Once Lost Now Found

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Chapter two: Pain and Misery

All of a sudden there was this stinging feeling all over me. I felt all of my fear,memories,and secrets leaving my .The tip of the whip touched my ankles, then it stared to grow longer and wind itself around my feet,legs,waist,hands,wrists,arms and my chest. Only my neck and head were not covered up. The next thing I saw was a black aura forming in front of me. It turned red the blue. My pupils dilated. And my eyes were almost expressionless. I was hoping never to witness my horrible memories again. But, I did. I started to see mother and father leave. "AHHHHHHHHH!!!"I was screaming a high-pitched scream filled with terror. Tears were streaming down my face. I saw all of my memories and fears that caused me great pain. Pain. That's all that I felt. Pain, and sorrow. I was reliving the worst times of my life. I couldn't stand it. The tears on my face were turning to blood. Kurama saw the tears. "It must be those memories that made her the cold, unwelcoming person that she is." he said. Yusuke saw my once beautiful crimson eyes ,now a ghostly white .It almost scary and it was already quite disturbing. I started to call out names. Names of my loved ones that I had lost ."MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FATHER!!!!! NOOO!!!! "While I was watching my memories it was also taking much of my energy. Ana looked at me. She looked up to me and now she was torturing me with my worst memories that she couldn't even remember. It hurt her not remembering her parents but it hurt me more. It hurt me more because I knew them longer and I saw them die. She said" That's enough. "Her whip uncoiled itself from my damaged .I let out a gasp. Ana ran to catch me. When she caught me she gently laid m down outside of the arena. Everyone ran from the stands to see if I was okay. I slowly opened my eyes, the color was slowly coming back to them.My breathing was very heavy and uneven. I closed my eyes. Kurama said "She'll be fine she just needs rest."One final tear rolled down my cheek. It was blood. Koenma and Yusuke carried me to my room.my clothes were torn and the lace that held my talismans to my leg was broken. Ana went back to the arena to get them but they had disappeared. Ana was thinking ~`~`~`~How couldI have done that? I can't believe I did that to Nikore after all she's been through...I made her watch it again ~`~`~`~I stirred. Ana was broken from her train of thought. I was still calling out mother and father's names but it was softly not the way I had when I did during the battle.I turned over and grunted in pain. The next day was school Ana didn't see me at breakfast or during classes or dinner. She hoped I was okay. My head was hurting. I tried healing my self but I still hadn't regained any of my lost energy. I was walking around and Kurama was coming to talk to Koenma. My heart skipped a beat. It was strange. I felt weird around him. He turned and saw me.I tried to turn around and walk away briskly but my injuries would not allow it.I fell.He ran over to help me up.I said "I'm fine.Just...leave me be!!!!""Are you sure you're okay because your head is starting to bleed." "I'm fine!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!"I was trying yell but I lost my voice so it was very small.I stayed in my room for a few weeks until I healed.But I couldn't use any of my attacks or spells.I wrote somemore talismons but they were no help.I soon got better and I was able to spar again with my sister.I was able to do any attacks that involved energy.Kurama was looking for me and since I was walking and I didn't limp he umed that I was feeling better.He walked up to me and asked"Why are you so cold all of the time?" " stopped abruptly and spun around."You want to know why I'm so cold?" "Yes,yes I would"said Kurama.I sighed."From what you've seen at my battle agaist my sister you should know."I replied coldly."Anyway you should stay out of my business.Those were my memories I was forced to watch and it's my own problem..."My voice trailed off." Well okay .I'm sorry to have bothered you"said Kurama in what sounded like an unsure tone. Before he turned around a tear trailed down my cheek.I knew he saw it.All of a sudden I had this strange feeling. I felt...attracted to the demon called Kurama.Is this what humans call...love...