She still couldn't believe what she had gotten herself into. When she left
Ares ways years ago she expected to never see him again or that he would
just kill her, not that he would fall in love with her, and she definitely
would not have predicted them going on this little 'trip' they were on in
an alternate universe. She used to not care, it was so much easier to
think of him as the enemy, but ever since the twilight and Ares amazing
sacrifice, she couldn't think of him that way anymore, now she didn't know
what to think. It's hard not to see the change in him; he has definitely
changed since the time when they first meet. And he wouldn't have changed
if it hadn't been for her. Her excuse for them not being together back
then was that he was bad for her; he would influence her to do wrong
things. What was her excuse now? She had told him recently that he was
still bad for her, but was he really? She is obviously strong willed
enough and set in her ways now that Ares couldn't influence her behavior,
and Ares is clearly trying to change for her. Could there actually be a
relationship between them or is there to much baggage?
Thoughts raced through her head as she made her way down to where the army was preparing to head out. It was the first time she had actually been alone here and was able to let her mind free. All the thoughts were driving her crazy though and she quickly wanted to be someplace where she would be distracted from her own mind.
She walked across the large dark room. Soldiers and servants scurried across the floor preparing for the armies departure. For her army. As she passed them she received respectful bows and nods. It made her feel uncomfortable. She had the same name and appeared the same as these people were used to, but she wasn't who they thought she was. The attention was good, however unwanted. It didn't rightfully belong to her.
As she approached closer to the double doors they grew taller. The heavy wood they were made from towered above her.
Two guards at the door saluted her and in a natural routine, they opened the great doors wide.
The outside light stung at her eyes, though it wasn't really bright outside. In fact it was overcast. Compared to the luxurious shady fort however the cloudy sky was intense enough to cause her to shade her eyes. The air was crisp and Xena struggled with the fur coat she held in her hands. Goosebumps began to form on her arms and she threw the thick coat around her shoulders. The unfamiliar armor was taking a while to get use to. It felt heavier and larger than her own.
Xena tried to walk through the ranks of soldiers unnoticed. She wanted to get to Ares before she would have to answer a barrage of questions from her inferiors. But the commanding general or whatever she was...The warrior queen. Wasn't one that went unnoticed.
Xena took in a deep irritated breath as she saw one of her higher ranked warriors approach her. It was Glyphira. A woman whom she herself had trained back in her warlord days. One of the many of the young and innocent she had corrupted.
"Xena," She started with a business tone. She stopped and stood before her. "Do you wish for Draco or myself to lead the other legions on the northern route?" Glyphira asked.
Xena stood confident and searched for an answer. She didn't want to mess anything up if she said the wrong thing. "Let me discuss this matter with Ares and I'll let you know as soon as possible," Xena replied with a tone that was both friendly but final.
Glypira offered her a strange look. "With Ares! Since when did you talk things over with Ares," She laughed. Was Glyphira always like this to her Xena thought. She obviously didn't know that you don't question your superiors. Xena just wanted to get away. She didn't respond and she started walking. Glyphira followed.
"Oh I get it, it's one of those new relationship builders you two are doing!" Glyphira gave her a mock smile, her tone dripping with disgust. Xena just kept her face forward. "I never thought you would stoop that low. You know what men are like! Gods are 10 times worse. Don't let your relationship with Ares become more than business...you two argue like an old married couple. Don't let him control you Xena!"
Xena stopped and turned towards her sharply, a deadly gleam in her eye. The woman had pushed her over the top. "What is you're rank Glyphira?"
Glyphira lips pursed tightly. Contrary to before, now she couldn't speak. She swallowed hard. "Lieutenant, my queen," Xena nodded.
"Know you're place," It was final. Xena gave her one last warning look and took off again to find Ares.
As Xena walked on she observed how well disciplined everyone seemed to be. They all knew what their job was and how to do it. Hundreds of soldiers all had their armor on and packs ready and were lined up to march into battle for her. She walked past two soldiers mounted on strong brown mares decorated with the same elaborate armor the soldiers had. In front of her was a large beautiful carriage led by two ebony horses. The carriage itself was black with red veils covering the windows. And beyond that more soldiers. The whole scene was too Roman. It made her uncomfortable. She had become just like the Romans, the ones she hated and she was their leader. Now she just left like turning back and going in side. But she couldn't stop, she just walked on faster.
"Xena!"
She stopped suddenly and turned around quickly. It was Ares. He was standing beside the carriage, no longer in his usual leather suite. Instead, he had on a more masculine version of her own armor. The same long dark blue tunic with the red and gold trim. A silver breastplate over it along with gauntlets, boots, and weapons. Looking at him and herself, it reminded her of Illusia. Both of them in full beautiful battle armor. He did look very handsome. She starred at him for a moment before she shook the thought and responded.
"There you are!" She tried to sound angry but in reality was relieved. She walked towards him and saw him put his hand on the handle of the door and he opened it.
He smiled at her "Come on."
She stopped a few paces from him and looked over the scene.
"What are you doing?" She asked irritated. Ares was quiet. He thought it was quite obvious. He looked to the opening of the carriage and then back to Xena.
"I'm getting in the carriage," he said a bit mockingly.
"why?"
"Because that's where we ride," he explained. Xena straightened up out of her attack position. Her expression now calm and a little confused.
"We don't ride horses?"
Ares gave her a crooked smile, frustrated laughter tempting to erupt.
"No! Were royalty!"
Xena stepped closer to him trying to keep their argument on a lower level.
"Ares, I don't want to ride into battle in a carriage!"
Ares rolled his eyes and reached his arm around her "Just get in!" he whispered harshly and gently shoved xena through the door. It wasn't a big deal, but she always had to argue him on everything. He sighed and stepped up into the carriage after her.
Inside, the walls were jet black with rococo like swirls carved into it. The seats, which were more like two cushiony red benches, sat on two ends of the carriage opposite each other. Xena was already seated on one side with her usual stoic expression, but Ares could still sense that she was tense and uncomfortable. He hoped it wouldn't be like this the whole way there. He had hope that this trip might make her more relaxed around him.
He sat across from her silently. He wanted to say something, anything to make her more comfortable. Just as he was about to speak a loud knock came at the door of the carriage. Xena and Ares caught each others eyes and Xena averted them quickly.
"Yes?" She responded.
The door opened wide filling the gloomy interior of the carriage with light. A bulky figure stood in the doorway. It was Draco. He looked at Xena and Ares addressing them both. His expression was relaxed and he tried to keep his gaze away from Xena avoiding any suspicions Ares might have about them.
"Do you want Glyphira to take the legions north?" He asked professionally with respect. Xena held her breath and bit the inside of her cheek hard. Xena didn't look at either of the men just passed them, Hoping that Ares didn't make a scene.
They were all silent for a moment and Ares glared at the man opposite him.
"No...you take it," Ares responded harshly. Draco frowned. "I never have before."
Ares brows furrowed "well there's a first time for everything, now go!" Ares yelled.
Draco swallowed hard and looked down. He bowed in respect and quickly shut the door to the carriage.
Xena continued starring at the spot where Draco once was. She slowly shook her head.
"There is no way he knows that you know now," she said sarcastically. Ares rolled his eyes. "Maybe I wanted him to know that I knew."
Xena couldn't help but smile at their ridiculous conversation. The relaxed moment didn't last long however. Both Xena and Ares soon went back to looking any where in the room but at each other and were silent. Moments later there was a jerk and the carriage started to move.
Xena gently pulled back the curtain with her finger tips and gazed out at the scenery. Giant trees, rugged terrain. The air was moist and cold. The grinding of the heavy wheels over rock and dirt was loud and bothersome, but the rhythm of the army marching through the forest relaxed her in some way. It was familiar.
Ares tried to keep his focus on the campaign, or at least anything besides Xena. He couldn't help it though. She looked so magnificent in her armor. She would look magnificent in just about anything, but this made her look like a goddess. He stared at her in admiration.
She could feel his eyes on her making her uncomfortable, making her stare out into nature harder trying to ignore him. She didn't want to turn back to him, didn't want to talk to him, but she wanted him to stop looking at her.
"So what is the plan?
Ares jumped a little at the sound of her voice.
"It should take about 10 hours to get to the coast. We will arrive there in time to set up camp and the ships should already be there so we can load up and leave in the morning."
Xena nodded lightly.
"Sounds good. Ten hours is a long time to spend with you though," Xena couldn't help but to let a little smile escape. She always enjoyed picking on him. Ares smiled back warmly.
"It's more than ten hours my dear, its 3 whole days."
Xena kept the banter going. "Don't remind me," She laughed and turned to look out the window again.
Ares smiled back at her. She rarely smiled but when she did it was the most amazing sight to see. Again the couple was silent. They had never been able to talk for long periods of time. They would either talk (or fight) and leave each other or they would do as they were doing now, sitting in silence. Ares finally managed to look away from her. He swallowed hard and scanned their surroundings as if contemplating something. He then reached into a small pouch at his side and pulled something out of it.
"Here," She turned to him and looked at his out stretched hand. "Happy Birthday."
He was holding a beautiful pendant strung on a sparkling silver chain. It was a round silver hoop with an intricate design carved around it. In the center of the gorgeous hoop was a stunning onyx stone. Xena held her breath. What was she supposed to do now? He was the last person she had expected to or wanted to know when her birthday was let alone offer her a gift. She had gone through a lot of trouble to make sure Gabrielle was the only one who did know. Of course, Ares is a God. Still she didn't think he would ever recognize her birthday. After all, she never has acknowledged it her self.
"What are you talking about?"
Ares offered her a mock smile. He expected she would try to deny it.
"It's your birthday and this is your present."
Xena realized her denial was in vain. She just kept the stern expression fixed on her face. "I don't like presents that's why I don't tell people when my birthday is."
Ares rolled his eyes and sighed. She was being so immature
"Just accept the present Xena, I won't tell anyone you did," He closed his large fist over the pendant and thrusted it toward Xena, who quickly blocked it with her own hands.
"I don't wear jewelry!"
Ares took her hand away from his and put the necklace into her hand roughly "Then just put it in your pocket, by the Gods your stubborn," He said and quickly pulled his hands away before she could give it back. Ares starred at her firmly. Xena pursed her lips together. She was angry at him and didn't really know why. It was a kind gesture after all and the necklace was beautiful. She just didn't want to accept a gift from the God of war.
Xena sighed and closed her fingers gently around the necklace and held it in her lap. "Thank you," she said quietly. Ares nodded and looked away from her. He didn't understand why she always had to be so stubborn. That quality in her had caused herself a lot of problems, not that she would ever admit it though.
Xena absently fiddled with the necklace in her hands and began looking out the window once again. It seemed to be the place her eyes went to when she was uncomfortable. Ares smiled at her. "So what are you now, 40?"
Xena still kept her gaze out the window. She rolled her eyes and slowly turned to him. He was slyly smiling at her and she tired her best not to smile back but it was fiercely tugging at her lips.
"I'm 34..." She replied. "Unless you count the 25 years I spent in an ice cave, I'll be almost 60!" At first she meant for this comment to come out somewhat sarcastic, but it quickly brought back bad memories of the twighlight and her tone was bitter. Ares expression as well turned serious, he didn't know for sure if Xena was just joking around or not. Even if she was just kidding, it wasn't funny. He knew she would find a way to turn something good he did into something evil.
"That is what happens to people who fake their deaths..." A simple come back, but for some reason he felt he had to continue on. "I'm sorry for taking the time to honor you and your friend by giving you a peaceful resting place," By the end of his sentence his voice had risen causing him to sound angry. Now Xena was irritated with him and snapped back quickly.
"You should have stayed out of it!" She couldn't stand how he was always following her around and sticking his nose in her business; if he had left well enough alone she might have had the chance to raise her daughter.
Her comment infuriated Ares. "I was trying to help!" He hissed.
Xena rolled her eyes "no, you were trying to get me to breed with you!" She said bitterly. Ares eyes widened in disbelief.
"Breed with you?! Breed!" He couldn't understand why she still didn't get it. "No! I wanted to have a family with you!" he shouted and it was silent.
They stared at each other. There wasn't much left to say. Xena actually felt somewhat guilty. Deep down she knew that Ares loved her and wouldn't ever hurt a child they would have had, not at first though. When she had Eve she just figured he wanted to safe himself, wanted a child to carry on his line. After his sacrifice however, everything had changed. He really did care about her; she just couldn't see Ares raising a child and couldn't understand why he would want to. Them as a family was certainly something that was not easy to envision. Xena started to laugh quietly. Ares looked at her harshly.
"What is so funny?"
Xena looked up at him smiling wide. A smile that he would love to smack off her face if it wasn't so beautiful. Xena swallowed and tried to take a deep breath. "Can you really imagine us as a family?" She asked.
He tried to keep a straight face. Watching her laugh just made him want to join in, but what she was laughing at was him. She never did and probably never would understand just how much he loved her. Enough that the war God would settle down and raise a child with her. Well, maybe not settle down, but he surely wanted to be with her.
"Yes actually, I can," Ares stated firmly and as confidently as possible. Xena realized how serious he was and stopped laughing (As much). She shook her head sadly, "I can see it right now Ares, the Warrior Princess and the God of war, Furniture Shopping!"
The thought made her start laughing again. This time Ares started to laugh too. He wanted to be angry with her but it was impossible with her having so much fun, even if it was at his expense.
After a few seconds of soft laughter Xena smiled at him sympathetically. "I'm sorry," she said quietly. He shrugged as if it was all just fun and games.
"You're right, it probably wouldn't have worked with us," he said carelessly. Xena sensed something in his tone, he was lying. It wasn't a hurtful or deceitful lie like she usually accused him of, but this lie was one told just to end the conversation, to agree with her, and to save his dignity. Xena nodded with understanding.
"That's not what you really think is it?" She asked. Ares was quiet. He thought his pride hadn't been lost, but she had to steel it away. She was looking at him straight in the eye, it was impossible to lie again. So he smiled and quietly responded "no, it's not."
Xena averted her eyes quickly and looked down at her hands in her lap. Sometimes she forgot that the God of war did have feelings, though at times it didn't even seem like he had a heart she had only recently started to recognize he had feelings, for her at least.
As much as he may think he and her could have had a life together, Xena knew it would be impossible. No matter how they felt towards each other, no matter how perfect they seemed for each other, there would be no way in Tarturus that it would work. She was a hero fighting for the greater good against evil, and he was the personification of war and death. Their "careers" would cause too much conflict. And not to mention all the baggage of the past. However, Ares had lost a lot of worshipers and he hadn't been causing her too many problems lately, except for the Eve and Amazon incident. Maybe they could have compromised and worked something out, maybe it wasn't so hard to imagine. What was she thinking!? For years she had resisted and denied Ares, why was she suddenly having second thoughts? Probably that pathetic line about having a family. Something she had actually always wanted. To have peace, and to raise a child. Something she had taken from her twice. Once because of Ares. If he hadn't of been some crazy sexual predator and stayed out of it, his family might be alive and she would have gotten to be with her daughter.
Four tortuous hours went by in what felt like 20. Most of the time was spent in silence. Occasionally one of the two would speak. Commenting on the scenery or the day ahead. It was normal for them not to speak much, especially to each other, but this was insane! They were like two strangers. Of course, they had never really been around each other for this long either. Sure there was the farm that Xena had set up for Ares to live on while he was mortal, but Gabrielle was there to keep her company. Now it was just her and Ares, alone, and it made her uncomfortable.
The carriage came to a sudden stop and Xena glanced at Ares with a questioning look.
Ares picked up on this and answered her "We've stopped" he said plainly and looked out the window.
Xena grinned. What a stupid answer. Of course they have stopped.
"You're smarter than you look."
Ares turned back to her to see her mocking smile. He quickly realized the pointlessness of his answer and grinned back.
Another uncomfortable Silence and Xena looked out the window. Outside she spotted Glyphira approaching the carriage. Xena quickly opened the door as Glyphira walked up.
"Why have we stopped?"
"We need to get more supplies, for the voyage and because a wheel on one of the wagons broke...and the men and the animals could use a break," Glyphira reported.
Xena nodded in approval. "Make it quick, I want camp set up before the sun sets tonight."
Glyphira bowed, "yes my queen," She turned respectfully and left.
Xena watched in wonder as the hundreds, maybe thousands of soldiers quickly went about taking inventory on supplies and watering the horses. It really was the greatest army she'd ever seen. Of course she was still yet to see them in battle. Hopefully they were just as good.
Her thoughts were interrupted by Ares large warm hand on her shoulder. It made her jump a little and she tried to hide her surprise.
"Let's get out for a quick one," Ares said and stepped out of the carriage on to the hard dirt road.
"Excuse me!" Xena replied. She was embarrassed as soon as she said it. She had immediately assumed he meant a... well, a quick one, sexually. Maybe that is what he meant. She sure hoped it was because if it wasn't she had just made a fool of herself.
Ares looked at her oddly as he held a hand out to help her out of the carriage. "What's the problem?"
"Nothing!" Xena quickly responded and jumped down from the carriage ignoring Ares extended helping hand. He lowered it in disappointment. He whished Xena would just stop being so proud. At the moment he also realized why Xena seemed so embarrassed.
"I meant we should get a quick drink," He smiled.
Xena glanced at him with complete innocence. "I know."
A lie of course, just trying to save her dignity. She turned from him and started to walk into the village. Ares rolled his eyes behind her. He knew very well she had thought he meant something else and was now trying to cover it up. It irritated him that she always accused him of being arrogant and selfish, though she didn't often display any better characteristics than he.
Ares hiked behind her trying to catch up with her. The villages were prosperous and busy. Inn, taverns, and merchants were scattered everywhere. Over to the left of where Xena and Ares were walking, Glyphira and two guards made their way over to an elderly merchants table. He sold travel supplies. Things made of wood of metal and leather. The old man eyed Glyphira in fear. Shivering he asked, "Can I help you?"
"Give us four wagon wheels, frying pans, and two horse halters," She demanded.
The man frowned "Please! I only have so much...and what I have I need to make money on or my family will starve."
At the mans desperate plea Xena took noticed and slowly came to a stop. Ares caught sight of what she was looking at and stopped close behind her. They both watched the scene.
"That's all very tragic, but we are in a hurry, give it up," Glyphira growled impatiently.
Xena continued watching and spoke to Ares without breaking her stare. "We don't pay for things?"
"Some things yes, in this case...We provide villages with protection and financial aid; we bring them commerce and business. In return they pay taxes and supply our army if asked."
Xena didn't react. It was something she could brush off, it wasn't that big of a deal. She hesitantly began to walk again, but snapped back suddenly at the bark of Glyphira's voice.
"Now!" She yelled and grabbed the man fiercely by the collar pulling him towards her. Before Glyphira could threaten the man more. A young boy about the age of 12 ran out from around the corner and leaped onto Glyphira's back and began to hit her. She threw the boy from her back. Xena tensed at the sight. The boy hit hard and one of the burly guards drew his sword and held it above the boy. Xena's heart pounded, she couldn't ignore this one. She sprinted across the dirt road and stood between the soldier and the boy. "Stop!!!" Everyone was silent. The only sound was the quiet sobbing of the boy's family.
Xena wretched the sword from the soldiers hands. "What do you think you are doing?!" Xena hissed. The soldiers expression was of utter confusion. To terrified to speak. Glyphira cut in.
"The boy struck an officer."
Xena sneered at her and the other soldiers. "So you kill him?" They were silent and baffled.
"It's your law my Queen," the solider said softly.
Xena helped the boy up. "Well the law just changed."
Xena glanced over to the boy who was now caught in a tight embrace with his family. They were a good loving family. Brave. Xena unsheathed her sword. It had a single ruby encrusted in the hilt. It sparkled when the sun hit it. She examined it first and then quickly pulled a small dagger from her boot. Carefully she wedged the tip of the dagger underneath the ruby. She applied pressure on the dagger and the beautiful ruby popped out. Xena caught it and tossed it to the old man. "That's for the equipment."
The family's faces light up in delight and they gladly handed over the supplies. Xena left the sight without a word.
Ares had been standing near by. He was tense and frustrated. He looked over to Glyphira whose eyes were following Xena as she left.
"Quickly get the supplies loaded so we can leave." Ares ordered. Glyphira nodded and got to work.
Ares left the scene and quickly ran up behind Xena who was walking quite fast. He waited until he was right next to her to speak.
"You shouldn't have done that!" He said quietly but still with a harsh tone. Xena stopped suddenly and turned to him in anger.
"I shouldn't have saved the life of that young boy?!"
"I'm not saying it was wrong to save someone's life, I'm saying you need to be careful."
Xena was quiet, her expression slowly softening. She didn't understand. Ares took it as a sign to continue. For once she wasn't arguing with him.
"You're acting out of character of the Xena here. People will get suspicious. You are messing with her reputation. Plus you don't want to mess with history, maybe that boy was supposed to die...I'm not saying it was wrong, just do things like that in a more believable manor."
Xena sighed deeply and ever so slightly nodded her head. "I'm sorry" she said barely audible.
"It' very important that- " Ares stopped lecturing. "Did you just apologize?"
He had expected her to keep arguing with him like usual.
"Don't rub it in my face ok, your right." She said bitterly and started to walk off.
Ares was still a little shocked from the apology but quickly snapped out of it.
"Xena!" He called. She turned around. "What about that drink?"
She silently contemplated his offer. She was thirsty, but she wanted to be alone right now. Especially away from Ares.
"Actually, I think I'll just walk around for a while."
Ares nodded in acceptance and turned toward the bar. He could take the hint that she wanted to be alone. He hoped he wouldn't screw this up. He wanted this trip to somehow help her internally at the same time letting them get closer to each other. They had been through so much. Good and bad. He wanted to show her that the both of them could control themselves while leading an army. That she and he wouldn't become a monster. Xena was always under the impression that too much time with him would result in her evil ways resurfacing. He wanted to prove that wouldn't happen.
Xena found a quiet forest area about half a mile from where her troops were working. She knew now that she had made the right decision years ago. The decision to fight for the greater good, to leave Ares and his ways. Her life with Gabrielle wasn't perfect and Xena would always be far from it. The Xena of this universe, who had chosen to be Ares warrior Queen, was obviously disgustingly rich and selfish. She enforced strict laws and was power hungry. She had made the right decision to get away from it all. Though she had to admit she did enjoy the power, always had. At first it was her rage and the lust for blood. But when she met Ares, he turned it into a lust for ultimate power. She still felt it there. The rushing surge of adrenaline when she charged into battle, the confident feel of authority over hundreds. It still got to her, but she couldn't let it infect her, she had fought it for to long. Ares didn't understand it though. He didn't understand why she couldn't be with him. If she was it would be that extra little push into her dark side. He was her dark side, and if she let him in she would be gone.
Nearly an hour had passed and Xena returned to give the command to head back out. It would be another five hours before they reached their destination. Another five hours of uncomfortable silence between her and Ares.
Thoughts raced through her head as she made her way down to where the army was preparing to head out. It was the first time she had actually been alone here and was able to let her mind free. All the thoughts were driving her crazy though and she quickly wanted to be someplace where she would be distracted from her own mind.
She walked across the large dark room. Soldiers and servants scurried across the floor preparing for the armies departure. For her army. As she passed them she received respectful bows and nods. It made her feel uncomfortable. She had the same name and appeared the same as these people were used to, but she wasn't who they thought she was. The attention was good, however unwanted. It didn't rightfully belong to her.
As she approached closer to the double doors they grew taller. The heavy wood they were made from towered above her.
Two guards at the door saluted her and in a natural routine, they opened the great doors wide.
The outside light stung at her eyes, though it wasn't really bright outside. In fact it was overcast. Compared to the luxurious shady fort however the cloudy sky was intense enough to cause her to shade her eyes. The air was crisp and Xena struggled with the fur coat she held in her hands. Goosebumps began to form on her arms and she threw the thick coat around her shoulders. The unfamiliar armor was taking a while to get use to. It felt heavier and larger than her own.
Xena tried to walk through the ranks of soldiers unnoticed. She wanted to get to Ares before she would have to answer a barrage of questions from her inferiors. But the commanding general or whatever she was...The warrior queen. Wasn't one that went unnoticed.
Xena took in a deep irritated breath as she saw one of her higher ranked warriors approach her. It was Glyphira. A woman whom she herself had trained back in her warlord days. One of the many of the young and innocent she had corrupted.
"Xena," She started with a business tone. She stopped and stood before her. "Do you wish for Draco or myself to lead the other legions on the northern route?" Glyphira asked.
Xena stood confident and searched for an answer. She didn't want to mess anything up if she said the wrong thing. "Let me discuss this matter with Ares and I'll let you know as soon as possible," Xena replied with a tone that was both friendly but final.
Glypira offered her a strange look. "With Ares! Since when did you talk things over with Ares," She laughed. Was Glyphira always like this to her Xena thought. She obviously didn't know that you don't question your superiors. Xena just wanted to get away. She didn't respond and she started walking. Glyphira followed.
"Oh I get it, it's one of those new relationship builders you two are doing!" Glyphira gave her a mock smile, her tone dripping with disgust. Xena just kept her face forward. "I never thought you would stoop that low. You know what men are like! Gods are 10 times worse. Don't let your relationship with Ares become more than business...you two argue like an old married couple. Don't let him control you Xena!"
Xena stopped and turned towards her sharply, a deadly gleam in her eye. The woman had pushed her over the top. "What is you're rank Glyphira?"
Glyphira lips pursed tightly. Contrary to before, now she couldn't speak. She swallowed hard. "Lieutenant, my queen," Xena nodded.
"Know you're place," It was final. Xena gave her one last warning look and took off again to find Ares.
As Xena walked on she observed how well disciplined everyone seemed to be. They all knew what their job was and how to do it. Hundreds of soldiers all had their armor on and packs ready and were lined up to march into battle for her. She walked past two soldiers mounted on strong brown mares decorated with the same elaborate armor the soldiers had. In front of her was a large beautiful carriage led by two ebony horses. The carriage itself was black with red veils covering the windows. And beyond that more soldiers. The whole scene was too Roman. It made her uncomfortable. She had become just like the Romans, the ones she hated and she was their leader. Now she just left like turning back and going in side. But she couldn't stop, she just walked on faster.
"Xena!"
She stopped suddenly and turned around quickly. It was Ares. He was standing beside the carriage, no longer in his usual leather suite. Instead, he had on a more masculine version of her own armor. The same long dark blue tunic with the red and gold trim. A silver breastplate over it along with gauntlets, boots, and weapons. Looking at him and herself, it reminded her of Illusia. Both of them in full beautiful battle armor. He did look very handsome. She starred at him for a moment before she shook the thought and responded.
"There you are!" She tried to sound angry but in reality was relieved. She walked towards him and saw him put his hand on the handle of the door and he opened it.
He smiled at her "Come on."
She stopped a few paces from him and looked over the scene.
"What are you doing?" She asked irritated. Ares was quiet. He thought it was quite obvious. He looked to the opening of the carriage and then back to Xena.
"I'm getting in the carriage," he said a bit mockingly.
"why?"
"Because that's where we ride," he explained. Xena straightened up out of her attack position. Her expression now calm and a little confused.
"We don't ride horses?"
Ares gave her a crooked smile, frustrated laughter tempting to erupt.
"No! Were royalty!"
Xena stepped closer to him trying to keep their argument on a lower level.
"Ares, I don't want to ride into battle in a carriage!"
Ares rolled his eyes and reached his arm around her "Just get in!" he whispered harshly and gently shoved xena through the door. It wasn't a big deal, but she always had to argue him on everything. He sighed and stepped up into the carriage after her.
Inside, the walls were jet black with rococo like swirls carved into it. The seats, which were more like two cushiony red benches, sat on two ends of the carriage opposite each other. Xena was already seated on one side with her usual stoic expression, but Ares could still sense that she was tense and uncomfortable. He hoped it wouldn't be like this the whole way there. He had hope that this trip might make her more relaxed around him.
He sat across from her silently. He wanted to say something, anything to make her more comfortable. Just as he was about to speak a loud knock came at the door of the carriage. Xena and Ares caught each others eyes and Xena averted them quickly.
"Yes?" She responded.
The door opened wide filling the gloomy interior of the carriage with light. A bulky figure stood in the doorway. It was Draco. He looked at Xena and Ares addressing them both. His expression was relaxed and he tried to keep his gaze away from Xena avoiding any suspicions Ares might have about them.
"Do you want Glyphira to take the legions north?" He asked professionally with respect. Xena held her breath and bit the inside of her cheek hard. Xena didn't look at either of the men just passed them, Hoping that Ares didn't make a scene.
They were all silent for a moment and Ares glared at the man opposite him.
"No...you take it," Ares responded harshly. Draco frowned. "I never have before."
Ares brows furrowed "well there's a first time for everything, now go!" Ares yelled.
Draco swallowed hard and looked down. He bowed in respect and quickly shut the door to the carriage.
Xena continued starring at the spot where Draco once was. She slowly shook her head.
"There is no way he knows that you know now," she said sarcastically. Ares rolled his eyes. "Maybe I wanted him to know that I knew."
Xena couldn't help but smile at their ridiculous conversation. The relaxed moment didn't last long however. Both Xena and Ares soon went back to looking any where in the room but at each other and were silent. Moments later there was a jerk and the carriage started to move.
Xena gently pulled back the curtain with her finger tips and gazed out at the scenery. Giant trees, rugged terrain. The air was moist and cold. The grinding of the heavy wheels over rock and dirt was loud and bothersome, but the rhythm of the army marching through the forest relaxed her in some way. It was familiar.
Ares tried to keep his focus on the campaign, or at least anything besides Xena. He couldn't help it though. She looked so magnificent in her armor. She would look magnificent in just about anything, but this made her look like a goddess. He stared at her in admiration.
She could feel his eyes on her making her uncomfortable, making her stare out into nature harder trying to ignore him. She didn't want to turn back to him, didn't want to talk to him, but she wanted him to stop looking at her.
"So what is the plan?
Ares jumped a little at the sound of her voice.
"It should take about 10 hours to get to the coast. We will arrive there in time to set up camp and the ships should already be there so we can load up and leave in the morning."
Xena nodded lightly.
"Sounds good. Ten hours is a long time to spend with you though," Xena couldn't help but to let a little smile escape. She always enjoyed picking on him. Ares smiled back warmly.
"It's more than ten hours my dear, its 3 whole days."
Xena kept the banter going. "Don't remind me," She laughed and turned to look out the window again.
Ares smiled back at her. She rarely smiled but when she did it was the most amazing sight to see. Again the couple was silent. They had never been able to talk for long periods of time. They would either talk (or fight) and leave each other or they would do as they were doing now, sitting in silence. Ares finally managed to look away from her. He swallowed hard and scanned their surroundings as if contemplating something. He then reached into a small pouch at his side and pulled something out of it.
"Here," She turned to him and looked at his out stretched hand. "Happy Birthday."
He was holding a beautiful pendant strung on a sparkling silver chain. It was a round silver hoop with an intricate design carved around it. In the center of the gorgeous hoop was a stunning onyx stone. Xena held her breath. What was she supposed to do now? He was the last person she had expected to or wanted to know when her birthday was let alone offer her a gift. She had gone through a lot of trouble to make sure Gabrielle was the only one who did know. Of course, Ares is a God. Still she didn't think he would ever recognize her birthday. After all, she never has acknowledged it her self.
"What are you talking about?"
Ares offered her a mock smile. He expected she would try to deny it.
"It's your birthday and this is your present."
Xena realized her denial was in vain. She just kept the stern expression fixed on her face. "I don't like presents that's why I don't tell people when my birthday is."
Ares rolled his eyes and sighed. She was being so immature
"Just accept the present Xena, I won't tell anyone you did," He closed his large fist over the pendant and thrusted it toward Xena, who quickly blocked it with her own hands.
"I don't wear jewelry!"
Ares took her hand away from his and put the necklace into her hand roughly "Then just put it in your pocket, by the Gods your stubborn," He said and quickly pulled his hands away before she could give it back. Ares starred at her firmly. Xena pursed her lips together. She was angry at him and didn't really know why. It was a kind gesture after all and the necklace was beautiful. She just didn't want to accept a gift from the God of war.
Xena sighed and closed her fingers gently around the necklace and held it in her lap. "Thank you," she said quietly. Ares nodded and looked away from her. He didn't understand why she always had to be so stubborn. That quality in her had caused herself a lot of problems, not that she would ever admit it though.
Xena absently fiddled with the necklace in her hands and began looking out the window once again. It seemed to be the place her eyes went to when she was uncomfortable. Ares smiled at her. "So what are you now, 40?"
Xena still kept her gaze out the window. She rolled her eyes and slowly turned to him. He was slyly smiling at her and she tired her best not to smile back but it was fiercely tugging at her lips.
"I'm 34..." She replied. "Unless you count the 25 years I spent in an ice cave, I'll be almost 60!" At first she meant for this comment to come out somewhat sarcastic, but it quickly brought back bad memories of the twighlight and her tone was bitter. Ares expression as well turned serious, he didn't know for sure if Xena was just joking around or not. Even if she was just kidding, it wasn't funny. He knew she would find a way to turn something good he did into something evil.
"That is what happens to people who fake their deaths..." A simple come back, but for some reason he felt he had to continue on. "I'm sorry for taking the time to honor you and your friend by giving you a peaceful resting place," By the end of his sentence his voice had risen causing him to sound angry. Now Xena was irritated with him and snapped back quickly.
"You should have stayed out of it!" She couldn't stand how he was always following her around and sticking his nose in her business; if he had left well enough alone she might have had the chance to raise her daughter.
Her comment infuriated Ares. "I was trying to help!" He hissed.
Xena rolled her eyes "no, you were trying to get me to breed with you!" She said bitterly. Ares eyes widened in disbelief.
"Breed with you?! Breed!" He couldn't understand why she still didn't get it. "No! I wanted to have a family with you!" he shouted and it was silent.
They stared at each other. There wasn't much left to say. Xena actually felt somewhat guilty. Deep down she knew that Ares loved her and wouldn't ever hurt a child they would have had, not at first though. When she had Eve she just figured he wanted to safe himself, wanted a child to carry on his line. After his sacrifice however, everything had changed. He really did care about her; she just couldn't see Ares raising a child and couldn't understand why he would want to. Them as a family was certainly something that was not easy to envision. Xena started to laugh quietly. Ares looked at her harshly.
"What is so funny?"
Xena looked up at him smiling wide. A smile that he would love to smack off her face if it wasn't so beautiful. Xena swallowed and tried to take a deep breath. "Can you really imagine us as a family?" She asked.
He tried to keep a straight face. Watching her laugh just made him want to join in, but what she was laughing at was him. She never did and probably never would understand just how much he loved her. Enough that the war God would settle down and raise a child with her. Well, maybe not settle down, but he surely wanted to be with her.
"Yes actually, I can," Ares stated firmly and as confidently as possible. Xena realized how serious he was and stopped laughing (As much). She shook her head sadly, "I can see it right now Ares, the Warrior Princess and the God of war, Furniture Shopping!"
The thought made her start laughing again. This time Ares started to laugh too. He wanted to be angry with her but it was impossible with her having so much fun, even if it was at his expense.
After a few seconds of soft laughter Xena smiled at him sympathetically. "I'm sorry," she said quietly. He shrugged as if it was all just fun and games.
"You're right, it probably wouldn't have worked with us," he said carelessly. Xena sensed something in his tone, he was lying. It wasn't a hurtful or deceitful lie like she usually accused him of, but this lie was one told just to end the conversation, to agree with her, and to save his dignity. Xena nodded with understanding.
"That's not what you really think is it?" She asked. Ares was quiet. He thought his pride hadn't been lost, but she had to steel it away. She was looking at him straight in the eye, it was impossible to lie again. So he smiled and quietly responded "no, it's not."
Xena averted her eyes quickly and looked down at her hands in her lap. Sometimes she forgot that the God of war did have feelings, though at times it didn't even seem like he had a heart she had only recently started to recognize he had feelings, for her at least.
As much as he may think he and her could have had a life together, Xena knew it would be impossible. No matter how they felt towards each other, no matter how perfect they seemed for each other, there would be no way in Tarturus that it would work. She was a hero fighting for the greater good against evil, and he was the personification of war and death. Their "careers" would cause too much conflict. And not to mention all the baggage of the past. However, Ares had lost a lot of worshipers and he hadn't been causing her too many problems lately, except for the Eve and Amazon incident. Maybe they could have compromised and worked something out, maybe it wasn't so hard to imagine. What was she thinking!? For years she had resisted and denied Ares, why was she suddenly having second thoughts? Probably that pathetic line about having a family. Something she had actually always wanted. To have peace, and to raise a child. Something she had taken from her twice. Once because of Ares. If he hadn't of been some crazy sexual predator and stayed out of it, his family might be alive and she would have gotten to be with her daughter.
Four tortuous hours went by in what felt like 20. Most of the time was spent in silence. Occasionally one of the two would speak. Commenting on the scenery or the day ahead. It was normal for them not to speak much, especially to each other, but this was insane! They were like two strangers. Of course, they had never really been around each other for this long either. Sure there was the farm that Xena had set up for Ares to live on while he was mortal, but Gabrielle was there to keep her company. Now it was just her and Ares, alone, and it made her uncomfortable.
The carriage came to a sudden stop and Xena glanced at Ares with a questioning look.
Ares picked up on this and answered her "We've stopped" he said plainly and looked out the window.
Xena grinned. What a stupid answer. Of course they have stopped.
"You're smarter than you look."
Ares turned back to her to see her mocking smile. He quickly realized the pointlessness of his answer and grinned back.
Another uncomfortable Silence and Xena looked out the window. Outside she spotted Glyphira approaching the carriage. Xena quickly opened the door as Glyphira walked up.
"Why have we stopped?"
"We need to get more supplies, for the voyage and because a wheel on one of the wagons broke...and the men and the animals could use a break," Glyphira reported.
Xena nodded in approval. "Make it quick, I want camp set up before the sun sets tonight."
Glyphira bowed, "yes my queen," She turned respectfully and left.
Xena watched in wonder as the hundreds, maybe thousands of soldiers quickly went about taking inventory on supplies and watering the horses. It really was the greatest army she'd ever seen. Of course she was still yet to see them in battle. Hopefully they were just as good.
Her thoughts were interrupted by Ares large warm hand on her shoulder. It made her jump a little and she tried to hide her surprise.
"Let's get out for a quick one," Ares said and stepped out of the carriage on to the hard dirt road.
"Excuse me!" Xena replied. She was embarrassed as soon as she said it. She had immediately assumed he meant a... well, a quick one, sexually. Maybe that is what he meant. She sure hoped it was because if it wasn't she had just made a fool of herself.
Ares looked at her oddly as he held a hand out to help her out of the carriage. "What's the problem?"
"Nothing!" Xena quickly responded and jumped down from the carriage ignoring Ares extended helping hand. He lowered it in disappointment. He whished Xena would just stop being so proud. At the moment he also realized why Xena seemed so embarrassed.
"I meant we should get a quick drink," He smiled.
Xena glanced at him with complete innocence. "I know."
A lie of course, just trying to save her dignity. She turned from him and started to walk into the village. Ares rolled his eyes behind her. He knew very well she had thought he meant something else and was now trying to cover it up. It irritated him that she always accused him of being arrogant and selfish, though she didn't often display any better characteristics than he.
Ares hiked behind her trying to catch up with her. The villages were prosperous and busy. Inn, taverns, and merchants were scattered everywhere. Over to the left of where Xena and Ares were walking, Glyphira and two guards made their way over to an elderly merchants table. He sold travel supplies. Things made of wood of metal and leather. The old man eyed Glyphira in fear. Shivering he asked, "Can I help you?"
"Give us four wagon wheels, frying pans, and two horse halters," She demanded.
The man frowned "Please! I only have so much...and what I have I need to make money on or my family will starve."
At the mans desperate plea Xena took noticed and slowly came to a stop. Ares caught sight of what she was looking at and stopped close behind her. They both watched the scene.
"That's all very tragic, but we are in a hurry, give it up," Glyphira growled impatiently.
Xena continued watching and spoke to Ares without breaking her stare. "We don't pay for things?"
"Some things yes, in this case...We provide villages with protection and financial aid; we bring them commerce and business. In return they pay taxes and supply our army if asked."
Xena didn't react. It was something she could brush off, it wasn't that big of a deal. She hesitantly began to walk again, but snapped back suddenly at the bark of Glyphira's voice.
"Now!" She yelled and grabbed the man fiercely by the collar pulling him towards her. Before Glyphira could threaten the man more. A young boy about the age of 12 ran out from around the corner and leaped onto Glyphira's back and began to hit her. She threw the boy from her back. Xena tensed at the sight. The boy hit hard and one of the burly guards drew his sword and held it above the boy. Xena's heart pounded, she couldn't ignore this one. She sprinted across the dirt road and stood between the soldier and the boy. "Stop!!!" Everyone was silent. The only sound was the quiet sobbing of the boy's family.
Xena wretched the sword from the soldiers hands. "What do you think you are doing?!" Xena hissed. The soldiers expression was of utter confusion. To terrified to speak. Glyphira cut in.
"The boy struck an officer."
Xena sneered at her and the other soldiers. "So you kill him?" They were silent and baffled.
"It's your law my Queen," the solider said softly.
Xena helped the boy up. "Well the law just changed."
Xena glanced over to the boy who was now caught in a tight embrace with his family. They were a good loving family. Brave. Xena unsheathed her sword. It had a single ruby encrusted in the hilt. It sparkled when the sun hit it. She examined it first and then quickly pulled a small dagger from her boot. Carefully she wedged the tip of the dagger underneath the ruby. She applied pressure on the dagger and the beautiful ruby popped out. Xena caught it and tossed it to the old man. "That's for the equipment."
The family's faces light up in delight and they gladly handed over the supplies. Xena left the sight without a word.
Ares had been standing near by. He was tense and frustrated. He looked over to Glyphira whose eyes were following Xena as she left.
"Quickly get the supplies loaded so we can leave." Ares ordered. Glyphira nodded and got to work.
Ares left the scene and quickly ran up behind Xena who was walking quite fast. He waited until he was right next to her to speak.
"You shouldn't have done that!" He said quietly but still with a harsh tone. Xena stopped suddenly and turned to him in anger.
"I shouldn't have saved the life of that young boy?!"
"I'm not saying it was wrong to save someone's life, I'm saying you need to be careful."
Xena was quiet, her expression slowly softening. She didn't understand. Ares took it as a sign to continue. For once she wasn't arguing with him.
"You're acting out of character of the Xena here. People will get suspicious. You are messing with her reputation. Plus you don't want to mess with history, maybe that boy was supposed to die...I'm not saying it was wrong, just do things like that in a more believable manor."
Xena sighed deeply and ever so slightly nodded her head. "I'm sorry" she said barely audible.
"It' very important that- " Ares stopped lecturing. "Did you just apologize?"
He had expected her to keep arguing with him like usual.
"Don't rub it in my face ok, your right." She said bitterly and started to walk off.
Ares was still a little shocked from the apology but quickly snapped out of it.
"Xena!" He called. She turned around. "What about that drink?"
She silently contemplated his offer. She was thirsty, but she wanted to be alone right now. Especially away from Ares.
"Actually, I think I'll just walk around for a while."
Ares nodded in acceptance and turned toward the bar. He could take the hint that she wanted to be alone. He hoped he wouldn't screw this up. He wanted this trip to somehow help her internally at the same time letting them get closer to each other. They had been through so much. Good and bad. He wanted to show her that the both of them could control themselves while leading an army. That she and he wouldn't become a monster. Xena was always under the impression that too much time with him would result in her evil ways resurfacing. He wanted to prove that wouldn't happen.
Xena found a quiet forest area about half a mile from where her troops were working. She knew now that she had made the right decision years ago. The decision to fight for the greater good, to leave Ares and his ways. Her life with Gabrielle wasn't perfect and Xena would always be far from it. The Xena of this universe, who had chosen to be Ares warrior Queen, was obviously disgustingly rich and selfish. She enforced strict laws and was power hungry. She had made the right decision to get away from it all. Though she had to admit she did enjoy the power, always had. At first it was her rage and the lust for blood. But when she met Ares, he turned it into a lust for ultimate power. She still felt it there. The rushing surge of adrenaline when she charged into battle, the confident feel of authority over hundreds. It still got to her, but she couldn't let it infect her, she had fought it for to long. Ares didn't understand it though. He didn't understand why she couldn't be with him. If she was it would be that extra little push into her dark side. He was her dark side, and if she let him in she would be gone.
Nearly an hour had passed and Xena returned to give the command to head back out. It would be another five hours before they reached their destination. Another five hours of uncomfortable silence between her and Ares.