Hi This is the writer of this story Amanda and I wanted to give you a heads up about this chapter. This chapter deals with an addiction to painkillers (aspirin) by a 14 year old, it's pretty intense (a lot like something you
might see on degrassi). I'm letting you know this because I felt it necessary to let people know. This chapter might be intense, BUT the next chapter will be even more intense, SO if you review this story enough, the next chapter will be posted, sooner then if you don't review my story (1 week w/out updates on this story, if you do review though, it will be much
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True Scars Never Heal
Chapter 4: Fights & Pills
Radio Free Roscoe
I grabbed my headphones and turned on my Switchfoot CD, my favorite song "Meant To Live" was on repeat, I fell asleep like that, I completely forgot about everything, but I didn't know that later once I turned on the radio I would feel bad again, and so would one of my friends. !#!#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#!#!
When I woke up, it was going on 9 am, my hand felt terrible, I went to the medicine cabinet in got peroxide and a bowl so I get the infection out.
"Well here it goes" knowing how much this was going to hurt, I stuck my hand in the bowl and immediate pain rain through my vains, it was almost worse then the actually pain I had felt when the thorns were driven into my hands. Bubbles were coming from my hand, the infection was draining, I got a tissue and wiped away most of the infection and repeated this process 3 more times to get most of the infection out. I then got a large ace bandage and wrapped my hand with it, my hand was beginning to be more pained, by anything that touched it, it was mindblowing pain, I needed aspirin, so I went back to the medicine cabinet and found aspirin, it said take 2 every 4- 6 hours, I stared heavily at the bottle there were many left, I felt so much pain and so many things were swirling through my head, I took 8 instead, it would make me feel better right? I drank a glass of water and watched T.V for a few hours, I then became very dizzy, and my hand went completely numb, no pain the better, I also felt sick to my stomach, I went to my room and tried to sleep again, my vision became blurry and I blacked out as soon as I got into my room, the floor was my bed.
I woke up many hours later, it looked as if the clock said 13:67, but I knew that couldn't be right, so I got up, my head was throbbing, I managed to pick up the clock, but my hand was so shaky when I picked it up, my screwed up vision couldn't read it, so I put it down and read the time. It was 3:45, 15 minutes till RFR, I decided to crawl downstairs and get some food, if I didn't crawl I would have fallen down 15 stairs. I prepared a wonderful array of cereal, I didn't care what I was eating all I know is that it took forever for me to get cereal ready, when I was ready I went back up to my room and turned on 88.1, and Robbie's voice greeted me.
"Hello, you are listening to"
"Radio" said Ray as Pronto
"Free" said Robbie yet again as Question Mark
"Roscoe" said Travis as his alter ego Smog.
"Before QM makes his little announcement I want to make mine, the beautiful and talented Shady Lane will not be joining us today"
"Thanks you Pronto, now for this" began Question Mark, "I'm Question Mark and I'm wondering, what's with all this teen romance? I mean how do you know that your Soulmate is already in your life by the time you're 14? What if you can't handle the hurt, when you're "Soulmate" breaks things off with you?"
"Good point, but what if your soulmate has been in your life since the day you met them" Pronto asking, talking of me.
"Or" Smog piped in "What if your friends so called "soulmate" mite very well be yours too?"
I didn't know how things were going down in the RFR underground, but it felt like something huge was going to happen, and I was nervous to know what it was. But I was never expecting this.
"I love Shady Lane" Smog said.
"Well sorry but I have loved her since I met her swami!"
"Guys!! Chill" Robbie tried to lower the intenseity
"Well swami thinks that you can just steal your friends girl and not even fell bad about it!"
"No, it depends on how the girl feels! I love Shady, and there is no way you could possibly comprehend how I feel towards her!"
"Well! While I settle this fight in here, this song goes out to Shady Lane who is hopefully listening and taking this all in, here is "The Beautiful Letdown" by Switchfoot.
With that they went off the air and my cell phone was ringing off the hook.
"Hello?" I asked knowing it was either Travis or Ray.
"Hi, are you listening to RFR?" asked the voice.
"Yes, yes I am"
"Well I meant everything I said, I really do love you Lily" said the voice.
"I know, and I love you too"
"So what does this mean?"
"It means that 'I love you'"
"Will this lead to anything? I mean I thought you really do love Me." the voice asked desperately
"I do, but I have to talk to Travis, get him on the phone"
"We are about to go back on the air"
"Does it sound like I care, Ray!!" I said mad at the time.
"Ok, here's swami"
"Ray, stop calling him that, he deserves better if we start to go out!"
"Fine here is Travis" he handed to phone to Travis.
"Hi Lily"
"Travis, I'm sorry about everything"
"No need to apologize, I heard that you and Ray are going to go out, and I have made myself fine with that..." he said in a fake tone.
"Travis, I know when you are lying and that was a lie"
"Well what am I supposed to say Lily? That I refuse to give up and I will seek out your love forever?"
"At least that sounded honest."
"It's because it was, it took no time at all to fall for you, because you are beautiful, funny and just an amazing girl, but it will take the longest time to ever get over you" He hung up.
I was right back where I started, it was 4:30, I turned off RFR, I didn't want to hear from any of them right now, I wanted to turn everything off! I decided I would, my mom wasn't supposed to be home until 10 pm I have 5 ½ hours. I went to the medicine cabinet and got the aspirin, the results of my last over-dose had just worn off, but since it got me away from the world for at least a little while, and the psychotic DJ's of RFR both pining for my love, I took another 8 pills, and watched T.V. until that familiar dizzy feeling returned...
(Hint for Pairings: Screen Name) (yes it gives it all away)