Angelus Fletus Est (English translation: Angel Weeping)
Hey, guys! I know it's been a really long time since I've done anything. I apologize to all of you and I hope you'll forgive me.
The thing is…and I know I'm about to get flamed…I've really fallen out of my passion for both YGO and writing. Some of you have noticed that I haven't been ANYWHERE on here at all in the past few months.
Well, I feel really bad about leaving you guys off where I did in the re-posting of this story, so I'm going to post all the chapters I have of this, and then walk off the face of the earth for good. I won't be writing again, at least not here.
So…I apologize, and I wish you all the best of luck :). Enjoy the rest of AFE!
Sincerely yours,
Katya
Me: faints
Yugi: looks at screen and faints
Yami: looks at screen and nearly faints oh...Ra...that's...A LOT!!!!
Me: wakes up you said it...this has 124 reviews!!!! GUYS! THAT'S ONLY 40 LESS THAN 'BROKEN ANGEL' WHICH HAS 12 CHAPTERS!!!!
Yami and Yugi: O.O
Me: damn…there's NO WAY I'll be able to answer all of these...all right...I'll just pick some...
To Black-Magic-Spellbinder: stammers th-thanks! I like Yugi-angst but you're right. Most of them tell that he had a lapse of judgment somewhere. Ah well. TYVM!
To Anubis: laughs my apologies. I finally finished Halloween Insanity, and now that that's out of the way, I have more time to devote to this. Hope you're happy now hehe. gestures read below for new chapter!
To MoonFairy: bright red thank you!! laughs I don't have a problem with u being devoted...in fact I'm very touched that u like this so much! grins well Seto doesn't do THAT to yami, but I hope u'll like this anyway. I know...I want her to die...but somehow I think that her death will take away from the story. Hey there has to be someone to make the nasty comments! Nah, I love yami. (Yami: PHEW) laughing yay, a person who hates Tea as much as I do!!!!
To AngelicMouseGirl: it was my goal. I'm so glad I accomplished it! Thanks a bunch!
To K.C. Whitestar: Oh Seto will kick some ass. Have no fear of that. Lol. OH I CANT WAIT TO SEE IT!!!!! I bet it ROCKS!!!
To TrueFan: laughs I truly love your reviews. They're so amusing! And no...because I'm sure that it'll be the same as my 'I-hate-cliffhangers' speech. I just threw that in there to keep you guys guessing! (btw...how come u don't display your email address in ur profile?)
To agentpudge: WHEE!!!! SORRY YAMI B!!! snickers oh he'll have fun...HEY! YUGI AND YAMI ARE MINE!!!! (yami: oh no not this AGAIN...) hey...pouts I like ungodly reviews!
To Knight de Fire: I do hope you find this good enough! evil grin oh they'll fight...sort of...
To Kat: is very very flattered why...thank you! I'm so glad I stirred emotion that deep in you! And...thanks...blushes deep crimson I'm not that good…but thanks!
To Kopy-Kat14: AHH! YES MA'AM!!! hurriedly starts writing Yami: um, but if she does that...then you can't update! Me: ...you're right! MWAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
To Magician of Chaos: thank you thank you!!!!!! I feel so special!!! AND I DID!!! points below
To Laura-Grace: laughing I've trained my Yami well, too...isn't that right, Yami? holds up supersoaker and camera Yami: eep! Yes!!!! Me: laughs Seto shall go get him. Never fear!
To EVERYONE: HOW can I thank you enough?! WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY?! You have my deepest gratitude for reviewing so nicely and faithfully! I don't think any other authoress loves her reviewers as much as I do!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
Me: I am now limiting my prologues to each chapter to a page and a half!
Yami: okay. That sounds good.
Yugi: IT'S A MIRACLE! YAMI AGREED WITH KATYA!
Yami: --;;;;
Me: laughing true. Oh yeah, guys...in your reviews, just "Katya" is fine. LOL don't obsess over the caps, I just wrote it that way so it would look cooler! Hehe. I love u guys...u even make an effort to spell my name correctly.
WELL! It's the CONFRONTATION!!!! What would fics be w/o a confrontation?! Lol. ENJOY!
P.S. does anyone else love Seto's sarcasm as much as I do? Him and Yami's sarcastic remarks...
/Yugi to Yami/ //Yami to Yugi// \Private thoughts\ Journal Entry
Seto smiled as he walked past the den, hearing laughter from the two boys who were going at it via Nintendo. His smile turned grim as he walked outside and into his car. \Oh Yami...I finally have a more-than-good reason to tear your hair out...\ He could just imagine the look on the pharaoh's face when he laid it all bare.
The car ride seemed to take forever. Seto tapped his foot impatiently. \Calm down, Seto. In due time, you'll finally be able to do something. Sorry Yugi\ he thought with an ironic smile \I'm going to have to hurt your Yami. I hope you won't mind.\
At last the car stopped. The door was opened for him and he got out. He adjusted his coat, looking for all the world like he was here on a leisure visit. Then, deliberately and briskly, he walked to the door and rang the bell.
"And where have you be-oh, hey Seto." Yami said, surprised to see the billionaire standing on his front doorstep.
Seto's features twisted into his usual grim smirk. "Finish your previous sentence, Yami. I'm dying to hear it."
Yami's eyebrows drew together in a frown for a split second. He obviously had noticed the sarcasm in Seto's voice. \Good.\ "I thought you were Yugi. He hasn't been home, as he should have been."
Seto raised an eyebrow. "Oh, should he now? He shouldn't be able to spend time with a friend?" Seto leaned forward slightly, the challenge and slight anger in his eyes. "He shouldn't be able to go cry by himself?"
Yami didn't catch the drift. "Whatever. If you see him, tell him to get himself home immediately."
Seto smirked. "Oh, but I have seen him. And I'm afraid that he isn't coming home." Yami blinked. "Not tonight anyway. He's spending the night at my house, and I'm afraid I won't let you change his mind for him. That's why I'm here. To gather his things. Now if you'll excuse me..." he pushed past a rather startled Yami, smirking to himself as he climbed the stairs to Yugi's room.
Yugi's room had a welcoming air to it. Even though Yugi wasn't there, the bright little room seemed to greet him just as cheerfully as Yugi himself. \Before all this happened.\ Seto thought darkly. \May as well get his things and THEN chew Yami out. Then I can storm out effectively.\
Seto surveyed his surroundings, thinking for a moment before pulling Yugi's duffel from under his bed and filling it with a few days' worth of clothes. He slipped Yugi's deck into a pocket of his bookbag and slipped that into the duffel as well. He surveyed the room once more, making sure he hadn't forgotten anything.
He did a double take. There was a book on Yugi's desk. And it lay open. Curious, Seto walked over and picked up the book. He read the page, a month old, stained with tears, and written in Yugi's neat handwriting.
Isn't it ironic that two months ago, I could tell Yami everything and anything that was on my mind and now I'm back to pouring my heart out in a book. I used to be able to cry into Yami's shirt. Now I cry into my journal. Or my pillow.
Neither offers much comfort. They aren't warm. They can't tell me that it's okay and they love me.
Oh I'd give anything to hear that simple phrase...from anyone...
And isn't it ironic that journals are meant for private thoughts but I actually wish someone would find this...at least it would tell me that I'm not invisible. It would tell me that I do exist...that I'm not just a shadow that happens to be in color.
Funny. I've almost forgotten what my voice sounds like. I rarely talk to anyone anymore. It's even rarer that someone talks to me and expects an answer. I'm almost afraid to use it.
Yami and the others went to the arcade today. They even invited Seto. I wonder if he'll be able to beat my yami. I guess I'll have to eavesdrop on Yami's phone conversations again.
I wasn't invited. And you can be sure that nobody will tell me.
God I envy Seto. I wish we could switch places. I'd always have a little brother who cared for me, I'd have friends who liked hanging out with me, who called me even on my busiest days at the office just to say hi.
But that wouldn't be fair to Seto. Because I'd be putting him in my position. He'd basically be me.
And nobody wants to be me. Who would?
Sometimes I wonder if I've even had a life. I thought I did last year. I had friends then. I'd made a wish on the puzzle, and it'd come through for me.
Wishes. Dumb word. They never come true.
You would think that at least I'd be noticed by the public. I did, after all, defeat Pegasus.
But I didn't even do that. Yami did. It was Yami who dueled most of the time, and it was Yami who people saw. They think I'm his little brother.
Famous Yugi Motou. But that isn't even me. That's Yami.
Everything is Yami. It's always Yami.
And I'm just a figment of someone's imagination.
Seto felt a tear make its way down his cheek. He didn't know how deep Yugi's emotions ran. He was so desperate that he wanted people to see his thoughts! He wanted people to read what he wrote!
Seto flipped through more pages, each one of them tearstained. He came to the most recent entry.
It was yesterday's.
I can't take much more of this. This is even worse than before I finished the puzzle. I had Tea then. She always helped me out. And Gramps was always there to talk to.
Now I have no one. I'm just a shadow. A shadow of the wonderful yami who stepped out of the puzzle the night I solved it. That handsome, awesome guy.
The better Yugi.
Joey nearly tripped over me today. He didn't even glance my way. Tristan pushed right past me. He didn't even see me.
Tea made a comment about my height to Yami.
And he laughed.
Ushio beat me up during lunch again. Since I don't have any friends, he figures that he's got his punching bag back.
No, not punching bag. Doormat. He even said so. "You're only good at being a doormat." That's what he said.
But he's wrong. I'm not even a good doormat, because if someone steps on me, I'll break.
Oh god, Yami thought that Tea was funny. Not even he cares. I don't matter anymore. I never did, I see that now. I was just the kid who solved the puzzle. I was just there so that Yami could take over.
I'm nothing. I'm too weak to even run away. I know I'd get lost, I have nowhere to go. I'd die.
But, maybe that wouldn't be so bad.
No, I don't think I'd want to die. I'd make Yami die too. Yami's happy. Everyone loves him. Not to mention that because he was a pharaoh, and did great things, he'll have a special spot in heaven reserved for him. What did I ever do?
Nothing.
I hate that word. But I can't avoid it. It's what I am, what I have been, and what I will always be.
Seto was crying when he finished. \God...I haven't been able to cry in so long...Oh lord...\
He put the book back on the desk with a shaking hand. It fell open to last month's entry again. He picked up Yugi's duffel. \God, Yami...you bastard. You utter bastard...\ He noticed the puzzle hanging from one of the bedposts. Good place for it. \Why would Yugi want to wear it anyway? Oh Yami, you utter bastard\
White-hot rage coursed through Seto. He made up his mind in a split second. Grabbing the journal, he stormed out of Yugi's room and down the stairs.
Yami looked up from a book, slightly surprised. The look of mild surprise and curiosity gave way to shock when Seto lifted him out of his chair by the collar.
"You. Utter. Bastard." He snarled in the former pharaoh's face. "You utter bastard."
Yami glared. "I demand an explanation or an apology. Either way, put me down. I haven't done a thing to you."
This only made Seto angrier. He merely let go of Yami, causing the shorter teen to stumble when his feet hit the ground. \Calm down, Seto. You want to do this your way. Not Yami's.\ "I'll give you an explanation, but I'll never give you an apology."
"And why is that?" The cold voice held a note of confusion. \I can't believe that he doesn't know.\
Seto took a breath before he continued. "Let me ask you a question, Yami. Where is your hikari?"
"At your house" was the icy reply.
"Very good. Let me ask you another. Where was he after school?"
"Why does this matter?!" came the exasperated answer.
"Because he should have been with YOU! He should have been at the arcade with YOU having FUN! But he wasn't. Because you didn't think to invite him."
Yami looked even more exasperated. "What does this have to do with anything?! Yugi doesn't mind!"
Seto was furious. "HE DOESN'T, DOES HE?!" he had to take a breath. "WELL, then! EXPLAIN to me how you know. The puzzle, unless I'm VERY much mistaken, is hanging on Yugi's bedpost! And though your link would be functioning without it, it isn't because if it was then you'd KNOW what I was TALKING ABOUT!" Seto was yelling now.
"Oh, would I, now?"
His cold calm made Seto even angrier. "YES, YOU WOULD KNOW!" He roared. He lowered his voice, but only by a couple notches. "You would KNOW that Yugi didn't go home AT ALL! You would KNOW that he ran to the park, barely able to see where he was going, and CRIED for HOURS! You'd KNOW that he screamed out his feelings to the sky, asking to see someone who cared about him, who acknowledged his existence! YOU'D KNOW THAT HE DID THAT BECAUSE THERE WASN'T ANYONE ELSE WHO WOULD LISTEN!"
Shocked silence met this last outburst. Then, "Oh?"
"You BASTARD! LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO HIM! I was THERE! I HEARD him cry his heart out, saw and heard him stand staring at the sky screaming that he wanted to see just one person who would acknowledge him! Let alone say that they CARED about him! I saw him drop to the ground in despair, asking, pleading for someone to say that they loved him. I SAW him cry, I HEARD him ask himself if anyone at all cared that he existed." Seto felt tears sting his eyes again. No. I REFUSE to cry in front of him. His throat was starting to sting from all this yelling, but he wasn't done yet.
Yami's look didn't change. "LOOK AT HOW FAR GONE HE IS!" Seto shoved the little journal into his face. "HAVE YOU NOTICED HIS CONDITION LATELY?! NOTICED THE BRUISES THAT HE HASN'T SAID A WORD ABOUT?! HE'S GETTING BULLIED AGAIN, DAMNIT!" Yami's eyes widened. Seto continued in a low, deadly tone. "And you know what?! Its. All. Your. Fault. It's YOUR fault that he's like this, you ARROGANT, SELF-CENTERED ASSHOLE! YOU AND THOSE FRIENDS OF YOURS!"
Yami was staring at the journal. Seto went on, again in that low, menacing tone. "Yugi doesn't deserve to be your hikari. He doesn't deserve you at all."
Seto turned on his heel and marched to the door. "Yugi will be staying with me for a few days. I have a very strong feeling that he doesn't want to go home. And I don't blame him one bit."
He threw the door open, adjusted the duffel bag, and marched out, slamming the door behind him. He turned his head slightly, and out of the corner of his eye, through the window, he saw Yami collapse onto the couch, staring at the little book in his hands.
Seto smirked. Then he got in his car and gave the order to go home.
Coming up next:
"No, you CAN'T speak to him! Stop, goddamnit, and let him be happy for awhile!"
"Th-thank you Seto," Yugi sniffed. "I don't know what I would have done without you."
Me: sighs It's amazing how thickheaded and self-centered people can be, isn't it? And it's also amazing how a person in pain can turn someone completely around, isn't it? Something to think about.
You know what to do. Read and review.