Hey there! Before anything else, I want to say that it's only a matter of time until classes start again and it would be hard to find time to finish a chapter but I will do try in my spare time. But please I ask for your patience and understanding because like any writer, I can't rush things especially writing. I know that this is not that long but I'm really trying my best. Just bear with me please.
For those who sent in their reviews, I thank you greatly. Anyway, I won't keep this long because you guys might already be wondering what the next chapter holds.
Chapter 5 First Flash of Memory
Shaoran continued to stare at her.
Sakura just smiled back.
"It will be an accomplishment." Shaoran finally admitted.
Then he approached her.
Sakura turned to him, a little curious why the sudden change in attitude of Shaoran.
"Let me ask you this." He then said.
"W. . . what?" Sakura replied.
"Do you really want to know what your past life is?" He asked.
Sakura was taken aback.
Didn't he understand the situation she was in?
"What do you think? Of course I do." Sakura answered.
"Then don't just stand there dreaming." He answered.
"What do you propose I do now?" Sakura challenged him.
She was starting to get annoyed with him.
He hadn't done anything but cut her throat.
"For starters, don't you at least see something familiar that could trigger your memory?" Shaoran said.
It took a little while for Sakura to comprehend what Shaoran was asking her.
"Go on. You won't get anything just staring at me. You wanted to recover your memory right? Get started." Shaoran urged her.
Sakura looked at him strangely.
She then just shook her head and looked once more at the slightly silent beyond.
It was beautiful and a little peaceful but no matter where she looked, familiarity didn't strike her mind.
"The faster you regain your memory the better." Shaoran commented.
Sakura turned to him again.
"Once we leave this hospital, there is no guarantee that it would be easier for you to remember things. You should start now while you are in a place where I'm sure you've been before." He added.
"You mean . . . I've been here before?" She said.
"I cannot answer that for you. You tell me." Shaoran replied at he crossed his arms.
He leaned his back against the railing and closed his eyes.
"Take all the time you need. But you should know when you've had enough. Mother's not the only one who's going to kill me if something more happens to you." Shaoran said.
Sakura hardly found that reassuring.
But she decided to take it in a good way.
She didn't know where to find something that could trigger even a little of her memory.
But at least Shaoran had told her that she was in a place that was familiar to her.
Sakura, once again, stood by the railings.
She let the air blow her hair.
She looked down.
Sakura saw an ambulance coming.
She watched in approach from a distance.
It grew bigger and bigger as it came nearer.
As it drew up the lightly elevated ground by the entrance, the medics and nurses came and took the patient out and quickly rushed the patient in.
Sakura felt herself become a little dizzy.
Her vision started to blur a little.
There was a slight pain appearing in her head.
She held her forehead with a hand and held the railing with the other.
Sakura could feel her feet below her grow weak.
Sakura nearly collapsed but Shaoran caught her.
She didn't faint but she didn't speak.
"Are you alright?" Shaoran asked.
But it seemed that Sakura didn't hear him.
A sudden flash of white suddenly came within Sakura's subconscious mind.
Before long, Sakura could see herself stand at the very spot some time in the past.
Her hair was shorter and she could see herself happy.
She just stood there and looked at the sky and the beyond also at night.
She seemed satisfied just looking at it.
Suddenly, she saw herself turn and her smile grew wider.
Sakura figured that her past self was smiling at someone.
She was meeting someone there at that very place.
Sakura urged her mind for more.
She craved to know more about it.
But it was all she could remember.
There was nothing more.
Sakura didn't know whom she met there once.
"Sai, are you alright!" Shaoran asked again, in a stronger voice.
It brought her back to reality.
Sakura turned to him.
Shaoran seemed a little concerned yet still serious.
"What happened?" He asked.
As Sakura sat there, she turned away.
She needed a little moment to digest what had just happened.
'I. . . I remembered something. . . but . . . I wish there was more. . . ' Sakura told herself.
She was half-grateful and half-disappointed.
The craving to know more lingered in her heart.
But she didn't understand why it was painful.
Why was it like that?
Does it mean she had to exert so much effort just to recall?
Does it also mean she had to be in a place where she had been before or at least some object familiar to generate a memory?
Or could she do it just as it is?
"Do you here me or do you just wish to ignore me some more?" Shaoran said.
Sakura turned to him.
To Shaoran's complete surprise, Sakura smiled.
"Shaoran, I remembered something. Could you believe it? I really remembered something!" Sakura said excitedly.
"You did? That's good. Well then, we better get back inside." Shaoran replied without real enthusiasm.
He then helped Sakura up.
"No! Wait! Could we stay here a little bit more?" Sakura pleaded.
"With what just happened, I don't think so. It's great that somehow you got a part of your memory but you shouldn't force yourself. Remember that you had just gotten out of a coma. You're not that strong yet." Shaoran reminded her.
"But. . . " Sakura started to argue.
"Fine. But only for a little while. It's getting late and I don't think the cold will do you good." Shaoran said, submitting to her request.
"Why Shaoran? Is that concern I'm hearing from you?" Sakura teased.
"Dream on." Shaoran replied.
"Won't you lighten up? You're so serious all the time." Sakura commented.
Shaoran just ignored her.
Sakura just smiled and stood where she was.
She just turned to face the direction she faced a few minutes before.
She closed her eyes and tried to recall every detail that she had just saw.
Again and again she tried to force her mind to reveal whom she was smiling at.
Was that person close to her?
Is it a man or a woman?
Why did it choose to be revealed?
Did it mean something to her?
Was it significant to remember those moments?
What was it to her?
Why was she so happy?
So many questions lingered in her mind.
She wanted to answer them then and there but then she heard Shaoran tell her that they should already be heading inside.
Sakura followed without question.
She knew that Shaoran was right.
She should call it a night.
She surely wasn't going to remember everything and answer all her questions right away.
Sakura was silent as she approached Shaoran by the door.
"You ok?" Shaoran asked as she met up with him.
Sakura snapped back and realized that she was still deep in thought.
She just smiled and nodded to answer him.
"Was the memory really that bothering for you?" Shaoran asked unexpectedly.
Sakura couldn't answer right away.
"You don't have to tell me." Shaoran then said.
He then saw that she was slightly shivering already.
He then took of his jacket and laid it on her shoulder.
Sakura was surprised with this gesture.
Shaoran seemed to notice.
"Whatever you're thinking, drop it. I'm only doing this because people down there might ask why I'm letting 'my sister' out here just to shiver in the cold." Shaoran quickly said.
"T. . . thank you. . . " Sakura replied.
"You're not going to tell anybody what had happened would you?" She asked.
"I can't make that promise. . . not in your present condition." Shaoran answered.
Sakura just nodded.
She preferred if not many people knew.
But she also knew that they should know about this.
(To be continued. . .)
Well that's chapter 5. I can't believe that I was able to finish this right away. Anyway, please send in your reviews. I hope that I'll be able to finish the next chapters as fast as this but can't promise anything. Hope to here from you soon. Michiko