Deathwish Author: Swythangel
Email: swythangel@hotmail.com
Title: Deathwish
Rating: PG (for shounen ai content)
Warnings: Strong Language, Yaoi, Fantasy AU
Disclaimer: Gundam Wing is owned by Bandai and the person who created the bishounens (who should be worshipped for making Quatre) I am just having my fun with them borrowed boys! Ahohoho!
Archive: In my yaoi site, once its up.

I haven't started on any of my other series fics yet on any fandom. ^-^ I know I ought to die for that but its useless to write when I don't have the drive. I'm in the mood for an angst session and this came out of nowhere. I hope you guys like it if not...well c'est la vie then.


Deathwish
Teaser

I sweep through the scorched field with nary a glance at the carnage wrought by yet another war. The copper iron scent of blood was rife in the air, evidence of the extent of the damages.

I have had my fill of this, having been here since its beginning, so many years ago.

Here and there a limb twitched or a voice groaned out and I stop once in awhile to give relief to a chosen few. These pain-filled souls called to me and normally I would be more merciful. But not today. Today they are not the reason why I walk this road.

As I continue on, deep into the heart of where the main battle had taken place, I hear it, the distant humming of power building.

"By immortal blood freely spilled, I release you from the chains that bind you. Out of time and out of space, return to the mortal plane that spawned you!"

I feel a rip from my very being as I see a robed figure cut his arm to let the blood spill to the ground, the ruby drops soaking into the glowing runes he had etched into the dirt, invoking an old spell from the realms of the forbidden.

The runes glow madly, pulsing to a beat unknown in the living world and a lurid red mist comes out from the ground to envelop the area surrounding the robed figure.

The lifeless bodies that littered the ground in his vicinity start to move. First a twitch then they try to stand, some stumbling as hacked off limbs fail to support them. But still they try, in an obscene awkward pseudo-dance that spoke of unthinking obedience. In my head screams resound in torturous tones, a silent protest as the corpses move to unwillingly obey the person that bound them from attaining final rest.

In the middle of this grotesque tableau, he stands calmly, watching his undead army struggle. Master of the dark forbidden arts, one who disturbs the natural order of living...Necromancer. This particular necromancer started this senseless war so many years ago. HE is the reason why I walk this night.

I approach him in silence but even before I open my mouth to speak, he senses my presence and preempts me without even turning around to face me.

"Ah, Trowa, you have come to watch our little tableau. Good. It wouldn't have been complete without you. You're a little late though, I was beginning to think that you wouldn't arrive. That would have been a pity."

There is little emotion in his voice, much like one of those talking golems the wood dryads amuse themselves with. It hadn't been like that once. There was a time when his voice had been as vibrantly alive and bright as Helios himself. A time when he would have thrown his arms around me and greeted me with a smile.

//Trowa! Trowa! You came to visit me. Come on in.You've been gone for so long.//

He is different now. I cannot even gauge how he is feeling.

"Why do you do this?" I ask.

Finally, after years of trying to prevent him from doing this in silent torment, I finally have the courage to ask him this.

"Isn't it painfully obvious? I am a necromancer, Trowa, and this, if you haven't noticed, is what necromancers do." His voice contains a hint of sarcasm in it, a strange tone on his liquid voice. He used to be so innocent.

"You were once the golden child."

Silence. He does not deign to answer but I still wait, full of hope.

A wayward breeze flutters through the scorched land, easing its burning surface for a cooling second. I close my eyes and let it past through me as well. Like the land, I feel scorched...pained.

When I open my eyes, I see that the breeze has blown off his cowl and he did not make any effort to put it back on. I drink in the features before me.

Skeins of golden strands reminiscent of sunshine glow in the dismal sky as they flutter in the breeze and his features, even in their cold emotionless state, still look as innocent and pure as he did so many years ago.

Bright Child, last son of the mother goddess, immortal beloved of all living things...

I see the past...

"You were once so different..."

So very different.

I can recall how he wouldn't even let me harm an ant in his presence, recall long hours spent crying over the loss of a bird carelessly killed by a wayward arrow. He had been so gentle...

"You were once beloved of all things."

"Once!" He snarled out. "Once beloved of all things, of all people, once beloved of one whom I loved above all others. ONCE! No longer!"

He sweeps his hands violently downwards in a gesture of finality, his eyes blazing for a second before the fire banks and cold dead stones replace the sparkling orbs once again.

"Now I only live to make you rue the day you chose to walk this path."

With that he strides out into the fields, crooking a finger at his grotesque "army" to follow him. No one makes a move to stop him because there is no one left but he and I and the lifeless bodies that he had brought to life again.

I stand in shocked silence looking at him with sorrowful eyes.

He had never once looked at me.

Have I been so wrong? Perhaps I should not have chosen as I did that day, years ago. If I didn't, would all this carnage, this senseless war, the fear, the despair...would all these stop?

I had only been trying to protect the one I loved. Was that so wrong?

::It is. It always is, when you go against the Fates.::

But at that time, it had felt so right...

TBC (hopefully, if you guys like it ^-^)