I've done something majorly wrong. Something that I am very much regretting, and will probably regret a whole lot more, once I recall exactly what it was that I did.
At the moment, my head hurts too much, I feel a bit achy, I think I must've been hit by something, face is throbbing, and whatever surface I'm lying on.....
Attempts at getting my eyes open are painful, I'm somewhere really bright, lots of white, a curtain, something beside me is humming, a piece of electrical equipment I think, the roof is unusually distant, but that's enough to establish I'm lying flat on my back somewhere in a bright room.
My arms are kind of heavy. Moving them around my hand comes into contact with a very smooth surface, cool, metallic, curvy edges and.....what on earth....
I pick it up and open my eyes. A frying pan?
Looking around properly I can see the stove, the cupboard doors, the cloth drape that runs around the kitchen island and for some reason, I'm on the bloody floor.
But it's not Heero's floor. It's not his kitchen.
I'm not at Heero's.
What....?
Just then an angry Wu fei stormed through the door.
"Why can't you stay on the damned lounge?" he says crossly.
Well this is unusual.
He doesn't bother to wait for an answer and instead starts the kettle, dumps bread in the toaster and stands there giving me dirty looks as I attempt to climb up the stool that is for some reason upside down.
When I manage to get to my feet, I turn it up the right way, sit down and carefully rest my forehead on the bench.
My stomach is roiling and I seem to have saliva being produced in excess, partially due to whatever I consumed last night and because I'm thinking, what did I do to Heero?
There's no way he'd leave me, not like I was.
Did I?....
Maybe I....maybe....
Did I say something? Or did I do something?
Was it....?
He wouldn't leave just cause I said something about Relena, or....
Having my head bent down like this is making my face throb like crazy. Sitting up again and ignoring the sudden dizziness, I touch my face carefully with my fingers.
It hurts. All along the left side of my face.
Did I have a fight with someone?
Did I have a fight with Heero?
What on earth would I fight with Heero about?
Maybe he got drunk as well and neither of us were capable of getting home so Wu fei had to drag our arses to his place. That would make him peeved.
"Where's Heero?" If anything Wu fei scowled even harder. He pulled two mugs out of the cupboard, dumped some coffee and sugar in one, tea in the other, filled them both with hot water and dumped one in front of me.
Coffee.
"Hopefully he's at his place, after what you did...." he shook his head and started buttering his toast.
He left me behind because I did something really bad.
But what?
Did I yell at him? Did I hit him? What made me do whatever I did in the first place?
I remember drinking and dancing with Hilde, and Heero was there as well. They both had drinks. I remember Heero stuffing around. Wouldn't give me a drink. Was that the reason?
No, because he was still there when I was talking to Hilde.
I was asking her something. I was asking her about dancing?
No.
The party?
No.
Something bigger.
End of year dance.
I was asking her to the end of year dance. Did she say yes?
Don't know.
But she...she kissed me.
No.
I kissed her.
Damn. I didn't want to do that.
Aww crap, that just makes it worse. Now she's gonna think....maybe we are? Maybe that means we're dating now. Will she think we are?
Or....
What does Heero think?
He was cross. I remember him being cross, wouldn't give me a drink, yelling, he was shouting.
But he doesn't shout. Hell, he barely raises his voice.
What was he yelling about?
The drink?
I can't have had that much, I always listen to him when he says no more.
He wouldn't yell about the drink.
I must've said something.... must've said something about....but....but I don't....it's not there....not in my head....I can't....I just can't remember.
Can't remember.
My head is resting on the bench again. Nice and cool. Coffee smell.
I hear Wu fei sigh.
"You're an idiot, Maxwell" He's already finished his toast. "I have to go to work, would you lock up when you leave"
He fishes a packet of Panadol out of the cupboard and sits it on the bench. He doesn't look cross any more.
He leaves.
I can hear him get his keys and his jacket and the door closing behind him.
I wish I knew what I did.
I wish I knew what happened. Why my face hurt.
I wish I knew what Heero thought.
I wish I knew whether he was ok. Too afraid to ask.
I wish last night hadn't happened.
I wish Hilde hadn't asked us to go.
I wish Heero wasn't going out with Relena.
I wish Heero....wha.....?
At the moment, my head hurts too much, I feel a bit achy, I think I must've been hit by something, face is throbbing, and whatever surface I'm lying on.....
Attempts at getting my eyes open are painful, I'm somewhere really bright, lots of white, a curtain, something beside me is humming, a piece of electrical equipment I think, the roof is unusually distant, but that's enough to establish I'm lying flat on my back somewhere in a bright room.
My arms are kind of heavy. Moving them around my hand comes into contact with a very smooth surface, cool, metallic, curvy edges and.....what on earth....
I pick it up and open my eyes. A frying pan?
Looking around properly I can see the stove, the cupboard doors, the cloth drape that runs around the kitchen island and for some reason, I'm on the bloody floor.
But it's not Heero's floor. It's not his kitchen.
I'm not at Heero's.
What....?
Just then an angry Wu fei stormed through the door.
"Why can't you stay on the damned lounge?" he says crossly.
Well this is unusual.
He doesn't bother to wait for an answer and instead starts the kettle, dumps bread in the toaster and stands there giving me dirty looks as I attempt to climb up the stool that is for some reason upside down.
When I manage to get to my feet, I turn it up the right way, sit down and carefully rest my forehead on the bench.
My stomach is roiling and I seem to have saliva being produced in excess, partially due to whatever I consumed last night and because I'm thinking, what did I do to Heero?
There's no way he'd leave me, not like I was.
Did I?....
Maybe I....maybe....
Did I say something? Or did I do something?
Was it....?
He wouldn't leave just cause I said something about Relena, or....
Having my head bent down like this is making my face throb like crazy. Sitting up again and ignoring the sudden dizziness, I touch my face carefully with my fingers.
It hurts. All along the left side of my face.
Did I have a fight with someone?
Did I have a fight with Heero?
What on earth would I fight with Heero about?
Maybe he got drunk as well and neither of us were capable of getting home so Wu fei had to drag our arses to his place. That would make him peeved.
"Where's Heero?" If anything Wu fei scowled even harder. He pulled two mugs out of the cupboard, dumped some coffee and sugar in one, tea in the other, filled them both with hot water and dumped one in front of me.
Coffee.
"Hopefully he's at his place, after what you did...." he shook his head and started buttering his toast.
He left me behind because I did something really bad.
But what?
Did I yell at him? Did I hit him? What made me do whatever I did in the first place?
I remember drinking and dancing with Hilde, and Heero was there as well. They both had drinks. I remember Heero stuffing around. Wouldn't give me a drink. Was that the reason?
No, because he was still there when I was talking to Hilde.
I was asking her something. I was asking her about dancing?
No.
The party?
No.
Something bigger.
End of year dance.
I was asking her to the end of year dance. Did she say yes?
Don't know.
But she...she kissed me.
No.
I kissed her.
Damn. I didn't want to do that.
Aww crap, that just makes it worse. Now she's gonna think....maybe we are? Maybe that means we're dating now. Will she think we are?
Or....
What does Heero think?
He was cross. I remember him being cross, wouldn't give me a drink, yelling, he was shouting.
But he doesn't shout. Hell, he barely raises his voice.
What was he yelling about?
The drink?
I can't have had that much, I always listen to him when he says no more.
He wouldn't yell about the drink.
I must've said something.... must've said something about....but....but I don't....it's not there....not in my head....I can't....I just can't remember.
Can't remember.
My head is resting on the bench again. Nice and cool. Coffee smell.
I hear Wu fei sigh.
"You're an idiot, Maxwell" He's already finished his toast. "I have to go to work, would you lock up when you leave"
He fishes a packet of Panadol out of the cupboard and sits it on the bench. He doesn't look cross any more.
He leaves.
I can hear him get his keys and his jacket and the door closing behind him.
I wish I knew what I did.
I wish I knew what happened. Why my face hurt.
I wish I knew what Heero thought.
I wish I knew whether he was ok. Too afraid to ask.
I wish last night hadn't happened.
I wish Hilde hadn't asked us to go.
I wish Heero wasn't going out with Relena.
I wish Heero....wha.....?