I watched as the girl I loved leaped out of my arms. I had been so
close to telling her what I felt. I knew it was wrong. I shouldn't feel
this way. Not only was it illegal, it was immoral, and not to mention
against school policy. But, there was just something about her. She was
so...so...so unlike anyone I had ever met. She was so different than Laura
was, so much more. I remembered that first day she had entered his
classroom in the ridiculous outfit. The white one with the goose feather
boa. She had looked like a total fool, but the moment she had opened her
mouth I was amazed. No way could this be a high school girl. I didn't know
any high school girl who could carry on such an intelligent conversation
about, about............cheese, let alone about Shakespeare. Who was this
girl, and what was she doing here at South Glen South.
How was I supposed to deal with this? Everyday I waited for fifth period so I could see her again. And then, the hour came and went as quickly as a blink. She was such a great writer it was amazing and I looked forward to her work more than I had looked forward to anybody's work, ever. And as I watched her transform, I was even more drawn in to her world. All of a sudden she seemed to leave Aldys behind and gravitated to Gabby, Kirsten, and Kristen, the three least likely people I figured a girl like Josie would choose to be friends with. And when she had told me so passionately about going with Guy to prom, I had sworn I had seen a flash of something else in her eyes. Something that reminded me of the way I felt about her. And that's when I had made up my mind.
I was going to tell her. I had to tell her. I had to do it at prom too. Right after she won queen. It would be perfect. The line about feeling like a fool, feeling like he was going to his own wedding. It would all fit together. It had too. I had kept his feelings under wraps for an entire year. And if I didn't tell her now, she would go off to college and forget all about me. And I COULD NOT let that happen. Not for anything in the world. And so, when I was finally dancing with her, feeling the perfect small of her back pressed in to my palm, I was ready. I prepared myself, and when I looked in to her eyes, I swore I saw what must have been a reflection of his own passion. Which is why, when she leaped out of my arms, I felt my whole world come crashing down around me.
How was I supposed to deal with this? Everyday I waited for fifth period so I could see her again. And then, the hour came and went as quickly as a blink. She was such a great writer it was amazing and I looked forward to her work more than I had looked forward to anybody's work, ever. And as I watched her transform, I was even more drawn in to her world. All of a sudden she seemed to leave Aldys behind and gravitated to Gabby, Kirsten, and Kristen, the three least likely people I figured a girl like Josie would choose to be friends with. And when she had told me so passionately about going with Guy to prom, I had sworn I had seen a flash of something else in her eyes. Something that reminded me of the way I felt about her. And that's when I had made up my mind.
I was going to tell her. I had to tell her. I had to do it at prom too. Right after she won queen. It would be perfect. The line about feeling like a fool, feeling like he was going to his own wedding. It would all fit together. It had too. I had kept his feelings under wraps for an entire year. And if I didn't tell her now, she would go off to college and forget all about me. And I COULD NOT let that happen. Not for anything in the world. And so, when I was finally dancing with her, feeling the perfect small of her back pressed in to my palm, I was ready. I prepared myself, and when I looked in to her eyes, I swore I saw what must have been a reflection of his own passion. Which is why, when she leaped out of my arms, I felt my whole world come crashing down around me.