True Scars Never Heal
Chapter 6: Twenty and Counting
I got dressed and tried to get me to look presentable, but of course, my OD hadn't left, so I had pale skin and bags under my eyes, wow today was going to be an interesting day of school.......
I walked out my door, and tripped completely off the porch, convientiently right into my "boyfriends" hands. Ray caught me.
"Thanks, I guess I'm just a little tired" as I rubbed my eyes pretending to be exhausted.
"Really tired apparently, no offense, but you look like crap"
"Well I understand why I wanted to go out with you" I said sarcastically, I thought he cared, I mean, he was my boyfriend and he had been in love with me since the day we started high school. I DID look like crap, but did he really have to rub it in my face.
"Please don't hate my Lily, you know me, I say stupid stuff all the time" he said with a smile," but seriously are you ok?"
"Yea Ray, I'm fine" I smiled fakly, as Ray put his arm around me, then I realized I couldn't ignore my feelings for Travis forever. "Ray, I lied, I'm not alright" I said.
He stopped, "What's wrong Lil?"
"I think we should break up"
"WHAT? Why? I love you Lily, whats wrong, please don't break up with me"
But he was shouting, I had walked away. I didn't want to answer his questions, I just wanted to go to school and talk to Travis, and tell him that I cared for him a lot. But I hear footsteps... running footsteps, they were Ray's... They were fastily approaching, so I started to run. Started to run and cry. I felt a hand on my shoulder. Ray was going to try and help the situation, but he actually made it worse.
"Lily please what did I do wrong?" Ray asked sympathetically
"Nothing, I just need to move on" I said, and left Ray there, standing on the stairs of school, and I ran into the girls bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was reminded of what I used to look like with my OD effects, pale skin, bags unger my eyes, blood-shot eyes. I looked like the living dead. From crying and my OD, and I was going to feel better. I got my aspirin and went into the nearest stall. I took another 8, but then decided to upgrade the dosage to 10. I realized that I mite be harming myself, but in a few hours, I would be away from the world and away from Ray and away from Travis.
First class I shared with nobody I was close friends with, although Maggie did show up, late though, and actually talked to me.
"Who ran you over with a truck?" Maggie asked me, we had met in detention, and she had cheered for Ray and I, great, now I would have to tell her we just broke up
"I just broke things off with Ray" I said staring at my desk and slowly chipping away wood with my pencil.
"You and Ray were dating?" she asked surprised.
"Were, is the keyword, I broke things off this morning"
"Oh, well good look with whoever you have your eye on now" she said and moved a few seats behind me. Class began and I drifted off into daydreaming. RINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG. Stupid bell. Classes are changing, and The new OD is starting, the bell gave me a headache, isn't aspiring supposed to stop headaches? I guess not when you take 5 times the regular dosage, maybe if I took more? I decided to try it, I went to the bathroom and took another 10, this time I had a hard time swallowing them. "20" I said out loud in the girls washroom.
"20 what?" a voice answered, I jumped up and hid the pills and exited the stall
"Oh Audrey, hey, uhm 20..... wrong on my.... Math test, my mom is going to kill me" I said tripping as I left the bathroom
"Are you okay, you've been a little... off today, I've seen you staggering in the hallway" Audrey questioned.
"Yea, just a little tired", I said tripping yet again. I stood up and grabbed a wall with a shaky hand, "Got to get to class" I said smiling fake as usual, and stumbled my way to my next class. Which I had just remembered I shared with Travis. I stopped and straightened my shirt, tried to look, not dead for one thing, and look attractive for another. I walked in an found Travis reading "The Art To Spirituallity Through Buddism" I tapped his shoulder and he looked up.
"Hi" was all I could say, I was shaking, and it wasn't because I was nervous -although I was- it was because of the intensity of the drugs.
"Hey" he said smiling, that smile is one that literally takes your heart and shakes it so you want to melt, which was what I felt like doing.
"I broke up with Ray this morning" I said trying not to shake so much
"Why? Did you finally realize that you guys were too close to ever pursue a serious relationship?" Travis said in that deep brooding voice of his, another part of him that makes you want to melt.
"Yea, plus I have fallen for another guy..." I said, not really finishing what I wanted to say which was "Yea, plus I have fallen for another guy, who is sitting right in front of me" but I didn't have the nerve to say that. But that seemed to catch his attention.
"Oh really?" he said while finally getting interested in what I had to say and he sat his book down.
"Yea it's" I suddenly felt dizzy, my heart was beating very fast and when I went to go sit down I missed the seat and started to shake rapidly on the floor, that was all I could remember.
A few minutes later – hours actually, because I had blacked out for so long- I heard phones, I thought for a minute I was home, I tried to open my eyes, but it was blurry and then I heard a man's voice yell "Code Red" then I realized I wasn't at home... but in a hospital room. I rubbed my eyes and tried to sit up I had IV's in my arms, and severe pains throughout my body, I looked around the room... I wasn't alone, to my left in a very uncomfortable looking chair, lay Travis...
End of Chapter 6
Chapter 6: Twenty and Counting
I got dressed and tried to get me to look presentable, but of course, my OD hadn't left, so I had pale skin and bags under my eyes, wow today was going to be an interesting day of school.......
I walked out my door, and tripped completely off the porch, convientiently right into my "boyfriends" hands. Ray caught me.
"Thanks, I guess I'm just a little tired" as I rubbed my eyes pretending to be exhausted.
"Really tired apparently, no offense, but you look like crap"
"Well I understand why I wanted to go out with you" I said sarcastically, I thought he cared, I mean, he was my boyfriend and he had been in love with me since the day we started high school. I DID look like crap, but did he really have to rub it in my face.
"Please don't hate my Lily, you know me, I say stupid stuff all the time" he said with a smile," but seriously are you ok?"
"Yea Ray, I'm fine" I smiled fakly, as Ray put his arm around me, then I realized I couldn't ignore my feelings for Travis forever. "Ray, I lied, I'm not alright" I said.
He stopped, "What's wrong Lil?"
"I think we should break up"
"WHAT? Why? I love you Lily, whats wrong, please don't break up with me"
But he was shouting, I had walked away. I didn't want to answer his questions, I just wanted to go to school and talk to Travis, and tell him that I cared for him a lot. But I hear footsteps... running footsteps, they were Ray's... They were fastily approaching, so I started to run. Started to run and cry. I felt a hand on my shoulder. Ray was going to try and help the situation, but he actually made it worse.
"Lily please what did I do wrong?" Ray asked sympathetically
"Nothing, I just need to move on" I said, and left Ray there, standing on the stairs of school, and I ran into the girls bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was reminded of what I used to look like with my OD effects, pale skin, bags unger my eyes, blood-shot eyes. I looked like the living dead. From crying and my OD, and I was going to feel better. I got my aspirin and went into the nearest stall. I took another 8, but then decided to upgrade the dosage to 10. I realized that I mite be harming myself, but in a few hours, I would be away from the world and away from Ray and away from Travis.
First class I shared with nobody I was close friends with, although Maggie did show up, late though, and actually talked to me.
"Who ran you over with a truck?" Maggie asked me, we had met in detention, and she had cheered for Ray and I, great, now I would have to tell her we just broke up
"I just broke things off with Ray" I said staring at my desk and slowly chipping away wood with my pencil.
"You and Ray were dating?" she asked surprised.
"Were, is the keyword, I broke things off this morning"
"Oh, well good look with whoever you have your eye on now" she said and moved a few seats behind me. Class began and I drifted off into daydreaming. RINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG. Stupid bell. Classes are changing, and The new OD is starting, the bell gave me a headache, isn't aspiring supposed to stop headaches? I guess not when you take 5 times the regular dosage, maybe if I took more? I decided to try it, I went to the bathroom and took another 10, this time I had a hard time swallowing them. "20" I said out loud in the girls washroom.
"20 what?" a voice answered, I jumped up and hid the pills and exited the stall
"Oh Audrey, hey, uhm 20..... wrong on my.... Math test, my mom is going to kill me" I said tripping as I left the bathroom
"Are you okay, you've been a little... off today, I've seen you staggering in the hallway" Audrey questioned.
"Yea, just a little tired", I said tripping yet again. I stood up and grabbed a wall with a shaky hand, "Got to get to class" I said smiling fake as usual, and stumbled my way to my next class. Which I had just remembered I shared with Travis. I stopped and straightened my shirt, tried to look, not dead for one thing, and look attractive for another. I walked in an found Travis reading "The Art To Spirituallity Through Buddism" I tapped his shoulder and he looked up.
"Hi" was all I could say, I was shaking, and it wasn't because I was nervous -although I was- it was because of the intensity of the drugs.
"Hey" he said smiling, that smile is one that literally takes your heart and shakes it so you want to melt, which was what I felt like doing.
"I broke up with Ray this morning" I said trying not to shake so much
"Why? Did you finally realize that you guys were too close to ever pursue a serious relationship?" Travis said in that deep brooding voice of his, another part of him that makes you want to melt.
"Yea, plus I have fallen for another guy..." I said, not really finishing what I wanted to say which was "Yea, plus I have fallen for another guy, who is sitting right in front of me" but I didn't have the nerve to say that. But that seemed to catch his attention.
"Oh really?" he said while finally getting interested in what I had to say and he sat his book down.
"Yea it's" I suddenly felt dizzy, my heart was beating very fast and when I went to go sit down I missed the seat and started to shake rapidly on the floor, that was all I could remember.
A few minutes later – hours actually, because I had blacked out for so long- I heard phones, I thought for a minute I was home, I tried to open my eyes, but it was blurry and then I heard a man's voice yell "Code Red" then I realized I wasn't at home... but in a hospital room. I rubbed my eyes and tried to sit up I had IV's in my arms, and severe pains throughout my body, I looked around the room... I wasn't alone, to my left in a very uncomfortable looking chair, lay Travis...
End of Chapter 6