Hermione
Hermione walked down the hallways spotting for any wandering students. Her spotless Head-Girl badge pinned on her perfectly starch blouse. Her hair in a perfectly placed bun without any strands astray.
(It starts with)
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
Perfect, impeccable, ideal, faultless, flawless, seamless, immaculate. The very words she always found herself trying to abide. And until now, she had thought she done a very good job of it, till the façade broke down. Nine years of perfection down the drain within a single day. Within a single conversation.
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
All those years of learning to be the best child her parents could possibly want, could be proud of, could show off to, all gone. All those times wasted. Instead of reading volumes of encyclopedias and other historical books, she could have been running around with the other kids, actually making friends.
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on
But didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
Hermione had wasted so much time on that simple task to be the best she could, the best at muggle school, the best at Hogwarts, the best of the family, the best of everything she tried. And she never thought about not being the best, till tonight, in the dark, silent, peaceful hallways.
I kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me
Will eventually
Be a memory
Of a time when I tried
So hard
And got so far
For the first time, she failed in something. Not about something silly like flying, but something important, something that she planned to follow so throughout her whole life.
All her plans, all gone. A perfect life with the most loving parents, with the most loyal friends, with the absolute best job, all gone.
And on the cold wooden floor, Hermione broke down in the quiet third floor corridor.
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Her parents who didn't want her anymore, who had literally kicked her out of the house. All because of a silly error. All because she didn't get it perfect this time. All because she was a normal, flawed human for once.
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
She had tried to go to Harry and Ron afterwards. Only to find out from Percy of all people, that his family and Harry had gone to visit Charlie in Romania. She had felt stung then. Disappointed that they hadn't invited her, but most importantly, they hadn't told her. Not Ron, not Harry, not even Ginny.
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
She had nowhere to go and nobody to go to. She had felt absolutely miserable and worthless on that day, all alone and helpless. She had stayed by herself at the Leaky Cauldron, she had bought her books by herself, she had gone to the train station by herself. And she had been so scared, so vulnerable.
You kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me
Will eventually
Be a memory
Of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
Harry and Ron, the two people she always thought would be there for her, had left her stranded. The two people she would do anything for, would it be to do their homework or to die for them. The two people who she had considered to be the best people she could have ever met, had left her, without a second glance.
They came to her when they needed help, when they needed her to cover up for them, when they needed her overall. But she wasn't a complete fool; she knew that their close friendship was over. The most they could ever be would be acquaintances.
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Her friends didn't bother with her, they didn't care. Her parents never wanted to see her again. Her entire life plans were gone. And she no idea how she was going to face the world alone when she got out of Hogwarts.
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
And the thought terrified her, to be so completely alone. To have no idea what to do. To be so helpless, so vulnerable, so imperfect.
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
To have worked so hard and failed so miserably.
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
