A BIG thank you to moxie fic, konzen, basketball_slayer, spikaholic101 and anyone else who might have reviewed after I typed this.
DISCLAIMER: Sure I own Buffy the vampire slayer – same as the earth is flat and my teachers never give me homework! Same goes for Evanescence's songs.
This is basically Dru's point of view from the time when Angelus killed her family until she rises as a vampire. The second chapter is after he killed everyone in the convent and while he's killing her.
The lyrics in this chapter are from "Tourniquet" (the parts in italics are the actual lyrics).If you haven't actually ever heard these songs it's because they're from the album and haven't been released as singles yet.
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Dying
"I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more"
Running was useless. In the end they found me. And inflicted on my mind ten times over the suffering I was trying to escape.
"And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal"
It's my fault the nuns who took me in are dead. They sought to protect me and I was the death of them.
"I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming"
My prayers are not heard. There is nothing left inside me. Not blood, nor sanity…nor hope.
"Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?"
The monster holds his bleeding wrist to my mouth. I am lost to my loved ones forever.
"My God my tourniquet"
stop this blood from flowing.
"Return to me salvation"
Shall I never rest in peace?
"Do you remember me
lost for so long"
or am I nothing now? A curse on humanity?
"will you be on the other side
or will you forget me"
Will you meet me with open arms my sisters? Or turn me away from heaven's doors in disgust?
"I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming"
"My wounds cry for the grave"
There is nothing but emptiness around me. I see and hear nothing, yet I feel myself falling into darkness.
"My soul cries for deliverance"
yet it is a plea falling on deaf ears.
"Will I be denied Christ"?
No one cares. Not for a childe of the damned.
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Hope you liked the chapter! The last one should probably be up by tomorrow (especially if I get loads of reviews!);-)