Angelus Fletus Est (English translation: Angel Weeping)
Me: O.O whoooa...guys...I...I don't know what to say...
Yami: ¿.? about what?
Me: my reviews...my reviewERS. You guys...there's no way that I can thank you enough. No way possible!!!! glomps reviewers THANK YOU SO, SO, SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!
Onto the reviews!
To Ms. Prongs: laughs I don't recommend reading that chapter during class. LOL it made ME want to yell 'GO SETO' but I couldn't because I was supposed to be doing homework. Hehe. I'm glad you like it!
To Kawaiigal28: me too! Yugi: laughs you already do. Me: SO?! I LOVE YOU, YUGI!!!! Yugi: --;;; me: anyways. Lol Seto, behave...and I likes long reviews!
To Anubis: That's what I thought, too. Seto isn't one who usually uses violence. grins he's intimidating enough when he's yelling. laughing Seto, she LOVES you! Give her a break!
To MoonFairy: I rather like that line too . Sure! Just put a li'l jot down that its from here, if u use it in a fic. Don't hurt yami TOO much! I'm making him okay!
To Ihire: hugs I'm so sorry!!!! I sorta know how that feels. But not like you...I WONT IGNORE YA!!! Yugi: me neither!
To Cettie-girl: smiles sadly you wanna know something? I based the first chapter on my own emotions that I felt one day...I even said some similar things. Of course it was to an empty house instead...but its amazing how a fic can relate, no? hope things look up for ya.
To Laura-grace: I almost cried...laughs no thanks, if that's all u've got then I don't want to steal it all. It's the thought that counts though, thank you!
To Pia: oh man you can relate too? hugs pia poor you!! I hope things are better! sniffs I didn't have a Seto, either...
To Starheart: O.O loooong review!!! Yayness! Hehe careful, yami and yami B! tyvm!!!
To Ariyah-chan: hey I'm making Yami pretty much okay lol. Yugi: I know, thank you!!! :beams at ariyah:
To blackunicorn: I try!!! But I'm so busy!!! My workload is so heavy! :blushes: thank you SO MUCH!!!!!
To B-M-S: really? Wow. I'm so glad that it moved you that much!!! laughs don't hurt him TOO much!
Yugi: shakes head you certainly are popular.
Me: got that right. :grins: u sure they don't just want to cry over your ultimate kawaiiness, Yugi?
Yugi: :turns bright red: uhhhhh...I don't t-t-think so...
Me: :grins: you are TOO cute. :glomps Yugi:
Anyways, a few notes before we begin.
NOTES
1) A couple people have commented on Yami's lack of emotion last chapter. Let me ask you something. Exactly how much emotion does he show when he's dueling? Picture a duel. Take out his/Yugi's thoughts. You have a couple facial expressions, a couple hints (like his eyes widening and his 'oh no's), but not much else. Understand also that he's okay with Seto, but still sees him as somewhat of a rival. I wanted to write Yami there like I see him a lot.
2) I do intend to have Yami come around, but I'd also like to know what you guys want. Do you want a long process of forgiveness, do you want Yami to come running and have Yugi forgive him, or what?
3) I was told by a few people that this fic is heading towards a (and would make a good) shonen-ai/yaoi fic. Re-reading what I've written, I can see where that would be the case. So. I'm changing my mind slightly. This is going to be slight Seto/Yugi. BUT!!!!!! Not that much! I do not write slash or yaoi. To be honest, I based Seto's reaction to Yugi on my relationship (NO, SICKOS, NOT THAT WAY!!!) with my best friend in the entire world. If either of us were crying like that then the other would rush to her side instantly. We can tell anything to each other, we're closer than sisters. So, at first I saw this as a friendly endeavor on Seto's part. But, like with a lot of my fics, that idea is changing.
Yami: Katya...You're rambling yet AGAIN.
Me: ...oops. TY, yami.
Anyways, that's all I can think of for now.
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This will have a small bit from Yami's perspective (remember this is all 3rd person hehe). grins he's readin' the journal, folks. And he was shocked in a very unpleasant manner. Just to clear that up. Some kawaii-ness. Enjoy!!!!
/Yugi to Yami/ //Yami to Yugi// \Private thoughts\ ~*Scene change*~
Seto smirked to himself as the car drove away. He'd seen Yami's mask of indifference drop to utter shock as he had dropped onto the couch as Seto left. \Good. I've finally gotten through to him. Maybe he'll come crawling...oh I'd love to see that\ he thought maliciously.
Lost in his thoughts, he almost didn't realize that the car had stopped in front of his door. Jerking himself back to reality, he nodded curtly at the driver who had opened the door for him. He stepped out and walked into his home.
Laughter met his ears. \How long has it been since I've heard that? Especially from Yugi and Mokuba.\ Seto mused. He grinned at the sight that met his eyes as he stepped into the den.
Yugi had clearly creamed Mokuba, because the latter was in the middle of chucking a pillow at his friend's head. Laughing, Yugi ducked, but the pillow still got the top of his head, sending him sprawling backwards. \Good thing I came back before the room was destroyed\ Seto thought with a wry grin.
Yugi raised his head and was met by the sight of a grinning Seto Kaiba who was standing in the doorway. \Oy...how embarrassing! I'm just glad we didn't trash the whole room!\ "Hey Seto."
Mokuba whirled, and Seto grinned. "Having fun, I see."
The billionaire's brother laughed a bit sheepishly. "What can I say? Yugi creamed me!" \Okay, maybe I went a little too hard on him...\ Yugi thought.
Seto laughed. "I'm not surprised." Yugi blushed slightly. "I have your things, Yugi."
Yugi got up. "Thanks Seto...and thanks for saving me from the Pillows of Doom. Your brother has a temper!" He grinned. "Though I admit I went a bit too hard on him..."
Mokuba laughed. "Then that means I get a rematch!"
~*~*~
Yami's eyes grew wider and filled with more tears with each heartbroken entry he read. \Oh Ra...What I've done...\ He smoothed out a particularly wrinkled and tear-stained page.
A few choice phrases and sentences from the entries he'd read stuck in his mind.
I used to be able to cry into Yami's shirt. Now I cry into my journal. Or my pillow.
Neither offers much comfort.
Everything is Yami. It's always Yami.
The better Yugi.
I'm not even a good doormat, because if someone steps on me, I'll break.
Oh god, Yami thought that Tea was funny. Not even he cares. I don't matter anymore. I never did, I see that now. I was just the kid who solved the puzzle. I was just there so that Yami could take over.
No, I don't think I'd want to die. I'd make Yami die too. Yami's happy.
Nothing...It's what I am...
...What I always will be.
Yami shut the book, clutching it to his chest, eyes shut tight as tears slowly made their way down his cheeks. "Ra...Yugi...I had no idea...Oh, Ra, what have I done?" He's even getting bullied again...and I never noticed...I never noticed...
Yami thought for a moment before coming to a decision.
~*~*~
Both Seto and Yugi laughed. "Nope, no rematch till tomorrow, Mokuba" said Yugi. "You drained my energy when you had me running and nearly getting decapitated."
Seto grinned. "He has to recover, kiddo. I'm gonna take him up to his room okay? Get one of the maids to clean up in here then finish your homework, okay?"
The said brother smiled but sighed. "'Kay, Seto." Yugi started up the stairs and Seto followed.
Yugi soon stopped. "Um...Seto...I don't remember where my room is..."
Seto laughed and led the way.
"Think you've got it now?" They were at Yugi's door.
"Uh...I think so..."
Seto laughed. "No big deal. It's easy to get lost. How bout if Mokuba or I comes here in the morning so you don't lose your way to the kitchen?"
Yugi looked slightly surprised. "O-okay. Thanks."
"No problem. I'll be the first to admit that my house is huge."
"Try gargantuan." Was the dry reply.
Seto laughed. "Okay, gargantuan."
Seto's beeper rang. Cursing, he picked it up. "Phone for you, sir." Came the voice of the butler.
"I'll be right down." He said curtly. "Phone, Yugi..." he winked, "think you'll be able to find your way around your room okay?"
Yugi smiled. "I'll make an effort."
Seto left and walked into his bedroom where the phone was, and picked it up. "Kaiba speaking."
There was a pause. "Hello, Seto." It was Yami.
Seto resisted the urge to growl curses over the phone. "What do you want, Yami?!"
"...I just want to talk to my hikari." Yami sounded almost defeated. \Must've read those entries. But oh well. Sorry, Yami. I don't think it's in Yugi's best interest right now.\
"Yes, well, your hikari is preoccupied at the moment," he growled in reply, putting a sarcastic emphasis on the word 'hikari', hoping Yami would get the drift.
Yami did. "I...I know that I haven't been remotely good to Yugi lately..."
"Just noticed, hmm?" was Seto's biting reply.
Yami's temper was obviously running out. "Just let me talk to him!"
"Not a chance."
"SETO! CAN'T I SPEAK WITH MY OWN AIBOU?!" He'd obviously annoyed the former pharaoh.
"No, you can't speak to him! Stop it, Yami, goddamnit! Let him be happy for a while!!! God knows he hasn't been lately!" Seto said angrily, his voice rising dramatically. \Can't he let Yugi live a little?\
He'd struck a chord. "Seto...all I wanted to do was apologize." \Hah. It'll take more than a mere apology, Yami.\
"Yami, you can't expect Yugi to come back to you right away! Have you learned nothing from what you read?! He's been hurt, and badly at that. You can't expect a broken heart to mend in less than a day when it's been shattered slowly over the course of two months!"
Silence on the other end. Then, very quietly, as though Yami was holding back tears, "Very well. See you and Yugi tomorrow." The dial tone sounded.
Seto walked back to Yugi's room, which was down the hall. \So I've moved the heartless pharaoh to tears. Good.\ He opened the door to see Yugi staring out his window. "Yugi?"
Yugi turned. "Oh, hey Seto." He smiled. "Must have been one heck of a call...I heard some yelling from your room. Who was the lucky receiver of the Ultimate Wrath of Seto?"
Seto had to grin. \I think I like that term...\ "Your yami."
Yugi's smile disappeared. "Oh." He turned away slightly. "What did he want?"
"To talk to you."
Yugi turned back to Seto with an utterly surprised look on his face. "Why would he want to talk to me?"
Seto wasn't quite sure how to answer. "Yami and I...exchanged words...when I went to get your things. I think I got through his thick skull. Miraculously," he added with a wry smirk.
Yugi looked down slightly. "Oh."
Seto couldn't keep it back. "Yugi..." he said abruptly. Yugi looked at him. Seto hesitated a moment before continuing. "I...I found your journal."
Yugi looked down again. It was obvious by his shaky breathing that he was trying to keep in his tears. "I...I actually...wanted...someone to...find it..." he said softly. "At least...it would have told me...that I wasn't a ghost or a memory or...a shadow."
Seto put his arm around his smaller friend. "I know. I read what you wrote." Yugi sniffed. "And..." Seto cleared his throat awkwardly. "...Um, I gave it to Yami." Yugi looked up at him, wide-eyed. "Well, actually I threw it at him. I was pretty pissed at that pharaoh."
"...D-did he...?" Yugi's voice broke.
"Read it? Yes he did. And I believe that he called because of that."
"H-he p-prob-bably w-wanted t-to y-y-yell at m-me..." Yugi started to cry. "B-bec-c-cause I'm s-s-so—"
Seto cut him off. "If he did then he's even dumber than I ever thought. But I don't believe he did. I think he wanted to apologize." Seto drew Yugi closer to him. "I told him that it was too soon for that, and besides, you've been through a lot and you need time."
"Th-thanks, S-seto" Yugi sniffed. "I d-don't want to talk t-to him...not yet..."
"And you have a good reason not to." Seto tried not to growl in anger. Obviously, the pain was still very near for Yugi.
Yugi sniffed again. "I don't know how to thank you Seto...I-I don't know what I w-would have done...if you h-hadn't c-come..."
Seto hugged Yugi. "Don't think about it. I'm just glad I was able to help."
Yugi looked up at Seto, teary eyes blinking. "S-seto? D-do you r-really...care...about me?"
Seto didn't even have to think. "Yeah, Yugi. I do." Yugi leaned his head on Seto's shoulder in silent thanks.
They stayed that way until Yugi fell asleep.
Me: Oy. I just cant resist the sweet angsty moments.
Yami: I noticed.
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