a girl."
What do I do when my love is away?
Does it worry you to be alone?
The 2 sat on the couch in silence while Lily mustered up the courage to speak.
"I . . . I'm scared to be happy," she finally said as she stared into the flames of the common room fire. "I feel like . . . like I shouldn't be happy be– because they're not here to be happy with me."
"You feel guilty?" he asked slowly.
"Yeah. I guess I do," she said looking him in the eye for the first time that night.
How do I feel by the end of the day?
Are you sad because you're on your own?
"I just miss them so much. Christmas was my Dad's favorite holiday, and spending it without him feels wrong. I just– I feel like if I'm too happy, then I'll forget them. I don't want to forget them. I can't forget them." By now she was in hysterics.
"Lily, look at me. Look at me and listen carefully to what I'm going to say." He maneuvered her head so her big emerald eyes were staring into his dark blue ones. "You won't forget them. You can't forget them. God, I wish I could forget my parents." Saying this brought a small smile to her face, which was what he intended. "You'll remember the good times, like Christmas dinners and birthday celebrations. And those memories with be worth more than a pot of gold to you. And soon the pain will decrease, and the happy feeling will take over. They wouldn't want you to be bitter, especially around Christmas time. What would your dad say if you didn't join in on the Christmas spirit? But Lils, I promise you, you'll never forget them." He then gave her a bone crushing hug, which she returned with full force.
No, I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mmm get high with a little help from my friends.
Mmm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
"Thanks Si. I don't know what I would do without you," she whispered.
"You'll never have to find out," he replied reassuringly. "Now . . . do you fancy James?"
"What?!?" she nearly screamed. Her eyes were wide with confusion, but mostly with fear that he might know her 'secret.'
"It's not proper to answer a question with a question Lil. Do you like James? You know you can tell me."
"Fine I'll tell you. We kissed at the ball."
"I know. I saw you." She looked at him with shock and annoyance. "But do you like him? He claims 'she felt nothing and neither did I,' but he's a bull shitter. I've known him for too long and I can tell he likes you. So the question is . . . do you like him?"
Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.
"I don't know Si. I've kissed a lot of guys, but it felt different this time. There wasn't even any tongue. It was simple and sweet, but it felt so right."
"So you like him then?" he pressed while grinning like the Cheshire Cat.
"Yeah, I supposed I do," she sighed a sigh of relief. "For some reason that made me feel so much better."
Would you believe in a love at first sight?
Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time.
"Can I tell him? Please, please, please?"
"Don't TELL him. But you can drop not so subtle hints," she smirked.
"So, are you gonna talk to him about last night?" he asked quietly.
"Yeah, I'll talk to him tomorrow after classes. Well, good night Sirius. And thanks again." They gave each other one last, tight hug and then proceeded to their respective dorms.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mmm get high with a little help from my friends.
Oh gonna try with a little help from my friends.
When Sirius got into his dorm, he found James and Remus still plotting against the Slytherins.
"What're you grinning about?" asked Remus.
"James," said Sirius, completely ignoring Remus' question, "do you like Lily?"
"What?!?" asked James with eyes showing fear that would make you wonder why he was a Gryffindor.
"Do.You.Like.Lily? It's a simple question really."
"Well, we kissed once."
"I know. At the ball. I saw you. She says 'it was just a kiss. It didn't mean anything to either of us.' But I know that's crap. And I know she likes you. So . . . do you like her?"
Do you need anybody?
I just need someone to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.
"Maybe. I mean, I've kissed practically every girl in Hogwarts. But this small, simple, no-tongue kiss felt so much better than all the rest."
"You like her, don't you?" Remus put in.
"Yeah, I guess I do." He sighed, happy to have admitted it to someone.
"Are you gonna apologize to her about being a prick last night?" Remus asked, not trying to make his friend feel better about the situation, and not being blunt about it at all.
"Yeah, I'll do it after classes. Maybe I'll even tell her I like her. Night guys."
"Wow, he didn't deny being a prick," Remus murmured to himseld.
Oh I get by with I little help from my friends.
Mmm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
Oh I get high with a little help from my friends.
Everyone mumbled their good nights and soon snores were all that were heard from the Gryffindor 7th year boys' dorm. Before Sirius fell asleep, he thought *All they needed was a push in the right direction. Ahh . . . the power of mind games.*
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
with a little help from my friends!
There you go. Took be forever to write this, writers block sucks major monkey balls! The song is The Beatles, "With a Little Help From My Friends." I took a little part out that i didnt think suited the story. If you wanna listen to it, download the song! Next chapter i think i might finally get Lily and James together, yay!!!! Read and Review please!
Sorry it took so long... but my english teacher gave me a shit load of essays to write, so i did those first. Here you go... by the way, people's thoughts are between the *'s
Chapter 5
With a Little Help From My Friends
When Lily got to breakfast the next morning, she sat all by herself. Not because she was mad at her friends, but more because she just wanted to be alone. Sirius Orion Black would have none of that.
"Go away S.O.B." Lily growled while pilling pancakes onto her plate.
"Not a chance Lilykins!" He smiles a blinding white smile, as he too filled his plate. "I'm not gonna let you spend Christmas alone either. You're coming to James' house with us."
"I am NOT going to his house."
"Lily," Sirius suddenly turned serious (no pun intended). "I know that you're upset right now. And I know that you want me to stop bothering you."
"That's an understatement," mumbled Lily.
"But I refuse to let you be alone." Sirius continued as if she hadn't said a word. "You're like my little sister . . . we're family. Being by yourself is not going to make these feelings go away. If anything, they'll just grow. You don't have to tell me now, but when you're ready to talk come find me. You're gonna have to tell me sooner or later." With that said, he stood and walked to Transfiguration.
What would you think if I sang out a tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Classes flew by until it was lunch time. Again, Lily sat alone, but not before giving Sirius a small smile. All throughout lunch she was plagued with thoughts of her parents and how much she missed them. Corita and Arielle stopped by to say "hi" and the 3 chatted as if nothing had happened the night before. That's why Lily loved her friends so much. They weren't annoying like Sirius was. They knew that when she was ready to talk about her feelings, she would, and they didn't pester her about it. They walked to their next class, which was Charms. When the class was over, Lily felt slightly better . . . maybe that had something to do with the Cheering Charms they practiced.
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing outta key.
After classes had finished, Lily went outside to sit by the lake. She thought for a while. She thought about James, her parents, James, Corita and Arielle, James, Sirius and Remus, Voldemort, James, and her parents. She stood to go inside when it had started to get dark out, and the realized she had tears falling from her eyes. She hadn't noticed that she had started to cry, but now she couldn't stop. She cried for her parents and how much she wished they were alive. She cried for James and how much she hated him but liked him at the same time. She cried for Sirius and how he never had the love and family she did. She cried for Remus and the painful change he goes through every full moon. She cried for herself and how Voldemort wanted her dead. She walked through the hallways trying to dry her tears. Once she reached the Fat Lady the only trace of her crying were her large, puffy, red eyes. *I need to find Sirius.* she thought. And that's what she did.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mmm I get high with a little help from my friends.
Mmm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
She walked into the common room only to find it completely empty. *Maybe it's later than I thought.* She looked at her muggle wrist watch and saw that it was 12:30 A.M.. She decided to check the boys' dorm. Opening the door as quietly as possible, all she heard were loud snores, but she knew that was Frank Longbottom, the other 7th year boy. Having been in here before, she knew which bed belonged to Sirius and walked straight to it. She opened his bead hangings to find him, James, and Remus plotting a prank on the Slytherins. They all turned to look at her.
"Um . . ." she sniffed, "I'm ready to talk now." Without looking back at the boys, Sirius started toward the door with Lily in tow.
"What about this prank, man? How are we supposed to pull it tomorrow if we don't finish it tonight?" asked a slightly put out James.
"Some things are more important than pranks James, and Lily's one of them," and he walked out of the room, hearing James mumble something sounded like "leaving us for a girl."
What do I do when my love is away?
Does it worry you to be alone?
The 2 sat on the couch in silence while Lily mustered up the courage to speak.
"I . . . I'm scared to be happy," she finally said as she stared into the flames of the common room fire. "I feel like . . . like I shouldn't be happy be– because they're not here to be happy with me."
"You feel guilty?" he asked slowly.
"Yeah. I guess I do," she said looking him in the eye for the first time that night.
How do I feel by the end of the day?
Are you sad because you're on your own?
"I just miss them so much. Christmas was my Dad's favorite holiday, and spending it without him feels wrong. I just– I feel like if I'm too happy, then I'll forget them. I don't want to forget them. I can't forget them." By now she was in hysterics.
"Lily, look at me. Look at me and listen carefully to what I'm going to say." He maneuvered her head so her big emerald eyes were staring into his dark blue ones. "You won't forget them. You can't forget them. God, I wish I could forget my parents." Saying this brought a small smile to her face, which was what he intended. "You'll remember the good times, like Christmas dinners and birthday celebrations. And those memories with be worth more than a pot of gold to you. And soon the pain will decrease, and the happy feeling will take over. They wouldn't want you to be bitter, especially around Christmas time. What would your dad say if you didn't join in on the Christmas spirit? But Lils, I promise you, you'll never forget them." He then gave her a bone crushing hug, which she returned with full force.
No, I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mmm get high with a little help from my friends.
Mmm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
"Thanks Si. I don't know what I would do without you," she whispered.
"You'll never have to find out," he replied reassuringly. "Now . . . do you fancy James?"
"What?!?" she nearly screamed. Her eyes were wide with confusion, but mostly with fear that he might know her 'secret.'
"It's not proper to answer a question with a question Lil. Do you like James? You know you can tell me."
"Fine I'll tell you. We kissed at the ball."
"I know. I saw you." She looked at him with shock and annoyance. "But do you like him? He claims 'she felt nothing and neither did I,' but he's a bull shitter. I've known him for too long and I can tell he likes you. So the question is . . . do you like him?"
Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.
"I don't know Si. I've kissed a lot of guys, but it felt different this time. There wasn't even any tongue. It was simple and sweet, but it felt so right."
"So you like him then?" he pressed while grinning like the Cheshire Cat.
"Yeah, I supposed I do," she sighed a sigh of relief. "For some reason that made me feel so much better."
Would you believe in a love at first sight?
Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time.
"Can I tell him? Please, please, please?"
"Don't TELL him. But you can drop not so subtle hints," she smirked.
"So, are you gonna talk to him about last night?" he asked quietly.
"Yeah, I'll talk to him tomorrow after classes. Well, good night Sirius. And thanks again." They gave each other one last, tight hug and then proceeded to their respective dorms.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mmm get high with a little help from my friends.
Oh gonna try with a little help from my friends.
When Sirius got into his dorm, he found James and Remus still plotting against the Slytherins.
"What're you grinning about?" asked Remus.
"James," said Sirius, completely ignoring Remus' question, "do you like Lily?"
"What?!?" asked James with eyes showing fear that would make you wonder why he was a Gryffindor.
"Do.You.Like.Lily? It's a simple question really."
"Well, we kissed once."
"I know. At the ball. I saw you. She says 'it was just a kiss. It didn't mean anything to either of us.' But I know that's crap. And I know she likes you. So . . . do you like her?"
Do you need anybody?
I just need someone to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.
"Maybe. I mean, I've kissed practically every girl in Hogwarts. But this small, simple, no-tongue kiss felt so much better than all the rest."
"You like her, don't you?" Remus put in.
"Yeah, I guess I do." He sighed, happy to have admitted it to someone.
"Are you gonna apologize to her about being a prick last night?" Remus asked, not trying to make his friend feel better about the situation, and not being blunt about it at all.
"Yeah, I'll do it after classes. Maybe I'll even tell her I like her. Night guys."
"Wow, he didn't deny being a prick," Remus murmured to himseld.
Oh I get by with I little help from my friends.
Mmm gonna try with a little help from my friends.
Oh I get high with a little help from my friends.
Everyone mumbled their good nights and soon snores were all that were heard from the Gryffindor 7th year boys' dorm. Before Sirius fell asleep, he thought *All they needed was a push in the right direction. Ahh . . . the power of mind games.*
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
with a little help from my friends!
There you go. Took be forever to write this, writers block sucks major monkey balls! The song is The Beatles, "With a Little Help From My Friends." I took a little part out that i didnt think suited the story. If you wanna listen to it, download the song! Next chapter i think i might finally get Lily and James together, yay!!!! Read and Review please!