Let Me Help You
Ch7 The Painful Secret
"August 28, 1984
My boyfriend, Fujitaka Kinomoto, just met my parents for the very first time and, thank god, they liked him. Even though Fujitaka is a charmer. I'm so excited about tomorrow. I'm going to take Fujitaka to a picnic in the beautiful park next to a lake. It would be so romantic.
"September 1, 1984
My birthday is going to be on the sixteenth. Only fifteen more days after today till I become sixteen. For the past three months, it seems like everything's going my way. I hope this feeling never lasts. I've been going out with Fujitaka for over a year now. He's so sweet.
"September 9, 1984
Only seven more days after today till my birthday. I can't wait. Fujitaka says that he has a surprise for me. I wonder what it is. It's weird. I like surprises, but I also hate them. They get me so excited, but impatient at the same time.
"September 15, 1984
Tomorrow's my birthday. I'm extremely excited now. I can't even go to sleep. I already got a dress that I could wear for tomorrow. It's a red spaghetti strapped dress that goes down to my knees. It has beautiful little flowers on the top right corner of the dress. I have red high heels along with it. I wonder where we're going for my birthday anyway.
"September 17, 1984
Oh my god. I'm in big trouble. Fujitaka took me to a club to dance. It was great, but then I started drinking. Fujitaka told me not to, but I wouldn't listen. I think I went really out of control, because when I woke up I was naked in Fujitaka's bed with only his blanket to cover me. I saw Fujitaka there next to me. I quickly put on my clothes and left without saying good-bye. When I came home I told my parents that I was staying at a friend's place and forgot to call. Of course I didn't tell my parents what really happened. They'll kick me out of the house if I did. I just hope they never find out.
"October 6, 1984
I feel so strange lately. I've been throwing up in the morning, I'm always dizzy, and I seem to be always hungry. I don't know what's wrong with me. I probably just ate something bad.
"October 23, 1984
Am I a bad person? Fujitaka is such a perfect man, but for some reason, I don't feel the same way about him as he does for me. I think I have fallen in love with another man. He's Nick Avalon. He has all the traits of Fujitaka, but he brings out this spark that just lights up my day. I know I shouldn't like another man when I already have a boyfriend. That's why I'm going to break up with him tomorrow. I hope he doesn't take it really hard.
"November 11, 1984
Nick just asked me out. I'm so excited. Fujitaka took the break up pretty well. He told me to have a great life even though it wouldn't be with him. He's so sweet, but I'm doing the right thing.
"November 26, 1984
I'm still throwing up in the morning. What's wrong with me? Nick and I have only been going out for 2 weeks, but everyday seems better and better. I'm wondering if I should take our relationship to the next level. I know we're really young, but it just feels right. My stomach has been growing a little bit bigger. I need to lose some weight.
"December 6, 1984
Only a few more days till Christmas. I can't wait. I'm going to be at nick's house for Christmas. It'll be great and his parents would be out of town.
"December 26, 1984
We did it. We took it to the next level. It was great. It felt right to do it with Nick. The only problem was that I threw up in the morning at nick's bathroom. He thought I was sick or something. Now I have to go to the doctor to see if there's anything wrong with me. I told my parents I was sleeping over at a friend's house again. Thank god they believed me.
"January 16, 1985
I'm in big trouble now. I just found out I'm pregnant. The doctor said I was for four months. No wonder my stomach was getting so big. But how am I going to tell my parents and Nick. I know who the father of my baby is. It's Fujitaka, but I don't want him to be the father. Then Nick would leave me. I'll have to say that nick is the father.
"January 30, 1985
I finally told Nick that I was pregnant with his child. He took it pretty well and decided that we should get married. My parents were disappointed of me when I told them, but they offered to help. I'm so lucky. I thought I would be kicked out of the house immediately. " Sakura read.
Sakura couldn't believe it. She was the daughter of this Kinomoto guy. Sakura couldn't read anymore of this. She closed the diary and ran back home. When she got back she couldn't find her father. Sakura quickly hid the diary under her bed, but she forgot to get the key out of the keyhole.
The next day was Saturday. Tomoyo called Sakura early in the morning. "Hello, Sakura. Come to the school so we can help prepare for the dance. It'll be fun. Come on." Tomoyo said.
"I'm tired Tomoyo. Let me go to sleep." Sakura mumbled.
"No, you have to come. Remember in the sixth grade when we decorated for the dance. It was beautiful. Everyone said it was. Come on, Sakura. The dance would look beautiful if we do it together again. Come on. I won't stop bugging you if you don't come."
"All right. All right. I'll go, but if the dance looks ugly don't blame me."
"Yay. Don't worry Sakura. It'll look beautiful. Come at 8 AM."
"Bye Tomoyo. "
"All right, bye."
Sakura slowly got up and took a quick shower. When she was done it was already 7:30 AM, so she quickly got ready. She wore a pink tank top with blue jeans. She had a blue bandanna on her head along with it. Sakura didn't wear her uniforms since it was a Saturday and she was only volunteering to help with the dance. Sakura looked at the locket Syaoran gave her. She looked at the back of it and saw her initials carved on it. Sakura decided to wear it today. She looked at herself in the mirror and was satisfied. She looked at the clock again and it was 7:50 so she put on her pink roller blades, wrote a note to her father and skated towards the school. She arrived to the school just in time and met up with Tomoyo.
"Where did you get that necklace, Sakura?" Tomoyo asked when she saw the locket.
"Oh, Syaoran gave it to me for my birthday." Sakura replied.
"How sweet. It looks beautiful on you."
"Thanks, Tomoyo. After this can we walk to the park? I need to tell you something really important."
"Oh, is anything the matter?"
"No, everything's fine. I just need to tell you something."
"Oh, okay."
"Hey, Sakura. You're helping with the dance, too?" Xander asked.
"Why else would we be here?" Sakura said.
"Go away Xander." Tomoyo said in a disgusted look.
"No, that's okay. I'm helping out with the dance, too." Xander said.
"Great. Then the dance would definitely look ugly." Sakura said.
"Don't worry. I'll be the one fixing Tomoyo's mistakes." Xander said.
"Excuse me. No, I'm going to be the one fixing your mistakes." Tomoyo said.
"Whatever. Anyway, what part of the dance are you going to be helping at?" Xander said.
"I'm not sure yet." Sakura replied.
"Well, you better sign up now, because most of the spots are already taken." Xander said.
"Then I guess I'll be going then, bye." Sakura said and took Tomoyo's hand with her without waiting for Xander to say good-bye to her.
When they got to the sign up sheet the only places that needed help were decorating and getting a DJ. Unfortunately, there's one room for one person each, so Tomoyo and Sakura would be helping with different things. Sakura looked at who else was helping with decorating. There on the list was Chiharu, David, Rika, Takashi, Naoko, Gabriel, Brenda, and Xander. On the other list for getting a DJ had Larry, Patrick, Michael, Syaoran, Kim, Natalise, Stephanie, and Jenny.
"Damn. Why can't Xander be helping with the DJ? Then we can both help out with decorations." Sakura complained.
"Here, why don't you help out with the DJ and I'll help with the decorations? Then you don't have to be around Xander."
"Is that going to be all right with you?" Sakura asked.
"It's all right. Besides, I love to decorate."
"Okay."
They both went their separate ways. Tomoyo went to the gym so she could help decorate it. Sakura walked to the leadership room so they could discuss about the DJ.
~ Leadership Room ~
When Sakura got to the Leadership Room she saw everyone already there in their seat discussing about their budget. The only seat left was the one next to Syaoran, so she took her seat. "We need all of you to find a DJ that would work for $500 or less an hour. I don't care how you find the DJ as long as you get one by Monday. You have to bring all the information to us and we'll pick one out of all of yours. Whoever gets the DJ that we pick won't have to pay for the pictures they take at the dance. It doesn't matter how many times they take the pictures. If one of you could get a guess star that could sing at the dance for under $1000 would be great. That's all for now, but remember the songs can not have any improper language in it." Mr. Terada said.
After he was done talking, everyone went back home. Sakura was going to the gym to find Tomoyo. "I'm sorry, Sakura, but I have to stay here to help." Tomoyo said.
"Okay. Can I go to your house to use the Internet? I have to find a DJ."
"Sure."
"Thanks, Tomoyo. Bye."
"Bye."
Sakura walked to Tomoyo's house by herself and noticed a couple of cherry trees along the way. She decided to climb up on one of the trees and relax there. She was sitting on a tree branch and closed her eyes. Sakura breathed in the clean fresh air and then opened up her eyes. She took one of the cherry blossoms and laid it on her palm. Sakura felt peaceful there and forgot about all of her problems. She decided to take a little nap there and closed her eyes. Once she fell asleep, her head tilted a little and her whole body fell off the tree.
Syaoran was just walking back home and saw a figure falling off a cherry tree. He quickly ran to where the figure was and caught it before it fell to the ground. He looked at the figure and saw it was Sakura.
Sakura felt herself falling and landed on something. She felt warm and safe in someone's arms, so she kept her eyes closed. Syaoran saw her eyes closed and thought that she was unconscious, so he decided to wake her up. "Sakura. Sakura, wake up." Syaoran said and slapped her face lightly for her to wake up.
Sakura felt her head move and opened her eyes. When she did, she saw a pair of amber eyes looking at her. She realized it was Syaoran and quickly got out of his arms and stood on the floor. "What happened?" Sakura asked.
"You fell from the tree and I caught you before you could fall down on the floor."
"Oh. Thank you."
"You're welcome."
"Why are you being nice to me?"
"Is that a bad thing?"
"No, but still."
"Because I know you're really a good person inside and I want to help you show it."
"How would you know I'm good? You just met me a few days ago."
"Because I'm very good at judging people."
"Yeah right."
"I am."
"Whatever."
"Why can't we just have a civilized conversation with each other without any intense questions going on? Like what's new going on in your life?"
Sakura just remembered about her mom's diary and how she really wasn't her dad's daughter. "I have to go now." Sakura said.
"Wait. Is it something I said?"
"No. Everything's fine. I just remembered something. Bye."
"Remember, Sakura. If you need me, I'll always be there for you. I can help you with your problems."
"No, you can't."
"How is that?"
"Because my problems are complicating. You don't need to be there for me."
"I know, but I want to."
"Bye, Syaoran."
"Why do you always have to be so stubborn?"
"That's how I am."
Sakura quickly left to her house forgetting to go to Tomoyo's house. When she got home she saw her father holding onto a book. She then noticed it was her mother's diary.
"August 28, 1984
My boyfriend, Fujitaka Kinomoto, just met my parents for the very first time and, thank god, they liked him. Even though Fujitaka is a charmer. I'm so excited about tomorrow. I'm going to take Fujitaka to a picnic in the beautiful park next to a lake. It would be so romantic.
"September 1, 1984
My birthday is going to be on the sixteenth. Only fifteen more days after today till I become sixteen. For the past three months, it seems like everything's going my way. I hope this feeling never lasts. I've been going out with Fujitaka for over a year now. He's so sweet.
"September 9, 1984
Only seven more days after today till my birthday. I can't wait. Fujitaka says that he has a surprise for me. I wonder what it is. It's weird. I like surprises, but I also hate them. They get me so excited, but impatient at the same time.
"September 15, 1984
Tomorrow's my birthday. I'm extremely excited now. I can't even go to sleep. I already got a dress that I could wear for tomorrow. It's a red spaghetti strapped dress that goes down to my knees. It has beautiful little flowers on the top right corner of the dress. I have red high heels along with it. I wonder where we're going for my birthday anyway.
"September 17, 1984
Oh my god. I'm in big trouble. Fujitaka took me to a club to dance. It was great, but then I started drinking. Fujitaka told me not to, but I wouldn't listen. I think I went really out of control, because when I woke up I was naked in Fujitaka's bed with only his blanket to cover me. I saw Fujitaka there next to me. I quickly put on my clothes and left without saying good-bye. When I came home I told my parents that I was staying at a friend's place and forgot to call. Of course I didn't tell my parents what really happened. They'll kick me out of the house if I did. I just hope they never find out.
"October 6, 1984
I feel so strange lately. I've been throwing up in the morning, I'm always dizzy, and I seem to be always hungry. I don't know what's wrong with me. I probably just ate something bad.
"October 23, 1984
Am I a bad person? Fujitaka is such a perfect man, but for some reason, I don't feel the same way about him as he does for me. I think I have fallen in love with another man. He's Nick Avalon. He has all the traits of Fujitaka, but he brings out this spark that just lights up my day. I know I shouldn't like another man when I already have a boyfriend. That's why I'm going to break up with him tomorrow. I hope he doesn't take it really hard.
"November 11, 1984
Nick just asked me out. I'm so excited. Fujitaka took the break up pretty well. He told me to have a great life even though it wouldn't be with him. He's so sweet, but I'm doing the right thing.
"November 26, 1984
I'm still throwing up in the morning. What's wrong with me? Nick and I have only been going out for 2 weeks, but everyday seems better and better. I'm wondering if I should take our relationship to the next level. I know we're really young, but it just feels right. My stomach has been growing a little bit bigger. I need to lose some weight.
"December 6, 1984
Only a few more days till Christmas. I can't wait. I'm going to be at nick's house for Christmas. It'll be great and his parents would be out of town.
"December 26, 1984
We did it. We took it to the next level. It was great. It felt right to do it with Nick. The only problem was that I threw up in the morning at nick's bathroom. He thought I was sick or something. Now I have to go to the doctor to see if there's anything wrong with me. I told my parents I was sleeping over at a friend's house again. Thank god they believed me.
"January 16, 1985
I'm in big trouble now. I just found out I'm pregnant. The doctor said I was for four months. No wonder my stomach was getting so big. But how am I going to tell my parents and Nick. I know who the father of my baby is. It's Fujitaka, but I don't want him to be the father. Then Nick would leave me. I'll have to say that nick is the father.
"January 30, 1985
I finally told Nick that I was pregnant with his child. He took it pretty well and decided that we should get married. My parents were disappointed of me when I told them, but they offered to help. I'm so lucky. I thought I would be kicked out of the house immediately. " Sakura read.
Sakura couldn't believe it. She was the daughter of this Kinomoto guy. Sakura couldn't read anymore of this. She closed the diary and ran back home. When she got back she couldn't find her father. Sakura quickly hid the diary under her bed, but she forgot to get the key out of the keyhole.
The next day was Saturday. Tomoyo called Sakura early in the morning. "Hello, Sakura. Come to the school so we can help prepare for the dance. It'll be fun. Come on." Tomoyo said.
"I'm tired Tomoyo. Let me go to sleep." Sakura mumbled.
"No, you have to come. Remember in the sixth grade when we decorated for the dance. It was beautiful. Everyone said it was. Come on, Sakura. The dance would look beautiful if we do it together again. Come on. I won't stop bugging you if you don't come."
"All right. All right. I'll go, but if the dance looks ugly don't blame me."
"Yay. Don't worry Sakura. It'll look beautiful. Come at 8 AM."
"Bye Tomoyo. "
"All right, bye."
Sakura slowly got up and took a quick shower. When she was done it was already 7:30 AM, so she quickly got ready. She wore a pink tank top with blue jeans. She had a blue bandanna on her head along with it. Sakura didn't wear her uniforms since it was a Saturday and she was only volunteering to help with the dance. Sakura looked at the locket Syaoran gave her. She looked at the back of it and saw her initials carved on it. Sakura decided to wear it today. She looked at herself in the mirror and was satisfied. She looked at the clock again and it was 7:50 so she put on her pink roller blades, wrote a note to her father and skated towards the school. She arrived to the school just in time and met up with Tomoyo.
"Where did you get that necklace, Sakura?" Tomoyo asked when she saw the locket.
"Oh, Syaoran gave it to me for my birthday." Sakura replied.
"How sweet. It looks beautiful on you."
"Thanks, Tomoyo. After this can we walk to the park? I need to tell you something really important."
"Oh, is anything the matter?"
"No, everything's fine. I just need to tell you something."
"Oh, okay."
"Hey, Sakura. You're helping with the dance, too?" Xander asked.
"Why else would we be here?" Sakura said.
"Go away Xander." Tomoyo said in a disgusted look.
"No, that's okay. I'm helping out with the dance, too." Xander said.
"Great. Then the dance would definitely look ugly." Sakura said.
"Don't worry. I'll be the one fixing Tomoyo's mistakes." Xander said.
"Excuse me. No, I'm going to be the one fixing your mistakes." Tomoyo said.
"Whatever. Anyway, what part of the dance are you going to be helping at?" Xander said.
"I'm not sure yet." Sakura replied.
"Well, you better sign up now, because most of the spots are already taken." Xander said.
"Then I guess I'll be going then, bye." Sakura said and took Tomoyo's hand with her without waiting for Xander to say good-bye to her.
When they got to the sign up sheet the only places that needed help were decorating and getting a DJ. Unfortunately, there's one room for one person each, so Tomoyo and Sakura would be helping with different things. Sakura looked at who else was helping with decorating. There on the list was Chiharu, David, Rika, Takashi, Naoko, Gabriel, Brenda, and Xander. On the other list for getting a DJ had Larry, Patrick, Michael, Syaoran, Kim, Natalise, Stephanie, and Jenny.
"Damn. Why can't Xander be helping with the DJ? Then we can both help out with decorations." Sakura complained.
"Here, why don't you help out with the DJ and I'll help with the decorations? Then you don't have to be around Xander."
"Is that going to be all right with you?" Sakura asked.
"It's all right. Besides, I love to decorate."
"Okay."
They both went their separate ways. Tomoyo went to the gym so she could help decorate it. Sakura walked to the leadership room so they could discuss about the DJ.
~ Leadership Room ~
When Sakura got to the Leadership Room she saw everyone already there in their seat discussing about their budget. The only seat left was the one next to Syaoran, so she took her seat. "We need all of you to find a DJ that would work for $500 or less an hour. I don't care how you find the DJ as long as you get one by Monday. You have to bring all the information to us and we'll pick one out of all of yours. Whoever gets the DJ that we pick won't have to pay for the pictures they take at the dance. It doesn't matter how many times they take the pictures. If one of you could get a guess star that could sing at the dance for under $1000 would be great. That's all for now, but remember the songs can not have any improper language in it." Mr. Terada said.
After he was done talking, everyone went back home. Sakura was going to the gym to find Tomoyo. "I'm sorry, Sakura, but I have to stay here to help." Tomoyo said.
"Okay. Can I go to your house to use the Internet? I have to find a DJ."
"Sure."
"Thanks, Tomoyo. Bye."
"Bye."
Sakura walked to Tomoyo's house by herself and noticed a couple of cherry trees along the way. She decided to climb up on one of the trees and relax there. She was sitting on a tree branch and closed her eyes. Sakura breathed in the clean fresh air and then opened up her eyes. She took one of the cherry blossoms and laid it on her palm. Sakura felt peaceful there and forgot about all of her problems. She decided to take a little nap there and closed her eyes. Once she fell asleep, her head tilted a little and her whole body fell off the tree.
Syaoran was just walking back home and saw a figure falling off a cherry tree. He quickly ran to where the figure was and caught it before it fell to the ground. He looked at the figure and saw it was Sakura.
Sakura felt herself falling and landed on something. She felt warm and safe in someone's arms, so she kept her eyes closed. Syaoran saw her eyes closed and thought that she was unconscious, so he decided to wake her up. "Sakura. Sakura, wake up." Syaoran said and slapped her face lightly for her to wake up.
Sakura felt her head move and opened her eyes. When she did, she saw a pair of amber eyes looking at her. She realized it was Syaoran and quickly got out of his arms and stood on the floor. "What happened?" Sakura asked.
"You fell from the tree and I caught you before you could fall down on the floor."
"Oh. Thank you."
"You're welcome."
"Why are you being nice to me?"
"Is that a bad thing?"
"No, but still."
"Because I know you're really a good person inside and I want to help you show it."
"How would you know I'm good? You just met me a few days ago."
"Because I'm very good at judging people."
"Yeah right."
"I am."
"Whatever."
"Why can't we just have a civilized conversation with each other without any intense questions going on? Like what's new going on in your life?"
Sakura just remembered about her mom's diary and how she really wasn't her dad's daughter. "I have to go now." Sakura said.
"Wait. Is it something I said?"
"No. Everything's fine. I just remembered something. Bye."
"Remember, Sakura. If you need me, I'll always be there for you. I can help you with your problems."
"No, you can't."
"How is that?"
"Because my problems are complicating. You don't need to be there for me."
"I know, but I want to."
"Bye, Syaoran."
"Why do you always have to be so stubborn?"
"That's how I am."
Sakura quickly left to her house forgetting to go to Tomoyo's house. When she got home she saw her father holding onto a book. She then noticed it was her mother's diary.