Abby stood under the blistering hot needles of the steaming shower.
Her hand unconsciously rubbing over her slightly, swollen stomach. She had
hardly let herself believe she was pregnant until she had told Susan.
Susan was her best friend, but she felt she couldn't tell her. Abby had wanted to tell her everything but something had stopped her. Something inside her told her that she couldn't tell anyone. She felt that if she told anyone then it would all be real and she couldn't carry on with the life that she knew. Now thinking back it sounded silly but it was what she believed.
Abby turned the shower off as she heard the knock at the door. Silently she thanked Susan for not using her key this time. Opening the door, she stepped back allowing Susan in. Susan offered a small smile, taking in that the robe Abby was wearing was more than likely Carter's. Susan made her way to the sofa, sitting at one end, while Abby tucked her legs underneath her at the other end.
They both looked at one another before Susan finally asked. "So, what happened?"
Susan looked at her best friend before Abby answered. it was so hard for Susan to see her like this. Abby had never shown a vulnerable side but at that moment in time Susan wanted to take her into her arms and tell her everything was going to be okay. Abby looked ready to burst into tears, but somehow kept them all inside. "I found out I was pregnant during his first time in Africa. Turns out I was about a month and a half gone by the time he came home. I was so mad at him and wanted to tell him but I just couldn't find the words. Then as he was leaving again I didn't want to shout out in the middle of the street. I also didn't want him to stay because he felt he had too. After he left my life started to spiral out of control. I figured hiding it was the best option. The I went back to med. school and everything started to feel right again. I suppose I forgot about the baby, but these last few days I have been really tired."
"Well working all these extra shifts won't be helping." Susan said as she sidled closer to Abby.
"I know but I need the money." Abby protested.
"I know but enough to go about almost killing yourself. Abby you have to think about the little on inside of you now." Susan gently placed her hand on Abby's little tummy. As she looked back up to her she could see the tears running down her face. "Oh Abby, come here." Susan took her friend into her arms.
"Susan , I just don't know what to do. I've left it too late to do anything about it and in a way I don't want to get rid of it but can I do this?" Abby choked back the rest of the tears she had in her eyes.
"Of course you can do it. You've got plenty of people to support you. Don't forget that." Susan, brushed her hand through Abby's wet hair. Abby continued to sob, with relief more than anything. She had finally found someone to confide in. It felt so good to talk to someone about it. It just felt good to talk.
Susan stayed for a while longer. they chatted about things that didn't mean anything. if it meant not talking about the baby, Abby was all for it. She had talked enough about it tonight although she did have one thing to ask Susan. "Can you keep this quiet for just a bit longer?"
"Abby, you won't be able to keep it quiet for much longer. You're already showing." Susan indicated by pointing to the small bump showing through the thick terry robe Abby wore.
"I know but I want to get through this rotation. If they find out that I'm not going to finish this year they won't be happy. I have to work something out."
"Talk to Weaver when you see her next. As much as we all hate her, she'll know what to do. Abby, remember you are not alone. I'm here for every step of the way."
"Thank you Susan. You have no idea how much that means to me." Abby reached over to hug her friend again. She couldn't live without Susan, as desperate as that sounded she knew it was right.
A.N. Just a short note to say thanks for all the words of encouragment. It means a lot. I promise to make the chapters a bit longer. I hope you are enjoying the story and keep me updated as to whether it's going okay or not. Thanks again. Lu!
Susan was her best friend, but she felt she couldn't tell her. Abby had wanted to tell her everything but something had stopped her. Something inside her told her that she couldn't tell anyone. She felt that if she told anyone then it would all be real and she couldn't carry on with the life that she knew. Now thinking back it sounded silly but it was what she believed.
Abby turned the shower off as she heard the knock at the door. Silently she thanked Susan for not using her key this time. Opening the door, she stepped back allowing Susan in. Susan offered a small smile, taking in that the robe Abby was wearing was more than likely Carter's. Susan made her way to the sofa, sitting at one end, while Abby tucked her legs underneath her at the other end.
They both looked at one another before Susan finally asked. "So, what happened?"
Susan looked at her best friend before Abby answered. it was so hard for Susan to see her like this. Abby had never shown a vulnerable side but at that moment in time Susan wanted to take her into her arms and tell her everything was going to be okay. Abby looked ready to burst into tears, but somehow kept them all inside. "I found out I was pregnant during his first time in Africa. Turns out I was about a month and a half gone by the time he came home. I was so mad at him and wanted to tell him but I just couldn't find the words. Then as he was leaving again I didn't want to shout out in the middle of the street. I also didn't want him to stay because he felt he had too. After he left my life started to spiral out of control. I figured hiding it was the best option. The I went back to med. school and everything started to feel right again. I suppose I forgot about the baby, but these last few days I have been really tired."
"Well working all these extra shifts won't be helping." Susan said as she sidled closer to Abby.
"I know but I need the money." Abby protested.
"I know but enough to go about almost killing yourself. Abby you have to think about the little on inside of you now." Susan gently placed her hand on Abby's little tummy. As she looked back up to her she could see the tears running down her face. "Oh Abby, come here." Susan took her friend into her arms.
"Susan , I just don't know what to do. I've left it too late to do anything about it and in a way I don't want to get rid of it but can I do this?" Abby choked back the rest of the tears she had in her eyes.
"Of course you can do it. You've got plenty of people to support you. Don't forget that." Susan, brushed her hand through Abby's wet hair. Abby continued to sob, with relief more than anything. She had finally found someone to confide in. It felt so good to talk to someone about it. It just felt good to talk.
Susan stayed for a while longer. they chatted about things that didn't mean anything. if it meant not talking about the baby, Abby was all for it. She had talked enough about it tonight although she did have one thing to ask Susan. "Can you keep this quiet for just a bit longer?"
"Abby, you won't be able to keep it quiet for much longer. You're already showing." Susan indicated by pointing to the small bump showing through the thick terry robe Abby wore.
"I know but I want to get through this rotation. If they find out that I'm not going to finish this year they won't be happy. I have to work something out."
"Talk to Weaver when you see her next. As much as we all hate her, she'll know what to do. Abby, remember you are not alone. I'm here for every step of the way."
"Thank you Susan. You have no idea how much that means to me." Abby reached over to hug her friend again. She couldn't live without Susan, as desperate as that sounded she knew it was right.
A.N. Just a short note to say thanks for all the words of encouragment. It means a lot. I promise to make the chapters a bit longer. I hope you are enjoying the story and keep me updated as to whether it's going okay or not. Thanks again. Lu!